#anyway is it obvious ive stumbled into a depressive episode bc i think it is

[midoriyaizukustan-inactive]

there is a longing that lies very deep in my bones for platonic bkdk

just… hear me out okay.

bakugou getting his complete shit wrecked with guilt and shame and self-hatred once he finally can comprehend just how big of a piece of shit he was. every atom that makes him up BURNS w determination to be better, do better. he will make it up to midoroya even if it kills him (it would be what he deserves anyway if it did). everything just starts kinda falling in around him bc his whole perception of the world is changing and he’s just. he just has to deal. and he will; its the least he can do after everything he’s done.

midoriya, on the other hand, being allowed to be upset for fucking once. hes safe and okay now and bakugou doesnt hold anymore power over him, so hes allowed to seethe and grieve the childhood he didnt get to have. he gets to hate bakugou for the first time in his life, and he DOES -- very intensely, at that. he has real friends now and he knows what real love is and he gets. to. be. furious. so he is. he indulges the feeling of fire in his veins and he learns to not be afraid to scream out of frustration, especially if that frustration is because of bakugou.

eventually, though, the flames start to flicker out after months of tears and tongue lashings and ignoring each other when one isn’t a sobbing mess apologizing and the other isn’t burning alive with hateful words and a hurt heart.

from there, theyre both left in ashes from the fire that only the most passionate emotions can bring about; midoriya from hate, bakugou from self-loathing. both got their healthy dose (or maybe overdoses) of feeling what they needed to feel. so they hesitantly try to rise from those ashes together.

its hard work, trying to build something from soot, and theyre both absolutely filthy at the end of every single day, but they manage. and slowly, they construct something...functional. not good, not yet, but it’s getting there.

it’s gentle, what they build. it will fall if pressed against too harshly, but they make sure the cornerstones are strong since the support beams can’t be.

bakugou can’t give midoriya his childhood back, but he can help give him a better future. midoriya can’t give bakugou forgiveness, but he can help him to become the person he wants to be.

just...eventually they do make it somewhere. they do become friends, for real, even if they’ll never be as close as midoriya is with iida, uraraka, and todoroki; as close as bakugou is with kirishima. but theyre able to add to what they built, make it stronger.

finally the childhood friends would actually become friends.