#bsd beast au x y/n

[yenkat101]

Dating headcannons, Beast AU pt 2

25 post event. 3/25. -pt. 3 (Fukuzawa and Mori)

Characters: (Dazai x you) (Chuuya x you)

General: headcannons

Text type: Pine point

Warning: mentions of yandere and manipulation

Master list

Osamu Dazai

-Yes we can all confirm that Dazai is different in that alternate universe.. but if he's the same type of lover? Based on my opinion I would say he's 75% the lover he is in the original alternate universe..

-Would he be touched starved? About this aspect, not entirely.. why you may ask.. it's because Dazai in that alternate universe has somewhat forgotten the hole meaning of affection.. like he's the boss of the port Mafia, of course he thinks affection is unnecessary..

-Honestly Dazai acts like his usual self in the original alternate universe but he also acts like Mori from the original Au as well.. yes I believe that Dazai would be his usual clinging self but has moments where he acts two faced..

-how would Dazai give out affection? In my opinion he's a bit of a mix.. at one moment he surprisingly doesn't give out affection.. then another, he's showcasing his love for you shamelessly.. it's mostly depending on how he's feeling, on how he's recepting and his current thought.. there's time where he would give you affection and times where he would force you to give out affection.. yes, he's all over the place...

-it's not hard to believe that Dazai would be the one controlling the relationship.. not only does he like that thought of superiority but he'd most likely be as a manipulating yandere.. I don't really need to elaborate on why he would be a yandere nor why would Dazai be in charge of the relationship..

-it's well known that Dazai would easily manipulate you in some way to get what he wants.. like a hug, cuddles, embraces, ect.. or he'll do it himself without shame...

-Dazai doesn't need the courage to confess.. because if he truly wants you then you'll be his no matter what.. if you already have feels for him, then lucky you.. If not that's when the manipulation will come in (or he'll simply kidnap you..)

-Dates with Dazai.. he's a bit complicated when it comes to that.. there's moments where the dates are something you enjoy. like walking through a park or something of the sort, then the next is something completely different and unusual.. Surprisingly most places he does take you to, has a very deep meaning or symbolic to what he'll say or what he'll do.. like example he's proposing to you, he'll either take you to the place that the both of you first met or take you to a place where a lot of couples propose in Yokohama..

-despite being the boss of the port Mafia he still hesitant about certain aspect of the relationship.. but he gets over it quicker than usual because he doesn't want to let that slow him down..

-working with the Port Mafia with Dazai, very interesting to Dazai because 1. he can stalk all your activities without any difficulties (not that he had any difficulty if you weren't working for him) 2. he can easily stalk you (not that he would have had a hard time) and 3. he's the boss, meaning he can make you do anything or else, you know the consequences.. so it's really a win-win for him.. He can also make you take breaks whenever he wants you too (most of the time he wants your company with the reasoning he's lonely)

-what does he think about you living with him..? Honestly he preferred if you remained with him because he is a dangerous criminal. Not only that, but the boss of the port Mafia, one of the most dangerous and well known criminal organization in Yokohama.. It's safer to think that you should be in his protective range if you don't want to be harmed

-trying to sleep in the same bed as Dazai, he's honestly all for it because you're his lover... Of course he had fantasized of sleeping in the same bed as you.. it's quite obvious that he's not sleeping during the night.. so he'll either fall asleep because he feels so comfortable around you or he'll stay awake with only the comfort of your body against his own..

-majority of times Dazai would be big spoon.. because 1. He feels a sense of superiority and feels like he's protecting you throughout the night, 2. Easy access and exit, entry of leaving the bedroom 3. easier to leave and enter without waking you up.. there's probably more reasons but those are the ones he could name on the top of his head..

-it doesn't really take much to make Dazai the opposite Spooner.. because he gladly do it on his own time.. he'll most likely do it because he's sick, tired, exhausted, bored, needy, unwell, lazy, sacred, sad, frustrated.. shall I go on? Because Dazai will either cling onto you like an emotional baby or he'll cling onto you with satisfaction or he will cling onto you frustrated.. so take your pick..

-The affection Dazai adores.. is whatever cute affection you offer.. like hugs, kisses, embraces, hand holding, arm hooking, cuddles, quality time together, ect.. especially if you act very adorable while doing so.. (because heck he will coo you like Mori does with Elise when you do cute stuff like that)

-Dazai jealous.. I'm assuming someone's being too friendly, as in flirting.. So he'll either prove to this person that he is more important to you or he'll kill them because they were talking to his darling that way.. (scratch that, he'll torture them before he kills them..)

-if you think very lowly of yourself? It's best you don't vocalize it.. because it's not going to go well.. trust me..

-Dazai can't cook.. because if you know his backstory you would question if he knows how to cook for himself.. because heck he eats from the cafe, canned crabs and alcohol.. and you think he knows how to cook? No he wouldn't improve his cooking.. but he'll try to at least cook something decent if you're sick or unwell.. his heart goes on cloud 9 when you cook something for him.. so it's best you know how to hide, unless you want to be bothered by his squeals and coos as if he's speaking to a 5 year old for being cute..

Chuuya Nakahara

-honestly Chuuya isn't as different as the originally au.. because he's still the loyal considerate gentleman from the original AU.. not much has actually changed.. except the fact that he respects Dazai a little bit more than the originally AU..

-I would see Chuuya as possibly touched starved, because he didn't really receive an sort of affection that had good intentions behind them (so if you love Chuuya for Chuuya with the best intention, he'll love you just as much) but at the same time, it's most likely that he isn't touched starved because Chuuya's more fixated on having all his loyalty on work and his boss Dazai than on love..

-Chuuya would treat you with the up most respect.. of course he belittles you a lot because he believes he needs to protect you.. but I'm referring to the fact he will listen to your opinion, judgment and needs without question (because he WANTS to make this relationship based on communication rather than arguments)

-how much affection will Chuuya be willing to give out? He give a reasonable amount of affection, but most the affection will be done in private because he values both yours and his own privacy.. but he's all for arm hooking, hand holding, waist holding and maybe a few goodbye kisses in public.. (depending on where he is and who's around, obviously)

-if you're in a relationship with him, Chuuya would be most likely the one in charge since he likes spoiling his s/o in any ways he can (he's not used to, being spoiled himself and he's not used of being taken care of) and he also one to believe that he should be the one providing for you because he thinks you deserve to rest while he deals with the stressful and dirty work.. (because he believes that it would be nice of him to do..)

-I also see him like the type of boyfriend that comes home and needs affection because he had a long day (because he's job is more stressful than it sounds) not only that but he does need to be comforted once in awhile because it sometimes becomes overbearing..

-I believe the only way he was able to ask you out was because someone members of the port mafia were pushing him and the after effects of alcohol.. and also because he wants to get the heartache over with

-Beileve me or not.. but he doesn't care where the date takes place unless they have these big points. 1. He's with you, 2. He's spoiling you 3, More bonding time (yes Chuuya's a Simp when it comes to his lover) but he sometimes bring you too fancy restaurant, just because he can..

-I believe that he would be a bit hesitant with certain aspects of PDA and would rather take this relationship slow for his own comfort.. but once he gets used to it, you can almost give him PDA all the time.. and don't question it when he asked for affection, just give it! or he may prefer to be alone for a good while..

-working with the Port Mafia with Chuuya, honestly he doesn't have much to say on the matter except certain things that are beneficial and things that are not.. like he could easily protect you, keep an eye on you and make sure you take care of yourself with the bonus that you probably know how to defend yourself.. but on the negative side, you risk your life almost every day, you're wanted, you're most likely not as strong as Chuuya so you may be at risk.. but he tried his best not to argue with you.. because you're a person and you deserve to have your own opinions..

-I think he wouldn't exactly mind having you live with him because he loves you and he gets to see you more so it's a win-win for him and he could protect you if needed..

-trying to sleep in the same bed as him, don't get me wrong he loves you but he be very hesitant and flustered by the sudden proposal. But still doesn't after perhaps many opportunities.. unless for a valid reason such as nightmares, you're extremely cold, you're scared, you're sick, you've been for some recent trauma, ect.. (yes, he believes those are valid *not for himself obviously but for you*)

-I would think that most of time Chuuya would be big spoon because it's his way of feel more superior (totally not because of his height) and it gets him a sensation that he's protecting you

-he absolutely loves the feeling of you in his arms. When you're in his arms, he feels like he's protecting you from any harm that comes your way

-there would be times where he would be the small spoon on certain occasion like if he's afraid of losing you he might latch onto you, if he feels sick, if he feels really tired, he had a nightmare or even if he had a rough day and wants to be cooed at

-this boy really likes your praises like when you play with his hair, kiss on the cheek, forward kisses, he will melt into your touch especially if you offer to kiss on the lights.. it may or may not become spicy (especially if he's drunk)

-him jealous while in a relationship, I don't see him at the type to attack people unless they were being inappropriate but I see him as the type that would come up to you. Hold your body while letting his hands wonder a bit, seeming like he's tired and upset.. for you to react worried and practically forget that there was flirter talking to you and focusing all your attention on Chuuya. But it was he's way of proving to your flirter that your loyalty lays with him and then he would glare a little at the flirter once you're looking away.. or Chuuya may wake up and choose of violence which happens 76% of the time..

-if you think very lowly of yourself. he would just honestly tell you what he thinks about you. That he clearly does not think you're worthless or anything like that, while showering you in kisses.. even though he doesn't understand the insecurity, he'll try to change your mind..

-I believe that he's still an excellent chef but he would try and improve even more in hopes to impress you. If you make him something when he gets home, his heart will melt thinking how he's so lucky to have someone as caring as you

25 post event with (Dazai x reader) and (Chuuya x reader) 3/25.

[honeyinapot]

The Long Goodbye

I’ve also got this on AO3 and Wattpad uhhh I don’t use tumblr often I don’t think I’ve ever written anything on here since I made the account? If you wanna teach me anything that’d be nice…

Character deaths warning this is Dazai you’re reading about + Beast Light Novel spoilers.

"Osamu, why do you always seem like you're going somewhere?" You murmured to the man laying on your chest.

"Belladonna," His laugh vibrated against you warming the heart he pressed his ear against. "I'm not going anywhere." 

"I know you Dazai, maybe you're not going anywhere but you're planning something." You frowned raising an eyebrow at him, "And you know how much I hate that nickname cut it out." 

A calloused hand slipped from under you, Dazai slide his body above yours before resting his hand on your cheek. Dipping his head and gently kissing the curve of your neck softly. A contrast to the rough hand grazing over your burning ears. 

"Love, forgive me..sometimes I feel as though you'll be the death of me." Dazai cold breath brought chills amongst your spine. "Even outsmarting me in my own game, you know I love it when you call me my name." 

"Osamu." 

"That's better." Before resting his weight against you once more. A comfortable silence trickled in, staring at the ceiling you slipped your hands in his hair massaging his scalp as he controlled his breathing. 

"What are you planning?" 

Dazai grinned up at you. "Well right now I'm planning to cuddle with you for an hour or so then maybe seduce—"

You sat up bending his body uncomfortably above you, he rolled off to an empty side of the bed. 

"Seriously Dazai, I'm trying to have a conversation with you." You furrowed your eyebrows at the steel case beside you, he made you curious. He sighed through his nose and faced the ceiling. 

"Like I said earlier, I'm not going anywhere or planning anything. Can we go back to what we were doing?" 

He was changing the subject, but this had been something you wanted to discuss for awhile now. 

"Dazai, why have I never been to your job? Actually, why won't you let me?"

"I never want to see you there." He still wouldn't look at you. 

"Where do you work?" 

He didn't respond. You pressed your lips together as you stared at him. You wanted him to tell you the truth, you gave him chances, hints, nudges. Now you were pushing. 

"The Port Mafia, (Y/n) I work at the Port Mafia." You said for him. He stilled turning to look at you with wide eyes. 

"What...what did you just say?" 

"Did you expect me to never see a wanted poster with your name on it? Or see the news? Are your bandages on too tight?" Sarcasm poured from you, you didn't want to be cross with him, but if you want to hide something don't do a piss poor job at it. 

Dazai pushed off the bed. He felt around for his deep brown rich coat and shoes. 

"What are you doing?" You stood following him.

"I have to go."

"We're not done talking."

"I'm done...I'm done talking." 

"You're kidding." You breathed out as he approached the door. 

"You face countless threats everyday risking your life, but you're a coward when it comes to me?" 

His back faced you as he held the doorknob with an internal struggle. He shut his eyes seeing something he never wanted to see again. 

"Yes (Y/n), goodnight."

He slipped away leaving only a quiet click of the door. Presenting him with what you knew meant Dazai had more plans to arrange. He only hoped you wouldn't be there when the time came. 

You hadn't heard from him in days and it was getting on your nerves. You only wanted to talk, to understand, to calm your nerves. There'd been more fights breaking out within Yokohama since your last conversation. 

You didn't even know if he was alive. 

You were bristling as you stood in front of the large building. You really meant to calm your nerves but you just weren't able to brush aside your curiosities. 

Suited up men and women stood outside the building as you walked toward the doors. One of them to your surprise held the door open for you. 

"Thank you."

"Enjoy your trip Mrs. Dazai."

The door shut behind you as heat rushed to your face. 

"Mrs?" You mused as your brain finished. You continued to the receptionists desk as the image of that fool pranced around your mind. A small grin rested on your face seeing him jump around room to room, person to person with your picture. 

'Look at my wife!' 

Asking for your 'husband' you made your way to his office. During the elevator ride up you thought about what it would be like to actually marry the man. Your days always filled with adventure. 

The doors opened to a long empty corridor. You heard only the sound of your shoes and the fabric on your thighs rubbing together. 

You stared out at the beautiful day taking in how warm and sunny it was. Maybe you'd bully him into taking you on a date. 

Dazai always had a reason for his actions, maybe you pushed too far. You couldn't wait to see his face to say you loved him and you were sorry. Sliding your hands in your pockets a smile spread across your face and your heart sung. 

But then you saw him.

"Osa...Osa!"

You tried to breathe, make your voice stronger. 

You weren't sure where your mind went as the scream built in your throat. At first you hadn't realized...but then his bandage unraveled and his deep brown eyes met yours for a moment a second and you could've sworn you felt your heart burst as he fell. A tucked away thought that you'd always feared finally came true. 

You wrote for days. 

Blueprints. Drafts. Editing. More drafts. Copies. Then finalized your work onto a page. 

When you awoke in your new world you were certain your days of hurt would be over. All you had to do was find him. So you searched and stumbled upon a coffee shop. 

You slipped above the stairs without alerting anyone. 

Your heart responded to familiar laughter, it made you walk faster brushing past someone.

"Hey!" A distraction you ignored and pushed forward throwing open doors.

"You're not suppose to be in here—" You could faintly feel their hand try to grab you by the arm. 

"What the hell? Hey!"

You finally threw open the door he stood behind. A room in disarray, paperwork fluttering around him and his tan coat as the sunset in the distance. Although you were facing his back you could tell he was grinning at the chaos around him. 

Seeing him again wedged your heart in your throat. Your voice once again faltered, his name fell from your lips as a whisper. It felt like too long since you'd last saw him, nearly moments ago you were cooped up in your room writing to see him again. 

Momentary bliss was destroyed when arms scooped you up pulling you into a frenzy. 

"I've been calling for you throughout the hallway! You can't be up here." Blonde hair floated into your vision as you struggled against him thrusting your body forward and hanging onto the door frame. 

"Dazai you suicidal bastard when I get my hands on you—"

Osamu's head snapped toward the sound of your voice, the smile he dawned earlier slipping as he recognized you. He'd barely been able to piece together your name in his brain as distant memories of your lives together haunted him. 

You reached for the wooden beam above the doorframe hoisting your body for your legs momentum and throwing them back to land into Kunikida's gut. Weakening his grip you slipped from his arms releasing the beam and stormed up to the glowing man before you. 

Without wasting time you pulled his body close grabbing him by his collar. The tan coat felt different on his body compared to his darker attire. 

And his eyes. God, his eyes. You'd never seen both before one had always been enough. But being here seeing light simmering in his deep brown eyes unravelled something in you. You were happy to see him, it finally brought you peace, yet you were also pissed beyond words you couldn't find. 

While you sat in your home writing you hadn't prepared what you'd say to him. You hadn't even thought about the raw emotions you'd have spilling out, the tears you failed to fight. 

Seeing you like this broke him, he hadn't planned to find you again 

"You said you weren't going anywhere, you swore! You never lie Dazai at least not to me! Why? Why? Why?!"

Dazai had loved you many times, but he wasn't sure how he messed up so badly. Well he did, he just refused to believe it. This wasn't his first time writing in the book, but this was his first time seeing your heartbreak. In every timeline he'd created for you he never lived long enough to see the aftermath. He'd never even gotten to the level of being with you, thinking staying afar would be safer, smarter.

Although he countlessly told himself this he always got closer, intertwining himself in your life. Despite his ability Osamu was still human, and humans made mistakes. He couldn't help it, he desperately missed you in his world. He hadn't held you in years, kissed you, heard you, all he'd been able to do was place flowers on your grave.

Only hearing his own voice, holding himself, missing your touch. 

Osamu had met you years before his mafia life. You'd survived in the slums together by outsmarting and stealing from on goers. Today you managed to pickpocket the wrong one. 

"I don't feel too fondly about little pests as yourselves touching me. Unless of course it were my dear Elise." He spoke calmly without a care in the world as he brought a foot down hard onto your abdomen. Your body salivated from the pain allowing you to cough up only that. He dug his heel into you as he grabbed Dazai by the throat. 

"Now which one of you insects has it?" 

You squirmed under the weight as Dazai observed keeping his one eyed gaze hard. 

"Well boy?" Mori tore his eyes from Dazai to you as you writhed beneath him. 

"Doesn't seem like your friend can take much more—" Mori looked back only to quickly release the dangling boy. He narrowly missed a golden metallic butterfly. Quick on his feet Dazai swooped low kicking the man off you. You scrambled toward him both of you bolting out the bright lit alleyway.

You huffed and puffed as you leant over, your lungs and body screaming for air. 

"Let's stay away from that area for awhile." Dazai murmured just as out of breath as you were. 

"You don't have to tell me twice..who even was that guy? I mean who strangles kids!?" Despite being in the wrong yourself he could've defended himself some other way. There's no need to go murdering children. 

"You ignored me only to not know who we were stealing from?" Dazai was as pissed as a fifteen year old could be. 

"I didn't hear you! He looked like an easy mark!" 

"(Y/n), you're the easy mark! His wanted posters are literally everywhere he's from the Port!" 

You ignored the remark he made given your mistake it was justified. 

"Then why didn't you let me take him on? The mafia sucks and you know how my ability works I could've won easy." 

Dazai opened and closed his mouth completely clamping his mouth shut at his reasoning being ridiculous. He couldn't even lie, not to you, never. 

"Because."

"Becauseee?" You annoyingly nudged at his feet. Dazai turned away from you leaving his bandaged side to your sight. 

"Osamu? Because what?" 

This was the truth even if it was partial. 

"Because...dumb old guys focus more on hurting you than me, so it leaves a clear opening to land a hit."

You stared at him void of any emotion.

"What?" He still refused to look at you, but he felt your stare.

"That didn't answer my question." 

Startled he looked at you with red flush on his face and brown eyes bubbling with panic. A funny contrast compared to his usual teasing and stoic personality. 

"I'm suppose to— I—you!" Dazai placed his hands on his face and let out a muffled scream. 

"Do you know what the Mafia is?" Dazai drug his hands across his face as you gave an answer. In his eyes you saw that something wasn't right. 

Barely a second later Dazai had shot toward you crashing your bodies together onto the dirt. As your head hit the ground a giant syringe stuck into the spot Dazai had been. 

"If you're curious, I could show you the definition." You looked in horror as the man you robbed earlier approached you. 

Osamu held you close with a scowl on his face dissipating his earlier fluttering emotions. 

"Join me and maybe I'll spare you the punishment of trying to embarrass me."

A rumbling filled the heated room from the bees residing in it. You opened a window to clear the suffocating feeling. You didn't know how Dazai wore that dark long trench coat when you work together. He should've been hot enough with the bandages on. 

Pulling away from the window you decided to check on your colony's productivity. Lazily stepping toward an angry bee covered corpse you dug into his mouth to retrieve a blood filled honeycomb. Your signature. Your eyes lingered over your work that you'd brutally honed for three years. Crystals gleamed within each hexagonal shape indicating the sweetness. 

Your sights peered over to Dazai who'd been using the torture method on the aspiring new port mafia's boss. In other words a fake using the actual Port's name in vain. Dazai had still been punching the man and you wondered if he'd ever be done. 

"I'm bored Osamu." 

His dark brown eyes met yours a deep void that barely clung to light. 

"Then come over here and finish him off." 

He pulled away as you approached him shaking off the blood on his fist and wiping the rest on his coat. Rolling your eyes you yanked open the boss' mouth and placed the honeycomb made from his deceased partner and placed it. You patted the gang members head to hush him. 

"Be a good boy and don't spit it out. The bees will follow wherever the comb is."

The boss teared up, maybe from pain, maybe from remorse, or from enjoying the sweet treat you left. You didn't really care. The job was done. 

"Don't take us sparing you as a change of heart, we just need you alive for the papers, m'kay sport?"

He had the nerve to cry. 

The both of you turned away, Dazai slipped an arm around your waist as you left the building. 

"Fucking Port Mafia wannabe." 

The walk most of the way back was long..for Dazai at least. 

"Dammit Chuuya's right you are a waste of bandages!" 

Dazai avoided looking at you, which was easy for him. 

"I didn't do anything wrong!" He whined denying your complaints. 

"Nothing wrong? You dropped me!" You pushed the lanky eighteen year old onto the grass. You hadn't expected him to pull you down with him. You shrieked as you tumbled down the hill with him. Your limbs intermingled with Dazai's as well as your laughter. 

"I don't scream like that!" You snickered. 

Dazai mimicked you once more sending both of you into fits of laughter. 

"Stop!" You laughed harder to the point were it hurt to even breathe. 

"It's exactly how you sound!" Tears flooded Dazai's eyes as he held his stomach. It hurt from the laughter so did his heart as he watched you. 

Hair a mess, clothes tussled and blood stained from earliers fight. His heart caught in his throat from how beautiful he found you in the nightlight. He sat up fast feeling dizzy. 

You continued to laugh until you realized you'd been laughing alone. You breathed out, "Osamu?" 

He'd sat up and looked toward the sky. You could barely see his face. Following his lead you also sat up leaning your body against his. 

"Belladonna." He turned toward you leaning closer making your face burn. 

"Is something wrong?" You whispered.

"It's just will you..." Dazai's face shyly lowered to your shoulder, "will you do a double suicide with me?"

Your rising blood pressure rose higher switching from nervousness to anger. You thought he'd been asking you something different. As playfully as you could you shoved him off you.

"No idiot and stop calling me by that stupid flower!" 

He looked at you with puppy eyes.

"So you won't kill yourself with me?" 

"Is there a bandaged squeezing your brain? No!" You stood up even more pissed as you blinked back tears. It frustrates you more that you were upset about this. Every time it felt like he was toying with you. 

"How about I go finish the report and I see you tomorrow Dazai? It's late and I just want to knock this out." 

"Why the formalities (Y/n)? Did I make you upset?" Dazai joined you standing, towering over you with a smirk. You turned away from him fighting hot tears and a tightness in your chest. 

"I'm gonna head back."

You peeled away from him miserably trudging up the grassy hill. Dazai followed behind you hands in his coat pockets. Walking ahead gave you time to cool and brush off negative thoughts. 

"(Y/n)?"

You paused in your steps taking a breath in before turning to him. He stood paces away from you hands now at his sides fidgeting as he balled them up. 

"Is something wrong?" 

A simple question. Simple enough to make the floodgates pour. Enough to have Dazai bolting toward you. 

A few droplets wiped away bloody grim off your face. Dazai's calloused hand held your cheek, his thumb smeared stray tears as he whispered. The street light above you flickered on and the sight of him, the proximity made your chest hurt. 

"Hey, what's wrong?"

You slapped the hand away. 

"You're what's wrong! I don't get you! I just—"

You buried your face in your hands with a sigh. You felt small in this moment, vulnerable. 

"You're so frustrating look I—" You slide your hands off your face. Looking him in the eye you started over. 

"I like you a lot. I don't understand if you like me back because you're always teasing me. Getting my hopes up and then stepping all over them like some game! It's irritating just give me a hint anything!"

He'd clumsily crashed his lips into yours having zero prior experience besides his pillow. He wished Chuuya had taken up his offer on practicing because God was he nervous. You were soft and bittersweet against his lips despite how rigid you were. 

'Fuck, wait.'

Dazai pulled away from you. He shouldn't have done that this wasn't some fairy tale this was real life. Yet when he opened his eyes he saw yours shut tight, face flushed and hands squeezing at your uniform. 

You peeked an eye open with a pout on your face. 

"Why'd you stop?" 

That night something you'd always cherish was the way his eyes shimmered. Pupils blown out wide and a bright light creeping through his eye while he stared at you with a wide grin. 

"You're stiff as a wall."

You'd blush harder if you could. 

"You're awful you know that, Dazai?"

"Osamu." He leaned closer to your face.

"What?" 

"When you're happy, mad, or angry even with me call my name. We've known each other for too long, but it's alright we'll have more than enough time to practice."

You tried his name again, it felt differently with your newfound relationship.

"Osamu."

"Good, now we can practice those kissing skills." 

You knocked him upside the pole.

"See you at the base, while you're up there plan a date for us tomorrow. We're taking the day off."

You weren't going to make it. You knew that even with Dazai blasting his way through members it was obvious. 

Your focus had been occupied with more than enough between taking fire and bringing swarms over the men. Although you were busy your instinct had you peek at Dazai. You were right, it was a shame that he'd always been your weakness. Two members had eyes on him both taking fire as he returned shots. A third member crept behind him. Without a clear shot you leapt out of cover sure you'd gotten everyone. 

"Osamu! Watch out!" You fired two shots into the members skull and they fell.

Dazai turned toward the sudden disturbance as he hid behind his cover. As he ducked away to reload he'd seen you get shot three times in the chest. To his horror he'd seen his targets change their aim to you. In response to this the bees you deployed were further angered planning new hives in the two remaining. 

Dazai rushed over dropping to your body in a heartbeat. Pulling off his jacket he pressed it onto you to stop the bleeding wound. The fabric didn't help. You were choking. Gargling up words as you bled out. 

"(Y/n)..no hey..look at me, look at me."

You saw the panic in his eyes, but remained calm. Everything was fine, he was safe. 

Blood filled your mouth and pooled out of it as you struggled to speak. You reached for his face cupping the bandages instead of flesh. 

"O...s...a? Os...am....u?" Your body seized still from the pain grabbing a hold of the bandages and pulled. If your heart hadn't been broken already the organ broke at the sight of both his eyes. As you saw yourself dying you watched that light you loved fade alongside you. Tears rushed to your eyes as Dazai turned to a creak at the door. 

A file of members barged in. You could see Dazai scream as he fired at them. Despite how close he was you could no longer hear his screaming nor the ricochet of the guns. 

But you could feel his tears on your body as he fought for you as you quickly drifted to a permanent slumber. 

Soon after Dazai quit the mafia. There was no longer any point to continue protecting you. 

He'd already failed.

Years passed. 

He'd turned 19. 

                Then 20,

                    Then 21,

                         Than 22 without you. 

And every year he found himself feeling eighteen again for four years. Cold and alone missing you. 

Until he found it. The very thing Fyodor had destroyed the world with. 

The Book. 

He shaped and molded worlds for you to live in. Worlds where he could see you happy. A world where he could see you safe. Never again hungry scraping up dirt in the slums. He could never put you through that again. Dazai originally wrote to see you from a distance and then he left. 

The first time he'd done so he came back to this world without you again feeling empty. He picked up a pen again to see you then disappeared. 

But then he bumped into you, his mistake really he shouldn't have gotten too close. Months of seeing you from afar had him craving for more, but touching you gave him butterflies. A sudden thrill he'd missed for years—he caught himself before the rollercoaster of emotions went any further and once again disappeared. 

Now? 

Being away from you for so long made him restless. 

So he created a world where he could fall in love with you all over again. Every world he'd made he'd kept everything that built your personality, especially you're cleverness. The very thing that led you worlds to his, something he hadn't even planned. 

The only two aware of it should still be in that book. 

Akutagawa and Atsushi. 

So how?

"Osamu!" You pulled him worlds away back to his own and he breathed. 

"You have nothing to say? Since you're so quiet I'll say what I've got on my mind bastard." 

You opened your mouth to yell at him, but he'd shut you up with a kiss. 

And he was eighteen with you again. Having his first kiss under a dim flickering streetlight, stealing bread from bakeries, taking out targets, going on dates. He was forever eighteen every time he kissed you. 

But this time was special because he was eighteen and his life finally moved forward. 

Bonus: Kunikida grumbling as he picks up and reorganizes the papers surrounding the two of you. 

Extra bonus: You're absolutely terrified of Atsushi he's literally known in your world for being a murderer?? Since he's a cat and cats are scared of water you throw a lot of water on him the first day, and then adopt him.

[yenkat101]

Bsd dating headcannons Beast AU pt. 1

25 post event. 3/25 -pt. 2 (Dazai and Chuuya)

Characters: (Atsushi x you) (Akutagawa x you)

General: Headcannon

Text type: Pine point

Warning: mentions of hickeys

Master list

These images are not mine credits go to the owners!

Atsushi Nakajima

- unlike the original au Atsushi he would be way less flustered but still shy about the relationship

-I would see him as touchstrave as well because his childhood wasn't the best and he lacked a lot of physical touch that weren't harmful

-I would think that he would be very tamed around you when in a relationship but you could easily fluster the poor baby

-I would believe that he would not exactly be able to express himself so expect sudden acts of affection without an warning

-if you're in a relationship with him, he would be most likely the one in charge since Atsushi wants to protect you not the other way around

-I would see him like the type of boyfriend that comes home and needs affection because he had a long day

-I believe that he himself would get the courage to ask you out once he knows you like him too, so there's almost a 100% chance you would say yes

-I would suggest going on dates that are not too fancy instead calm and normal and not to formal like going on lunch dates, picnics, walk through the park, ice cream dates but he prefers walking in dark alley's holding you as he shows you breathtaking places

-I believe that he would be a bit hesitant with certain aspects and would rather take this relationship slow to not have the possibility of regretting something

-working with the pm with him, he'd be happy because if you're loyal to the pm and do your job they won't bother you. He'd be happy you could protect yourself even tho he protects you all the damn time

-I think he wouldn't exactly mind having you live with him because he could protect, yes he's obsessed with protecting the only light source he has

-trying to sleep in the same bed as him, not hard at all just he's in control in order for your wish to come true

-I would think that most of time Atsushi would be big spoon because he enjoys the feeling that's he's protecting you

-there would be times where he would be the small spoon on certain occasion like if he's afraid, had a nightmare, he's stressed or just need your touch in general. just grab him, pull him close, let his head rest on your chest while you play with his hair singing a light lullaby in his ears he would 100% fell asleep like an

innocent baby

-he absolutely loves comfort because of how touchstrave he is because of how mistreated he was as a child, so having a s/o that would baby him only a little gives him a slight idea of what a normal childhood is

-this boy really likes your praises like small head pads, kiss on the cheek, forward kisses, he will melt into your touch only in private, but in public, he'll let you get away with it while looking so intimidating... People in the PM are so terrified and confused on how you got away with it. Even Dazai was shock your still alive

-him jealous while in a relationship, he'll just come up to you and simply prove your his. May or may not leave some hickeys on your neck to prove a point. Let's just say he act as he's normal self but let's his hands wonder while maintaining his emotionless expression might even glare so frighteningly that the guy ran for his life

-if you think very lowly of yourself he would just tell you a bit about his past and how he thought the exact same thing about himself. but then he would tell why he doesn't feel this way now, he claims that you gave him the love he was missing and now he gives you love hoping to cause the same effect as it did for him

-he's a pretty decent chef but he would try to improve for you but if you make him something for him when he gets home he would know in your part was wholehearted love, you were representing to him

-I honestly think that Atsushi being a boyfriend in general with a healthy relationship, he would be very tamed, secretly caring, possessive and is extremely touchstraved

Ryunosuke Akutagawa

-unlike the Ryunosuke Akutagawa from the original au he would be at least less cold to you

-I would see him as touchstrave as well because his childhood wasn't the best and he lost he's sister

-I would think that he would be very comfortable around you in order to be dating

-I would believe he would be the type of boyfriend that would give you a little bit of

PDA because he doesn't want you to think he doesn't love you but gives you all his love in private

-if you're in a relationship with him, he would be most likely in charge because he needs to be in control because everything he knew is going down the drain. but you offering him control gives him ease that he doesn't always need to fight in order to be in control of his own life

-I would see him like the type of boyfriend that comes home late and worn out needing your affection immediately to relax himself in general

-I believe the only way he was able to ask you out was because the ADA pressured him to ask you out. Because it's a once in a lifetime thing to have Akutagawa love someone in a positive light other than Gin

-I would suggest going on dates that are not too fancy instead calm and normal and not to formal like going on lunch dates, picnics, even ice cream dates but he prefers midnight walks with you and a calm walk through the park

-I believe that he would be a bit hesitant with certain aspects and would rather take this relationship slow to not do certain things unless they are ready (like having a child with you)

-working in the ADA with him, he'd be glad that you can protect yourself and to have someone by his side as he tries to find his sister

-I think he wouldn't exactly mind having you live with him tho he pretends he hates it. because it is way easier to protect you and he gets to see you in general because just the site of you makes his heart do backflips even though he would never admit it

-trying to sleep in the same bed as him, don't get me wrong he loves you but he be very hesitant and flustered by the sudden proposal and might even refuse. But with enough asking and convincing he do it but he might not be able to sleep that night because you're so close to his face sleeping so adorably in his arms

-I would think that most of the time Akutagawa would be big spoon because he enjoy being the one in control and you being small spoon gives him a sense of he's protecting you, because you believe in his strength. he's really possessive in bed making sure you don't move a inch, so make sure you got all your needs done before going to bed with him

-he really loves when he would hold you in his sleep because he feels like he's protecting you and keeping you safe in his arms as if he's protecting a newborn baby from the world around him

-there would be times where he would be the small spoon only on certain occasion like him being harmed or sick or from nightmares because he's too weak to do anything and doesn't exactly like being small spoon but once you actually got him to do it he likes it a little. Like if he's sick or harm just lay down with him, let him rest on top of you while you play with his hair singing a light lullaby as his head rest on your chest and eventually he would fall asleep. Weak/Tired/Scared Akutagawa's sleeping face looks like a newborn sleeping with his mother after a good while of crying

-he does like you praising him but only in private, but he would absolutely prefer if you mean the praise. He prefers praises that came from the heart not just some random praises I just came out of your mouth because why not. he wants you to praise him and actually mean it

-jealous Akutagawa has no shame nor shyness whatsoever if he feels jealous because of some men hitting on you he would just quietly come to your side, place a hand on your waist to a pulling you up against him, clinging on to you while glaring menacely at the guy that thinks he even has a chance to get with you

-if you think lowly of yourself the first question is why, like why, was it him that made you feel this way, did he make you jealous or something, did someone say something to you? He wants to know so he could probably comfort you and tell you the truth that you're not what you say you are

-believe me or not I think that Akutagawa doesn't know how to cook in general because he probably thinks that cooking is a waste of time and simply eats packaged food because he's too busy researching of his sister's location but if he sees you enjoy home cooked food you'll try to learn a little something for you. but if you make him something especially if figs are Incorporated with the dish with tea as a side drink, just imagine him being totally silent while holding a hand over his mouth as he tries to hide his red face. he would 100% eat it for you

-I honestly think that Akutagawa being a boyfriend in general with a healthy relationship, he would be very shy distant, confused and is extremely touchstraved and he's very similar to the original AU but a bit more open to physical affection because of fear that he might make you feel worthless of his love or even you not believing he loves you

25 post event with (Atsushi x reader) and (Akutagawa x reader) 3/25.