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#and keeping a credit load far higher than I could ever do (nevermind my physical disability)
void-tiger
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What do I want? I want to be seen as a peer.
#tiger’s roar
#mental health bullshit
#…and I feel further away than ever with my damn disability that I got told was psychosomatic without directly saying those words
#because unstable tendons that pop grind sproing every time I really do anything
#can’t Possibly be painful
#or WHY my muscletone and stamina is shit
#oh noooo it MUST be all in my head nevermind I CAN’T TAKE SEROTONIN. every drug with it makes me suicidal or worse
#…anyway. I will be stranded as soon as I move out to attend university
#which is only possible with taking out yet more student debt
#and keeping a credit load far higher than I could ever do (nevermind my physical disability)
#to keep my scholarship. and then Hope I still get a Pell + misc school scholarships
#but there’s No Way around I Won’t be able to cope with a job with 15 credits mentally even if I could physically
#…yEAH I’m Terrified. and I’m sick to death of people telling me to NOT take out loans
#when this is The Only Way to pay rent and tuition to Even Attend At All
#…and ALL Of This ontop of… you want to spend time with me? NOW that you’re at the end of your master’s and I’ll be getting things in order?
#Do You See Me As A Creative Peer Or Someone Who Could Be One
#or am I just a Pretty Gurl Who’s A Poor Lost Waif Who Sings Pretty
#…you never did tell me what you thought of my script’s draft
#and have been suspiciously Silent about your own art
#do you REALIZE that to do ANYTHING together…you’re gonna have to drive. and I don’t want to do anything that costs money
#because 1) it feels unbalanced (regardless if it’s a date or simply hanging out. but your body language screams Date?? not Hangout)
#and 2) …I’ll be needing to keep a fisthold control of my finances as it’s gonna be stuck as reimbursements + debt
#I…cannot see how I can mentally or physically take on a job. nevermind nobody’s wanted me to work for them for anything not janitorial
#…so…yeah. how the hell can I even feel like anyone’s peer
#when I’ll be at least a decade older. mentally ill. disabled. and can’t work because of it
#how am I supposed to feel like anything but a porceline doll with rotting rubber joint connections + glockinspeal
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