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mcl-alloveragain · 2 years

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[WHAT I THINK WILL HAPPEN IN ARMIN'S ALTERNATE LIFE EP.2??]

So, i think about it a lot (all the time) (even when i'm asleep) (i don't know how i will survive next weeks without knowing it), especially since at the end of the ep.1 Candy asked herself what the hell is she doing, hinting that she's gonna break the kiss, i guess...

And episode 2 in AL Lys and AL Ken was a date episode, where they were talking and getting to know each other again after all this time, so i guess at some point we ARE gonna calm down.

Theoretically it's now Candy's turn to act mature and try to talk to him, but i don't think she's gonna do this... Armin's ego fell somewhere in the middle of the episode, while she was still at it, so i think she need a bit more time...

Scenario no.1

We can start the next episode right when we ended the previous one, in the mall, still kissing. Alexy and Rosalya at this point are probably watching from somewhere around already (Alexy's full of himself because HA! HE WAS RIGHT!!! In your face, Rosa!). We're the one who are breaking the kiss, still angry and also freaking confused, cause why?! Why would we do it?! What's wrong with us?! You don't make the same mistake twice, and dating Armin was a mistake indeed, his behaviour broke our heart and it's even worse now, that we know the reason and we know that all that heartache could be saved if he only confessed earlier, fought for our love. Armin's confused as hell, too, but knowing him, he probably breaks the silence between us with a teasing joke, not especially funny, he's still dizzy. We don't apologize, no, we're doing the first thing our instinct is telling us to do and it's to RUN.

So we run away. We lock ourselves in one of the cabin in the nearest toilet and then process what the hell have happened. We know our feelings for him haven't died (after today it's hard not to know), but it wasn't the reason to kiss him??? What's wrong with us??? Rosalya came in, looking for us, but we don't wanna talk to her. She doesn't give a shit tho, forcing nas to unlock the door and then joining us.

Only while talking to her, we start feeling sadness somewhere under the rage. We quote his "I wanted to show you that i could be good enough" to her cause now it actually makes us feel so bad. How could he think he wasn't good enough for us?? Of course, he kind of was at the point when he barely made any contact with us, but it was way after this stupid idea with Disneyland, just before the break up. What in the first place made him think he has to impress us?

Rosalya is here all the time, listening to us and ready to advice something. She and Alexy heard our most recent fight too, so she has an idea what's going on. She's really the best, we're telling her that. We still don't want to face Armin now tho, we have too much on our mind. We leave the bathroom and luckily, Armin and Alexy are not around, probably talking over the situation somewhere else. Right, Alexy shared his secret with us when he wasn't supposed to. Hope they aren't fighting right now, it was already a tough day, we don't need to make it worse. Rosalya decides to feed us, so we're going to the fast food. We're hungry as hell and hungry doesn't support thinking. Will it be childish if we take something different from our regular order just to prove Armin that he was wrong?? He might even not see us here, so what's the point? We should stop wondering about things this stupid.

Of course Rosalya still has a huge appetite, and she is concerned about the amount of food we want to order and just makes it twice as the mum friend she is would. We sip our strawberry milkshake in silence, lost in the thoughts, while she starts to eat one of four servings of fries. Now she's the one doing talking. She still has our side at most, and she thinks Armin's arguments were stupid, but she agrees with him at one point – we should have told him back them how we felt. Because just as much as we didn't know what was he doing all the time, he didn't know how we felt all the time. We bit our lower lip. But he should at least have an idea about it, shouldn't he?

"But it should be obvious how I felt about it! How would he felt if I suddenly stopped talking to him, visiting, answering calls? What if I had just disappeared as he did, stopped making effort to contact him?" we insist. "He would lost his trust too. He would feel terrible, too."

How come even a strawberry milkshake doesn't make us feel better? We're starting to eat while Rosalya talks again. She does agree with us, but still tries to make us see things from his point of view too. Since when she's so considerate, you ask her butterly, since she was always shitting about Armin too.

"Cause I used to know only your point of view and it is, indeed, making him look bad. Now when I know his side, too... I agree with Alexy. You're both just stupid." Hey! "No, seriously, you guys should talk. You think you can do this?"

Do we? We think about all the nights we spent on crying even while the relationship was still lasting.

"He hurt me" we just say.

"I know. But you hurt him too." Why was she so... So... Ugh, so smart? We don't need smart, it is making it worse. We shake our head.

"I promised myself I won't ever fall for him again" we say quietly. But since we never stopped loving him tho...

"You promised yourself you're going on a diet and look, here we are, eating fast foods" Rosalya jokes. "C'mon girl. I'm not saying you should go and kiss him again and became a couple. But you do have to talk. Clear things up, but this time without yelling at each other. It may be even your last conversation ever, but at least you will be over it".

...last conversation ever? That hit us. Cause we definitely don't want that one conversation to be the last one, even tho it ended with this hot, passionate, amazing kiss... Well, we mean... Uh...

"I guess..." we agreed. C'mon. We're adults, we can talk. We can even kiss again if we wish to do so. It's not a biggie. And we honestly feel bad about the situation now, we should apologize. At least for today, because we have been awful and he was nothing but nice, trying his best not to fight.

"Great!" She suddenly stood up. "Wait here. I know where they are, I'll just send Armin to you!" Without waiting for our answer, she run away, leaving us alone with the table full of food. We wanted to stop her but she gave us no time for this. We didn't want to talk to him NOW!!! No, especially not now! Not after...! Ugh...!!!!

We tried to just clear our mind and not panic, focusing eating out chicken burger and staring at the table and nowhere else, so we won't get nervous when we see him coming. It was the longest few minutes of our live. But then we heard his steps and we felt him stopping near the chair on which Rosalya sat earlier.

"Hi" he said awkwardly. He didn't sound mad. He should, we expected him to. If not mad about the fight, then mad about the kiss, since it was without his consent... Well, if he kissed us back, he theoretically gave us his consent, right? "Can I sit here?"

We nod and he does so. He waits for us to speak up. Is he worried we start to yell tak him again? What exactly did Rosalya tell him?!?!

"Help yourself if you want" we pointed at the food. It was too much for us to eat anyways. He smirked.

"No way. So I do get and invitation to eat with you after all?" He laughs. "Eating together, a kiss... Omg, babe, is that a date?" His playful tone annoyed us a bit, but only because it made us actually feel something warm inside.

"Shut up" we say shortly. "Rosalya paid for all of this anyways, so i'm at least not wasting my money on you"

We bit our tongue too late, it was already said. Shit. We intended to be nice, not mean. Shit shit shit.

"Ouch?" He wanted to tease us again, we know it because we know him, but he stopped himself. Again, what the hell Rosalya must have told him?!

"So..." We took a sip of our cherry cola. "Are you and Alexy alright?" Your question suprised him.

"Why shouldn't we?" He frowned.

"...because he told me about everything?" You reminded him carefully. "He said you might even hate him for this..." Poor Alexy. He meant good. Well, they both meant good, actually. It's just their ideas that sucked.

"Oh, right." That's it? That's the only thing he meant to say? Silence is slowly killing us. We don't look at him, we look at our strawberry milkshake. Maybe we should order a chocolate one instead? We hated its taste, because for us it tasted like sadness in liquid, but maybe that's what we needed right now. "I..." He spoke up again! "Well, I couldn't possibly hated him if it caused you to kiss me, right?" He teased. He teased!

"Sure thing." Two can play this game. "I indeed heard opinions before that my kisses are surely amazing" We just can't blush. Don't blush, Candy, do not blush!!

"How many opinions excatly?" Was he asking about how many guys we have been with since the break up? Damn...

"It doesn't really matter" we were playing with the straw of our drink. "I think... I think we have more important things to talk about"

And we did talked. This conversation was... A lot. As calmly as possible talking about our point of views, fighting the embarrassment when stating out loud the things that hurted us. We tried our best not to cry when we explained that we broke up with him because we thought he didn't love us anymore, because he wasn't showing his love in any way. And we couldn't stop the tears when he said how much the breakup hurt and confused him after all the effort he made to make us the best suprise he thought we deserved, so when he was talking, we just stared down so he wouldn't see our face. We also apologized for today, he forgived us. Even joked about it. But he was also serious, which was new, cause he usually avoided serious talks... Well, he usually avoided serious talks bach then. A lot of things have changed, we guess.

And then it was it. Everything was clear and the silence made things awkward again. And we were out of strawberry milkshake, so nothing could really save us.

"Do you..." We haven't expected Armin to speak up again "Why did you... Why did you kiss me?"

Fuck.

"Why did you kiss me back?" We asked instead. "It takes two to kiss. You could simply push me away"

"I didn't want to push you away"

"Well, you should have"

"Excuse me?" He leaned over the table. "Why should I?"

"Uh, because i'm your ex? And i've been awful to you today? Even said pretty awful things to you just seconds before it have happened?" We argued. "It only makes sense for you to do so"

"So I'm not making a lot of sense then, hm?" He played with a lock of our hair again, just like he did earlier that day. He had this mocking smile of his that i used to love do much... "Since I actually wanted it to happen from the moment I saw you"

He got us speechless for a moment. He can't just be saying things like that like they meant nothing! But we would never let him win.

"Yeah, I know, I got even hotter over the years" I tried to sound confident. "I hear that all the time"

"You're beautiful, indeed." Damnnnnn! Who taught this boy words like that? How would we not blush at this point?!

[they talk a bit, find rosalya and alexy, everybody goes home, time skip to some days later to the date with Armin, for which we agreed to talk about things once again and maybe about last three years and what we were doing too, cute illustration, we're happy. For two illustration choice, two different possible places for a date(like in kentins al)]

Scenario no.2

It's been days.

It's been days and thousands of unanswered calls from Rosalya, twice as much unanswered calls from Alexy. It was annoying, but also understandable, considering the fact that I left the mall without any goodbyes. They must know what have happened. Even if they haven't see the kiss themselves, Alexy found out about it for sure and of course told Rosa as well. We haven't checked any messages from them, we actually cut off from our phone for a while. The fact that university classes started tomorrow wasn't helpful. We were about to see them, after all, and we still didn't know what have happened and what should we tell them. We also started to get hungry, and ordering food to our dormitory was no longer an option since our new roommate, Yeleen, disapproved, and she turned out to be a difficult person overall, and we didn't need to antagonize her. We were going to live with her for a year, so we should try to keep pur relationship at least neutral. And to do so, we were forced to get out. This, or die of hunger. After all, what was the chances to meet any of our friends if we just quickly go to the café and back? Also, we needed to find a job, and they needed a new waitress, so we could already get over it and at least take a look at it. So we went out, a bit stressed out, quickly found our way to the desired place and with relief found no familiar face around. It needed to be done quickly.

We ate some baked goods we ordered and drank one of the best tasting coffee we had in our lives, and then, since there weren't a lot people around, we got up to talk with the only employee that was around, black haired asian boy. He was so nice! We joked with him, he actually explained what are they looking for excatly and how his experiences with this work are, the payments and all of different stuff. We introduced ourselves, his name was Hyun and we actually studied at the same university, just different majors. We started talking about school and people and campus and teachers, and we had such a good time that we actually forgot that we needed to go back as soon as possible. And we regret it soon after, because we see something we definitely haven't expected to see today. All three of them, Rosalya, Alexy and Armin, sitting at cafe terrace. It was a lost case, thay actually noticed us before, staring at us and Hyun through the window while we were talking. We started to sweat. We were afraid to meet just one of them today, and there it is, a combo. We were screwed. Our good mood disappeared and we quickly ordered another coffee to have some excuse to stay inside. We could leave now and they would confront us outside or we could just stay as close to Hyun as possible, praying to God they won't interrupt us. We sat on one of the chairs near the counter and our new friend excused himself for a moment, to take orders from new clients.

"Anyways, about working here, you have to talk to Clemence and she's not at here today." Hyun sighed when he came back. We hoped he hasn't noticed how pale we were.

"It's okay, it's not that urgent for me anyways. I just wanted to ask around first since my last job as a nightmare." We told him. "So you recommend?"

"Yeah, I think it's fine." We could feel the eyes of our friends (and Armin) on our back, but acted like it was nothing.

He started making their orders and we were just watching him, unable to speak. Maybe we should order some cookies. Or maybe, if we asked politely enough, he would let us leave through the back door? Well, all those ideas went to thrash as soon as we heard well known voice behind our back.

"Candy, can we talk?" Armin, really. Couldn't have it be Rosalya, or even Alexy? We would at least know what to tell them. We don't know why we nodded, maybe because it would just look weird if i didn't, so we went to sit at a different table inside.

"What do you want?" We ask quickly and coldly. Don't know if he expected it or not, don't care.

"Could we act like adults, please?" He insisted. "You know that we need to talk."

"We needed to talk three years ago, not now."

"At least one thing we agree on", he snorts. "We would, if you haven't blocked me everywhere!"

"Oh c'mon, if you really wanted to contact me, you would!" We accuse him. "Through someone, or you could even come and talk directly to me, you knew my address!"

"Why would I if you didn't want to see me?!" Armin starts to lose his patience. "Told you already, your message was pretty clear."

"Told you already, you're an asshole."

"Candy..." He runs his fingers through his hair, visibly trying to stay calm.

"No" we don't let him finish his sentence "we already told each other everything!" But we start yelling at him again, repeating the same things as this few days ago. We're even more angry and annoyed now, because confronting him was the last thing we wanted to do today. He listened to it, trying to interrupt a few times but unsuccessfully.

We were just going on and on about how much dumb he was when suddenly, he leaned over the table and kissed us.

We reacted just like him back then, stiffened at first, then kissing back. Mmmm, he tasted like coffee...

Wait, what?! We pushed him back instantly, now sober from his charm.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?!" We hiss.

"Testing your way to shut people up." He says casually, teasing us again. "You were the one to kiss me first, after all."

Our face goes red from anger. Or... Embarrassment? 'Cause holy shit, he was right. We were the one who started it, we had no right to attack him for that. Realisation got us speechless for a moment.

"Well, now we're even", we mutters after a while. "Can I go home now? My life's quite busy", we lie. In our room, the only thing waiting for us was disney+. Well, actually, after finding out disneyland is to blame for our breakup, we think we might switch to netflix.

"No, not until we talk." We hate him.

"We're talking now."

"You know that's not what I mean." He laughs, his laughs sounds so pretty, I hate it too. "Please, don't be difficult."

Now we just want to yell at him again. We bit our tongue.

"Fine, whatever." We stand up. "Hyun, could you please get me some cookies to go?" We ask, going to the counter and then we see terrified face of our new friend. We start to feel pity for him, having to watch this freaking show. We pay for our takeout. We also notice that Rosalya and Alexy actually disappeared, probably right after they got their orders. At least we don't have to face them too.

"Uh, where are we going?" Armin asks, standing right next to us.

"I don't know, somewhere we won't scare their customers away?" We say sarcastically. "The park will do."

We except him to argue about that, he used to hate any outdoors place, but he actually says nothing our whole way there. We eat our cookies, as we always eat something when we're stressed out. He has his both hands hidden in his pockets.

"I'm sorry" he says suddenly. We frowns. We didn't see that coming.

"What?"

"I said I'm sorry." He swallows his ego. "I really am sorry about... About how things ended between us. You... You were right" And again, something we did not expect to hear. "I should have told you something, I could have told you something without spoiling the suprise. I guess I was too... Hyped for it, for making you happy by it, to think it over". He chose his words carefully and we can't help but think that he must have already talked about it with Rosalya and Alexy. Maybe they were the ones who helped him realise that.

We don't say anything, so he continues.

"I would never, ever hurt you intentionally. I had no idea how you felt. I thought everything was great between us. I was too busy and tired with working to notice." Shame in his voice softens our heart. We still say nothing, lost in our thoughts. He waits.

"I'm... I am sorry, too" we admit. Those are the hardest words to ever leave our mouth. But as we say them, we realize that we do mean it. "For dumping you without even trying to talk to you. And for my behaviour last time we saw each other." We mean the in mall. We pause, but he doesn't speak up, he gives us all the time in the world as we walk along the alleys. "I... I really just thought you didn't love me anymore." We stared at the ground.

"I did love you."

Why past tense hurts us so much? We're long over him. We were just fine those last three years, so why now, why him again.

"I didn't know that" we noticed. "You weren't saying so. You weren't doing anything to prove so. Or at least that's how it looked like form my perspective" we whisper. Our ego begs us to stop this right now cause we just embarras ourselves, but we think he deserves to know. Since he was the one who opened up first.

Our conversation actually starts looking like talking, not just bunch of monologues fromm each side. He speaks up about how he felt after the break up, we do the same (he actually does have some idea, since he heard Rosalya's words about her crying for days about it). We heal.

We part at sunset, but he asks us if we're free on next friday evening, so we can continue. We agree, and we are thankful our next meeting with him is in five days, since we have a lot thinking to do. He probably does, too, and that's why he suggested a date so far away. We don't kiss goodnight (Why would we think we would?? Right, we kissed twice, but only to shut each others up! We're not suddenly together!!!). We don't turn around to look at him as we're going straight home. And while we're there, we text Alexy and Rosalya. We don't tell them what we were talking about with Armin and they do not ask, either, which is suspicious but relieving.

[and that's it i guess, and for 2 illustration choices we could idk, choose between park or staying inside, i don't know, i don't care, i just want 'comfort' since we've already got'hurt']

Scenario no.3

Holy shit, holy shit, h o l y s h i t.

"You kisses me" he states. Well no shit, sherlock, we fucking noticed! "Wha-Why did you kiss me?" He demands an answer.

Why would we kiss him? Why the hell have we done that?!?! We panic internally.

"Why did you kiss me back?!" That's the only one defense we could think of. It takes two to kiss, so he couldn't just blame us for it!

"You started it!"

"Well, you haven't stopped it!" We argued. We were the one to start it, but we were also the one to pull off. And he? He not only kissed us back, he hugged us tighter against him, deepened the kiss, added tongue. He was still, in fact, hugging us. We notice it just now and push him away quickly.

"It doesn't change anything?!"

"IT DOES?!?! I just wanted you to shut up already! And what's your reason?!" We yelled.

"IT'S NOT A REASON!?! There are other ways to make someone silent!"

"Just answer mine question!"

"No, because I asked you first!"

We started to fight again. Yelling without even making any sense, screaming, standing dangerously close each other again. We still feel dizzy after the kiss and at this point, we are not even aware of what are we saying.

"oh god YOU BOTH SHUT UP AND KISS AGAIN ALREADY!" Alexy screamed from somewhere behind us. We want to turn around and yell at him too, but Armin has other plans. He cups our face and actually kisses us again, as furiously as before. And we kiss him back immediately, our lips, our body begging us to get even closer to him. So much emotions, good, bad, but most importantly, so much desire... Damn, we missed kissing him so much... And it feels just as good as all those years before, it's the best feeling in the whole world. It actually reminded us of our very first kiss. Back then, we were angry with him as well. Irritated that he preferred to play a video game when we were standing just a few inches away. We accused him of avoiding us even tho we recently got closer than ever, hinting that we don't think he feel about us the same. We started to yell and then he kissed us, totally ignoring the "game over" sound. How come that our argument is now way more serious, but the emotions are excatly the same?!

We end the kiss.

"I... Whoa..." Were we just quoting him? He did said something like that back then, we think.

"Excatly..." And that was what we said. So he associated the two situations as well... He remembers as well...

How could we think he don't? He remembers even something as small and irrelevant as our regular order. And our first kiss was a big deal. We shouldn't have doubtet it.

"I haven't planned this", we continued this game. We remember him saying something about not having this in his schedule, but changed the words to suit me more. "But it was nice. I guess"

We couldn't care less about ruining everything and quoting ourselves this time.

"You 'guess'...?" His mocking smile, his freaking mocking smile that we hate so much. That we love so much. He pulls us closer against him. "I can do better, if you want."

Yes, please. Actually, no. We are the one to kiss him again, more gently this time. And it feels so, so good, but also so, so bad. We shouldn't be doing this.

"Told ya my idea was great." Alexy is so full of himself while interrupting us. Rosalya seems confused, but happy. We know she's gonna ask us bunch of questions later.

"It really was not" we tease, making both his and his brother's smile to fall. "We still haven't talked. So if you guys could just leave us alone..."

"Sure thing, babe." Rosalya takes Alexy's arm and they disappear soon after. We look at Armin.

"So... Talk, huh?" He caresses our cheek.

"I think...", we whisper, "i think talking can wait".

And we kiss him again.

[and again. aaand again. but they have to talk at some point, they have to think things over because everything happened way too quickly. so just as in other scenarios, they decided to meet some other day, alone, there is a time skip to the date and they do talk seriously and make everything clear before starting a possible relationship again.]

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I'm sorry for any mistakes, english is not my native language and i'm still learning it!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻 i just wanted to write it so badly and i hope you can forgive me hahahha

I need fluff. Like, we already had our "💣💥❤️‍🔥", now i want a "🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️", i need fluffy hurt/comfort, i need them being lovesick again sjoshsokajshsj

Let me know which of those scenarios would you like the most buahahahh

The best thing is, not a thing from this gonna happen. I know i said in the title that it might but, oh well, i lied ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

We probably get something different, hopefully even more cheesy and fluffy because we deserve it kaksksjsjs

(I used plural pronouns because i always talk like that when i'm playing, referring to both my Candy and me. It just came natural, i guess?? I don't know if it makes much sense tho skskkxks i was just speaking in the names of all the Candies in the world lololololol)