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peacereturnedtothevalley · 1 year

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really want to talk to someone but like . How do I talk about this

going to ramble in the tags but don’t read if you’re having a good day (I am not actively suffering in a material way that will require peoples concern and and active help) (I repeat keep scrolling if you’re just chillin)

#death (concept) mention #I guess some irl too #I’ve been having some levels of generalized despair and fear of death am #seeing barbie didn’t trigger anything in me I don’t think #but my friends takeaway from it being so different from me made me feel an isolation from the world at large #anyways my grandpa half a world away and my last grandparent #he’s aging so ofc we’d be worried but I’m becoming hyper aware of it bc of a recent call #I’m getting older and see my parents getting older #and I want things to never change #and it was all like humming below the radar of my brain #louder than usual but I kept going forward you know #and then Japanese show I’m watching w family suddenly had the main characters now college aged son get diagnosed with leukemia #these shows are like 150 episodes long and you see the mc from like 10 to 50+#so you watch her give birth and raise this child who becomes an artist like his mom #and then you diagnose him with cancer?#anyways that was my last straw #someone in our community’s mother passed recently too in ch*na and the hard lockdown they had severely affected her health #and it’s like #death is all around me #I feel like I’m suffocating #it sucks because there nothing I can do about it #I can’t solve the inevitability of death #you know that mbmbam bit where griffin is screaming “it’s all going to stop one day” to make fun of Justin #and Justin is like I legitimately break down like that #I’m feeling it #is it the world is it me slowly crawling to age 30 who can say #anyways if you’re reading this sorry. you should not have

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