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vaguebloggingextreme · 7 months

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Also, objectively knowing that i have trouble with communicating and maintaining boundaries that I need to emotionally be ok because growing up my boundaries (that I very clearly communicated) were constantly ignored because people thought it was funny and actually trying to figure out how to put those boundaries there now without feeling guilty or like it's a waste of time is a fucking struggle too.

#I need to go back to therapy #maybe with a therapist that will actually listen to my concerns this time #I just feel like my life is quietly spiraling #not out of control or anything but into something I don't want anymore #And I'm terrified to make decisions that are big enough to actually effect the change I need #I need a better support system #but it's my own fault that I feel like I don't have one already #because I constantly refuse to take the onus of emotional connection #because I'm just so fucking tired all the time #idk man there's just too fucking much in my head these days and I'm tired

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