moc ch. 49: a collection of random notes
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hi caly! <3 this is anon š§ø speaking.
today iām trying something new. im reading the new chapter and annotating every thought i have while doing it so that nothing that i want to say has the CHANCE to be forgotten. this will be LONNNNG. im sorry but itās what you deserve (in a positive way ofc). so if like thereās a plot twist or something thatāll shake me to my core further down the chapter, im not there yet. thatās why i sound calm. iāve not started reading yet, thatās the actually the reason im calm at all! now letās start <3 youāre in for a ride my beloved im sorry in advance.
also i was obviously inspired to do this by @markneeās post but my thoughts arenāt nearly as articulate and detailed as theirs. this is real this is me š§āāļø my rambling wouldnāt fit in one or two or even three asks
the first scene with mingi was funny. itās a first to see him relaxed like this. he cracked a joke AND smiled??? groundbreaking. i love his dynamic with mc and w everyone in the crew tbh. i feel like he has so much to show us yet!!
nightingale. oof, the part where he asks if mc was in bed with san when he told her about him was a low blow. and nightingale implying that san could be lyingā¦. i know you said heās being more sincere than we think but i canāt help being suspicious of him :-( i love my baby but he IS SUS. also i picture nightingale looking something like a cyborg with the glowing eye is that weird? i dig his look š also we all know that san did some really bad stuff in the past and heās dangerous dangerous but id really love to see him lose it. just truly be the scourgeās dog. but preferably away from any of the crew members please.
āWhat if he asks San to kill next time? Then what?ā uh this seems like itās foreshadowing something. i wasnāt that serious CALY IM SCARED
āI did too, at one point. Until San asked to take me to the brig one day. Even when I was fully in the mouth of a monster, I did not feel it. Not until he clamped his jaw down around me.ā yeah san scares me im scared of what heās capable of im shaking in my boots rn but at the same time itās kinda attractive ngl i just donāt want him to hurt anyone we love!!!! š
āYou wish to know the ins and outs of how things turned out the way they did if only to know how to avoid the same fate for yourself later down the line.ā she is smart yeah thatās what im talking about!!! sick curiosity + being kinda scared + the need/want to feel safe is something iāll never get tired of. i think itās human nature to be attracted to extreme experiences and concepts that like push the limits of everything youāve ever known while also knowing that youāll never be the same if you really go after those things. thatās part of being alive ;-)
ā[ā¦] I climbed over her dead body and I reached into that manās chest to break it open and squeeze the life of his heart.ā is this the same thing she did to the security guard or like she literally opened his chest up? šļø
fuck san and mc have a lot in common donāt they. theyāre both so powerful and dangerous but at the same time they seem so afraid of what theyāre capable ofā¦ i mean i donāt know if san truly is, but some part of me feels like heās scared he can lose control and hurt someone he lovesā¦ on the other hand, i donāt know if mc knows the true extent of her powers and that >is< scary.
i LOVE jongho and mcās relationship. theyāre one of my favorites my babies i love them!!! not luca giving them 1 (one) chocolate whdnshxhqvdba cute!!! / āYes, Iāll see you later, woman! We fuckinā live together, itās not like youāre going off to war,ā i love them i do!!!!
āNo, but Vida in general is nothing pleasant.ā this is funny because vida in portuguese means life. yeah jongho life is nothing pleasant sometimes youāre rightā¦. also why did you choose this name, caly? im so interested in moc lore š„ø
not san being a fucking menace and scaring jongho??? i can see him standing in the dark staring at poor jongho hiding in his little corner like š§āāļø also im so intrigued by san and hongjoongās relationship. he has the same authority as seonghwa, huh? interesting. kinda terrifying. is san scared of hongjoong? š¤
hongjoong is so petty oh my godddddhhgg i know heās like that in real life too. changing the course of the ship to somewhere else bc jongho wanted to get off at the next stop? petty bitch
āYouāre making a home in a house that does not belong to you, though that is not entirely your fault. San has let you in. Now Nightingale has pulled up a chair for you at the table. I suppose all thatās left is for either Hongjoong or myself to open all the closet doors so that the skeletons can fall out.ā itās not like i havenāt told you this before, but im in LOVE with your writing caly. i donāt have enough vocabulary for this but i could read whatever you write forever. this snippet in particular is so cool, the house metaphorā¦ I love it!
āDid you only fuck me because it reminded you of Hongjoong?ā oh fuck here we go im grabbing my popcorn. oh my god mc is going for hwaās throat but sheās SO RIGHT slay queen / āYou were never after anything more than sex but you hoped it would change things?ā oop š«£ he caught her there iāll say that
jfc how did they start ripping each other apart so quickly the tension snapped in like a second??? also hwa pointing that mc hates hongjoong so much that she considers anyone that cares about him idiotsā¦ i mean. i sincerely cannot believe that anyone likes him for the person he is. the captain is not a good person. yes i love him, i do, but heās goddamn awful. my point being that those who care about him only do because, like hwa said, he gave the crew a safe space AND he manipulated those around him because he has that power. they care about joong because they have to, itās a safety measureā¦ / āWhen your hatred turns to infatuation, Iāll be sure to tell you all the ways in which Hongjoong has orchestrated the destruction of your psyche since your arrival here.ā I AM ABSOLUTELY SCREAMING / mc is so mad that hwa is implying that she wants hongjoong i canāt wait to see where this takes us iād pay to see them together djahsnshqvvsbabsjab?-!:!/$/!
āTake a long hard look at yourself, Y/n. A woman who was just on her knees before me. Pliant, obedient, with no control to call her own. Isnāt that where you belong, Y/n? My pretty weapon, my pretty Siren, my pretty treasure.ā wow this whole scene w hongjoong. i held my breath the entire time jesus christ it was so INTENSE i donāt even know what to say, my thoughts are still processing. hongjoong is truly worthy of the scourge title, i could feel his madness and the humiliation mc was feeling through the screenā¦
hoooo okay. why do i feel like san is trying to manipulate mc with sex? with the lovely words and touches just like nightingale said? it doesnāt sit well with me the way he started to eat her out while she was crying, it truly doesnātā¦. and not her seeing hongjoong while sheās with san??? this is so twisted oh my god
SAN CALLING HER MY TREASURE WAS SO FUCKING INTENTIONAL AND THE WAY HE KNEW HONGJOONG WAS GOING TO MAKE HER HIS LEFT HAND FOR THE MISSION CALY HE KNOWS EVERYTHING HE DOES!!!!! fuck i donāt trust san AT ALL he probably knows about what hongjoong did to mc and heās trying to excuse everything his beloved captain does!!! fucking scourge!!!!
ugh caly this was a ride i feel like crying bc i missed moc so much! itās always such a pleasure to wait and read what that beautiful brain of yours comes up with!!! itās always worth it. thank you so much for sharing this absolute gem of a story with us. š canāt wait for the interim!
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