#but fandom rp servers have this specific vibe thats not quite what im looking for

[jabberwockprince]

CHIEF. I met friends that I was talking to ten minutes ago that I have basically a fuckin pack bond with through roleplaying with my UTAU OCs when I was like... thirteen, fourteen.

I think you and the server's the closest I've gotten to having another person to be batshit deranged ramble about OCs with since those two and even THEN.

I'd like to fuckin know too. I go insane making my dolls smooch or go through The Horrors on the daily and it's all onto someone I met on fucking Amino and I love it so much but ALSO!!!! GGRGRHRHHR

RIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTT ??? latching onto ppl at 13-15 over OCs is such a formative experience for real

but even then in the server, it's mostly going insane about your own OCs with an audience, which is fun!! BUT I WANT THE "WE'RE BOTH DERANGED ABOUT OUR OCs WHOSE LIVES LORE AND DYNAMIC ARE IMPOSSIBLY LINKED TOGETHER" EXPERIENCE......

I think that's why I can't RP my own OCs when I join fandom RPs and only stick to canons, cause it's just. inserting these fellas who live in my brain who have extremely extensive lore and so much shit going on and having to tone it down or never address those things bc First I Have To Befriend Other Characters and get a feel for the vibe of the server, and then try a lot of RPs to see who I click with and who clicks with me RP wise? if that makes sense. like, I'm not RPing my ACTUAL OC, but a version that's easy to digest or adapted to the rules of whichever server I'm in

I WANNA GO THROUGH THE WHOLE PROCESS WITH SOMEONE, AND BUILD A WHOLE THING SEPARATE FROM FANDOM WITH EACH OTHER ............ but most of my friends don't have enough time nor interest !!!