#big sigh..

[katyspersonal]

[forlorngarden]

i am back in the fucking building again 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

[alukaforyou]

so im going to dinner w my bf, his single friend, and their other recently married friend and his wife. it's at a fancy steakhouse. ik my bf + probably his friends r gonna dress casual, like a tshirt & jeans, would it be too dumb if i came dressed up 😂 i've met the wife a few days ago we all had brunch she doesnt seem to be the dressy type. i was thinking a slightly cropped boxy sweater, one of my faves - its a turtleneck + long puff sleeves, pink & tan soo pretty, and a midi pleated wool skirt in blush. i have the brixton loafers thats the same color as the skirt + top, its gucci but i feel like their loafers are a bit understated so whatever but im mainly concerned abt the bag, i have this one, i actually dont see it that often at all online? owo

i got it 2nd hand in near new condition for a rly good price cuz im not rich to be affording retail value like that LMAO, its one of my 2 fancy bags that i've just been keeping or saving or w.e but lately i've been thinking fuck it all cuz idk when im gonna d*e so lets just enjoy my nice materialistic possessions now while im here. obviously im in love w the hearts and the detailing at the top, i just wish that big logo wasnt like.... that.... LMFAO freakin luxury brands & their obnoxious branding im so embarrassed : | i've been feeling like shit a lot lately for various reasons, maybe i will just show up looking like That B*tch™... w the makeup & everything cuz honestly lets face it, im overcompensating for feeling so freakin bad 😂😂😂 sigh. i dont even like steak.

[overoaks]

jinji.... pointy teeth... sharp... 

[glitchedevent]

i hate fronting tbh, im always the one getting overwhelmed just by existing, and struggling to talk to people or understand anyone, and im always super emotional about stuff all the time.. 

im scared of everybody and i make mistakes because im not used to interacting, and i’ve been hurt a lot when i try to understand basic interaction, so now im just scared and dont understand how to find people to talk to or how to keep up w people w/o getting worn out or just fading away because its too much energy..

idk i’ve been super emotionally fragile for awhile and it’s been slowly getting worse n im rly tired. idk what to do.

[fmab]

hmmm.. team taka deserved a Lot better than what they got and like im genuinely upset ? :^/ like... ummmm.. @ kishimoto why do you treat your traumatized characters like fucking shit