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SEND “🎧” AND I’LL GIVE A SONG THAT REMINDS ME OF MY MUSE WITH A REASON WHY!

under a readmore because it’s long gfdshjdfkj

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Learn To Let Go by Kesha

this one is pretty straightforward, because the song is about taking control of your life and not lingering in negative past events! It’s honestly really fitting for Carter, because that is something she needs to learn (and does later down the line), and she does encourage others to do just that without... exactly doing it herself in the beginning dsfgjhgsdfhj

Keep Breathing by Ingrid Michaelson

also another straightforward song tbh dfgjhkdf

the song is about pushing forward and to just keep breathing, which is definitely something Carter has to push herself to do a lot

Perfect by Hedley

mmmm, I’m gonna post a chorus verse before I explain because it’s pretty obvious dfghjfdh

I'm not perfect / But I keep trying / 'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start / I'm not alive if I'm lonely / So please, don't leave / Was it something I said or just my personality?

Carter has a fear of abandonment, which I know I’ve talked about before, so her being alone (and, more specifically, left alone by the people she loves) is terrifying, and... not something she would handle well if it happened. So the lyric “I’m not alive if I’m lonely” is hella fitting

and, I actually have this song in both playlists, because this is especially fitting in the ikau, but she is afraid of chasing people away because of who she is. And, there is a lyric that simply goes “Was it something I said or just my, just myself?” which... pretty much covers Carter’s fears dgffdskj

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Eight by Sleeping At Last

this song is literally on the nose dfjghdfgjk - I mean: “I was just a kid who grew up strong enough / To pick this armor up / And suddenly it fit”

the whole song just perfectly covers Carter growing up under Obadiah’s thumb after her father’s death, and her taking on the Iron Man mantle way too young. She shut herself off from everyone around her and became cold to protect herself, and she pushed herself way too hard to try and be something perfect when... it was impossible. She was trying to mold herself into a twisted image of a legacy of her father Obadiah had painted for her, and it nearly killed her

but she wants to let someone in - she wants to be able to trust someone who isn’t going to hurt her, but she’s terrified to do so

Whiskey Lullabies by Janet Devlin

also another song that’s quite on the nose! The first verse is “When I was a child / They'd ask me where it hurt / And wipe the tears from my eyes / Sure embraces / Gentle forehead kisses / Making sure that I was alright / As I grew older and the nights grew shorter / I no longer cared where it hurt” which is perfect regarding baby Carter - she was loved and cared for when growing up, and then... her father died and she was put under Obadiah’s care, and everything changed

the second verse is: “Scars they heal in time / The raw wounds on my mind / They aren't so easily fixed / You can't mend what isn't broken / Kind words are rarely spoken / In time I will learn this / But I grow older / And the nights grow shorter / Drowning as I sink or swim” which fits her growing up under Obadiah’s thumb, and her realizing just how much things have changed, and she’s struggling to get by

the bridge is fitting as well: “Please be my saving grace / Please be my saving grace / How to answer all my prayers / Please be my saving Grace” and I tend to associate the “Please be my saving grace” lines to be her doing... basically stupid stuff to either prove herself or to try and make her situation better. The last one, in particular, I usually picture to be it directed towards the Ultron project (before Ultron actually came to life), because while Carter is very reluctant to actually pursue it despite Obadiah’s insistence, she truly does hope it could be something that could allow her to step down from being an Avenger and just... let the Iron Man mantle go, while also making her situation with Obadiah better. And... it does make her situation with Obadiah better but... in a way that still hurts her, considering it results in his death, but makes everything else worse

FAULTLINE by STARSET

ngl this is basically the only song I like off of Divisions

so, to get this out of the way first, Genius is making it sound like this is a toxic romantic relationship which is a hard fucking pass on what the relationship between Carter and Obadiah is - it’s toxic and abusive, yes, but it’s familial. He fills in the role of a father figure after Tony’s death, but there’s nothing else to it, and I just wanna mention that first just to be on the safe side in case this confuses anyone

anyway, this is definitely a song that is more around Carter’s PoV and directed towards Obadiah, and expressing her frustrations with him. Part of the first verse goes: “First you gotta know / How to play the victim / Hate to tell you so / But you repeat the symptoms like an aftershock / And I only want to make it stop”, and it works because Obadiah... definitely pulls a “woe is me” card regarding Carter. He’s manipulated it so Carter seems to be an extremely broody kid that he can’t get through to at all - he’ll get her upset to the point where she snaps at him, but only does so when, say, around the other Avengers. So, they see an old man trying to help her, and then they see Carter turning on him and lashing out at him in response. He plays the victim, when that’s far from the case, and Carter just... wants him to stop

the song is just very fitting for their relationship overall! And a part of verse two goes: “You don’t wear a scar / While I’m the one in stitches / And I don’t know why / You point the finger every time”, which is perfect considering whatever Obadiah does, Carter ends up taking the fall for it, and he is quick to blame her. But, he does so in a way that makes it seem like he cares - so, as an example that’s more fic!Carter based, she actually encounters the twins in the Sokovia base (like, face-to-face) but lies about it to the rest of the team. Obadiah knows this, and when Ultron comes to be and attacks them before leaving the tower, Obadiah asks if the twins had hurt her while in the lab with the other Avengers when they’re discussing Ultron’s motives. Since she lied about seeing them to the team, this only furthers their disappointment and frustration with her. He had told her he wasn’t going to say a word about it if she worked on Ultron, but he did so anyway (which is something she’s not sure why she’s so surprised about afterwards because she knew he’d do something like that). So, he points the finger at her every time - he throws her under the bus, putting her at the center of a blame game, and she doesn’t... understand why