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hopevalley · 3 years

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Season 8, Episode 10: Old Love, New Love, Is This True Love

All right, so...like I said, work has picked up and my eyes feel like old marbles from staring at numbers (the woes of working in accounting I guess) so I want to get this written up and tossed into the nether before I lose steam and motivation to do it. The interesting thing about these little write-ups is that as the week goes on they just get harder and harder to write...

I do apologize in advance to those who like the long-winded write-ups. I’m just not up to it at the moment. Still feeling kind of bleh from the episode.

Let’s go back to an old format, shall we?

The Good

We might as well start out with the things about this episode that I enjoyed!

Gossip Hour with the Men was one of the best openers they’ve had on the show in a while. It was genuinely funny without being meanspirited. Nobody looked like the bad guy. Everyone just calmly talked about it alike it was a normal thing to maybe call off the wedding. Bill calling out Carson for giving marriage advice was pretty funny, Mike was a delight. I don’t know what to say. I’d watch a whole episode of The Boys just hanging around spending time together.

Florence’s worry that she’s ugly was...not a terrible idea for a storyline, but the actress is too good-looking to pretend to be ugly (I saw her in this pretty yellow dress on Instagram a couple years ago and she was smashing)? Also, it’s not like Ned is a handsomely aged gentleman (like Henry lol) so it makes even less sense for the characters. I think they should have gone with Florence feeling she’s “plain” and that dressing up Super Nice makes her feel uncomfortable because she just doesn’t feel like Herself and worries maybe it’s projecting a false sense of Who She Is or something? I guess overall I still liked that an attempt was made to add some depth to Florence and her difficulties in choosing a dress/hairstyle, so...it goes here.

Ned asking Henry to be his best man was nice, too. I can forgive the shoddy pacing and weird placement of this request (like I do with almost everything in the show) but only because the scene was just...so incredibly wholesome.

I like how Henry just casually is like, “Well maybe today’s just not the day.” I think it eased Ned’s mind just a little that he CAN back out if he really wants to.

I think it’s worth thinking about the fact that Ned and Henry would have always worked very closely, since the mercantile would have been a company store before the mine closed down... I like Henry and Ned as pals.

I’m glad the “investment” thing with Jesse and Clara’s savings was brought up in a way that...makes sense. And also, glad it wasn’t forgotten.

I really liked Molly and Florence in this episode. I’m a little sad Florence married Ned because I AM SORRY BUT I WANTED TO KEEP SHIPPING MOLLY AND FLORENCE TOGETHER UGHGHGHH

But their relationship is so good and maYBE Elizabeth will learn something from them.

Hey Elizabeth...you see that?

YOU SEE THAT?

Just saying.

And then later...

“You are the sister I never had, the mother I forever wanted, the friend I have always needed. From the depths of those dark and terrifying coal mines you’ve walked beside me, picking me up whenever I’ve stumbled along the way.”

AAAAAAAAA IT GOT ME.

I’m...really liking Fiona and Mike’s relationship, whatever it is. I kind of think they’re not headed toward anything romantic. Everyone thinks Mike is really into Fiona but at the end of the episode we realize he likes talking to her about business; it’s almost like they have this shared passion for numbers/ideas and he likes infodumping to her (and vice-versa).

I think they’re going to end up being “just friends” and Fiona will end up paired off with the man Elizabeth doesn’t choose. They hinted at Nathan briefly in this episode (with Allie’s hair), but who knows? I’m over trying to speculate on where the triangle is going at this point, but I actually like Fiona’s relationship with Mike so much that I’ll be disappointed if she fades into the background with Nathan or Lucas. Mike deserves more screentime.

Ned and Florence sharing their fIRST KISS. My husband got emotional over this. And I admit, it was starting to get to me, too. I can’t NOT root for them.

I said it before and I’ll say it again: I WOULD DIE FOR THE CANFIELDS.

The wedding was nice. I liked that Bill and Joseph officiated it together; it gives Joseph a li’l trial run of pastoring and finally Bill gets to use some of that power of his to officiate a wedding.

“Please, if you’d like” is such a Bill way to say that they may kiss LOL.

Also, I have to admit that I did enjoy Lucas calling Nathan out about Allie. She wouldn’t be caught in the middle if he’d leave Elizabeth alone AND HE IS RIGHT LMAO.

The last good thing: Elizabeth telling Nathan she doesn’t blame him for Jack’s death. Nice. Good. Thank you. He probably needed to hear that.

...THE BAD

Carson and Faith. UGH. UGHHHHHHHHHH. BREAK UP ALREADY I HATE YOU BOTH.

I appreciated that Carson had the ring ages ago, and I did like his conversation with Minnie—or more accurately, her advice to him. I felt like she was nudging him toward, “Remember why you became a surgeon in the first place.” If he became a surgeon to help people, then there’s no reason he can’t help people where he is. Sure, he might not be doing state of the art procedures but with Faith working alongside him, he can afford time to learn new things and go to doctor conventions or even take a specialized class now and then. No other doctor could get away for very long but he has that chance!

And he’ll arguably be doing more good in the middle of nowhere than in the city. All the doctors want to live in the city. Nobody wants to barely get paid for their time in the countryside.

We had a whole episode that made it clear that Faith and Carson don’t make a lot of money and do a lot of charity work. They also work for trade goods (mostly food). So it’s like...a pretty big difference in lifestyle?

Half the reason I can’t get invested in these characters is because I really can’t stand Paul Greene. He just...annoys me on every single level imaginable. But he’s a decent actor and I can’t help but feel that his character was a massive waste of space for the past few seasons through no fault of the man himself. Imagine introducing a character like Carson and then leaving him to rot before you try to make him interesting with a romance plot that nobody asked for.

Yes, some people really like Faith and Carson, but as a whole I think the fandom didn’t buy into them as a ship due to the lack of chemistry.

It really is a shame. This episode didn’t do a thing to endear me to either character. Please, Carson. I am begging you to leave town.

This one particular line of dialogue almost enraged me.

WE KNOW WE KNOW WE KNOW WE KNOW WE CAN SEE THAT FOR OURSELVES. WHY DID THEY HAVE ROSEMARY SAY THIS LIKE IT’S AN EPISODE OF A CHILD’S TV SHOW?

Elizabeth.........

How could Katie have...looked up to her? She was never in her class? That was? Never part of anything? It was just something they threw in here to force Elizabeth to make 1% more sense in the role she’s in but IT STILL DOESN’T WORK.

I felt like I was back in Season 5 again with Lori and Elizabeth putting their nose in everyone’s business except it’s just Elizabeth!! The whole plot, which was boring and contrived anyway, should have gone to Molly, since she’s Florence’s best friend and another woman from town that Katie would have known as a child.

AND ALSO, MOLLY WOULD HAVE KNOWN KATIE’S MOTHER AND WOULD REMEMBER THE GRIEF THAT NED STRUGGLED WITH.

I know they wanted to make Elizabeth give advice so that she’d Realize that she needs to, I don’t know, make better choices or something, but it was too on the nose for me and I hated it.

GinithePooh on Reddit made a good comparison to Elizabeth in this episode by saying she reminded them of Clippy from Microsoft Word, always popping up and offering to help when nobody really needs or wants advice.

To honor their incredible idea, I opened Photoshop and created this gem, which I will also be posting separately so that people can reblog it if they wish to.

I also don’t think I need to say also filed under The Bad is the fact that Elizabeth didn’t even apologize for being awful to Rosemary and then gave her unsolicited advice to other people for two days straight. I can’t believe they wrote that?

All I can say is that her apology to Rosemary, when it comes, better be good.

And I didn’t like this either:

I wish it had been followed up by literally anything: Nathan saying he’s sorry he didn’t tell her sooner or something to make the hand-holding actually be a little more innocent.

As it is, it just seems so deliberate?

Maybe the next episode starts off right in this scene and we’ll get that? If so, this might actually end up being fine. I just don’t think it is if it doesn’t get a little more direct attention.

& THE UGLY

I debated on putting anything in here, because I’m not ready to talk about my feelings on this matter, at least not fully. But I’ve been pretty quiet all season so far, and...eh, why not just mention things in advance? What will it hurt?

Let me preface this section by saying I’m biased and I doubt hardly anyone on this site will agree with me, so feel free to just ignore this part if that’s the case.

There are two things that I really didn’t like in this episode.

I hate the slanting toward Bill/Molly.

I like Molly just fine but I don’t like her with Bill. I’m biased as all getout and also worried about the future/potential Season 9 with regards to this. I don’t want to see it. Like at all. Why, you ask? You should know why if you follow me. I’m super transparent.

It’s because I like AJ AND I WANT HER BACK LOL.

John Tinker rewatched the series so we know he wouldn’t have missed that hanging plot thread—especially since he didn’t forget any of the other things that were brought up this season! So why didn’t she appear this season? The love triangle absolutely needed to be a focus or it would have never ended, so that’s part of it, but I’m also pretty sure Josie Bissett wasn’t interested in doing any filming last year during Covid. My only “proof” is that Wedding March 6 wasn’t filmed last year even though it was scheduled to be filmed, but it makes sense. Last year was chaos.

THAT SAID, Jack Wagner posted on his Instagram the other day that they are actually filming Wedding March 6 now, so... I guess AJ’s re-appearance in Season 9 wouldn’t come as too much of a surprise if they wanted to write it.

You’d think I’d be hyped about that, and I kind of am? But it doesn’t come without its share of worries, too. We just had the worst love triangle in the history of love triangles and I really don’t want another one, especially if it makes any of the characters in question look stupid or mean.

I fully admit a well-written love triangle could be a LOT of fun for them* (low stakes because they’re not front and center characters), but I saw how Nathan was written so far this season and I really, REALLY do not want to see that happen to Molly, Bill, or AJ.

Anyway, not a fan of the Molly/Bill stuff. No chemistry. I don’t want it.

*I would totally write a fanfic like this lmao.

And finally...the part that everyone will hate me for:

I DO NOT WANT TO SEE ABIGAIL COME BACK. And I specifically do not want her to come back ‘cause I do not wanna see Henry/Abigail happen.

I fully recognize that a lot of you like it and ship the heck out of it, and that’s...good. I’m glad you enjoy it. I loathe it, though, and I worry that all these hints (more like...mentions) are leaning toward...something. Like, either they’re:

1) Sending Abigail off/tying up that loose end with Henry (since nothing was ever clarified either way), or

2) Warming up the audience to receive Abigail back on the show.

I’m pretty into the idea of one-sided Henry/Abigail. Hindsight is 20/20, regrets, that’s all some juicy stuff to give a character like Henry. Some things can’t ever be made right again. He had too direct of a connection to the death of her husband and son for me to ever want to see them together. Forgiveness? Yes. A careful but meaningful friendship? Yes. Romantic relationship? Uh...no thanks.

I liked the Abigail mentions at first because I felt like...the character still mattered (as she should) but I’m at a point where I feel like they’re trying really hard to steer the fandom’s view a certain way and not knowing where it’s going is extremely unsettling to me.

I’ll probably talk more about the things that bother me when the season ends, because I’m hoping to have a better idea of where things are going to be headed, but for now just...know that I feel very apprehensive.

And keep in mind that I primarily watch this show for Bill these days, since all my previous faves (AJ, Frank, the old Abigail, Dottie) have exited, stage left. I also always really liked seeing Henry. So as you can imagine, seeing plotlines I hate for the only two characters I’m invested in? Is making me consider dropping the series next year.

My husband told me I should hate-watch it, but I don’t know if my heart can take it. I’ve been following this series for so long...it just...kind of hurts to feel let down like this?

But sometimes an ongoing series ends up going where you...didn’t want it to, and it becomes something that’s no longer right for you. I hope that doesn’t happen, but last night’s episode makes me feel like...it might be happening for real this time.

I guess if that holds true it’ll be back to fanfiction for me. Will that novelization I planned ages ago end up getting written? Will I write the best love triangle fanfic known to man? WHO KNOWS.

For now, we’ll all have to wait and see! Two more episodes left. I’m really curious to see how they resolve some of the open plots right now. :>

#when calls the heart #long post #character studies and information #analysis and meta discussion

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tamiddyinyourcity · 4 years

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6:07pm.

Every time I consider getting my mom a gift for Mother's Day, a voice in the back of my head has to remind me of something.

"Maybe she wants a card and some of the mason jars I bought?", followed up with "Remember that time you dislocated your shoulder on the stairs at school and she still yelled at you and forced you to clean the dishes?"

Sure my shoulder magically did pop SOMEWHAT back into place as I did it, but BITCH??????? WHY-- AAAAAAAAA.

But, she got me "chicken fried chicken", (deep fried chicken steak) and a lot of hot food today, so, I'm in a better mood.

I figure I'll give her some bath bombs I don't use, and put them in a nice mason jar or something for her. She's a cross between someone that pampers herself well, but, not exactly enough.

Poverty sucks. I know my mom is a not so good person, (i am avoiding speaking ill since I was given free food and do not wish to tarnish my good mood with memories of her beating me in the shower over and over--oh too late, lmfao,) but still, I imagine she'd be pretty stress free if she could afford and have access to therapy, healthy foods, and the things she wants.

Its a shame, really.

Not much to do about that, other than to be a successful kid and I guess if I can somehow make enough money, then I'd help her out. Still would estrange from the family, but, some cash could still at least help her with her life.

Anyway.

But for now, she gets a mason jar and bath bombs or something, since it's still some time till then.

Anyway, thoughts:

I found the video that made me tired of waiting for my ex. The awkward point between that really good call we had, and ur, certain things my mind doesn't want to recall.

It's a good video. Anyone under 20 should watch it. Save your youth for yourself.

And the other night, I was just vibing on my phone, trying to look for some ancient photo..... Aaaaand guess who awkwardly stumbles upon the weird burst shot photo collection of eating breakfast with their ex boyfriend? Me.

Not much a girl to do except think "God, not this stupid asshole", with a sprinkle of "I'd probably kiss him though, if he asked politely if the situation was completely different " for good measure due to the state of horniness during quarantine or whatever.

I don't like his actions, above anything. Wishy washy men, and liars, are the most unattractive men to be. It proves a lack of spine. Plus the ones that cant keep promises, show basic respect, or acknowledge their actions and show reasonable change. For people in general.

I imagine a lot of my relationships and friendships would be healthier, if my overly welcoming ass did not accept 1) malicious people, and 2) cowards with no spine who cannot bother processing their emotions by themselves. As nice as it is to accept others, its painful to keep their asses around without being hurt by their lack of accountability and often thoughtless actions.

Shoutout to College Audrey, who I met on Instagram, (I also appreciate the fact that people are still stunned that I make friends from any social media out there, if the opportunity can exist, lmfao,) who was a bullheaded bitch. You can't be mad at me for writing this, if you describe yourself as it. (She's never gonna even read this, at all.)

She was such a b-word. I really hate disliking other women, but her temper was extreeeeemely aggressive. At any little thing. One second, she could adore you, then the next second she could glare at you in the same way teachers glared at the boys in school for saying women should not have positions of power. (Except unlike the teachers, Audrey never had a reason to glare, she just is an emotional rollercoaster of a fucking person. Not in a good way, either.)

Like how she invited me to go thrift shopping with her, just to literally once we got in the store, treat me like ABSOLUTE shit and call between 4 to 7 other people, to make conversation..... instead of..... with me?????

Then I asked a woman sitting near a line if she was in it, and Audrey snapped at me so condescendingly and harsh, thaaaaat when we got in her car, and she tried to cover up her hostility by blasting music and shaking her hair to the beat, I was pretty unresponsive.

Then cried.

She felt bad. Got scared of me ghosting her ass. Long story short, she got pressed over me not texting her as soon as possible later that night after several outbursts with her..... God, she's so dumb.

I guess the good thing about ending friendships with bad people, is you don't feel bad. Its like a weight lifting off of you, and you forget them entirely.

I forgot about Mari instantly when I cut her out my life. She was also the "doesn't genuinely like me, but sees me as 1% better than being alone and doesnt actually care about my future whatsoever" type friend.

And frankly, why have a friend that makes me feel dragged down, instead of enlightened? Truly.

6:44pm.

I do and don't miss my ex, the brown haired one.

Moreso just really ashamed of his actions. I'm sure they're gonna bite him in the ass eventually, if he never manages them.

I hope he still has therapy, at least.

....

I really loathe liking a person at all.

Since in any given circumstance, its not appreciated or ever taken seriously.

Romance is stupid, if its constantly "dont show a person that you like them, just demand things from them and make them cherish you even giving them the time of the day."

Since what if I want to be cherished for when I actually do try? Like, why's the interest gotta vanish when its "oh, the pretty girl finally likes me back..... i now no longer need to do much to make her smile, cool; lets get disrespectful!"

But let them vanish, if it's really like that for them. They're not the types meant for actual connection if reciprocation makes them lose all interest entirely....

.......

Even the one ex I was almost on good terms with did that.

Fucking Blonde Thot Patrick.

Whoohoo, nigga changed up. Went from "I haven't been able to have sex whatsoever or feel loved since I had left you, I genuinely was afraid you'd forget about me, am I better than any other guy you've been with? Am I doing things alright?", with me, to what he did.

I.... just....

A very attractive and slightly himboish man developing strong feelings for me to the extent of crying at the idea of not seeing me? Bless them.

Them then trying to put on a facade to distance themselves from me, try to forget my existence entirely, just to ache at me doing the same shit and moving on?

The difference between me and him? I was honest the whole time. He knew Patrick #2 existed, even before we got official. I made my feelings clear, and said communication and talking things out was the way to do things.

He never let me talk.

...........

Then BOOM, got a new boyfriend.

Maybe don't act single, then be surprised that your single ex girlfriend moved on. There wasn't a fucking difference at all, not remotely. I don't care if he didn't have feelings for those women, since he still lacked the cahones to be a REAL motherfucker, and go "I'm kind of surprised and hurt by things, I pictured a relationship with you and wasnt attached to the people i had been seeing, can we talk about where it all goes from here?"

And he didn't. Ever. That's why he got fucking left twice in a row, that prick.

Jesus.... Dude.

Glad that me and Patrick #2 had a good one before the major shitshow in December.

Would've been nice if he and that other bitch hadn't been a shitshow as well. But hey, I'll just be glad I left the circus before the clown makeup fully dried, you know?

Also, for good measure: Azalea, you're still a shitty person, and you still could've spent more time throwing shade onto your 2D looking artwork than throwing shade at me. You'd be in a museum by now, if the massive amounts of shadiness and red you saw towards me.... went on a CANVAS, you feel me?

(Also, I manifest healthy friendships with women similar to me, and more loving and open minded people entering my life soon.)

Hmmm....

Got to talk to my old buddy Jedi today. He's still dope as hell. Congratulated me on the freedom and release from the hell of my grandmother, AND the ability to touch walls or surfaces with feeling her feces on them. Haaaaallelujah!

And we're talking about some film concepts I had. He seems to dig the ideas! Good guy. I appreciate his company, we stan dude friends who keep things platonic. (The type to call me "bro" and not say weird shit, and who's girlfriends I'm also friends with.... GEE, WOULDN'T THAT HAVE BEEN NICE WITH A CERTAIN SOMEONE, I WONDERRRRRRRRRR.)

Having a pleasant day so far. Finally found all the parts to a mic stand I own!!!! Prepare for a green screen and great concepts, hoes.

Love yall. Be safe.

7:08pm. Gonna put my focus on something positive for now. God bless and amen. Peace yalls.

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