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#bc it isnt like i dont mean it when im extensively polite&complimentary-- i mean everything i say bc even when anxiously filling silence
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#hmmmm.
#so as a rule i say thank you when i go out. a lot. bc i was told once that saying thank you instead of im sorry
#would make ppl feel less uncomfortable so i swapped the phrases out.
#similarly i was told once that compliments make ppl happy&also if im specifically looking for Good Things
#i will find them-- as opposed to letting my head do whatever it wants bc given the extremely violent intrusive+obsessive thoughts
#directing it towards Good Things works out for everyone if ppl enjoy compliments.
#im also like. extremely aware that these facts-- along w my fervent occasionally manic insistence on being Nice when interacting w ppl
#(bc i thought we all were told as kids to treat others the way we wanted to be treated??? lmao.)
#-- all add up to make me seem insincere at times or to some ppl. i. dont care. LMAO.
#its too exhausting to care. like ppl find whatever they want to find&if ppl are so set on my being a certain way
#so much so that my being a nice person can only be explained by nefarious intent (to acheive. what. kindness from others? lmao.)
#how in the fuck can any of that be my fault or-- MUCH more importantly-- my problem???
#however lately its like ppl have been getting like. Offended. by the impulses. which is becoming... boring. for me. lmao.
#bc it isnt like i dont mean it when im extensively polite&complimentary-- i mean everything i say bc even when anxiously filling silence
#i dont like wasting my time on like. lying for no reason lmao.
#its more so that if it becomes a hinderance to be myself ill go the route that benefits me which is the one of least resistance
#&i will ALSO mean it when i make someone cry w exactly the same amount of effort lmao
#bc proving a point-- even if its proving someone elses point-- correct is extremely easy either way lmao.
#its weird to me that ppl would think seeing good in something means that seeing bad in it isnt possible lmao
#the same way its extremely confusing to me that ppl would think kindness&abject cruelty cant like. coexist lmao.
#i feel accepting that on a micro level would help ppl accept it on a macro level.
#either way i know it would save me some time in having to deal w ppl biting off more than they can chew
#before realizing that i will rip chunks out of them&lick the tears up like a dog if they insist on tempting me like one LMAO.
#at the very least it might help more ppl appreciate the fact that regardless of how vivid the fantasies
#i have yet to hit anyone repeatedly w a baseball bat to relieve some stress.
#... lmao.
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