#and to my bills and Kaines meds and my meds

[nabsthevulture]

ALSO OMG?????

Thank you guys so so so much for your help with Kaine's vet bills <3!!!!!!!!!!! We're about halfway there for covering it all. Like you guys know, I've been unemployed for a while and even at my last job with the hours i was getting I would have to pay with three weeks of pay. The job search is not going as good as I hope, so this all went on my credit card and I can't keep piling money on that with no back up plan, so your help is incredible and I can't thank you guys enough.

Big big love from me and my big baby. If he could type I'm sure he'd say thank you too. I'll post a picture of him in his donut for your viewing pleasure.

[thatgirlwithuntoldfeelings]

17:37 • 15 July 2023

my schedule was at 630. too early kaso yun lang yung available time. hindi ko pa sure saan bababa, either lagpas, or before alabang med. either way, maglalakad ako habang umuulan so dun nlang ako sa alam kong medyo mas maiksing lakarin. i arrived passed 640. 

there were 2 lalaking staff tapos 2 patients waiting. i was asked if my request has been approved knowing it was dated June 26. i said, not yet. tried to get it approved kaso sarado pa hmo. ate girl from pharmacy said mga 730-8 pa siguro magkakatao. went back sa rad department and told the sirs na mamaya pa raw ako maapprove. they asked for additional details and bakit ang tagal na nung request lol. so i gave the info they needed. mayamaya, the mas matandang sir (renz) talked to the mas batang sir. sabi ni mas batang sir hindi pa approved hmo ko. sabi ni sir renz tsaka na lang magpaapprove, mas mabuti isalang nako. 

the female doctor arrived. pinahiga ako nung 2 sir sa isang room. ang tagal bago dumating nung doctor kasi nakita ko padaan daan pa siya sa labas ng room at nagaasikaso pa ata nung nauna sa akin. so the takot sa hospital self ko eh nagpapanic. then after 5mins siguro, pumasok na siya. since walang babaeng assistant, naiwan yung mas batang sir. medyo bothered me kasi ofc pinataas yung shirt. nakapatay ilaw pero basta weird. nag-uusap sila ni doc. bakit daw walang girl today ganyan at sila nag-aassist. tapos mega ask siya kasi aalis na pala si batang assistant at lilipat ng dasma para magturo. lahat yun nangyayari habang sinasabihan niya ko ng inhale exhale HAHAHAHAHA.

around 720 na ata ako natapos. i stayed for a while kasi nga need ko pa magpa-approve ng hmo. around 750, i tried my luck and billing pa lang yung open. inaccommodate na lang ako ni maam and siya na nagprocess ng hmo ko. after ng approval, went back to rad and sir renz said balik ako after 2hrs.

naghihintay pa lang inisip ko na agad na gusto ko magpasta so i went sa yellowcab na malapit HAHAHAHA. nasa utak ko na mag-aglio olio pero lahat ng pasta may solo order except dun. the kuripot in me struggled. pero gusto ko talaga so umorder nako nung pang-2-3 pax and a mug rootbeer bc sabi ko deserve ko naman siguro lol.

ako lang mag-isa dun. when i saw my order naisip ko, hala parang kaya ko ubusin to lahat? HAHAHAH gutom yarn? i made sure na magrootbeer bc we’ll never know baka mamaya ang result eh marami nang bawal. plus matagal nako hindi nagrorootbeer so meron akong reason lol.

fun fact: i always wanted to have a bfast or dinner date w someone. these two meals are special to me kasi kumbaga ito yung umpisa ng araw at pangclose ng araw. dinner date is very common pero i think bfast date is also special. ayun lang never namin nagawa tapos ewan if possible pa. :c:

anyways, hindi naman nila ko pinalayas. plus ako lang pa rin ang tao walang iba at all. i stayed until 930 halos bc mas gugustuhin ko pang dun magstay kesa sa loob ng ospital. may natira akong pasta at di ko rin naubos yung rootbeer. nasayangan ako kasi naisip ko rin wala kong kain halos tapos rootbeer pa talaga iniinom ko edi wow. 

pagdating ko sa rad, sobrang dami nang tao. umupo lang ako sa same pwesto ko and was planning to wait kasi nga 10 pa dapat yung results if 2hrs after. sir renz saw me and kinuha niya na agad yung result ko. tinawag niya nako agad after nung kausap niya.

so okay naman lahat. thank God wala naman akong stones sa gallbladder HAHAHAHHA. tbh nanood nako ng videos ng operation bc bingo talaga ko sa symptoms. so far, so good lahat. maliban lang sa cyst sa kidney wc i think hindi naman ata deliks? well, not sure pa kasi hindi pa naiinterpret. umuwi lang ako agad bc antok na antok nako. 

pahabol chismis. so pagsakay ko ng jeep, nakakita kong suka sa floor HAHAHAHA kamote. sumuka yung isang pasahero (lalaki) tapos hassle na hassle mga kasama niya (2f+1m). kausap ni isang girl yung jowa ng lalaki tapos ayaw gumising nung lalaki. syempre if ako rin sumuka sa jeep yuyuko nlang me forevs nakakahiya. gagalit si kuya driver kesyo linisin daw or bayaran nila boundary niya. gets ko naman point niya. i think mas nakakainis lang kasi nga yung lalaking sumuka parang tulug-tulugan so walang magtake ng responsibility. yung isang girl at isang boy nilinis nila yung suka habang umaandar yung jeep. naubusan silang wipes na meron pang konting kalat pero no choice sila. gusto ko man tumulong kaso wala rin me dalang wipes or tissue. i offered my water kasi parang tinatry nila buhusan para madakot ng ayos yung suka pero di tinaggan ni kuya guy. tapos bababa na dapat sila ng pilar pero di na nakababa, kasi imimeet nlang yung jowa ni nagsuka sa colours. di ko na sure anong nangyari kasi nauna nako bumaba lol.

ayun lang. hello, saturday.

[blues-and-words]

i keep losing my voice

so this started a week ago. nag volunteer akong mag rd ot coz they badly needed just to lessen the queue and y not? kesa magkulong sa kwarto nagtrabaho na lang ako. thinking of getting an extra pay. sayang eh

sat. rd ot shift ko. 4hrs lang naman so it doesn't really matter. i mean mabilis lang talaga yon. i started my shift na husky na boses ko. (boses lalaki ako just an fyi) so imagine naging husky pa. sir na talaga tawag sakin ng mga cx lol. and to na nga. i ended my shift na wala na talaga akong boses. like ano, puro hangin na lang whenever i'm trying to say something. wala na. gestures and tango tango na lang sa kausap. para sa tulad kong madaldal, struggle yon talaga.

sun-tues. shempre i can't afford losing my voice kasi puhunan ko to eh. parang singer lang diba? but srsly, i'm worried na di makapasok so the next rd. literal na bed rest and voice rest lang. hoping na magiging okay din lahat kahit mukang impossible na. (jk. hugot!) pero ayun na nga. life sucks. di bumalik. and its so frustrating kasi napa-absent pa ko ng 2 more days just to make sure my voice will be back to normal. (oo, sayang rd ot. lugi pa. tangna diba)

wed-fri. may nawawala, pero may bumabalik din. parang boses ko? hehe. saya ko pa kasi normal na ulet eh. i had my normal 8hrs shift. uwi sa apt. kain then tulog and then pasok ulit the night after. kaso alamo yun? minsan paglalaruan ka talaga ng tadhana coz kinabukasan, i mean the following night. pawala na naman boses ko!!!! nakakaurat na. and unfortunately nung friday shift i really can't take any calls. i still went to work tho but i didn't do anything that i am supposed to do. they let me rest and sleep sa first half ng shift ko thinking it will be okay soon. kahit alam kong la nang pag-asa. sumunod ako. and biglag nag ikot ung associate director namin sa prod. like sya yung boss ng boss ng boss ko. i approaced one of the TL's just to ask if they will let me go home and AD heard na boses paniki na ko talaga so she sent me home. finally!!! (umaasa pa kasing babalik pa eh nawala na nga. lol)

sat-sun. same routine ofcourse. bed rest and voice rest plus home remedies for sore throat. ayoko din naman na hindi pumasok coz like what ive said i cannot afford not getting paid on work days. lagi naka abang sakin si judith and wala siyang pake sa nararamdam ko. (adulting ikr!)

mon. which is my shift last night. sa totoo lang, i felt like hindi talaga buo yung boses ko ulit. at some point nararamdaman kong bigla ako naghahabol ng hininga and nawawalan ng boses. yes eto na naman!!! nakakainis na. puyat pa ko ngayon so mas nakadagdag reason bakit napapaos na naman ako. like literally. i'm losing my voice, again.

u know what's even worse? may ka work ako who experienced the same shits that i'm going through right now. naka med leave na nga sya eh. for 3 weeks ganon din routine nya. mawawala magpapahinga tas babalik and then repeat. with or without pain ss throat napapaos din siya and guess what? he needed a f*cking surgery now!!!! i freaked out.

"A tonsillectomy is a surgical procedure to remove the tonsils, which is sometimes necessary to treat an underlying illness."

i know minor operation lang yan pero the thought na mag-sstay ako sa ospital for couple of days is killing me already. sino ba gustong nasa ospital diba? jusq, i don't want to end up like him. unang una, hindi covered and meds sa hmo. hospital bills pwede pa. pero kahit na. work is my distraction and my escape. kung matitigil yon. di ko na alam san ako pupulutin. kapikon hays

ps. yes , magpapa-check up na ko bukas.

- Bayaning Puyat