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Mental Health Check for the Ghesties! How we doin'?

ive been better

ik i like never respond positively to these asks, I’m sorry whoever you are

but thank you for asking <3

also sorry to those who’ve tagged me in tag games the past while too, i do like them but between working for the past 14 days straight and some more not good things happening irl i have not had time to do them and now i probably won’t find them

#tw for death/illness/unalive thoughts for these tags ig #idk if I’ve mentioned it but #my dad has dementia diabetes lung issues heart issues has fallen/has had strokes and has been on dialysis for 2 years now #long story but we had to put him in assisted living a few months ago #bc we couldn’t take care of him at home anymore he’d fall or try and do things he shouldn’t #(ie drive when he says himself he can’t see and has only 1 working eye)#or didn’t control his bowels/bladder #would cuss us out tell us to go to hell etc #so he’s been there for a while where they are trained to take care of people like that #and he wouldn’t be alone while we are at work and stuff #but he hates it and last time I visited him there he said he didn’t want to be in this world anymore and said how he wanted to step in front #of a bus and stuff which did not help the guilt I already feel about him having to be there #but there is no choice if he didn’t have to be there he wouldn’t be we don’t have the money to pay for it #and now he’s been in and out of the hospital several times over the past few weeks #and went again Monday bc they thought he had another stroke (slurring his words/not walking straight and other things)#they found out he didn’t but what they thought was wrong has been treated and he’s not better #and now they’ve discussed him going to a nursing home or even hospice #but they so far have no plans of discharging him so he’s obviously not doing good #and that’s on top of other things that i don’t feel like i should even complain about when that is going on #so yeah I am not doing the best tbh #been trying not to think about it bc every time I do i feel like either throwing up or crying or both #sorry for the tag info dump #delete later #probably #asks

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