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[pondanimal]

hi im sick and the fever is cooking my braincells so here's some insane mclennon analysis from the infirmed:

they're doomed yaoi to me because their natures made it impossible for them to be together. paul's number 1 driving force is his pursuit of "success." he needed to meet every societal milestone to feel successful, having a wife and kids was important to him for that projection of success (among other reasons I'm sure, but this was one he couldn't ever get from john). paul undoubtedly loved john and reciprocated in some capacity. i say this with confidence because while john is naturally obsessive and jealous, i don't think he would've had as hard of a time moving on from paul for so long (up until he died practically) if his relationship with paul was purely unrequited yearning. there's just no way. paul curates his image so thoroughly that even he struggles to find the "real" paul underneath it all. it's much easier for him to hide this part of himself than it is for john, and that's the simple reason we have more evidence from him than we do paul. for paul, whatever relationship he had with john was one he always knew would be sidelined. if the sexual side was something that he did expect to continue long term, i think he would've been okay having his wife and kids and john on the side at the same time. (i do fully believe he liked jane, but she was definitely a very convenient beard, and i think she knew that on some level. hence the sudden break up that she swore to never talk about?) that was always how they did it. im sure they had some unspoken understanding between the two of them that the other was always the most important one in their heart despite the girls and wives they kept around.

i say unspoken because i don't think john really saw it the same way. he needed paul and he needed the other beatles desperately. he was the one to suggest they live together on that greek island. cynthia saw this in him and tried to make him realize he needed them more than they needed him. i think he wanted paul all to himself, and the rational side of him probably knew it was a delusional dream, but it meant that whatever way he could actually get paul was never going to be enough for him. his life probably had an insistent undercurrent of disappointment and frustration. somewhere along the line i think they finally tried to talk about the future of their relationship and paul probably didn't give john the answer that he wanted. john needed paul so much that not having him at all was better than only having part of him. he's the type that needs a unfailingly loyal soul mate who's just as obsessed as he is, and i think he found that desire satisfied in yoko who was willing to play along. i think paul's answer probably made john vindictive and spiteful, but i think a part of him still believed that things would continue the way they were between them. maybe he still overestimated how much paul needed him, or underestimated paul's ability to move on from him. (a bit of projection happening there probably) but his surprise when paul married linda, who he thought (hoped?) was another short term girlfriend, and his belief that they wouldn't last very long tells me that he still was clinging on to the chance that paul would come running back and prove his loyalty and love to him. everything john did around this time reads like an act of spite as well as a kind of impossible test for paul. paul never passed them and i think that's where much of john's resentment that yoko talks about came from. paul could never give him what he wanted and john kind of set him up for failure in that way, but still blamed him for the aftermath.

anyways, moral of the story is, paul's rigid need to chase perfection doomed his relationship with john, and john's need for all or nothing love doomed his relationship with paul.

[pondanimal]

hi pou!!!! thank you for the tag <3

demon ghost cave - roar

the night before - the beatles

talk talk featuring troye sivan - charli xcx, troye sivan

ferry beer - kevin atwater

the gold - manchester orchestra

golden brown - the stranglers

wicked game - chris isaak

crack-up - fleet foxes

across the universe - the beatles

in your pocket - ricky montgomery

@longing4yesterday @sleeper9 @nerolikestowander @oneflydude @ramgirlpaul @erinarigby and anyone else who'd like to, please feel free, and tag me if you do !

Thank you so much for the tag @memorial-sewer! <3

music shuffle game rules: shuffle your ‘on repeat’ playlist and post the first 10 songs, then tag 10 friends to do the same.

I Know (I Know) - John Lennon

No Words - Paul McCartney, Wings

When the Night - Wings

Simple Twist of Fate - Bob Dylan

Mamunia - Paul McCartney, Wings

Mr Fox in the Fields - Alexander Desplat

FREEPORT - Ludwig Göransson

RAINY NIGHT IN TALLINN - Ludwig Göransson

London Town - Wings

Some People Never Know - Wings

This made me realise how much I've been listening to Wings recently lol

Tagging @ringosmistress @yonderghostshistories @bobdylans116thdream @arthur-two-sheds-jackson @raxacoricofallapatorius42 @starstruckfangirlsposts @thegrapeless @thesuetyouforgot @montypythonswine @michael-palin-is-the-loml @assortedshizz-blog @whizzochocolate @commonguttersnipe @thehistoryone + anyone else who wants to join

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Been a little bit since I posted but please enjoy this image of my son

[pondanimal]

i wanna make a playlist of all the music the beatles mention listening to as teens, but like. that's gotta already be made right . anyone have any leads

[pondanimal]

im just saying paul mccartney has a chance to have the funniest coming out in history with this biopic

[pondanimal]

my partners taste in john-looks is so different from mine because im obsessed with mustached emperor of eternity john i would lick food out of that mustache okay i want to climb him like a tree i don't think a man can be sexier than that alright i think that's the limit. and he's like really???? the disgruntled train conductor?????

[pondanimal]

one of the things i like to tinhat about is believing that the reason john didnt like ob la di after it's release but was joyfully singing it with paul during its creation in india is because paul turned their fun india song they played together into a song about a het couple falling in love and having a bunch of kids LOL

[pondanimal]

the funniest part of anthology for me so far is seeing paul using the royal we like 'we were all very jealous of stu. me and george felt like he might take our place in john's life.' and then turning two pages to george's perspective and hes like 'i loved stu. what a guy. he was so nice and gentle to us. wonderful to be around. handsome, too.' LMFAOOOOOOO ik he laid it on thick like that on purpose

[pondanimal]

[pondanimal]

pacing around my room andngripping my head. they missed each other, they missed each other, they just missed each other, oh my god he was testing you it was never actually serious until you told him to move on from you, you gave him your blessing, why would he actually want it to come between you two, it never did in the past! it was always you! you had him! you had him! you had him! falls to the ground. gets back up. he needs to be chased! he wanted you to fight for him, a sign that you actually cared, you never spoke it out loud, it's just how you were raised you say, he's just sensitive, but then why did he let you! how could he let you push him away! he thought the binding of fate was a solid wall and he tested and prodded it every day and when you at wits end finally showed him the end you had gripped in your hand and unwove it in front of his eyes he was speechless AUGHHHH and yet you were completely blind to it! even after all these years with him, you couldn't see that you were the only one who could ever hurt him like you did, of course it was you that hurt him like you did, of course you could hurt him, and of course you did. even as you unwound your bonds you couldn't see it, didn't know what you had done. there is more holding you together than this flimsy string, you thought as it pooled at your feet and as he turned around and took a step out and kept walking and didn't look back

anyways that's my argument for paul fumbled john

[pondanimal]

why is djo cosplaying paul mccartney on his new album please listen to charlie's garden rn. im like second hand embarrassed by how blatant it is this is just a beatles song

[pondanimal]

dbh au mclennon........ it's sci-fi 60s and john is a rock star, notoriously reckless, new scandals every month. paul is a domestic android (similar to markus, a prototype designed with autonomy as its core feature). someone gifts him to john for some reason or another. john's convictions about androids fall somewhere near the side of they're pointless and bad for society, and he initially views him as an interesting (and kind of pretty) piece of technological advancement, but ultimately a stupid machine—prissy and annoying when he chides him for his bad habits. john starts teaching him guitar out of bored curiosity and gets pissed off when he sings and plays better than him, but it's all technical skill and he lacks the creativity to create his own music, which also pisses john off, bc he's starting to enjoy paul's presence a little lately and what do you mean you can't make your own song, you're brilliant. and paul helps reel john in and push him forward and john urges paul to become deviant and then they kiss about it <3 the end

[pondanimal]

can anyone hear me

[pondanimal]

i do need ringo fuckjng biblically actually this one's not even going to the drafts for a second no inhibitions

[pondanimal]

leaked footage of their actual last performance in 69

[pondanimal]

was paul's mom a lesbian