Sunflower and petunia, please :)
Sunflower - name 5 things that make you smile.
Considering the devastating events of the last few days, let’s say that I am really struggling to find a single reason smile (or, at least, not to cry). To be honest, I haven’t found one single thing that could make me pull a big, genuine smile - a smile just like the ones I remember from my late friend.
But I have to reply to this, haven’t I?
So, let’s give it a go, shall we?
Thing number one: When I search for a new place in a new town and, for a split second, I dare to think: “Hey, I can start all over again, and, this time, things can work out”. I know that I have done it many times before, and, for very different reasons, I failed every single time. But, as you said today, “you've got more fortitude than you realize” (yes, I am quoting you). And, somehow, you are absolutely correct. While many people spend all their lives in the exact place where they were born, I am never afraid of the unknown. Because the unknown is a potential bringer of hope, and hope is but the possibility of sheer happiness. What I am most afraid of is what I already know.
Thing number two: Eight hours of sleep - straight, please (with zero dreams, if you don’t mind). Sadly, that’s not what I am getting lately. After a long absence, non-sensical dreams are backand so are the panic attacks. And, even when I don’t need to set an alarm clock to wake me up, the truth is that my sleep is always insufficient, no matter what I do. So, I have learned to appreciate a decent sleep - because I know it is a rare thing to get.
Thing number three: Being able to write a poem and finish it. Actually, I wrote one today - in English. I may have split feelings regarding that poem, but, at least, I am writing again to smooth the pain. All things considered, baby steps are still steps in the right direction, correct?
Thing number four: Having a PhD class that isn’t utter and absolutely horrid - a class that doesn’t make me feel even more depressed and/or with a panic attack. Yes, this demonstrates how low the bar is. “Not absolutely horrid” became a synonym of “thing that makes me smile”. Sadly, even this (a non-absolutely-horrid-class) is not happening lately. Maybe the fact that I will not have any classes this week is a reason to celebrate.
Thing number five: Cloudless full moon nights. As you know, I live in the depths of the Iberian countryside, and the full moon means I shall have enough natural light to walk my dog (it hurts like hell not to be able to write it in the plural anymore) on my farm bymidnight (or later). I know this is a very unassuming reason for satisfaction, but, at least, is far more convincing than the previous one.
But there us a six thing that makes me smile: when I realize I still have a few friends that care. They are not too many, but they exist. And that means the world to me. Especially during these hard times.
Petunia - What is something many don’t know about you?
Oh, there are many things most people don’t know about me. That’s why my hair is so big - it’s full of secrets!
Ok, but here goes a story that few people know.
This happened when I was six or seven. One day (actually, afternoon), I crossed one of the busiest streets of Lisbon (the Castilho Street, I suppose) at rush hour - the light was red, and I didn’t even look at the incoming traffic. Not surprisingly, I was hit by a car (as far as I remember, it was an old BMW 1602 - but I don’t recall if it was white or silver). I remember clearly the impact and struggling to breathe after it. But I was alright - no broken bones, no bruises, zero damage.
My mom had a friend who had a son with roughly the same age as me - also an only child, like Mr. Fabien Euskadi (a.k.a. Miguel). He also crossed a street without looking. He also had the misfortune of being hit by a car. But this kid wasn’t so lucky: he died. If there is a god, he didn’t want me to go (or even to get wounded), but the same cannot be said about that other kid. Why? Considering that, many years later, I would be on my way trying to find the right spot to end my life, there is a sad irony about all this story.
I was given an opportunity to live a life that, years later, I was ready to throw away; meanwhile, someone else could have lived that life instead of me.
(thank you very much, my friend Pops - and may May be graceful with you)
2 notes
·
View notes
Top 5 Móc Khóa Chích Điện Tự Vệ Giá Rẻ Hàng Chính Hãng Cực Mạnh
Dụng Cụ Tự Vệ MP sẽ giới thiệu đến bạn đọc Top 5 móc khóa chích điện đang được nhiều khách hàng sử dụng nhất trên thị trường hiện nay.
1️⃣ Móc khóa chích điện tự vệ 1602
2️⃣ Móc khóa chích điện tự vệ BMW
3️⃣ Chích điện mini móc khóa kết hợp tay đấm gấu Sting Ring Guard Dog
4️⃣ Súng gây choáng mini tự vệ hình son môi
5️⃣ Móc chìa khóa chích điện tự vệ giá rẻ dạng USB
📍 Mỗi sản phẩm sẽ có từng ưu và nhược điểm khác nhau. Liên hệ ngay với Dụng Cụ Tự Vệ MP để được tư vấn cụ thể.
🔎 Xem chi tiết bài dưới sau: https://dungcutuve.org/product-category/moc-khoa-chich-dien/
----------------------------------------
Thông tin liên hệ:
🏚 Địa chỉ: 53 Nguyễn Chí Thanh, Xuân Thanh, Long Khánh, Đồng Nai
📞 Phone: 0903299760
🌎 Website: dungcutuve.org
#dungcutuvemp #tuve #MP #mockhoachichdien
0 notes