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annarubys · 2 years

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the kinsey scale is like a brother to me because we are allllll over the place like i’m bi but the single shred of evidence is a crush i had in MIDDLE SCHOOL and who knows if that’s even reliable because it was a decade ago. but also i don’t think it was comphet because i was obsessed with this kid to an embarrassing degree. but you would think there would have been maybe one other person post puberty. so then i was like okay i can be a lesbian i guess since at 13 i probably wasn’t a reliable narrator but then the boys aired and. well. there were five minutes where i did think jackles was maybe hot (an experience which i hated). anyway i am thinking about all of this because i am watching something with sebastian stan who i did routinely used to say was hot but he is really giving me nothing right now so maybe i was being a liar. the thing is i can’t remember

#worst thing i ever did was start treating my tumblr account as a diary #and the worst thing staff ever did was letting me turn off reblogs to enable me further <3 #i just!!!! would really like to know if i am actually attracted to men lol #like for all intents and purposes it does not matter but it just feels like one of those things you should Know #with women i do have a more recent concrete example i can point to that was like okay Yeah. that was definitely Real #but with men that is just not the case 😔 but part of me is like oh well i just don’t know that many!!#which is true but idk how much weight that holds as an explanation #if anyone actually read all this ily <3 #a.txt #okay sure i’ll publish some of the deeply personal drafts too why not!!

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