#anyway have some angsty sad dmcl+their baby boy

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

my dimiclaude+ their son alfred thought of the week (tee em)

claude learning medicine and studying so much that lorenz actually comes to fhirdiad to do some of his work (usually claude and dimitri split their work, so lorenz is taking claude’s share). claude knows alfred has a weak constitution and dimi is prone to collapsing from exhaustion so he’s constantly trying to prepare for the next inevitable time either his husband or son is bedridden.

he’s very happy he has a loving family but he’s also terrified because he grew up without love, finally found love with this family but both the people he loves more than anything in the world are basically on and off being at death’s door. he’s terrified of outliving both his husband and his son because fuck if any parent would want to outlive their child. he‘s scared to be alone again so he spends a huge chunk of time perfecting all kinds of medicine to handle their respective conditions.

also, lorenz holds off returning to school in fhirdiad for claude to finish his work. he knows claude is trying so, so insanely hard to make sure his family stays healthy and safe and he understands that dedication and respects it. he’ll go back to school once claude gives him the okay.

claude always sees dimi and alfred training really hard together to try to stay healthy and he’s grateful they’re trying, but he’s still so worried they’ll overdo it and it’ll cause the opposite effect. claude’s never been a worrier! this is new and scary for him! but every day he’s always trapped in those thoughts and that’s why he works so hard to do something about it, and he knows they’re both working just as hard to try to help themselves as he’s trying to help them.