#but I'm literally going to explode if I don't just

[gatoiberico]

parfait pals

[icewindandboringhorror]

A very interesting cloud formation!

[twilightarcade]

that's a weird dog

[xhanisai]

I do kind of feel a bit spoilt with how the fandom pre-pandemic would share my work easily (fics getting hundreds and even thousands of notes on tumblr and on AO3 immediately and arts getting thousands of notes too). Back then, my work was so eUGH compared to the work I create now which is so much more polished and well thought out.

And now? It’s such a struggle for my art to reach even a hundred notes on this app alone and my fics take a long time to accumulate some attention on ao3. At first I thought it was because my creations have gotten WORSE lol but then I realised it’s been happening to all my friends too online.

Kinda sad tbh.

[petrichor-moss-and-lightning]

watching this clip again and thinking about girlhood and reflection and time and gender roles. like, i see my 7-year old niece, and it's gut-wrenching to watch her be pushed into the same eldest-daughter patterns of performance and forced perfection that i was as a kid, knowing what waits for her and yet not being able to save her.

[greyias]

Damn it Halsin, Part 2

I literally just left the map to go get my morning radiant buff since it disappears on a long rest. I WAS GOING TO COME RIGHT BACK!

[custer-mp3]

not to throw my hat in the ring with the 2080238403948th goth music discourse post but it's annoying how the argument keeps crossing my dash flattened of all actual nuance lmao

[ i'm giving you a Read More cuz i'm generous ]

you do have to listen to goth music to be goth, yes. but also no. if you were born between 1982 and 1995 there is a strong chance that in your neck of the woods, generic Mallgoth™️ (a fashion which incorporated aspects of metal, skater, hip-hop, fetish, and rave clothing/style into The Look) (a culture which was built around ALL heavy music of the period regardless of hard-and-fast genre demarcations through the brilliance of corporatism & the need for ease in marketing to the largest possible swath of a niche population) (which is a separate & distinct thing from GOTH-goth---y'know, people who go to goth nights & goth clubs & dress more tradgoth/deathrocky) was the predominate or ONLY alternative culture you grew up around, and because Mallgoth™️ was/is such a conglomerate type thing, there's no doubt you probably listen to a few Goth Bands at least casually but there's a much higher chance you also listen to a lot more metal, industrial, etc. cuz that's what was being pushed & marketed to METEORIC success as part of this corporate-driven culture.

does that make you any less goth? no, not really. the fascinating, terminally-online thing abt this whole discourse is it's clear how many of you motherfuckers here on tumblr dot edu do not go outside, because if you spent two weeks walking around Out In The World it would be really easy to tell Who's Goth And Who's Not, cuz you're either gonna get trash hurled at you from passing cars and people screaming shit about your genitals at you and other people trying to pray over you in public and other other people trying to pull their kids away from you or refusing to speak to you or even acknowledge your existence, or you're gonna get asked by timid nine-year-olds if you're emo.

bracket A is goth. bracket B is probably more-than-likely not. i don't give a shit what's on your playlist cuz "goth" is functionally a much more culturally-expansive label than this one small slice of specific bands & nobody gives a fuck about this except people who have too much time to argue with each other online and the current state of The Discourse™️ erases this cultural and developmental context as if the culture operates in a factory-sealed vacuum and never intersects with either capitalism or the hell that is other people. how about you go get among some bitches maybe

[steakout-05]

i think having TF2 as a special interest really early in my childhood influenced so many things about myself and my identity.... my gender is big men my sexuality is big men and my sense of humour is big men. i even named myself after the "very tiny and scrawny but still big" big man and i think about all the big men in TF2 on a semi daily basis,,,,,, anyway yeah i like the men in TF2 :)

[that-angry-noldo]

i remember last year, during the beggining of the summer, i thought the war would be over by the beginning, maybe by the end of the autumn. i can't imagine it ending anymore.

[daz4i]

bro i hate my country's politicians so much it's unreal

[running-in-the-dark]

(:

[barkingangelbaby]

no but I miss smoking weed I miss being high I miss intentionally dissociating I miss feeling numb I miss not having to think I miss existing in a space without physically feeling it I miss I miss I miss

[martsonmars]

desperately trying not to have a panic attack about university hehehe

[dredshirtroberts]

took the calculated risk of going out and meandering around town and looking through shops. in some ways i enjoy the throbbing ache of used muscles and bones as i rest. in other ways i hate it because i know as soon as i move it's going to intensify to Extreme Pain and i've already had the max amount of medicine i can take right now, and can't take any more for another 2.5-3 hours.

[jinstronaut]

anyways this is my first day off where i'm not doing something in like 2??? weeks and i'm literally making gifs right now but oh boy do i want to close photoshop now!!!!

[arklay]

did not just think about diana finding al just sitting on their bed holding their wedding photo in his hands after she brings him back, and he's just looking at it, visibly distressed, and the moment she touches his shoulder he starts crying and buries his face against her chest because he thinks he really ruined their relationship. good lord