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ivan-fyodorovich-k · 2 years

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I feel like it would be nice to acquire a cool military antique while I’m here, like a cool compass or pair of binoculars, but also I feel like a fucking moron for collecting army stuff and the feeling becomes more intense with every passing year

#the further that even the fantasy of military service #let alone the possibility #recedes in the rearview mirror of my life #the more I feel like a moron for nursing any interest in it at all #I suppose I should have lied on the recruiting form #to be honest though even if I'd done it the only way to get any respect in that world is to be like a special forces operator #the circles within circles of that life are staggering to me #the rigid hierarchies among the various services #and then the various branches #and divisions #and so on #like you can't just be an operator who operates operationally because if you're a Navy SEAL people give you shit constantly?#Ivan maybe people giving you shit is just an essential part of life and nobody escapes it #you yourself are in a world of byzantine and rigid hierarchies #albeit one without any gunfights #and that is the object of withering contempt among the tribe in which you grew up #unlike the military which is the only unambiguous road to status for a male #other than being a billionaire I guess #if you're a right wing man you better find yourself a uniform or get rich

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