#bad antogast | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

mojput-mypath · 6 years

Text

DE-TOXIN’

DOUBTING THOMAS

Since 2013, I have started to use Ayurveda as a means of healing my body. I was in India and it was easy, I could often go for check-ups and the doctor would keep changing my therapy according to need. I had one year in India, so it was a slow, yet useful process for me. I also did sessions of cranio-sacral therapy, advised by my Ayurveda doctor. I also went to see the Ayurveda eye doctor, he told me my eyesight could be improved with treatments and also gave me some mudras I could do to improve not only my eyesight but my body strength as well. I went to the Ayurveda dentist, and he told me my immunity is low, giving me chyawanprash (an immunity-booster paste), and some other powders and pastes I used to rub on my gums with honey or brush my teeth with, saving my then-rotting-tooth for about 6 months. The moment I came to Europe (different food and no more ayurvedic powders), I had to have the tooth pulled out. Ayurveda seemed to look at the body and mind and emotions as a whole, whether it was the dentist or the eye doctor, or general physician.

I have been recommended to do a “Detox” or any form of Panchakarma (ayurvedic treatments). At the time I had little money and no time and felt these are “just some massages”. I had the opportunity to visit friends in the Ayurveda hospital while they were doing the treatments and they did not seem very happy. Later they told me it was good, but you had to keep the recommended food and lifestyle in order to keep the light feeling, so I was not very impressed.

Even though many of you might think of me as: “Well, there’s a true believer”. I am super sceptical and believe things only when I have myself experienced them.

Even then, in 2013, the doctor was telling me to go to the hospital for treatments, but it took me another 5 years before I actually did it. I needed some persuasion. I went to see Ayurveda doctors regularly all these years, taking supplements and following the eating and lifestyle habits as much as I could at the given time. I trusted their advice more and more, as I saw that the more I followed the recommendations, the better I felt.

At a particular moment I was following ALL the advice of the doctors. Yet, I was still unwell. Some things were not getting resolved. The last two years, every time an Ayurveda doctor “checked my pulse”, the reaction was: You must do a Detox. I have already formed an opinion on these “Detoxes” and thought they were just too expensive, in India, as it is far away, including travel expenses, or in Europe where it was far too much for my budget.

I started to think Ayurveda is quite useless, so what should I do? As I came to trust it more and more, I knew that I would probably just do it one day. My doubts were about how expensive it was, whether it was really so useful and is it more like a spa holiday, rather than healing the body. Could it really help?

TOX-IN -> TOX-OUT

I knew I in-toxified quite a lot as a kid, and knowing that toxins are not only chemicals brought in from the outside, but also that the body creates toxins out of stress, mental or emotional. I knew that, if not choosing allopathic medicine, this would have to be it. Five days of “Detox”, here I am.

I will not share all the details here, as it is an experience to have on one’s own, but I will attempt to depict what I felt in a most non-spoiler manner. It started off kind of easy, I had physical sensations for sure, but nothing that I have not already experienced during all the harmful intoxication I did, now many years ago. I went through all of them, and somehow it was not so difficult for me. I took this time to really not do anything, and I took care that others would not involve me in any work discussions.

To be totally honest, I had to hide a little to make the point of people understanding I needed some alone time. It worked! I felt gentle, soft, sensitive, fragile, yet took good care that I don’t bring more stress than needed into the experience. I noticed a few things, how emotions come suddenly and wildly, and disappear in the same speed, like nothing ever happened. I also noticed how my mind was craving for entertainment. How easily we fall into watching TV, listening to music, chatting, without ever giving some rest to the mind. Mind is like a magnet, searching constantly for something to stick on and be amused by, and in the end gets worn out, tired easily.

WEIRD MAGICAL SUPER-HERBS; YAY!

I said not to spoil too much, and I am sure you could Google what is done in Panchakarma (I am guessing what we do here in Germany is just some parts of it), but let me tell you about my own experience. On the first days, you take some herbs. Magical super-herbs that drain all the toxins from your body. I could actually feel them work inside me! How amazing is that? You take a small amount, a mixture of herbs, that pull all the toxins out of your system! How simple! Of course, the doctor decides what exactly to take, what amount, when, for how long, etc. These days I had the time to allow the process to happen in my body and during that time I was allowed, or encouraged to colour pictures, more specifically, mandalas.

:::Lovely materials:::

In the process, which I absolutely loved, and coloured-in quite a few, revealed for me many insights. I felt how artists must feel when creating. Allowing the creativity to flow while practicing and practising and practising (whether music, or painting or knitting or anything else). I had so much more focus and awareness of the colours, the shapes. I could feel the nuances and allow my fingers to choose the next colour and my eyes to flow to the next area I would colour. I saw nuance and knew contrast. I felt the beauty of doing and doing. Just doing. Not waiting or struggling to finish. I enjoyed every single moment. The little details of working with coloured pencils vs. markers. How they both reacted with paper, and print. How the more you press the colour pencil, the more colour will come out. But the more you press, the more your hand hurts soon after, so you can sometimes use layers, and sometimes press. Colouring was like a dance with myself. Beauty yet undiscovered.

:::Bed exhibition:::

MY BUDDY BODY

Another point that was completely re-discovered for me, was the relationship with my body. The Ayurveda (Ayur-veda: knowledge of life) Detox is made in such a way that treatments are given together with advice or rules of conduct. The entire time you are supervised by therapists as well as the doctor and provided with everything you might need. Yet, to use the rules to your benefit, you must listen very carefully to your body. With surgical precision, or awareness. If you go too much in one direction, you are in trouble. If you indulge your craving, you are in trouble. If you suppress whatever is coming, physical or mental or emotional, you are in trouble. Being in trouble just means it creates a little more discomfort for you, it can be avoided if you really put all your attention on the body.

The doctor gives instructions in every given moment and can help you get out of trouble and explain how things work, but it is about you, you are the only one who can really feel and know your own body. No-Body can know Your-Body better than you. It brings total awareness and complete responsibility. Such a mind-blowing setting, Ayurveda, you rock!

One more thing I could observe during this time is to see and feel and make use of my body as if it were a temple. This we usually mention when talking about sex, and for sure, this attitude should be applied. With food, and what we use on the body as well – yes, my body is as sacred as a temple; How much do I love it, appreciate it, how much care do I have for it? What kind of food do I take? What creams do I use? My body is sacred! I just looooove this God-given-gift! I want to take good care of it. It is my personal temple.

:::The view from my little sanctuary:::

THE AYURVEDA DETOX IS AMAZING

Then there are more things that are included in the detox, but I would not like to spoil anyone’s surprise. I wondered during this time, whether there is any kind of detox program in Western medicine? One that has no harmful side-effects for other than the body system that is being detoxified? Is there a wholesome detox at all? I do use Western-based medicine for short-term solutions, like a blocked nose, migraine pain, blood results, x-ray and similar. I do trust it with some miraculous modern discoveries, like prosthetics, by-passes, organ-donation-based procedures. But I would not put my entire health in the hands of mostly invasive treatments. I have made use of it, and in many cases it has helped acutely, but not long-term. Too soon to tell yet, and of course, I have been using natural medicine for most of my problems for years to keep them in balance. It is to be seen how it will come out in the long run.

In short, I would recommend the Ayurveda Detox itself, along with all other Ayurveda practices, as non-invasive, individual body-aligned and deeply purifying. I am ever so grateful for the much-needed rest, for the silent observation of my own body, mind and emotions and for the truly spiritually enriching experience it also provides.

I cannot recommend anything I have not experienced myself. In the internet provider shop I used to work, I would honestly tell people - if they lived in an area where the Internet was crap - that the Internet was crap. People loved my honesty and would often buy the packages just because they felt safe. Definitely true that my experience is my own, and that is only what I can share here.

As per the money issue, I just had a conversation with someone who payed 12,000$ for a three-week detox. That is around 500€ per day, for three weeks! Ayurveda Detox in Bad Antogast is a short 3 or 5 or 7 days program, it is less than 200€ per day (depends also on your accommodation preferences), includes food, treatments, care and all other details mentioned above. My budget must afford it! For the naturalness of the processes, the purity of the products used and the care the staff provides, I now feel it is cheap! Affordable, at the least. This is how much I love my body! This is how much Ayurveda is effective!

I feel like a new-born baby, with all the capabilities and faculties of a healthy and strong grown-woman. Ever so pure again…

:::A little tired still from the process, but undoubtedly calmer and happier:::

#detox #detoxification #ayurveda #srisri ayurveda #sri sri ravi shankar #bad antogast #art of living european centre

1 note · View note

webbkamera · 6 years

Text

Bad Antogast: Buchkopfturm − Oppenau-Maisach − Schwarzwald − Blick nach Westen

Webcam by foto-webcam.eu

Europa, Tyskland, Bad Antogast

from Senast adderade webkameror http://ift.tt/2zPyq2i

#webbkameror #Senast adderade webkameror

0 notes

willio · 8 years

Photo

Spring to snow in one day.

#bad antogast #Black forest #Germany #travel #winter #snow

1 note · View note

ayurvedainitiative-blog · 9 months

Text

From Germany

Weekly Knowledge # 1⃣ 8⃣ 9⃣

Bad Antogast

26 Jan 1999

Germany

STIMULATING THE SOUL

When a part of the body is stimulated, pleasure arises. When your soul is stimulated, love arises. Love has no end but pleasure ends. Often people think pleasure is love. Distinction between pleasure and love has to be understood, only the luckiest one will understand.

Like you eat sugar and stimulate the tongue, music stimulates the ears and sight stimulates the eyes. And what stimulates the soul? Sadhana and Satsang is what stimulates the soul!

All that one wants is the stimulation of the soul. Even a faint idea of it keeps life going. Every other stimulus is on the surface. The stimulus of the soul energizes and the stimulus of the body brings tiredness. Every stimulus should lead you to the self so that when you listen to music, you transcend the music, and when you listen to Knowledge it takes you to the Silence

🌸Jai Guru Dev🌸

साप्ताहिक ज्ञानपत्र १८९

26 जनवरी, १९९८

जर्मनी

आत्मा का उद्दीपन

शरीर के किसी अंग को उत्तेजित करने से मज़ा आता है, सुख का आभास होता है। जब तुम्हारी आत्मा का उद्दीपन होता है, प्रेम जागता है। प्रेम अनंत है, सुख सीमित है, खत्म हो जाता है। प्रायः व्यक्ति समझते है कि सुख ही प्रेम है। सुख और प्रेम के फर्क को समझना है। यह भेद केवल भाग्यशाली ही समझ सकता है।

जैसे चीनी जीभ को उत्तेजित करती है, संगीत कानों को और दृष्टि आंखों को, आत्मा को क्या उत्तेजित करता है? साधना और सत्संग से आत्मा उद्दीप्त होती है।

हर व्यक्ति को सिर्फ आत्मा का उद्दीपन ही चाहिए। उसकी एक हल्की सी झलक भी जीवन को गतिमान रखती है। बाकी सभी उत्तेजक सतह पर है।

आत्मा की उत्तेजना ऊर्जा लाती है और शरीर की उत्तेजना थकान देती है।

हर उत्तेजक तुम्हें आत्मा की ओर ले जाए-

ताकि जब तुम संगीत सुनो, तुम संगीत के परे जाओ,

और जब तुम ज्ञान सुनो, तुम मौन में आ जाओ।

🌸जय गुरुदेव🌸

#Rejuvenate yourself with Ayurveda and Yoga Campaign #Nadi Pariksha #ayurveda #dombivli #kalyan #ulhasnagar #ambernath #badlapur #thakurli #Mumbai

0 notes

ayurvedainitiative-blog · 9 months

Text

From Germany

Weekly Knowledge # 1⃣ 8⃣ 8⃣

Bad Antogast

21 Jan 1999

Germany

WELCOMING AND RESISTING

Do you welcome all that comes to you or do you resist it? If you cannot resist anything, you cannot welcome anything! You cannot resist everything and you cannot welcome everything!

You don't welcome all thoughts that come to your mind. When you welcome a thought, it means you find it good and act on it. If you act on all thoughts that come to your mind, you will end up in a mental hospital or in prison. So, you resist or ignore some thoughts and welcome other thoughts. You need discrimination in life. Welcoming and resisting is a swing in life.

Welcoming is essential for expansion and growth, and resistance is essential for maintenance.

Audience: But what you resist persists!

Guruji: If you resist a cold it does not persist! If there is no resistance in your body you cannot survive. Your body resists something and welcomes something.

Where the resistance is weak, the persistence happens. A weak resistance makes the opposition persist. A strong resistance erases the opposition. Strong resistance leads to valour, power and samadhi (equanimity). It brings in you the strength of a warrior. Nothing can tempt you, nothing can obstruct you. Then the victory is gained without fighting. Where there is strong resistance or total welcome, the victory is gained without any fighting.

🌸Jai Guru Dev🌸

साप्ताहिक ज्ञानपत्र १८८

२१ जनवरी, १९९८

जर्मनी

स्वागत और प्रतिरोध

सब-कुछ जो तुम्हे मिल रहा है , क्या तुम उनको स्वीकार करते हो या उनका प्रतिरोध करते हो? यदि ��ुम प्रतिरोध नहीं कर सकते , तो तुम स्वीकार भी नहीं कर सकते। सभी चीजों को तुम स्वीकार नहीं कर सकते और न ही सबका प्रतिरोध।

मन में आने वाले सभी विचारो को तुम स्वीकार नहीं करते। जब तुम किसी विचार को स्वीकार करते हो, इसका मतलब वह तुम्हे अच्छा लगा और तुम उसके अनुसार कार्य करते हो। मन में ��ठने वाले सभी विचारो के अनुसार यदि तुम कार्य करोगे, तो तुम या तो पागलखाने में पहुंचोगे या जेल में। तो कुछ विचारो का तुम प्रतिरोध करते हो या उन पर ध्यान नहीं देते और कुछ दूसरे विचारो का स्वागत करते हो।

जीवन में विवेक की आवश्यकता है। स्वीकार और प्रतिरोध जीवन के अंग है।

विस्तार और उन्नति के लिए स्वीकृति जरुरी है,

पालन-पोषण के लिए प्रतिरोध आवश्यक है।

श्रोतागण: लेकिन जिसका प्रतिरोध करते है , उसकी दृढ़ता तो नहीं रहती है..

श्री श्री: जुकाम का प्रतिरोध करने पर जुकाम टिकता नहीं। यदि तुम्हारे शरीर में कोई प्रतिरोध ही नहीं, तो तुम जीवित नहीं रह सकते। तुम्हारा शरीर कुछ चीजों का प्रतिरोध करता है और कुछ का स्वागत।

प्रतिरोध जहाँ कमजोर होता है, स्थिति जो की त्यों नहीं रहती है, विरोध बना ही रहता है। प्रबल प्रतिरोध विरोध को मिटाता है। प्रबल प्रतिरोध से शक्ति, समता, शौर्य और समाधि की प्राप्ति होती है। यह तुममें एक योद्धा की शक्ति लाता है। कुछ भी तुम्हे प्रलोभित नहीं कर सकता, कोई बाधा रोक नहीं सकती। तब विजय बिना लाडे ही होती है। जहाँ पूर्ण स्वीकृति हो या प्रबल प्रतिरोध, वहाँ विजय बिना संघर्ष के प्राप्त होती है।

🌸जय गुरुदेव 🌸

#Rejuvenate yourself with Ayurveda and Yoga Campaign #Nadi Pariksha #ayurveda #dombivli #kalyan #ulhasnagar #ambernath #badlapur #thakurli #Mumbai

0 notes

ayurvedainitiative-blog · 9 months

Text

From Germany

Weekly Knowledge #1⃣8⃣7⃣

Bad Antogast

13 Jan 1999

Germany

DO YOU TEST GOD, OR DOES GOD TEST YOU?

Testing is part of ignorance. You only test that of which you are not sure. If God is testing you, that means God doesn't´ know you well enough. How could people ever think that God is testing them?

God does not test you because he knows you in and out and your past, present and future. He knows your strengths and weaknesses and he alone gives you strength. He doesn't test you.

Only you can test yourself. Only when you do not have confidence, then you test. If you are confident, why would you test? If you are testing yourself, you do not know yourself.

Are you testing God?

God will never pass your test because He will never show up for your test. If He shows up for your test, then He is not God (laughter).

Whether you get this or not - just laugh!

🌸Jai Guru Dev🌸

साप्ताहिक ज्ञानपत्र १८७

१३ जनवरी, १९९९

जर्मनी

क्या तुम प्रभु की परीक्षा लेते हो या प्रभु तुम्हारी परीक्षा लेते है?

परीक्षा लेना अज्ञानता का हिस्सा है। तुम केवल उसी की परीक्षा लेते हो जिसके प्रति तुम निश्चित नहीं हो। यदि ईश्वर तुम्हारी परीक्षा लेते है, उसका अर्थ है वे तुम्हे अच्छी तरह जानते नहीं। लोग यह सोच भी कैसे सकते है कि ईश्वर उनकी परीक्षा ले रहे है?

ईश्वर तुम्हारी परीक्षा नहीं लेते, क्योकि वे तुम्हे अंदर और बाहर, अच्छी तरह से जानते है-तुम्हारा भूत, वर्तमान और भविष्य । वे तुम्हारे सामर्थय और कमजोरियों को जानते है और केवल वे ही तुम्हे बल देते है। वे तुम्हारी परीक्षा नहीं लेते।

केवल तुम ही अपनी परीक्षा ले सकते हो। तुम परीक्षा तभी लेते हो जब तुम्हे विश्वास नहीं रहता। यदि तुम्हे भरोसा है, तुम परीक्षा क्यों लोगे? यदि तुम अपनी परीक्षा ले रहे हो, तो तुम खुद को नहीं जानते।

क्या तुम ईश्वर की परीक्षा ले रहे हो?

ईश्वर तुम्हारी परीक्षा में कभी सफल नहीं होंगे क्योकि वे तुम्हारी परीक्षा के लिए प्रकट ही नहीं होंगे। यदि वे तुम्हारी परीक्षा के लिए उपस्थित हो, तो वे ईश्वर नहीं। (हंसी)

चाहे यह बात समझ में आए या नहीं - बस हंसो !

🌸जय गुरुदेव🌸

#Rejuvenate yourself with Ayurveda and Yoga Campaign #Nadi Pariksha #ayurveda #dombivli #kalyan #ulhasnagar #ambernath #badlapur #thakurli #Mumbai

0 notes

ayurvedainitiative-blog · 9 months

Text

From Germany

Weekly Knowledge #1⃣8⃣6⃣

Bad Antogast

06 Jan 1999

Germany

BLISS

Bliss cannot be understood. It is extremely difficult to get into bliss. After many lifetimes you get into bliss. It is even more difficult to get out of bliss. All that you seek in your life is bliss, that divine union with your source, and everything else in the world distracts you from that goal. There are a zillion things to distract you from that goal in so many ways. So many unexplainable, incomprehensible ways of not coming home.

The mind is kept alive by cravings and aversions - shoulds or should nots and wants. Only when the mind dies does the bliss dawn. Bliss is the abode of all divinity, all devas. It is possible only in this human body to comprehend, to uphold, and having had a human life and having known this path, if you still do not realize this - you are at the greatest loss. The cravings and aversions make your heart hard. There is no use in being polite in your behavior. You can be rude in your behavior but you cannot be rough in your heart. If you are rude in your behavior, it is acceptable, but not if you are rough in your heart. The world does not care how you are inside. It only looks to your behavior. The Divine does not care how you are outside – It only looks to your inside. Never let any tiny bit of dislike or craving house in your heart. Let it be fresh, soft and fragrant like a rose.

It is such an illusion – you dislike someone or something, and this only makes you hard and your hardness takes a long time to soften, to disappear. It is such a trap for keeping you away from the treasure. Nothing in this material world can give you contentment. An outer-looking mind seeking for contentment gets discontented and the discontentment grows, and complaints and negativity start hardening the brain, clouding the awareness (the aura), and forming a huge cloud of negative energy. When the negativity reaches its peak, like an overloaded balloon, it bursts and comes back to the Divinity. You can never escape the Divine, the long route of negativity, or the instantaneous positive approach. When the Divinity dawns, in no time the shift happens from the untruth to truth, from darkness to light, from the dull inert matter to the sparkling spirit. When the heart is hard, there is no fun. You cannot experience fun.

👍Jai Guru Dev🌸

साप्ताहिक ज्ञानपत्र १८६

६ जनवरी, १९९८

जर्मनी

परम आनंद

परम आनंद को समझा नहीं जा सकता। परमानन्द की स्थिति पाना अत्यंत कठिन है। कई जीवन-कालो के बाद परमानद की प्राप्ति होती है। और इस स्थिति से बाहर निकलना तो और भी कठिन है। जीवन में तुम्हे तलाश है केवल परमानद की- अपने स्रोत के साथ तुम्हारा दिव्य मिलन, और संसार में बाकी सब-कुछ तुम्हे इस लक्ष्य की प्राप्ति से विचलित करता है।असंख्य कारण, विभिन्न तरीको से तुम्हे अपनी मंजिल से विमुख करते है, लाख बहाने , जो न समझे जा सकते है, न बताए जा सकते है, तुम्हे घर नहीं पहुंचने देते।

मन चंचल रहता है राग और द्वेष से, ऐसा होना चाहिए, ऐसा नहीं होना चाहिए और इच्छाओ से मन का अस्तित्व बना रहता है। केवल तब जब मन नहीं रहता, परमानंद उदित होता है। परमानन्द वास है दिव्यता का, सभी देवो का। केवल मानव शरीर में ही इसे पाया जा सकता है, समझा जा सकता है। और मानव जीवन पा कर, तथा इस मार्ग पर आकर भी यदि तुम्हे यह समझ में नहीं आता, तब इससे बड़ा नुकसान नहीं।

राग और द्वेष तुम्हारे हृदय को कठोर बना देते है। केवल व्यवहार विनम्र होने से कोई लाभ नहीं । तुम्हारे व्यवहार में रूखापन हो सकता है, पर दिल में कठोरता नहीं होनी चाइए। व्यवहार के रूखेपन को सहा जा सकता है, परन्तु दिल की कठोरता को नहीं।

दुनिया परवाह नहीं करती की तुम आनंद से कैसे हो। वह केवल तुम्हारा बाहरी व्यवहार देखती है। ईश्वर को यह नहीं परवाह की तुम बाहर से कैसे हो- वे केवल तुम्हारे आनंद देखते है। कभी भी अपने दिल में थोड़ा सा भी राग या द्वेष का अंश मत रहने दो। इसे तो गुलाब के फूल की तरह ताज़ा, केवल और सुगन्धित बना रहने दो।

यह ऐसा मायाजाल है- तुम किसी व्यक्ति या वस्तु को न पसंद करते हो, और यह तुम्हारे हृदय को कठोर बनाता है । और इस कठोरता को निर्मल होने में, ख़त्म होने में बहुत समय लगता है। यह एक ऐसा जाल है जो तुम्हे अनमोल खजाने से दूर रखता है।

इस भौतिक संसार में कुछ भी तुम्हे तृप्ति नहीं दे सकता। बाहरी दुनिया में संतुष्टि खोजने वाला मन अतृप्त हो जाता है और यह अतृप्ति बढ़ती ही जाती है। शिकायते तथा नकारात्मक स्वाभाव दिमाग को कठोर बनाने लगते है, सजगता को ढक देते है, पुरे वातावरण में नकारात्मक शक्ति का विष फैला देते है। जब नकारात्मक की अति हो जाती है, एक अत्यधिक फूले हुए गुब्बारे की तरह फूट जाती है और वापस ईश्वर के पास आ जाती है। ईश्वर से बच नहीं सकते- चाहे तुम नकारात्मकता का लम्बा रास्ता अपनाओ या तुरंत पहुंचाने वाला सकारात्मक मार्ग। जब दिव्यता उदित होती है, तुरंत परिवर्तन आ जाता है- असत्य से सत्य की ओर, अंधकार से प्रकाश की ओर, जड़ व निश्चय पदार्थ से चमकती हुई आत्मा की ओर।

जब हृदय में कठोरता है, तब कोई मस्ती नहीं। तुम आनंद की मस्ती का अनुभव कर ही नहीं सकते।

🌸जय गुरुदेव🌸

#Rejuvenate yourself with Ayurveda and Yoga Campaign #Nadi Pariksha #ayurveda #dombivli #kalyan #ulhasnagar #ambernath #badlapur #thakurli #Mumbai

0 notes

ayurvedainitiative-blog · 9 months

Text

From Germany

Weekly Knowledge #1⃣8⃣5⃣

Bad Antogast Ashram

30 Dec 1998

Germany

RECYCLING and HYGIENE

Everything here is recycled. The earth is 200 million years old - the Alps, the water, the air. Billions of people have breathed the same air. All the particles in your body are old, you are recycled. Your thoughts and emotions are recycled, mind is recycled. You are a recycled person.

Everything here is recycled. Consciousness is recycled - its the same old consciousness. Remind yourself that everything here is recycled material - so relax! Everything goes to where it came from. Recycling brings back purity and hygiene. Knowledge recycles the mind.

Tarah says :- Recycling makes everything new and therefore a mind that is recycled by knowledge finds everything fresh.

Knowledge keeps everything fresh. That is why you can keep recycling the same creation. A mind in Knowledge finds everything fresh. If you dont put Knowledge to the mind, the mind gets rotten. Knowledge brings the mind back to purity. Recycling brings purity and hygiene.

Hygiene supports health, and too much hygiene destroys health. In a too hygienic situation the immune system in the body becomes like lazy, unequipped soldiers. People who live in slums often dont get sick, because their immune system becomes like a well-trained soldier. Often people who are too fussy about hygiene have poor health. Sometimes unhygienic conditions create health. It keeps your immune system active, alive and strong, while Knowledge keeps your mind fresh.

🌸Jai Guru Dev🌸

साप्ताहिक ज्ञानपत्र १८५

३० दिसम्बर, १९९८

यूरोपियन आश्रम, जर्मनी

पुनरावृत्ति व स्वच्छता

यहाँ सबकुछ पुनरावृत्त है। पृथ्वी बीस करोड़ वर्ष पुरानी है- पहाड़, जल, हवा, सब-कुछ। अरबों लोगो ने उसी हवा की श्वास ली है। तुम्हारे शरीर के सभी कण पुराने है, तुम्हारी पुनरावृत्ति होती है। तुम्हारे विचारो और भावनाओ की पुनरावृत्ति होती है, तुम्हारे मन की भी पुनरावृत्ति होती है।

तुम पुनरावृत्त ��्यक्ति हो। यहाँ सब-कुछ पुनरावृत्त है। चेतना ��ुनरावृत्त है- यह वही पुरानी चेतना है। अपने आप को याद दिलाओ कि यहाँ सब-कुछ पुनरावृत्त है - और शांत हो जाओ। सब-कुछ वहीं जाता है जहाँ से आया है। पुनरावृत्ति फिर से शुद्धता और स्वच्छता लाती है। ज्ञान मन को पुनरावृत्त करता है।

तारा: पुनरावृत्ति सब-कुछ नवीन कर देती है और इसलिए ज्ञान से पुनरावृत्त मन को सब-कुछ नवीन लगता है।

श्री श्री: ज्ञान हर चीज को नवीन रखता है। इसीलिए इसी सृष्टि को बार-बार पुनरावृत्त कर सकते हो। ज्ञान में स्थित मन को सब-कुछ नवीन लगता है। मन को ज्ञान में वही रखने से मन अशुद्ध हो जाता है। ज्ञान मन को वापस पवित्र करता है। पुनरावृत्ति शुद्धता और स्वच्छता लाती है।

स्वच्छता स्वास्थ्य की सहायक है, परन्तु अत्यधिक स्वच्छता स्वास्थ का क्षय करती है। अत्यधिक स्वच्छ अवस्था में शरीर की रोग-निरोधक शक्ति आलसी, निरस्त्र सैनिक की भांति हो जाती है।

बस्तियों में रहने वाले व्यक्ति बहुधा बीमार नहीं पड़ते क्योकि उनकी रोग-निरोधक शक्ति सक्षम सैनिक की तरह बन जाती है। प्रायः स्वच्छता पर अत्यधिक ध्यान देने वाले व्यक्तियों का स्वास्थ निर्बल रहता है। कभी-कभी अस्वच्छता भी स्वास्थ्यवर्धक होती है। यह तुम्हारे रोग-निरोधक शक्ति को जीवन्त, मजबूत और चालू रखती है, जबकि ज्ञान मन को तरोताजा रखता है।

नव-वर्ष का सन्देश: स्त्रोत से जुड़े रहो और अपने जीवन को उत्सव बनाओ!

🌸जय गुरुदेव🌸

#Rejuvenate yourself with Ayurveda and Yoga Campaign #Nadi Pariksha #ayurveda #dombivli #kalyan #ulhasnagar #ambernath #badlapur #thakurli #Mumbai

0 notes

mojput-mypath · 5 years

Text

Good / Bad / No Middle

HRVATSKA VERZIJA ISPOD!

NAUGHTY, I AM, YES.

Being naughty is finally giving me a headache. I was so happy to arrive to a new level of directness, to the point it started coming back like a boomerang. You cannot do too much of nothing. I cannot remember exactly the reason for it, but for a few days there I lived in pure hatred. Pure evil and hatred were my constant companions. Watching people smile, saying nice things, was twisted in my eyes into a distorted world, where everything seemed so weird and ugly, like when you’re on acid (acid or trip=a hallucinogenic called LSD). Like a bad trip, everything became a botheration. It must have been Mercury Retrograde. In my personal chart, that planet is burned, retrograde and I was also in a small period of Mercury – three out of three indications that you will not be having a good time.

GOODY GOOD, SHE AND HE. WERE.

I want to tell you about empathy. About how I tend to feel other people’s pain and then I am pain. Every time that happens I usually know if the emotions are mine or from someone else. Depending on the intensity of other’s feelings, for sure. But, this is not about me. This is…to say that I have compassion, or rather I feel the pain of those close to me. People I feel closer to, the pain becomes stronger. This is difficult to utter, but I will have to. These are my feelings now: A great white soul has decided to go to another place. Maybe she got bored with us. Dasha. Dasha is a doggy. Chau and Samojed breed, if this is important to anyone. By the name of Dasha. She was an undivided part of my family for quite a few years. Long enough that I cannot remember the exact time when she showed up. She was here. She is here no longer.

Except Dasha, a few more people have gone. One such person is Dharma. Sova. He left me a bhajan (mantra song) that he played and loved to play, so I remember him. Often. How come that we spend such a sweet and short time together 6 years earlier to meet again suddenly and unexpectedly not so long ago? I don’t know. Do not ask.

Entire lives come and go, yet, the smallest moments are heavy as stone. When life gives you a good squeeze. When a brick flies in your direction. When you do not know where you are nor where you would even like to be, but you do know that where you are at is not where you have to be. Is this feeling always present? That this is not IT. Is this an eternal state, that nothing is ever as it should be?

Dharma & Daša

GOT ENLIGHTENED, AHA.

Yoga Vasistha (a part of a Veda, coming from India, something someone once wrote) starts off with Rama’s incessant complaining how everything sucks. First we’re babies, so we are not really aware of anything, then we go into teenage, which is especially disgusting, living the life of a hormonal monster. Then we become young adults, seemingly start getting something, but actually not. Then supposedly the best age comes. I am looking at people around me and it does not seem they’re so excited and happy, more like in a state of crisis. Then old age. You feel young, but you cannot get why things are not like they once were and you start panicking that you’ll die and how everything passes. That is all only one life. How many were there? How many more to come? Until when will this continue? Rama is complaining and complaining, and so am I. Later the sage Vasistha nicely explains him how nothing is real. The rest of the book is how everything is unreal and eternity is the only thing that exists. In short.

You thought I would not mention the Guru, did you? Did you secretly hope I will not be mentioning Him this time? This time he is not the author, but retells a story: two shepherds, one kind, the other less kind. The less kind one was sitting and wondering when he would get enlightened, so God sent him word that it would be in a couple of lives. The guy went berserk, lamenting on how all his meditation and efforts in this life were in vain… While the kind one was not even much interested, but God’s message had reached him, nonetheless. It stated that he would be enlightened after living as many more lives as there were leaves in one tree. He considered this to be really cool and started celebrating and dancing, went crazy. It is said he got enlightened there and then. Wise, huh? You can basically stick it with all this wise stuff, when even Rama felt all was in vain and boring and good for nothing, because one has not yet got enlightened. That shepherd had a great time, he was so relaxed. Did he arrive to this state of being so totally relaxed about life, or did this happen just like that? When that basic mathematics would actually be accurate (if…then…), that would have made me quite happy.

Like in the game “Black and White”, if you are naughty, the reward is less. But if you are goody good, the rewards are more useful, the process itself becomes more complex, asking for a greater investment. You can use the intellect and effort to solve the riddles and puzzles, or you can break everything down and go to the next task immediately. Just, the reward is less if you are naughty.

GOOD ALWAYS WINS?

So, two things. What does it really mean to be naughty? (This takes me back to the 4 years of a high-school subject called Ethics). And the 2nd thing is Karma, the always returning one. Karma. Everything you do, boomerangs back. What you reap, you shall sow. Yes, I keep getting my boomerang back, but others are getting their boomerang back through me. being naughty cannot be avoided.

1. Naughtiness is a relative term. Let us limit it to something I would call “allowed naughtiness”, expressed verbally or mentally (emotionally) and physically. Let us say that it is allowed to show displeasure and criticism verbally. Whichever tone of voice we use all of the above, depends of the person accepting the complaint, how they will take it in. Another factor is included here. Words are one, and another is the energy behind the words. (I keep having this nagging feeling that I am just going in circles with my egg/chicken, chiken/egg first, packed together with “All is relative”. That is how the day is going, that is how this period is going. Anything is possible!) Let’s move on to something a little more concrete: He says to Him: Come, come on time today, so we can finish on time as well. He turns to us and says: How can he be so impolite? What an attitude! He didn’t even say good morning, nothing! Such rudeness! Two people having a simple conversation turns into a complete misunderstanding of souls. Everyone else present felt the same sentence and approach were diametrically different: a kindly put, simple request. Have I already mentioned how everyone creates their own reality? What I wish to convey here is that person number 1 thought nothing malicious, and even the energy behind the request was benevolent. Person number 2 (Him) experienced the lack of an introduction and kinder words as an insult, a request as an order, and therefor had not even noticed the true softness in the energy behind the appearance.

2. Continuing on number 1. We perceive people and what they tell us differently in each next moment. In reality, we behave like mental hospital patients. Today you say one thing, and I perceive it as one thing. Tomorrow you say the same, and I perceive it in a completely different way. And on top of that, we demand of others to change THEIR behaviour! At the same time completely inconsistent in all we do and demand. We keep wasting our lives in debating spoken words, or what we assume the other person had thought, but not said at all. If I have the impulse to react to you in a certain way at a given time, I don’t know in what way it will be perceived. If I have good intentions, maybe you will not recognise it. Even if I have bad intentions, maybe you come over and give me a big compassionate hug? If I have done something bad in my past, and that has to boomerang back one way or the other – someone’s gotta be the executioner! Are you an evil person, just because destiny has chosen you to be the bloody executioner?

There is no third thing. There are a few more tiny things running in circles inside my little head. One of them is that there is no good or bad, only that what is. Did I just knock everyone out with this amazing epiphany? I truly have touched the universal truth of the entire existence, the universe and living beings in it. To repeat it: There is only what is. Now you know. I know this is the truth, as it comes from the very depth of my existence, the most intuitive corner of Me, and now I am sharing this with You. You must feel special now, privileged, enlightened? Me to!

Now, seriously. There is such a thing as bad behaviour, whether on purpose, or not, but it depends on the receiver (the victim of the naughtiness), how they will receive it. It depends on the scale of naughtiness the individual carries along. Therefore, no one is bad to me, nor am I bad to anyone! That is my ethically-logical conclusion of the day!

THE MUNDANE

Except all of the above, strictly speaking in an earthly more, I had a short sick-leave, too much of screen-staring. I still don’t really know how to balance between what I like to do, but tires me, and what I do to feel charged and rested. I spent my sick-leave staring at the ceiling, sleeping and listening to all sorts of stuff, as I was unable to even peek at screens

After having slept like a baby, day and night, I am feeling much better. The headache that carried the pain as powerful as a sonic boom must be, is gone. Why would I have such a headache? Because my digestive system is weak. And why is it weak? Because I am constricting myself. Unbelievable how much this entire stomach and abdominal area is stiff, trapped and contracted. How my digestion has deteriorated in the last half-year. Am I alright? What is the emotional reason behind all this stiffness? Will I manage to save myself? Will someone be able to cure me?

Read about it in the next episode about Passion of Gordana. Because this is my life. A Great Passion. And Great Dispassion. One, then the other, in constant alteration.

Enjoy the snow!

_________________________________________________

ZLOĆKA, TO SAM, DA.

Zloćko me došao glave. Toliko sam se veselila tom novo-postignutom nivou direktnosti, koji me došao glave. Ne može ništa u prevelikim količinama. Ne znam što je točno bilo povod, ali nedavno me nekoliko cijelih dana prao hejt. Čisto zlo i mržnja me obuzeli. Gledam ljude kako se smiju, kako govore lijepe stvari, a čujem i vidim distorzirani svijet, u kojem je sve izobličeno i kao na tripu (trip=halucinogena droga zvana LSD). Kao na lošem tripu, kad ti sve smeta i loše je. Mora da je to bio taj Retrogradni Merkur. Kod mene osobno kao planeta u horoskopu spaljen, i retrogradan, te također i mali period merkura – sve tri indikacije da će te merkur opaliti po nosu krasnom, ako te to zanima.

DOBRICA, ONA i ON SU. BILI.

Želim pisati o empatiji. O tome kako osjećam tuđu bol, i onda bolim. Svaki puta kad se to dogodi, obično znam jesu li to izvorno moji osjećaji, ili tuđi. Ovisi o intenzitetu tuđih osjećaja, svakako. No, ovo nije o meni. Ovo je…za reći da suosjećam ili pače, osjećam tuđu bol, kada su mi bića bliska. Bliska bol i bliski ljudi. Teško je samo to reći. Ali morat ću. Ovo su sada moji osjećaji: bijelo klupko mira i lagodne sreće nije više s nama. Velika bijela dušica je odlučila otići negdje drugdje. Možda smo joj dosadili. Daši. Daša je pas. Pasmine Chau i Samojed, ako je to ikome važno. Imena Daša. Bila u milosti i nemilosti moje obitelji dugi niz godina. Dovoljno dugo da se ni ne sjećam kada se pojavila. Bila je tu. Sad više nije.

Osim Daše, još par ljudi nema više. Bar ne u obliku u kojem sam ih ja poznavala. Jedan takav čovjek je Dharma. Sova. Ostavio mi je jedan bhajan (pjesma s mantrama) koji je svirao i volio pjevati, pa ga se sjetim. Često. Kako to da smo se kratko i slatko družili 6 godina ranije i onda iznenada ponovno i dosta kratko, no intenzivno, samo par mjeseci prije nego je odlučio otići iz meni poznatog svijeta? Ne znam. Ne pitaj me.

I tako životi dolaze i odlaze, a nama mali trenuci teški k'o teret jedne oveće klade. Kad ti život stisne glavu. Cigla kad te zvizne. Kad ne znaš gdje si i gdje bi želio biti, ali znaš da tu gdje jesi – nije to. Jel' uvijek taj osjećaj da nije to to? Jel' to vječna stavka, da ništa nije ono što bi trebalo biti?

PROSVIJETLIH SE, AHA.

Yoga Vasistha (dio jedne Vede, potekle iz Indije, ono što je tamo netko pis'o) počinje s tim da se mali Rama tužaka kako ništa ne valja. I kako je cijeli svijet teško nje-sra. Prvo smo bebe, pa ništa ne kužimo, onda smo tinejdžeri, a to je božemesačuvaj, hormonalna čudovišta. Onda smo kao mladi odrasli ljudi, tek tada ništa ne kužimo, onda k'o fol najbolje godine. Gledam ljude oko sebe, i ne djeluje mi baš da su najbolje, više bih rekla da djeluju krizno. A onda starost. Osjećaš se mlado, a ne kužiš zašto stvari nisu kao što su nekad bilo i krene te hvatat panika od smrti i prolaznosti svega. To je samo jedan život. Koliko ih je bilo? Koliko će ih još biti? Dokad tako? Žali se Rama, žalim se i ja. Poslije njemu svetac Vasistha sve lijepo objasni, kako ništa ne postoji. Ostatak knjige je većinom o tome kako je sve nestvarno, i samo je vječnost ono što jest. Ukratko.

E da ti ne bi propustila spomenuti Gurua! Jesi se malo ponadala/ponadao da neće biti njega ovaj put? Ali ovaj put nije on rekao, već prepričao pričicu: dva pastira, jedan zgodan, drugi nezgodan. Ovaj nezgodni se pitao kad će se više prosvijetlit i javi njemu Bog: ono, nakon još par života. Ovaj poludi, ajme meni i kuku lele, zar sav moj trud i meditacija u ovom životu uzalud? Dok zgodnog nije ni zanimalo, ali nekako je došla do njega poruka: Bog mu je poručio da će se prosvijetlit nakon što proživi još života koliko je lišća na jednom stablu. Njemu to bilo super, pa počeo slavit, plesat, razludio. Kažu da se tog trena prosvijetlio. Eto, mudro, a? A džaba ti to sve mudro, kad ti je ko Rami sve uzalud i bezze i dosadno, jer se nisi još prosvijetlio. Super je tom pastiru, kad je bio opušten. Jel' on došao do tog stanja potpune opuštenosti sam ili mu se samo desilo? Kad bi ta osnovna matematika (ako….onda….) šljakala, to bi me razveselilo.

Kao u igrici 'Black and White', ako si zločest, nagrade su manje, ako si dobar, nagrade su zanimljivije, korisnije, i sam proces je kompleksniji, iziskuje veće ulaganje. Možeš razriješiti zagonetku intelektom i trudom, ili možeš sve razrušiti i doći na sljedeći nivo odmah. Samo. Nagrada je manja kad si zločest.

DOBRO UVIJEK POBJEĐUJE

Dakle, dvije stvari: Što to uopće znači biti zločest? Što je to točno zločesto ponašanje? (ovo me podsjeća na sve četiri godine predmeta Etike iz srednje škole). I druga stvar je – milo za drago? Karmetina. Sve se vraća – sve se plaća. Jest da se meni vraća i plaća, a također jest da se i kroz mene vraća drugima što se njima treba vratiti. Zločestoća je neizbježna.

1. Zločestoća je relativan pojam. Ajmo se ograničiti na nešto što ću proizvoljno označiti kao „dozvoljena zločestoća“. Izražena verbalno tj. mentalno (emocionalno) i fizički. Recimo da je verbalno dozvoljeno iskazati negodovanje, nezadovoljstvo, kritiku i tako dalje. Isključimo ružno neosnovano vrijeđanje za sada. Kojim god tonom izrazimo sve ovo gore navedeno, ovisno o tome tko kada prima verbalnu primjedbu, kako će je primiti. Još je jedan faktor. Riječi su jedno, a energija iza riječi je nešto sasvim drugo. (Cijelo vrijeme imam podmukli osjećaj da samo pričam meljem bezveze, izmjenjujući priču jaje/kokoš, kokoš/jaje upakirano sa „sve je to relativno“. Takav mi je dan, takav mi je period. Sve je moguće!)

Ajmo na malo konkretnije, da bude lakše: Kaže on Njemu: Ajde dođi danas na vrijeme, da završimo na vrijeme. Kaže On nama na to: Kakav mu je to nastup? Kako je samo nepristojan! Ni dobar dan, ni molim te. Bezobrazluk! Dakle, dvoje ljudi razgovara, to je sasvim jasno. Jedan kaže rečenicu. Drugi doživi rečenicu na gore navedeni način (Bezobrazluk!). Svi drugi dožive rečenicu na dijametralno suprotni način, kao najobičniju, uljudno iskazanu uputu. Jesam li već spomenula da svatko kreira svoju stvarnost. Ono što želim napokon reći jest to da osoba 1 nije mislila apsolutno ništa loše, i čak je energija iza riječi bila sasvim benevolentna. Osoba 2 (On) je doživjela nedostatak uljudnih riječi kao uvredu, zamolbu kao naredbu, i nije zbog toga osjetila stvarnu mekoću iza riječi.

2. Nadovezano na 1. Doživimo ljude i ono što nam kažu u svakom trenutku drugačije. Zapravo se svi ponašamo kao pacijenti bolnica za mentalne smetnje. Danas mi kažeš jedno, ja doživim na jedan način. Sutra mi opet kažeš jedno, a ja doživim na dvadeseti način. I onda još tražimo ljude da isprave SVOJE ponašanje! Dok smo sami potpuno nedosljedni u svemu što radimo i tražimo. Provodimo živote svađajući se oko izgovorenih riječi, onoga što pretpostavljamo da je druga osoba mislila, a nije uopće rekla i slično tome. Ako sam ja ponukana da reagiram na tebe na određeni način u određenom trenutku, nemam blage veze kako će tebe to dotaknuti. Ako imam dobre namjere, možda me zauzvrat upravo napadneš. Ako imam ružne namjere, možda me požališ i zagrliš? Ako sam ja u svojoj prošlosti učinila nešto loše i to mi se ima vratiti, netko mora biti krvnik! Jesi li ti zločesta osoba samo zato jer te sudbina odabrala da odradiš ulogu krvnika?

Nema trećeg. Ima još par stvari koje mi se vrte po glavi ovih dana. Jedno od tih je da nema dobrog i lošeg, ima samo ono što jest. Jesam ga sad odvalila, ha? Baš sam pogodila univerzalnu istinu cijelog postojanja, svemira i svih bića u njemu. Da se ponovim: Ima samo ono što jest. Sad ti je sve jasno. Ma znam da je, kad to dolazi iz najintuitivnijeg kutka mog postojanja. I sada to dijelim s Tobom. Mora da se osjećaš privilegirano, posebno…prosvijetljeno? I ja!

Sad za fakat. Postoji loše ponašanje, bilo namjerno ili nenamjerno, ali ovisno o osobi koja je žrtva zločestoće, kako će primiti to ponašanje. Po mjerilima osobe koja je primatelj će se mjeriti visina razine zločestoće. Zato nitko nije prema meni zločest, niti sam ja prema ikome zločesta! E, to ti je sad najbolji etičko-logički zaključak ikad.

ZEMALJSKA DOGAĐANJA

Osim toga, ovako zemaljski: bila sam na kratkom bolovanju, jer sam se prenaglila s buljenjem u ekran. Još ne znam baš kontrolirati koliko radim onoga što me veseli, ali i umara, a koliko, proporcionalno tome, radim stvari koje me odmaraju i pune. Bolovanje sam provela buljeći u strop, spavajući i slušajući svašta, jer nisam mogla skoro uopće buljiti u ekran.

Naspavala sam se kao bebica, i sad sam puno bolje. Glava me više ne boli bolju koju bih mogla usporediti sa silinom probijanja zvučnog zida. E, a zašto me boli glava? Jer mi ne radi probava. A zašto mi ne radi probava? Jer sam se stisnula u se. Nevjerojatno koliko mi je cijeli taj predio trbušne šupljine ukočen, zaustavljen, stisnut. Koliko mi je probava pogoršala u zadnjih pola godine. Jesam li dobro? Koji je emocionalni razlog moje stisnutosti? Hoću li se uspjeti spasiti? Hoće li me netko izliječiti?

Pročitajte u slijedećoj epizodi Muke po Gordani. Jer to je moj život. Jedna Velika Muka. I Jedno Veliko Olakšanje. Jedno, pa drugo u neprekidnoj mijeni.

Uživaj u snijegu!

#snow #good and bad #personal blog #spirituality #life is fleeting #bad antogast #gordana tihomirovic #yoga vasistha #rama

0 notes

mojput-mypath · 6 years

Text

SVAT’LA / REALISED IT ALL

Šta ću kad govorim mnogo. Ne mogu ja samo nešto malo reći. Volim te svoje sage. Volim i riječ „Saga“. Tako se ujedno zove i pas jedne predivne vile.

Gordanine sage. Kaže Internet da su sage stvarne priče, osim legendarnih saga. I da su nekad romantizirane i fantastične. I moje! I moje su fantastične i romantične!

Današnji dan je počeo tako mračno, a sad je tako svijetao. Bio je mokar, a sad je svjež. Oprala sam prozor, pa možda i to ima neke veze s do��ivljajem. U Crnoj Šumi je malo hladnije nego na Mediteranu. Nisam se još prilagodila na stupnjeve i nedostatak mogućnosti nošenja otvorenih sandala. Uporno sam ih nosila, ali sad sam prehlađena. Nisam uspjela nadmudriti vrijeme.

Eh, da: u Šumi sam! More-Šuma-More-Šuma. Sretno zaposlena, čistim sobe i pakiram pakete, ali ne 8 sati dnevno. Kad ne čistim sobe i ne pakiram pakete, pričam na telefon, koordiniram ljude i nešto tipkam na kompjuteru. Sve u svemu, znanstvena fantastika. Ashram je prazan. Doslovno prazan. Jedan dio je otišao u Frankfurt, jer tamo imamo ono isto što je bilo u Minhenu, raspetljavanje omanje važnog razgovorčića između Šive i njegove partnerice, a jedan dio je na praznicima. Prekrasna tišina i bliskost nekolicine koji smo sada tu. Posla ima, kao i uvijek, ali nekako se sve odvija lakše, nego kad je povrh svega posla još i milijun ljudi tu. Smiješno je to. Ova kuća je naša kuća. Mi tu živimo. Ova ista kuća je i hotel, retreat centar. Da nema gostiju, stanari ne bi imali što raditi, niti od čega živjeti. Stanari žive i rade, ljudi dolaze i odmaraju i rade.

I nogomet! Obično sam više za tenis, ali sada je ipak nogomet aktualniji. Baš je ta tema jučer došla, zamisli da dođu vanzemaljci i vide nekoliko ljudi kako igraju nogomet. Što bi zaključili? Istovremeno ostatak čovječanstva bulji u ljude što trče kao mahniti za jednom loptom 90 ili više minuta. Svi se deru ko nenormalni, našminkani i obučeni u kostime. Nekad je zastrašujuće ili zadivljujuće ili jednostavno smiješno kad tako gledaš ljudske aktivnosti izvađene iz svima poznatog konteksta. Odjednom sve što je maloprije bilo tako jako važno, i možda predmetom dubokog nezadovoljstva ili euforičnog slavlja, počinje izgledati suludo, apsurdno, površno; nevrijedno posljedica koje izaziva. Sad kad sam sve to rekla: volim gledati sport, više nego ga igrati. I navijam za Hrvate! I za Hrvatsku! I za hrvatsku REPKU! Dok ispišem blog, Hrvatska će već biti Prvak Svita.

DODATAK: Hrvatska JEST Prvak Svijeta u Svim Srcima <3

Nego, čudna li čuda. SHVATILA SAM NEŠTO JAKO VAŽNO. Ne ono, pomislila, skontala. SHVATILA DO SRŽI svoje male dušice. A kako sam SHVATILA? Ashram me zviznuo. Išamarao sa svih strana, tako da nisam imala prilike NE SHVATITI.

Rekla sam da sam se posvađala sa svima živima. Vrhunac toga je bio kada sam očekivala da se mogu osloniti na nekog na određeni način, kao što sam se do nedavno oslanjala na majku. Kako mi je to iskliznulo pod nogama, našla sam se u na potpunom dnu dna. Emotivnom dnu dna. Osjećala sam se kao da za mene nema pomoći. Da za mene više nema mekog jastuka (vidi blog o mamama) na koji ću se uvijek dočekati. Usrala sam se. Ukakila u gaće. Izgubila sam sve što sam smatrala da mi drži glavu iznad površine mora života. Onda se dogodilo nešto sasvim neobično, uspjela sam se tako slomljena prepustiti trenutku, umjesto da od njega pobjegnem. Ležala sam tako u krilu meni baš bliske osobe, poput malog djeteta, slušala riječi utjehe koje kao da mi je sam Bog, Priroda šaptala na uho. Opustila sam se. Osjećala sam se podržano od Čitave Kreacije.

To je bio samo prvi korak. Ashram i ljudi u njemu su me dočekali kao rijetko kada itko (osim obitelji). Sa svih strana su se, ničim izazvane, pojavljivale geste drugih koje ne da nisam očekivala, koje nikad ne bih tražila, koje sam mislila da ne zaslužujem dobiti. Pričam o sasvim jednostavnim stvarima, poput, hoćeš da ti donesem vode, koji bi čaj pila, što hoćeš da ti skuham za ručak? Jedan dan sam toliko kaosa napravila u kući, sprčkala sve što se dalo sprčkati. Svima sam dala krive upute za sve, tako da su ljudi trčali gdje nije bilo potrebno trčati, skoro ručak nije bio skuhan i još par kockica domina se porušilo u tom naletu nereda i zbunjoze. Uz sve to nisam doživjela ni krivi pogled, ni riječ pokude, već slijeganje ramenima s osmijesima na licima. Kada mi je roba, unatoč svemu, ničim izazvana, bila uredno složena na štriku i u sobi za pranje veša – to je bila kap koja je prelila čašu. Rasplakala sam se od nemogućnosti da zaprimim sve te lijepe geste. Obično sam uvijek i najčešće isključivo ja ta koja sve radi za druge. Na dan na koji sam proizvela toliko nesporazuma i nereda, svi su bili apsolutno podržavajući. Toliko me to potreslo, toliko sam bila van sebe što su svi toliko prekrasni prema meni, uključujući samu odluku da me tu zadrže i daju mi lijepe i odgovorne uloge.

Znam da to sad svima zvuči infantilno i smiješno, ali vulkan koji se prelio od nemogućnosti da primim najsitnije male dobrote od puno ljudi oko mene, bio je potresan za moje fizičko postojanje. I ovo mjesto se promijenilo. Dok sam tu živjela, vladala je strogost i ljudima je trebalo milijun puta upućivati da moraju biti u energiji davanja i preuzimanja odgovornosti. Ali sada je to kod većine jednostavno prirodno prisutno. Nakon što sam uneredila hrpu stvari, očekivala sam drvlje i kamenje, osjećala sam ogromnu bespomoćnost i krivnju, a dobila sam cvijeće i ljubav.

Kako to?, rekao bi Vojkić Ve.

Ma ne kako to. Nego, TO JE TO! SHVATILA sam da uistinu ne znam primiti, i u dvije rečenice dobila skraćeno to saznanje naknadno kroz usta druge osobe. Saznanje da ZATO ŠTO NE ZNAM PRIMITI – KREIRAM OSKUDICU! Jer za mene nema, mene se ne cijeni, meni ne dolazi, mene samo život tuče, a ja jadna moram trpjeti... Uh, što sam se prevarila. Treba znati kako uistinu uživati u životu u potpunosti. U svakoj njegovoj sekundi. I kad ti život ponudi sladoled, pojesti ga bez pitanja tko je platio, tko je donio, tko će drugi put. POJEDI SLADOLED, GOGO!

Kad sam već spomenula Vojka, voljela bih spomenuti još jednog meni baš dragog izvođača i blisku dušu, Ivan Vuković akka Magellano, i njegov zadnji album Pura Medicina, može se skinuti besplatno. Inspirativan je mnogo, daj si koji tren da uistinu poslušaš riječi.

I za kraj, šala mala. Odem ja u dućan i kupim si kozji sir. Pravi onaj fini smrdljivi francuski, de chevre [d ševr]. Ostavim ga u sobi. Zaboravim na njega. Poslije nekog vremena dođem u sobu, i ono, fuj, smrdi gadno. To me podsjeti na sirka, te ga odnesem u veliku kuhinju u frižider. Poslije se vratim u sobu i nešto radim, kad ono, uđe frendica i kaže: Uh što smrdi! Jesi prdnula?

Eto, što reći, već da je život baš pun iznenađenja. BU!

P.S. Nema više sirića za mene, trenutno sam na veganskoj prehrani bez glutena i šećera – dva tjedna! Dosad sam preživjela sasvim solidno.

Nova fensi frizura / New fancy hairstyle

Život je tropski doživljaj / Life is tropical

ENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISHENGLISH

What can I do when I speak a lot. I cannot really say only a little. I love my sagas. I love the word „Saga“ as well. This is also the name of a beautiful fairy's dog.

Gordana’s sagas. The Internet says that sagas are true stories, except the legendary ones. And that some are romanticized and fantastic. Mine too! Mine too are fantastic and romantic!

Today’s day began as being one so dark, and now it is so bright. It was wet, but now it is fresh. I washed the window, maybe that has something to do with the atmosphere. It is slightly colder in the Black Forest, than it is in the Mediterranean. I have not yet accommodated myself to less degrees and the inability to wear sandals. I was persistent in wearing them, but now I have a cold. I could not outsmart the weather.

So, yes: I am in the Forest! Sea-Forest-Sea-Forest. Happily employed, I am cleaning rooms and packing packages, but not full 8 hours per day- When I am not cleaning rooms and not making packages, I am speaking on the phone and coordinating people and typing something on the computer. All in all, science fiction. The ashram is empty. Literally empty. One group went to Frankfurt, because we have the same event there as in Munich, unveiling that rather unimportant small talk between Shiva and his consort, and one part is on holidays. Most beautiful silence and closeness of the few that we are here now. There are always things to be done, as always, but it is somehow easier at the moment, in comparison to when on top of all the work we have a million people around. It is funny. This house is our house. We live here. The same house is also a hotel, a retreat centre. If there were no guests, the tenants would have nothing to do, and nothing to live off. The tenants live and work, and the guests come and rest and work.

And football! I am usually more up for tennis, but football is more important just at the moment. The topic came up yesterday, imagine aliens would land and see people playing football. What would they conclude? At the same time, the rest of humanity is staring at these guys running for 90 or more minutes. They are all screaming like crazy people, wearing makeup and costumes. Sometimes it is petrifying or mesmerising or just hilarious when you see human activities out of context. Suddenly what seemed so important, and maybe the source of deep disappointment or euphoric celebration, starts looking insane, absurd, superficial; unworthy of the consequences it invokes.

Saying all this: I love to watch sports, more than playing them. I am supporting Croatians! And Croatia! And the Croatian Representation! Once this blog is finished, Croatia will be the World Champion.

ADDITION: Croatia IS the World Champion of Hearts <3

Looky here, surprise, surprise. I REALISED SOMETHING VERY IMPORTANT. Not kinda figured out, but really realised. UNDERSTOOD TO THE CORE of my little ickly soul. How have I UNDERSTOOD? Ashram hit me hard. Slapped me around, so I had no choice BUT TO GET IT.

I recently mentioned how I had fights with everyone. The peak had arrived when I expected of someone to serve as my backup, like I recently could with my mom. When this did not turn out how I wanted it to, I found myself at the bottom of a bottomless pit. An emotional lowest of the low. I felt as if there is no aid coming to me. No more of the soft cushioned feeling (see the blog on mothers) I would find every time I fell. I shit my pants. I lost everything I considered vital for holding my head above life water’s surface. Then something unusual came to pass, I managed somehow, in that moment of devastation to let myself lunge into it instead of running away. I lay like that in the lap of a very close person, like a small child, listening to the words of comfort. Words that seemed to be coming from God, Nature itself was whispering them in my ear. I relaxed. I felt supported from the entire living Creation.

This would be the first step. Ashram and the people here welcomed me like rarely ever in my life (except by family). From all sides, without any reason, small gests were made, that I had not been expecting, not asking for, not thinking I deserve. Here I am talking about simple things like, would you like water, what kind of tea would you prefer, what would you like for lunch? One day I created so much chaos in the house, and ruined all that could be ruined. I gave the wrong instructions to everyone about everything, so people needed to run around, lunch was not being made and the domino effect continued. Amongst all this, I had not received a weird look, nor a word of resentment, just smiles and gentle sighs. In spite of all the mess I had created, my clothes were neatly hanged out by someone else – this was too much to handle. I started crying out of the inability to receive all the lovely gestures. I was usually exclusively the one who does everything for everyone else. And on that day! When I created so many misunderstandings and messed everyone’s schedules up, all were absolutely supportive. I was so shaken by the kind understanding of all included, even the decision to keep me here, giving me beautiful and responsible roles.

I know that it might sound childish and funny, but the volcano that erupted, as a result of my personal inability to receive the smallest kindness from more than one source at a time, shook my physical existence. This place has changed so much. While I lived here, just a few years back, everyone was more strict, and people needed to be told many times to maintain in a giving, responsible-ridden space. Now, most just are all this naturally. After messing things up quite badly, I expected bashing, I felt helpless and guilty and was given flowers and love.

How come?

Not how come. But, THAT IS IT! I REALISED that I truly do not know how to receive, and got to hear that from someone else’s mouth at a little later time. The realization that BECAUSE I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO RECEIVE – I CREATE LACK! Because there is nothing for me, I am not appreciated, things do not come to me, life keeps kicking me around and poor me, I have to put up with it… Boy, was I wrong. We really need to learn how to enjoy life fully. Every second of it. When life offers you ice-cream, eat it without asking who paid, who brought it, who will do it next time. EAT THE ICE-CREAM, GOGA!

And at the end, a small joke. I went to the shop to buy goat cheese. The real tasty smelly French fromage de chèvre. I left it in my room, forgot all about it. After some time, I come to my room, and oh my, smells so bad. That reminded me of the abandoned cheese, so I picked it up on the way to the kitchen and put it in the fridge. Later, I come back to my room and hang out for a bit. My friend enters the room and bursts out: Oh, something smells so bad! You farted?

What to say except that life is full of surprises. BU!

P.S. No more cheese for me, I am doing a vegan, gluten-free, sugar-free spreeee for two weeks. So far, so gooood!

#summer #tropical #german ashram #art of living european centre #bad antogast #life is life a box of chocolate #gordana tihomirovic #personal blog #my life #my story

0 notes