#anyway just posting recreationally at this point. good morning

[olreid]

bouncing off alfie's tags from yesterday and subsequent conversation in chat but as long as we're talking about things that are horrifying but ultimately weren't really treated as horror, i want to talk about copies. one of the most unsettling parts of greywaren to me was spending time with mór and feniall and realizing that for her, dreaming a copy of niall to replace him honestly ended up working pretty well. the same can be said for niall with aurora, in retrospect; he wanted a wife to raise his children and he got what he wanted. there doesn't have to be any acknowledgement of their failed first attempt, because the second generation were dreamt expressly to succeed in the wake of failure and slotted into their roles so well that niall and mór were able to bury their respective pasts almost totally. they can even unload their memories, which are the real evidence that there was something to copy in the first place, something about the original conditions that somehow wasn't enough or wasn't quite right.

it reminds me of some of the paul discussion we had after nona [ntn spoilers at the links], which is to say there is something troubling about copying because it obscures or erases the particular conditions of production that gave rise to the original. imo feniall in greywaren is a particularly unsubtle and unsettling example cause he just. carries around a memory erasure bag lol. patron saint of not having to accept the consequences of your actions; for the low low price of absolutely nothing he can not only take your place in your failmarriage but also get rid of your failmarriage memories so you can go do something else without having to feel guilty about your failure. this seems to work incredibly well and would work totally if not for the children, which are the real evidence of a marriage you can't erase (not that niall and mór didn't have that conversation; "we should kill it before it's too late.")

so much of the novels' events are set in motion by trying to erase the unerasable; a relationship you already had, a life you already lived. from aurora and feniall's point of view, what does it mean to be made to replace someone who is still living? what does it mean to be in a relationship with the person who dreamt you to replace their ex?? i want the aurora gothic horror bluebeardesque realization that she is not the first, that her schematics were drafted based on an original. i want feniall mutiny rather than cheerful obedience. i want FULL god emperor of dune where duncan idaho keeps getting cloned, discovering he's a clone, trying to rebel, and getting put down only to be cloned again, his memories erased.

another really interesting tension that was ultimately never more than glanced at is the absolute reality of dreams as fully agentic people vs. the fact that in the process of their creation, their personalities can be shaped by those who dream them; thinking of matthew saying he felt conflicted about being made to be likable but that it came in handy and also the confirmation we get in greywaren that aurora was explicitly created to be mór "but softer." i want full westworld-style grappling with the extent to which personality is destiny; i want to see characters try to figure out how much one can rebel against their original design, or whether they even want to.

anyway. i miss when trc was at least nominally interested in the consequences of copying; see a parking lot full of mitsubishis and camaros draining the ley line in dream thieves. but on the other hand, ronan was able to dream a copy that absorbed his death in bllb, and gansey was recopied so accurately he is taken to have been resurrected rather than cloned in trk. idk. something something copies only ever distracting from the root issue at hand; ronan couldn't avoid passing through death. gansey couldn't be brought back. niall and mór's relationship couldn't ever be saved. you can cover up those things but you can't undo them. can we talk about it i want to talk about it

[dead-dove-doesnt-eat]

Do you have an active ED and an attention disorder?

Let me put you on something (medication) (it sucks)

Like many people with ADHD or ADD, I’ve been on adderall, Dexedrine, Ritilin, focalin, you name it. Here’s he one that worked for me

I started Vyvanse about 2 ish years ago when I was 17, and it has WAY way way more cons than pros, but the pros pay off and It’s what works for me. And while it might not work for everyone, I figured I’d share what I know

Disclaimer: this is an over the counter prescription drug. I am not encouraging getting this drug illegally or using it recreationally but also idc what you do

CONS (based on my personal experience an limited research)

Because It’s a known appetite suppressant, you may have a hard time getting it if you are already underweight or have ED anywhere in your records.

Random panic. I can just be sitting there and get shaky and can feel my heartbeat super fast, and overall I just sweat more when I’m on it.

I focus on whatever I’m doing. Not just school or work. I have a midterm due next week that I haven’t started, and I’m doing research for this post instead. This happens most of the time

I scratch myself till i bleed, and I pick at every imperfection on my face and body and scalp for hours on end without breaking concentration.

When I first started taking it I got panic attacks pretty often, but that went away as I got used to it. But it doesn’t go away if you aren’t consistent with taking it every day.

It gave me a couple of motor tics, which mostly faded away after about a year and a half of taking it.

I know the point of reading this for most people is to suppress appetite, but sometimes I just don’t notice that I haven’t eaten for a long time, and I get super super hangry without actually feeling hungry, so I just get frustrated.

Unlike other adhd medications that are more “take it when you need it” It has to be taken every morning to work best

You can’t sleep when it’s active. Its designed to keep you alert and focused for about 12 hours, but in my experience it fully wears off about 15 or 16 hours in. If I forget to take it in the morning I skip it for that day otherwise I won’t be able to fall asleep until the wee hours of the morning, and will be tossing and turning all night

^Seriously. Idc how sleepy of a person you think you are, it fucks up your sleep. Other people who take vyvanse have expressed this as well

It changes your personality. It changes who you like, how you think, how you act, and how you feel. It numbs me out big time

I had to get used to actively remembering to drink water

But also your mouth is always dry

I grind my teeth a ton and started biting my nails again

Random depression

I swear I’m like 70% less funny and socially aware when I take it

Everything around me is serious and I have a generally less fun than when I’m on it

PROS

Many doctors prefer it over adderall since it’s not as well known, isn’t a good high, and doesn’t have as much of a risk of being sold and abused

I can actually fucking focus when I take it it’s crazy

It’s used for treating binge eating disorder

Unlike other focus meds, it lasts all day. It’s working during class, it’s working at the gym, and it’s still working just as well at the end of the day so I can do my homework.

It just makes you flat out, not hungry all day

Like I don’t even think about food

Makes you less impulsive

I’m never bored when I take it. Idk if that makes sense but I used to get bored of video games and drawing and stuff and now I just don’t

It makes me motivated to do stuff idk

Gave me lots of pent up energy I used for working out

It gives you laser eyes and all the cool kids do it

Anyways that’s just my personal experience with it, if you have anything to add from being on it or something similar PLEASE do so

it’s cool and evil, and I love/hate it a lot.

[knifefather]

Could I ask for a s/o and/or platonic reader with the Bucci gang who likes to smoke weed a bit or a lot? 😅 I mainly do it for anxiety but I can be fun and goofy or philosophical when high and I love the boys lol. It's alright if you aren't comfortable with this ask!

You got it bae!! I love weedie requests, this is a fave lol. I’m going to go with s/o this time because my last weed hcs post was for a platonic reader!

𝙱𝚞𝚌𝚌𝚒 𝙶𝚊𝚗𝚐 𝙼𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚊 𝚂/𝙾 𝚃𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚂𝚖𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚜 𝚆𝚎𝚎𝚍 (𝙵𝚛𝚎𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚕𝚢)

content warnings: marijuana usage, mentions of sex and alcohol abuse *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Bruno

💨 Bruno doesn’t smoke weed as much as you do, but he’s mostly supportive of the fact that you smoke. This is especially if you smoke to help regulate your emotions, sleep, work up an appetite, etc. He would probably discourage you from smoking every day unless they needed to.

💨 Will definitely have a smoke sesh with you! After he gets home from a long day’s work, you would be waiting for him with a fat joint rolled, dinner on the table, and a smile on your face, and honestly? Bruno cannot complain. He enjoys your cooking and then your handiwork while the two of you smoke on the back porch. If you aren’t good at rolling, you’ll pack a glass piece and make sure that it’s clean for him.

💨 Bruno shows a lot of his affection through gift-giving, and he uses your love of a weed as a basis for giving you presents. Often, he’ll buy you extremely exotic buds and the two of you will sample them together. It makes for a very romantic evening in that often ends in the two of you having high sex. 

Giorno

💨 Giorno is indifferent about you smoking frequently. Giorno doesn’t smoke weed himself, but he’s fine with others doing it. He doesn’t exactly encourage you to smoke, but he doesn’t discourage you, either. 

💨 He feels more comfortable with you smoking pot if there’s someone around you when you do it. For example, he’s perfectly fine with you smoking while he’s around. Giorno is also okay with someone trusted keeping an eye on you, like Bruno or Abbacchio. He would prefer it if you were upfront with him about your usage and didn’t try to hide it from him.

💨 He enjoys that you get can philosophical while you’re stoned, especially if you’re talking about life. Life is something that Giorno understands very well because he’s seen so much of it. It’s always interesting to hear your high take on a certain fact of life. Of course, there are lighthearted conversations that take place that put you both in a giggly mood. Even if he’s not stoned, he always feeds into the conversation and matches the same goofy energy that you give off. 

Mista

💨 Would be absolutely fucking elated if you were a stoner like him. You would smoke together all the time, morning, afternoon, and evening. Mista will often try to be romantic and wake you up with a blunt. The smell is so potent that pulls you from unconsciousness, almost as if it were an alarm clock of sorts lol. You normally smile lazily and hit it a few times before giving him a kiss as a way of saying thank you. 

💨 On your one year anniversary, Mista takes you to a nearby beach in Napoli and you have a picnic there. By the time you exchange gifts, he has a wicked grin on his face. “I have one more thing to give you. Close your eyes and put out your hands,” he says, reaching for his pocket already. You obey, and he set something soft and aromatic in your hand. When you open your eyes, it was a rose petal blunt wrapped in fresh petals. You’re elated, throwing your arms around him and hugging him. “You can thank me after we’ve sparked it up, baby,” he says, handing you a lighter. 

💨 This bastard is super clumsy and has dropped your open grinder once or twice. You always forgive him but... ow. Your soul hurts. 

Narancia

💨 Narancia is as excited as Mista is that you smoke weed, but tenfold. Nara is blazing every day, 24/7. He is always wanting to smoke with you because the cuddles and kisses are so good when he’s high. He kisses all over your face, touching you, holding your hand, the contact is just wonderful to him. 

💨 Is the kind of person to have awesome high thoughts. The kind of shit that he thinks about while using weed is hilarious. He is definitely the kind of guy that would say something like “When we yawn, do deaf people think we are just screaming?” His eyes are super red as he considers this. You can’t keep it together and end up laughing you ass off, the drink you were consuming coming out of your nose. This makes Narancia laugh, and you guys are stuck in a giggle fit. 

💨 He’s the kind of stoner that becomes very social, so he’s incredibly chatty. Narancia talks your ear off whenever he’s buzzed, and he usually feels the best if he’s with you and his friends.

Fugo 

💨 Doesn’t smoke, will not tolerate you smoking weed recreationally. He would basically demand that you quit if you start dating on the grounds that he cares about your health. He might actually break up with you because of it, especially if you decided to go behind his back and use it anyway.

💨 If you smoke because you already have a health issue, he would be more understanding, but he is still very distrustful of marijuana and doesn’t want you using it unless absolutely necessary.

Abbacchio 

💨 Abbacchio doesn’t smoke weed very often. He usually only smokes if you do.

💨 Weed is a bonding point for you and Abbacchio. When he gets stoned, he’s a lot more outgoing and open than when he’s drunk. You try to get him to switch to bud instead of drinking, and it helps with his emotional problems a bit. He’ll get stoned and open up to you about certain thoughts and experiences that he kept under wraps. It’s very good for your relationship, it helps you communicate when Abbacchio becomes insecure.  

💨 Leone is the kind of weed smoker that smokes to relax. He doesn’t require a lot of conversation, he seldom gets the munchies, he just wants to chill. He’s not a fan of going out and doing shit while he’s stoned, so he saves it for the evening most of the time. He loves to cuddle while high, holding you close and enjoying your company. 

Trish

💨 She doesn’t smoke as much as some of the others, but she’s still pleased to know that you smoke too. One of your favorite things to do as a couple is smoke weed and then go get pedicures. Trish is so funny when she’s stoned, and the two of you share many laughs while in the nail salon. She’s similar to Narancia because they both giggle at practically nothing. 

💨 Is the QUEEN of getting weed nugs stuck in her hair!! You’re always pulling them out before you go out. One time you even found one in her bra after the two of you came home from dinner and wine. When you discover it, she just giggles and says “Oops” before kissing you and dragging you closer by the front of your shirt. She’s a menace, really. 

💨 Trish gets really sleepy when she smokes weed, so expect a lot of weed naps in the middle of the day. She never likes to take them alone, so you end up smoking with her and lay by her side after you blaze it for awhile. 

[monsterparnasse]

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who the frick is montparnasse anyway:

THE BOY. He was born Raoul Nejem, son of a French native and Pakistani immigrant. Outside of his father and uncle, he’s never really met his dad’s side of the family, but he grew up surrounded by his maternal grandparents, and his mother’s sister in a suburb outside of Paris. His family never really had a lot of money, but they made do. His father works as a pastry chef and his mother is in management of a small boutique chain. Raoul grew up in a loving environment, but the short of it is, he’s still a shitty human being. He was something of a bully in elementary school, getting others in trouble for the things he did, stealing from classmates, etc. The longer he got away with it, the more the habits stuck with him. He made rule breaking seem cool and by time he was in high school he was fairly popular with the wrong crowd and was starting to call himself Montparnasse. He was everything parents warned their kids about, but always wore a smile and put on a pleasant face in front of authority. In school itself, he coasted on average grades with bare minimum effort to keep them, but in the end he still dropped out his senior year to his parent’s dismay.

THE TEEN. Montparnasse left behind all ties to Raoul Nejem and moved to Paris proper with a friend. The two quickly lost track of each other and Montparnasse got involved with a rapidly increasing amount of crime. It started with knock offs, moved onto drug trade, and escalated to murder after a partner turned on him. It was self defense, but it shattered any remaining innocence of the boy from Arcueil. Having caught the attention of three older, more experienced criminals in the city, Montparnasse made an alliance with what would soon be known as the Patron Minette. Between the four of them, they had a wide range of influence in crime in the city and coming together brought them stability and control.

THE LEGEND. Montparnasse is now a name known throughout the criminal scene of Paris as Patron Minette’s boy king. He is not the leader of the four, that is a title they each hold claim to, but he is known for his theatrics and flair in a way that the others are generally not. He is a shadow, a thief, a crime lord. He is petty, vengeful, terrible, and capable of deceiving half of Paris with no more than a smile.

points of interest:

THIEF: Montparnasse has been stealing for the fun of it since he was a boy and has turned it into something of a career move. While he’s generally more of a night person, if Montparnasse is out and about during the day it’s generally in the business of lifting people of their wallets and valuables. Both wiith the Minette and on his own, Montparnasse is something of a burglar as well. Alarm systems do little to deter him.

DRUGS: Montparnasse is in the business of trading more than he is in the business of using. He and the Minette supply their dealers scattereed around the city and handle the shipping of the drugs into Paris more than anything. While he’s not opposed to using recreationally, he has a strict rule against injecting anything and ruining his skin with track marks.

FASHION: Montparnasse dresses in the best of what he can get his hands on. While having a strong hand in the knock off trade, he strives to replace his own fakes with the real designers. Even when he’s in jeans and a tee shirt, it’s safe to assume Montparnasse is either wearing or emulating a designer name. He is also known to wear clothing designed with women in mind, never so far as to be considered a cross dresser, but he does wear them casually and without care. Generally, it’s just in the cut of the pants or the shirt, but he has been known to wear other garments as well. Most notably, he wears heeled boots and has absolutely been seen running in them with something of a terrifying proficiency.

RECORD: He has been arrested on several occasions, but has never been caught for something that could put him away, much to the displeasure of certain inspectors. Eponine usually ends up posting bail for him since loyalty of the Minette does not really extend to walking into the hands of the police force.

MURDER: Montparnasse does not take this course of action lightly. While his associates might take to this a little more frequently than he likes, Montparnasse really has no inclination to get caught up in a murder investigation. If he needs someone gone, he leaves it to Claquesous and Gueulemer or tasks it to one of their subordinates. DO NOT, howvever, mistake his unwillingness to a lack of capablity. He can and will take a life if it comes down to it. He has no tolerance for traitors and will often personally put the bullet in the skull of anywhere who wears Minette colors and turns.

THREAT: Montparnasse is dangerous, but the majority of those who meet him do not know to what extent. While he can absolutely be charming and polite, he is generally something of an asshole and wears the ‘bad boy’ attitude as something of a badge. Most people, and this goes for the majority of Les Amis as well, do not know to what extent his criminal connections go. It is generally safe to assume he has some shady friends and probably carries a knife for more than decoration, but few connect him to the criminal organization that is practicaly running Paris underground unless they too have ties to the criminal underground. If that’s the case, Montparnasse is probably a name they reognize, even if they don’t connect it to the pretty boy in front of them.

DECEPTION: Montparnasse is willing to play to the assumptions made about him – to an extent. There are people who see him among the other leaders and think it’s some kind of joke. He has been taken as some sort of ‘boy toy’ to the other three on several occasions and has always let the bastard dig their grave before destroying them and brutally setting things straight. If there is a chance for him to use your assumptions of him to his own benefit, he absolutely will.

what they’ve been up to recently:

Montparnasse manages to keep a low profile, shockingly enough. While his reputation proceeds him, unless something Big™ is going down, his pursuits are generally played close to hand. On the regular, he is managing the Minette with the other three and dealing with those who report to him. He is largely involved in their knock off and smuggling dealings, often using the knock offs as a means of transporting other products including counterfeits and drugs.

where to find them:

THE THEATRE: This locale is limited to the heads and upper tier of Patron Minette, and probably Gavroche who is just, you know. Gavroche. This is the main headquarters of the four heads and where Montparnasse spends a good deal of his time organizing jobs and the like.

APARTMENT: Montparnasse has an apartment that is strictly his own and usually frowns on the other Minette showing up at it, or at the very least on them lurking around his doorstep. It’s a small, modern set up that he keeps extremely neat to the point it looks under lived in.

SAFE HOUSES: The Minette have a number of safe houses scattered in and around Paris that the four heads and a handful of their subordinates know about. Most learn about the locations after being brought to one by one of the heads when a situation got too hot.

SOUTH SIDE: Montparnasse does most of his business around the south side of the city in the area of the Montparnasse cemetery because he’s that kind of asshole. This is in the general vicinity of the Musain, so while he doesn’t usually attend the cafe, he does cross paths with its regulars frequently.

current plans:

CRIME: It’s not so much a plan as it as a life style. He’s just doing his day to day in managing his corner of the operation and keeping up his own standard of living through illegal means. He has no interest in the affairs of Les Amis and their lofty aspirations, he’s just focused on number one.

NOT PRISON: He can’t even begin to describe how badly he would like to not go to prison. Getting arrested is one thing, but the idea of an actual prison sentence is the kind of shit he chain smokes over at six in the morning when he’s trying to sleep.

desired interactions:

Montparnasse trying to get himself out of trouble is one of my favorite things in the world and watching him sweet talking his way out of and into anything is always fun. There is so much room to work with Montparnasse and I would love to explore him beyond the guy Les Amis wrinkle their noses at. I want to especially do more with Montparnasse flaunting his dangerous side, more so when it’s around other dangerous characters than the goody goods.

offered interactions:

The bad boy. The asshole. The thief. Montparnasse isn’t pure evil by any means, and he does have his redeeming qualities if you’ve managed to hack away at his 97 defense layers, but he is an antagonistic character. If you ever need someone to play the part of the jerk, he’s here for you. Montparnasse is pretty much the worst qualities of every dude T.Swift has ever sung about rolled up into one pretty, trash prince package.

anything else?:

I love all my alternate verses for Montparnasse, and I will always be excited to explore one of those with you too. Additionally, I have a not-so-secret-secret au option of interacting with older/post-barricade Montparnasse if you want him.