#as long as stsc was happy and very much In Love

[frecklystars]

A couple weeks ago, I commissioned Eronposts on Twitter to draw some Saving Starlight StarKeri’s and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA LOOK HOW PRETTY WE ARE 🥺😭😭💞💓💗💕💕💟💝💘💓💖💖💓💞💕

[bougiebutchbitch]

Hi Bougie!! ;w; ahh I hope you've been doing well!! I'm so happy to see you enjoying a new hyperfixation, that's wonderful!! I haven't watched Naruto but I love seeing anything that makes you happy :]

I was just thinking abt u! I hope it's okay I wanted to say hi!! I rarely have the chance to read fic, but I've had a really rocky couple of months; normally I grasp onto whatever character is marinating in my brain for comfort, and. well!! you know how I feel about your Starscreams!! So I actually gave myself the chance to read a little bit of CBTY on my lunch break the other day, and it just. it calmed me down so much. I only got to read the first few chapters but it felt so damn soothing to read abt how stsc wanted to keep going even when the whole universe was against him, and that's exactly what I needed that day. I'm so damn picky about how people write him and I really don't think anybody can do it like you can, and I'm not just saying that. You write him as he is: a terrible person who does terrible things, who does not have meaningful relationships and when he does have them he still finds a way to ruin them or the other person ends up leaving somehow... but, that's GREAT because when the positive/warmer moments happen between him and anyone else at all, then it's actually believable, and monumental, because it's such a big step for him to take!! to grow!! I hope I made sense sdlfjksdf I'm sorry to bring up transformers when it's not what you're currently Into™ but I rly rly just wanted to say hi and thank you again for taking the time to write about the things you care about. Writing is hard, drawing is hard, creating is hard, at least for me; it takes a lot of energy but I'm so happy that you take the time and energy to create things because they're beautiful things and you've brightened up my whole world with them. I've been holding onto your writing so tightly to help me get through some really rough retail jobs and it's been working wonders to think about the worlds you've built and stories you've created when I am doing a 13 hour shift and very much in need of thinking of Something Good.

I don't have enough words to describe how comforting it is to read your stories, regardless of who or what they're about... it feels like I'm there and like it's all tangible and it settles in my chest, and I can read everything in every character voice. I'm hoping to get into the habit of reading at least one chapter of anything you write during my lunch breaks!! Even the things I don't know about!! I will follow you across any and all fandoms. I took a moment to read a little bit of your Naruto fic and I don't even really know who's who, but like. the way you describe them!! makes me feel like I don't HAVE to know who they are because I can GET to know them well enough through the way you introduce them and hhh I don't know how to properly convey how much I love your stuff but please know I LOVE YOUR STUFF I love your stuff I LOVE YOUR STUFF. You don't have to reply to this btw I know it was long and random and messy but, know that you have a little piece of the stars out there who loves your creations and drinks literally every single word in like it's their second oxygen <3 -🌟

WIBBLES <3 Starburst anon my darling! It's always so very lovely to hear from you. Awwwww, as always, you are so very lovely!!

I'm so sorry you've had a rough couple of months. I'm so glad CBTY gave you a little bit of comfort~ It really is so soothing to dive deep into your comfort characters and hyperfixations and let yourself steep! And gosh please don't worryyyy my hyperfixations never really leave - even when I'm neck-deep in another fandom a part of my heart will always remain with everything else I've ever loved! And I love Starscream so very much.

You're 100% right: it's all about the growth! He's such a wonderfully awful, miserable bastard who is handed a terrible hand in life - but who also makes things worse for himself constantly, though his mind's so warped he struggles to see it. Giving him space to slooooooowly emerge from the self-defensive, self-aggrandizing shell he's built up around him over MILLIONS of years under Megatron is still wonderful! I think about CBTY so muuuuuuch - it just sparks my executive dysfunction a lot, because I wanna write a whole other novel's worth of content for it, and I Do Not Have The Energy, alas sdkfjglskdjg. I just gotta remind myself that I can take it slowly, and a chapter at a time, and maybe then it won't feel so daunting...

I am giving you so many cuddles. 13 hour shifts sound like hell! If my stories can bring you a little comfort, that's honestly so incredible to know. And dkljsfkhsldfgkjdshg LOOK I AM SO VERY TOUCHED THAT YOU WOULD PROD AT FANDOMS YOU DON'T KNOW FOR MY WRITING. Seriously, that is the greatest compliment anyone could ever give! I'm hugging myself and dancing on my chair here. Just - AHHHHHHHHHHHH <3

I am sending so many twinkling stars to youuuu~

🌟

[frecklystars]

Hey Keri! For the wedding ring metal;

not sure which continuity (I think IDW), had Decepticons make their badges from a piece of their spark chamber casing. I don't think Starscream would go that far for the cause, but for you he'd probably get knockout to help him... Not 100% sure about it though, I'd suggest you look into it, but yea, food for thought!!

A PIECE OF THEIR FUCKING SPARK CHAMBER???? MY GOD.... HOLY SHIT.... bro that would be such dedication... oh my god what the fuck their spark chamber?? I'm losing my mind over this!!

but THANK YOU, thank you for taking the time to reach out for my self indulgent silly little fantasy about marrying a fictional character who most likely would not want to marry anyone but I'm sappy. I will absolutely think about the spark chamber thing, I mean, it's probably silver-ish in there, right?? And there's something romantic about saying "hey this is literally made from the material that encases the essence of my very soul that I'm LITERALLY binding to you for eternity" like I'm sorry I'M STILL LOSING MY MIND OVER THAT. THEIR SPARK CHAMBER CASING???

[frecklystars]

hello helloooo!! apparently i had missed you answering my ask up until i scrolled through your 'ask' tag to check :')

and so I've just been binging your fic tag for the last half hour or so! Im not the most knowledgeable on Transformers anymore but i enjoyed reading through it all!! Keri and Starscream's first meeting was definitely not a meet-cute but the last few lines of that drabble made me chuckle a bit, i absolutely love the development of their relationship and it was very nice to read through your stuff! I'd love to see more in the future whenever you have the time to!! 💕

-🥄

Hello spoon anon!! 💕💕

Completely understandable, I take a few weeks to get to my inbox sometimes + when I start answering asks I answer maybe a dozen of them all at once at like... 2 in the morning sldfjlsdf but AHHH this is so kind, thank you!! 🥺🥺 I am so flattered you actually read them all, I'm so so happy you enjoyed them, thank you!!!! That's so touching, esp bc I'm not super confident in my writing yet so it's reassuring that you like it!! ;u;

I'm really glad you liked those last few lines in that fic, because I'm so proud of that exchange and I'm certain I'll never write anything as funny again 😂 thank you!!! I love the StarKeri dynamic because it shows how much they love each other through the growth from their early interactions alone, how much they both had to go through to get to a point where they could trust each other let alone love each other. Probably the most slowburn relationship I've ever written sdflkjsdlf

It was so hard for me to finally settle on a solid "this is how it happens" plan for their relationship to blossom because Starscream canonically hates humans to their very core, and has zero friends. The idea of STSC looking at any other mech and befriending them long enough to romance them is laughable, let alone falling for any HUMAN is laughable. And yet? It happens??? It shocks him, it shocks her, shocks everybody who witnesses it and even many years down the road shocks new Cybertronians who arrive on the reborn planet and point to the statues of the newest Lord and Lady while saying "wow that's wild bro, who fraggin' knew??"

Lots of tiny tiny TINY miniscule moments happen between them after their first meeting... where he doesn't swipe to kill her and she DOESN'T immediately run from him, leading up to six months later (maybe? still working on numbers) that they're caved in together (in the Rock Bottom episode) and they each indirectly save each other's life without really MEANING to but it happens and it eats at Starscream a little too much for his own liking. Keri is like "oh good we're becoming closer, maybe we can be friends :)" while he's internally having a mini-crisis and trying to mentally shove the memories into his short-term processing files.

Once he's rogue in s2 they start hanging out together more, he's gentle when holding her, he's memorized her playlist, he starts associating her with flowers and bunnies and thunderstorms, and after many many moons go by, he realizes he's caught *gasp* the fee-fees...

ANYWAY my rambling aside, thank you for supporting my works!!! ;w; I have a couple mini-fics that I've queue'd for this Wednesday because you've totally motivated me to keep at it and I was able to type up some short stuff earlier today!! So for real, thank you for your sweetness!! It means the whole world to me and it felt really good to get back into creating for myself again 🥰💖💖💖

[frecklystars]

Hi, uhhh, do you have a specific tag for your Saving Starlight AU? Because I've low-key been thinking about the 2 of you ALL DAY and just. Thinking your loved one is dead? Looking for them anyway? The LONGING? THE ANGST? THE EVENTUAL SAPPY REUNION AND HURT/COMFORT? THE EMOTIONS???? YES PLEASE.

(nevermind. AU tag located. I will now proceed to burn through it and lie in bed all night thinking about you doofuses. Have a nice day!)

HELLO SWEET ANON!! This message made my day, oh my God. ALL DAY? That is so sweet!! I didn’t think anyone was really interested in my AU sldjfdslf!!! I haven’t even posted much about it yet because there’s so many layers to it, but YES the tag you’ve found (💕 Everything I did to get to you 🌟🌸) is the ship name for me and RiD2015 Starscream, and in that tag you’ll find a lot of posts relating to missing someone and grieving over them for sure.

Fun fact!! It’s called “Saving Starlight AU” because my S/I’s nickname is “starlight” or “starlight princess” by mostly everyone in the series (except STSC, he calls me his little starflower because he feels it’s much more unique and special) and everyone is like “we gotta save our starlight!” EXCEPT. LITTLE DO THEY KNOW. I’m saving MY Starlight!!! I’m saving STARSCREAM!!! He got some, in my opinion, horrible and undeserved endings in both TFP and its sequel series Robots in Disguise (2015). I literally hate TFP season 3 + the movie AND RiD2015 SO MUCH that I’m re-writing it and making it a bad timeline that will be erased. We are out here literally saving each other!! >:D

ANOTHER fun fact!! The ship name is inspired by the song 🌟 Everything I Did to Get to You by Ben Platt!! 🌸 The very minute I heard the song, it flooded me with all these ideas to rewrite a much better ending for Starscream in RiD2015, and it’s been really special to me ever since!! I think the specific date was around June 22nd actually...?

I’ll give you a little bit of info, but eventually I will post artwork + official story information one day that’s a lot easier to follow, if you’re interested! :D

Basically the premise is, my self insert has a time traveling watch that makes her “jump” between dimensions! The watch makes her jump into a certain dimension (in this case, the TFP universe), and the watch “breaks” and refuses to let her out of the universe until she “fixes” it, basically once the story is complete and there’s a happy ending! 

Well one day, in the middle of the TFP universe, she just-- poof!! Disappears!! Her watch transports her into another universe, even tho she didn’t finish the current one. This is super odd and this has never happened to her before. The Autobots and Decepticons are like “we haven’t seen Keri in WEEKS is she okay??” and each side kind of makes their own search parties. Starscream is in RUINS because he’d only just started dating my S/I at this point, and he’s like “wow the first time I ever truly grow to fall in love with someone and they disappear into thin air just like that?? UNACCEPTABLE” and he keeps the Red Energon necklace he made for me on him at ALL times. 

Two years pass, and I’m still kinda working on this part, but Megatron can’t feel the Dark Energon that connected Keri and him together pulsing within his spark anymore. It’s maybe two years later at this point. He’s like “oh. she’s dead. that’s it then.” he’s devastated but he isn’t gonna let it show, so he walks onto the warship and is like “cease all search parties. we’re done here” and Starscream scoffs and goes “What? That’s it? You’re giving up??” and Megatron just glares at him and warns him that no one is to ever bring Keri’s name up ever again.

I could write everyone’s reaction but it’d take way too long, I’ll just focus on Starscream: he stands up to Megatron for the first time in a long time, and he’s definitely punished for it. Megatron has a few breakdowns but most of them are in the privacy of his habsuite, but everyone on the ship kind of knows he isn’t gonna get over what happened. Nothing in canon changes from that point forward-- my self insert isn’t there to change anything, after all! Season 3 stays the same. The movie stays the same. The sequel series, TFP RiD2015, stays the same.... until.

Poof!! Keri has actually been in the RiD2015 universe this whole time!! That show takes place 5 years after TFP-- she wasn’t actually there for literal years though! She just jumped forward in time. She lands on the same vessel that Starscream is on (he has a completely different form/design in this show) and she’s like “!!! That guy sounds exactly like Starscream, but he looks nothing like him?? but I’m in an unfamiliar dimension so I need to find an ally REALLY FAST”

Starscream sees her, and he thinks it’s just another ghost. He’s been seeing little “visions” of Keri for the last seven years now, and when he’d try to touch them, they’d evaporate. He hears her voice. He still has her necklace with him all the time. He’s hurting. 

He’s really crushed when she starts calling his name, he’s like “wow this one REALLY hurts, she’s calling me Starlight and everything. if I close my eyes it’ll go away” until she runs into his arms and he breaks because oh my god she’s so soft? She smells like vanilla? She’s real? She isn’t disappearing like all the hazy memories in his head have been doing for the last seven years??

The rest of the story is basically my self insert, uhhh inserting into those three episodes he’s in! And instead of him being presumed dead or in an indefinite catatonic state and sent off to prison, she’s like “oh fuck that” and brings him back to life with her magical star powers (because seriously what is the point of me self inserting and being indulgent if I’m not gonna make myself have cool star powers that can bring my f/os back to life??) and it really focuses on Optimus and Bee sort of... waking up and realizing “oh shit our morals have totally gone out of whack since Keri went missing huh” because in canon, they really didn’t care abt Starscream. They treated him as some iredeemable monster, even though he didn’t even?? do anything wrong at first?? he was like “I want revenge on Megatron for abusing me” and they were like “wow Starscream you seem like the worst piece of shit to ever exist. worse than unicron, actually. we’re not even gonna let you explain yourself we’re just gonna take you down immediately” and Starscream is like “what?? I have just been SITTING HERE--”

so anyway!! It’s still definitely a work in progress but once I start drawing pictures I’ll be able to explain the story a lot more clearly than my scatterbrain is able to do right now LOL. Your message made my day, anon!! Thank you so much for being interested and if you actually read this far, you’re a rockstar!! 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟