#and to have that actually be discussed WELL??? i'd be very impressed. i dont think itll happen tho

[ladysomething]

Hi! First time anon here again to share my thoughts.

I have to do it before the new chapter because I imagine your inbox will fill up pretty quick tomorrow (absolutely can't wait for tomorrow btw).

So, what I cant stop thinking about in regards to wygig is how much it reminds me of pride and prejudice. Well, mostly the dynamics between Max and Charles are to me very similar to Darcy and Elizabeth (in a non sexual way). Max is obviously Darcy while Charles is Lizzy. Max is a proud but emotionally troubled man who actually has a lot of trauma in his past who has overcome all of it to become the man that he is when we begin our story. He is doing everything in his power to protect Charles from the evil ( the evil is the same evil who has hit him - Wickham hurting Darcys sister and trying to do the same to Elizabeth vs An Alpha hurting Max's mom and Charles being in danger from Alphas). He is protecting the person he loves (whether he knows he is in love is unclear but I have a feeling he does from some of the things he said during his first POV) but this person considers him to be the villain (here comes the prejudice) and does everything to get rid of him. On the surface, he despises Max (deep down that is not true obviosuly). But Charles is so much like Elizatbeth in ... everything. He was the "special one" of the family he was his dad's "favorite" they had a special bond bc of their second gender and Lizzy had a special bond with her father also. They are both stubborn as hell, they both will not accept to be saved instead will do everything in their power to push away Max/Darcy because they falsely think the other is the worst person in the world, utterly blind to the truth that is literally staring them in the face. And Max/Darcy just step away when they get rejected time and time again because they are perfect little cinnamon rolls like that.

It seems I got a little carried away but in my head this fits perfectly! I realize I'm stepping really far away from the discussions usually going around on here lol but I hope you like my thoughts.

Also I sincerely hope you know about the story because this would just be gibberish if you dont and I'd be so embarrassed 😅. On the other hand if you do not know about Pride and Prejudice (unlikely) to me it just means you've accidentally rewritten the trope and character dynamic of the literal best love story of all time if you ask me and if thats not impressive idk what is. If you have done it on purpose I'm applauding you bc this is perfect and I will now go and try to figure out what that means for the future of this story. If someone else has figured this out before me sorry for repeating myself.

This was extremely long and im sorry. 😪

hello first-now-second-time anon!!!

so. love this whole thing. I obviously don't want to give away any spoilers, so what I will say about your ask is this: when originally plotted out, I hadn't really about the parallels to pride and prejudice. however, I have also noticed some similarities, and p&p has even directly inspired an upcoming scene.

so here is this:

love love love everything you wrote!!!!

[27-royal-teas]

YET !!! ANOTHER ANALYSIS!! And for good reason this time because people keep misinterpreting Pete’s work to be about Mikey and it makes me fucking PISSED can you not let pete have one thing in his goddamn life i get it its fine to have headcanons and opinions but PLEASE for the love of god please stop discrediting all of his hard work & good writing to be about a white boy he fucked back in ‘05 this CONSTANTLY happens with poc artists and it makes me mad to no end

yep, that’s right. today we’re talking about I Am My Own Muse. writing this essay i have listened to it a grand total of twenty three times 

i like this song a lot specifically because i do kind of relate to it a lot frequently i feel like smashing a guitar until i go insane but i dont have a guitar and i dont know how to play one regardless so. uh yeah

The thing about IAMOM is that it’s saying that in the TITLE. Hes his own muse. And obviously no one can take that away. sure , some of his songs might be inspired by someone, but in the long run, who do they come from? pete. romance songs might not be about anyone in particular. I know ive wrote songs that could be interpreted as romance, but they’re actually me talking to my younger self or my future self or my friend, and the point is, even though songs written by pete may seem like they were about someone that doesnt mean they are and you cant, you CANNOT discredit the fact that he is his own muse. just like the song title says.

The song begins with a BANGING orchestral arrangement. I think the intro to IAMOM is my favorite song intro on the album. It's just very well thought out and clearly carefully planned, and quite honestly I think patrick did an AMAZING job and I'd love to see him do a breakdown of the composition here because I am IMPRESSED. Not even to mention the vocals, he is on FIRE. anyway in the rest of this essay I’ll be interpreting the lyrics and tying them back to the central topic i just opened with: How Pete Is His Own Muse. 

The first verse is quiet, and it begins like this:

“Here i am, not sure you should take a chance

I like playing dumb, letting you figure me out

But i was faded in my own defense

So drop a bomb on the things we dreamed about”

I feel as though this verse is very clear. He isnt sure that the person he’s referring to should take a chance on him, should think that he is worth it, and he likes being able to be up to someone else’s interpretation with no outside influence. i do this frequently with strangers- i stay quiet so that they can make up their own idea in their head about me. They can figure me out themself, since i clearly cant figure myself out, and i think that’s the idea pete is really aiming for here. ‘So drop a bomb on all the things we dream about” can be referring to himself or someone else, but here let’s take it in the context that he’s discussing himself. This line is repeated in the second verse, so it’s clearly one of the main points that needed to be stated here; here he is saying to himself that (again, it’s that self sabotage) he should give it up, give it all up, it’s not worth it, destroy it all, drop a bomb on all our dreams because they aren’t going to happen. Taken together with the previous lines we can basically say that pete is saying that because he is leaving himself open to interpretation from the public, the things he truly meant to say are lost. And i think that’s the main thing here, especially with the title, and obviously im doing it myself, maybe this isnt what he meant at all, but i definitely do think it correlates along those lines to some degree. 

The chorus is repeated several times throughout the song (3 times to be specific) and it goes like this:

“Smash all the guitars ‘til we see all the stars

Oh got to throw this year away

We got to throw this year away like

A bad luck charm” 

And then that repeats twice. 

I think i can safely say everyone reading this right now has gone through the pandemic. I assume three year olds dont go on tumblr. The entire smfs album references 2020 and 2019 time and time again, most critically in What A Time To Be Alive, and it’s heavily present in this song too. “Got to throw this year away (like a bad luck charm)” vocalizes the wishes of pete and everyone else who wishes to cut those years out of their brains- pete has expressed in interviews how taxing the pandemic really was on his mental health, and i think that “smash all the guitars” could symbolize the frustration and pain he really felt in that time; destroying music (one of the main things he loves) until he can sink into that despair and just float away (“‘til we see all the stars”). Another way this can be interpreted is an act of rebellion (a lot of musical artists smash their guitars during shows, cough ryan ross cough) but i dont really think that that makes as much sense in this context. 

The next verse:

“The trumpets bring the angels but they never came

No one let them in ‘cause they didnt know my name

I know i keep my feelings so tucked away

Just another day spent hoping we dont fall apart

So drop a bomb on all the things we dreamed about”

Another very pete based verse (BECAUSE HE IS HIS OWN MUSE). This kind of links to Heaven’s Gate because it’s related to the same thing- not making it on the list, not feeling worthy of getting into heaven, because this sort of self deprecation is reflected throughout most of Fall Out Boy’s albums. I could give a million examples of this, but I don’t want to be here forever. “The trumpets bring the angels but they never came/ no one let them in ‘cause they didn’t know my name” sort of brings to mind the image of a person waiting to be carried away to something they’re not entirely sure they deserve, and they’re proven correct because no one ever came to carry them away, no one ever decided that they’d be on the list to get to heaven and the angels just went marching past and pete can hear their horns, know theyre there for people who deserve heaven much more than he does. How sad is that?

“I know i keep my feelings so tucked away/ just another day spent hoping we dont fall apart” carries the feeling of not wanting to be a burden with every emotion thought and expressed, even the good ones, and ‘we’ can be referring to himself, every single aspect of himself, hoping he doesn’t fall apart into shards of the stars his guitar is made up of. and then of course it’s the line about the bomb again, although this time it feels even more internalized and personal because it’s the second time he said it, and he dreams of getting into heaven but how can he make it up there if the angels themselves know he does not deserve to and so. drop a bomb on all the things we dreamed about, folks, because they aren’t going to happen. 

The bridge: 

“So let’s twist the knife again, twist the knife again

like we did last summer

So let’s twist the knife again, twist the knife again

Oh, i’m just trying to keep it together

But it gets a little harder when it never gets better I'm trying

To keep it together, to keep it together, oh”

To me this entire bridge just feels really deeply confessional and personal. Im going to start at the bottom because i like it the best. 

He’s trying. He’s trying so damn hard- to be optimistic, to be hopeful and stay full of happiness and love but it’s SO HARD when there’s no light at the end of the tunnel to motivate him. This is still talking about quarantine, i think; i remember i was in middle school at the time; they said that we would be back in two weeks. I remember i was grateful to get a break and time off. Then two weeks turned into two years and it got really, really hard to see an end to the pandemic. When things stop improving it gets harder and harder to keep it together when you can’t see the results of any of your actions, when you’re trying your best but it still gets you nowhere. Wouldn’t you stop trying? i know i would.

And let’s talk about “let’s twist the knife” just a little bit. “Last summer” might refer to the last album release, which is Mania (even though it was released in January). Another album cycle, another twist of the knife; another bit of words that pete has to pull out of himself like ribbons, and although he loves it, that’s his job, it still feels like dredging up all the pain again. So let’s twist the knife again, dig it in just a little deeper, just like we did before. 

So, yeah. Pete is his own muse and i truly do think that that is heavily reflected in this song, even this whole album. A lot of songs in smfs seem more him-centered, because he is the writer and he is talking about himself. So Good Right Now and What  A Time To Be Alive are especially good examples of this. 

And the interesting thing about the title is that it’s pulled from a Frida Kahlo quote, which goes like this: 

“I am my own muse. I am the subject I know best. I am the subject I want to better.”

And isn’t that just it? This whole album, it’s an album of self discovery and going back to your roots and staying current anyway. It’s patrick pulling pete out of his funk and getting him back in the game; it’s an exploration of a new style, a new fall out boy. And like a phoenix, every album they rise again, still the same but somehow completely brand new. The orchestral arrangements displayed in IAMOM and SMFS and LFTOS showcase this, the new feeling but still the same, something bettered, and I’m really, really happy with how far they’ve come not only in their expansion of music but also with themselves. And I feel like this song and this title- I Am My Own Muse- is really a stand up, it’s a show of how far they’ve come. Because they are the subject they know the best.

[ot3]

Late on the whole 'why do you follow me' but you literally give off some of the most (unintentional) batshit intimidating vibes on this site. Its great, refreshing even. Finding a big functional adult creator who interacts w their audience in a candid way/cuts the BS is a very novel thing for me and. man idk. tumblruser OT3 is this cool orb on my shelf I ponder sometimes.

On the one hand I DEEPLY admire your work and persona. Very much so. but on the other, there's nothing i'd want less than to to interact with you beyond this very shallow, very fun social convention you've set up here with these asks. Like. Like i'd definitely come to you for some personal sage wisdom (which is pretty weird, idk you) but then you interact with my posts on occasion and then i feel like. Blindsided. This should be a one way street. Am i making sense.

well im glad at least someone thinks im functional because let me tell you not very high up on the list of words i used to describe myself i am sort of in shambles right now on most levels. but also i feel like in general i think this ask is less flattering than you intended it to be.

as much as its good to understand that you don't really know people online i think it's also kind of not great to assume that they have a social media persona either. like this is not a persona this is just my Personality. i'm just like this. if i was going to construct some idealized or curated social media presence it would not look like this at all. i would much rather come off as someone who is distinctly less emotionally volatile and stop getting mad about petty fandom stuff that doesn't matter. but unfortunately i can't do that even when i try so it's all more or less what it says on the tin.

i really do appreciate the admiration, don't get me wrong, it's genuinely heartening to know people look up to me in any way. but i don't think there's ever a way to tell a person 'the way you behave makes me not want to interact with you the way id interact with a normal person' that doesn't feel kind of weird to receive.

like, i dont know theres always this strange back and forth where half the people Online are like 'if you want to be friends with people online start acting like youre already friends!' and the other half are like 'avoid overfamiliarity with internet strangers because theyre not your friends and you mean nothing to them' and i think the much happier medium is to treat internet strangers not like friend and not like a completely different species but just as a peer you haven't really engaged with yet. like. it absolutely SHOULD be a two way street that's what Online is for. if i was only interested in output and didn't want any input i just wouldn't reply to anybody.

it's a little weird to hear 'i would ask you for advice but i don't want to actually have a regular interaction with you.' i'm not sitting here in some zoo enclosure that other people are coming up to, we're both just sort of wandering around the mall and bumping into each other occasionally. like i'm not trying to sit here and soapbox at the greater tumblr population it just comes off like that because im wordy and opinionated but for the most part i just say whatever comes to mind and engage in any discussion that feels fun or interesting to me.

the sort of conception you have of me seems to be way more tactical or hierarchical and structured than what im actually doing and i guess that's something i'm a bit sensitive about, personally. for some reason for a not insignificant amount of people have seemed to get the impression that i am somehow manipulative or strategically inauthentic in my social interactions and it's caused a lot of problems for me. but like i just like talking about things online really and it can be kind of alienating to hear stuff like this. if that makes any sense

[virtueangel]

hey i'd like som readerxgandhi if you dont mind! :0 i'm 15 and i use he/they/it pronouns!! also im an INTP! im a trans guy and i really like drawing, painting, writing, just creative stuff in general! (im aspiring to be an author one day!) im pretty quiet (borderline silent) when i first meet people but as i get comfy around them i sort of start to get louder and more talkative gradually & i live to make ppl laugh!! also im autistic and have ADHD so i also stim more around people im comfy with!

i’m living for all these gandhi requests omg 

Gandhi With a Creative Reader 

Gandhi is pretty talkative and energetic, so he’s the one who really initiates the relationship. Gandhi likes watching this person draw, and watches over their shoulder in an annoying (yet adorable) way. He’s always asking, “What are you drawing?” and “Ooh, can I see?” and stuff like that. They don’t show Gandhi right away because they’re nervous and shy and don’t want Gandhi to judge them, but eventually they do show him and of course Gandhi is impressed. He talks about how he wishes he could draw, and gushes about how good their art is.

Gandhi also likes to give this person prompts, whether it be for drawing, painting, writing, etc. Most of the time it’s something really obscure that only Gandhi could think of, like “draw a spider in an astronaut suit!”, which is a lot of fun. Gandhi is super enthusiastic about their art (in any form), and is very supportive. He always asks if he can keep certain sketches that he really likes and stuff like that. He’s just super proud of them in general. 

The conversation is pretty one-sided at first, because Gandhi can come on a bit strong and this person doesn’t really know how to combat that. But, as Gandhi becomes more familiar with what this person likes, the conversations  start to flow more smoothly because they’re on topics that both people can contribute to. Gandhi does get distracted a lot, but he doesn’t really hijack the conversation by talking about himself. He changes the subjects rapidly, but he still tries his best to listen. 

Gandhi and this person find out that they actually have a lot in common once they become more comfortable with each other! Both of them are really funny and good at making people laugh. They make each other laugh a lot too, and enjoy playing off of the other person’s jokes. Gandhi has a vast appreciation for not only this person’s art, but their sense of humour as well. He never feels threatened by them or self-conscious around them. They get along really well and have a lot of fun together. 

Gandhi is just a really caring person in general. He really likes listening to this person talk. He likes hearing about their interests, ideas they have for writing or drawing or painting, hopes and dreams for the future, stuff like that. Gandhi can’t really contribute much to the conversation in that aspect, but he still shows enthusiasm and excitement for whatever this person wants to talk about. 

Gandhi especially appreciates this person’s passion for different things. He likes seeing them excited, and it makes him excited for them. They know how to keep the conversation going, because they never really run out of topics to discuss. 

[tamiddyinyourcity]

I found the word to describe the type of person I hate:

One where it feels like I'm talking to myself.

If I get dolled up, put my best foot forward, and am sparkling and feeling dazzling as fuck....

Why be around a man who wont talk about anything but himself?

Especially if its not some sort of CEO or fancy rich person that I'm aiming to passively impress/let talk, and its just someone my own damn age.

I felt so glad when I stopped hanging around people like that.

Nothing increases suicidal urges more than "I came all the way out here and they arent asking shit about me or putting in an effort, do i even matter to this person?"

Glad I set YP straight.

He didnt understand it, but he doesnt understand a lot of things.

Like how yes, your ex girlfriend is going to move on, if you ignore her messages, and also plow other women with no discussion of where things will go from there.

And yes, she will 100% cut you off and call you out on your shit if it means she can feel fully connected to the next person she's with.

.....

I was shocked at how well I moved on. It got easier since me and BP improved conservationally, honestly, sexually, and started doing more things together.

Put all my focus on the new, and it worked out well.

And now its just doing that again.

Since most of my relationships always reveal what I actually needed next, when i stumble upon someone new.

"Oh no, how will I ever get over Matty?", I said, before stumbling across Green Eyed Zack #2 and realizing that the entire dynamic with Matty was him love bombing me, and him being obsessive within having less than two dates....

"How will I ever get over Zack? He was so gorgeous"..... (I think the resolution isnt clear, since it got solved either with Bitch Ass Scotty, lots of sex with terrible men, or what.)

But I moved on eventually and realized, "He was a terrible communicator with no intention to respect me, or take our relationship seriously, in any way."

"How will I get over Fine Ass Adrian?", I said, before realizing he was just a horndog and was also an avoidant attachment type.

"How will I get over Ethan?" By realizing he was ugly, a little misogynistic, and overall up until meeting me, had very good reasons for staying a virgin, since he was disgusting, unappealing, and never bothered to seem remotely likeable to anybody. (Jesus, he had so much nerve...... He was 18 but looked 36, his genetics were terrible for him.)

"How will I ever get over Calvin?", by realizing Calvin was too anxious, overly sensitive, and would never actually commit or be his own individual person.... Nothing annoys me worse than someone that focuses on what they THINK I want them to be like, instead of..... just being unafraid to be themselves. (Why would I want a pussy ass liar? I wanted dick, he claimed he wanted to date.... no one won there.)

"How will I get over YellowHaired Patrick?", by realizing he would never commit, was leading you on, and never put in an effort. He was still a great relationship, but theres a limit on how many chances of "I'd toootally be monogamous with you, and seriously date you, i swear, buuuuuut"...... incidents, one can hear from a guy.

And of course, present day.

"How are you gonna get over the most recent ex?"

Realizing it was probably going in an unhealthy direction due to several factors. The spitting incident + his oddly insecure best friend = two moments of "alright, i dont think i mean as much to this person then"

The situation not getting resolved lead to blocking and some preeeeetty verbally hostile spewings online, and well, thats that.

If a situation wasnt getting resolved, then well, it most likely never would have, and leaving was the only way I could feel comfortable about the person I like deciding I wasnt really worth the effort.

And if me and his closest friend couldn't give eachother the benefit of the doubt, without butting heads from a distance, it would have just affected my trust in him, aaaaand.... yeah, inherently stupid people getting in the way annoy me. And i wouldnt want to let it get to me, or affect me, or the person I date....

It was just better, I guess.

He's okay, just, that situation was kinda gonna lead to a risky path.

I hope everything turns out well for him, its a little disheartening but nothing I can do about it. A lot went down the drain; hanging with his family during the christmas holiday, meeting his bro, hanging out on his birthday with his other friends hella chill.

Agh.

But, it was for the best, and i gotta just let things be.

Anywho.... I gotta like, shower, and feel better about life at this current point in time.

I know damn well that not a single person on Earth is laying in bed waiting for life to pass them by other me, so I better go spite the fuck out of them by doing the same.

Thats all.

Peace out my loves. Have a chill day, hope that everything goes well. laters. :)