#and if i am paid $75k a year to do that task. i will put up with a lot of nonsense lmfao

[moregraceful]

Applying to SaaS jobs in order to create the world's most unhireable resume. (rn it's: library. nonprofit (religious). nonprofit (human trafficking). nonprofit (religious again). and next...??) i hope when i have to submit a cv for grad school at some point, the admissions counselor has to call me and ask for clarification.

[changedlives]

Don’t be prideful

Shalom Bishop & Harvest, The directive given was to submit a praise report tonight post command your week prayer and that is what I am doing. Prayer hit me hard as I had not share the totality of my praise report because of the backlash. There is no reason for me NOT to share how good God has been to me! These past two to three years were my absolute rock bottom, now that I can look back completely over it. I had so much pride that God allowed me to fall and have a forced investment. I lost my home to a HOA foreclosure, losing almost $300,000 in equity, over being too prideful to ask for help over $7,000. I just knew the HOA couldn’t do anything to me. The worst part is that I had the money to pay it off initially and used it for other things as if to say try me! God showed me how wrong I was! In all of that I was dealing with a manager that was writing me up for any and everything for a year, to the point where I almost lost my job. A good paying job at that! Next level of pain comes in when I still thought I was grown and thought I could fix somebody else’s problems, allowing this person to live with me, not pay a single bill, only to have to deal with a domestic violence incident that led to a concussion/busted lip, multiple bruises and my children seeing it all. You would think I would have had enough. Then instead of turn to God I turned to food & spending habits that landed me in debt of $75k and 80lbs heavier and in a world of depression, but all hidden a smile. No one really knowing all the details, crying, wanting to die, not having any desire to praise or worship, putting on a show, “faking it until I thought I could make it”. This all came down in ONE YEAR from 2018 to 2019. While going through all those storms I had my relatives telling me to file for bankruptcy, just settle for less, giving horrible advice. Just in my ear with ungodly noise. It seemed all so overwhelming. I couldn’t concentrate. I was missing getting simple tasks done. I was failing at the simple things. God always kept people praying for me! Always had my Harvest family in my corner. Always gave Bishop Foreman the Words that would speak directly to my situation and since the start of 2019 my life has been chador the better. My old boss was fired in a mass management company sweep, that person that was living with me was removed over night and has not been back in a year with no communication (PRAISE GOD), I am losing weight (35 lbs down), I have a renewed fire for praise and worship, I am no longer suicidal. My mortgage that wasn’t paid off during the foreclosure is now paid in full and now allows me the ability to buy a home again. Yes you read it right it was a foreclosure but the mortgage didn’t get paid off for two years and was still in my name that was preventing me from doing anything now is gone! The $75K in debt I emotionally spent is decreasing and I owe it ALL TO GOD!! This is what people mean when they say, “when I look back over my life and I think things over!” I can truly say that I am blessed! I have a testimony!! Through all of this I never stopped giving. I never stopped coming to church. Even though I wanted to at times. God, Bishop, Harvest I thank you for being my rock! God had to learn me! I let pride get in the way and it almost destroyed everything, BUT GOD! #LessonLearned #FaithfulGiver #Harvester #NoMorePride