#and the reasliation hit me in the face like a sledgehammer

[monstersandmaw]

Who else might young Ghostie been crushing on? (if this isn't weird for you to answer)

Oh gosh! haha. Michelle Rodriguez in Girl Fight and Blue Crush did things to me that I absolutely didn't recognise back when I was in school. Missy Peregrym in 'Stick It' also gave me another awakening. And Eliza Dushku as Faith in Buffy. Also Willow. Although not exclusive, I may have a type, can you tell?

From a literary point of view, I always found Eowyn in LOTR (less so in the films, but I still love her character) 'attractive'. I want her 'awakening' when she falls in love with Faramir quote tattooed on me because it's how I feel about Mr. Ghosti: "And then her heart changed, or at least she understood it; and the winter passed, and the sun shone upon her..." I thought I was aromantic and asexual before him. Turns out you can swap and change labels to suit you as you change and go through life :). Who knew? :)

Despite the fact that my mum's life-long best friend is a lesbian (which I've always known) and has been with her partner for decades, I didn't really realise that lesbians (or in my case 'panromantic' folk) were a thing?????? I don't know how I missed that, but I did, so it never occurred to me that what I was feeling as a teenager was a genuine crush/attraction, rather than, like... admiration?? envy?? I don't know.

It was only when I got to about 16 or so that I realised I wasn't straight, and only at university did I really come to accept it. *shrug*