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#but i can already feel how disappointed theyll be.... and theyll be more mad if i dont tell them beforehand but i dont want to debate it!!
toastsnaffler · 1 year
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my graduation is supposed to be in august + im requesting to graduate in absentia but i feel terrible abt it bc im not telling my parents 😑
#just bc if i do tell them they'll probably pressure me into going. and i dont fucking want to its my degree i can celebrate how i like#i wont even be living here in august!! and its a wednesday which is super awkward + im only allowed 2 guests but i have 4 parents lmao#which means i have to choose between my mum and dad. which will end up in hurt feelings either way#and theyre making us pay for our own robes which is stupid bc they literally have like 40k from me already#i cant sit in a stuffy hall through a two hour long ceremony that i wont even be able to hear with no one i know ill commit homicide#no point in doing drinks aftwr bc none of my friends have the same graduation date and i dont drink#like theres not a single reason why i would want to go. so im not going to#but i can already feel how disappointed theyll be.... and theyll be more mad if i dont tell them beforehand but i dont want to debate it!!#ik this is such a stupid thing but its making me stress like hell#ugh#my current plan of attack is not to tell them until they ask abt it and then the decision will be made so they cant do anything abt it#even if theyre upset abt it. but i HATE lying even by omission im the least dishonest person ever this is making me feel sick#and i have to tell them eventually bc ill need to get my diploma delivered to them so arghhhhhh#i technically got my degree over a year ago anyway bc i dropped out this is so dumb#they shouldve just been like sorry no ceremony for dropouts!! and then it wouldnt be my problem#whatever. deadline for registering is at 5 so itll be out of my hands once that passes thank fuck#.diaries#i think im getting unnecessarily worked up abt it bc im just generally in a shitty mood tbh#gonna go for a walk and find somewhere to sit and read outside until i feel more sane i think
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luveline · 1 year
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Badass!reader in the verge of crying but still pretending like she isn't? Spencer doesn't even try anything and he just lets her be until eventually she cries? Just some hurt/comfort :)
If it's a no please feel free to ignore this! Have a lovely day jade <3
tysm! hope this is okay angel ♡ fem!reader, 1k
"Irresponsible, sloppy, and pig-headed." Spencer winces. "I expected more from you. I'm extremely disappointed." 
Spencer winces worse. You can take a scolding. You can take a beating. But disappointing the people you care about, and disappointing Hotch? His chest hurts for you.
He pretends to have been reading as the door to Hotch's office opens and you step out, glancing up as you take the stairs down into the bullpen. Your desk is adjacent his and Morgan's, crowded by case files you nearly send flying as you hurry into your chair. 
Spencer takes his computer mouse and clicks on the work contact page. Your instant messaging is still open, the last message he sent you glaring and awkward, hey, think hotch is going to call you in for cincinnati. don't stress. 
You'd opened it but not answered. He peeks around your monitors to analyse you. You're staring hard at a single spot. The longer he looks, the glassier your eyes become. 
He sighs and cracks his knuckles, thinking. The last thing you want is for him to make a big deal of this, he knows that, but he needs you to know that he's here for you. 
"Did you want to get dinner tonight?" he asks without raising his head. 
You respond eventually, two seconds too slowly, "Where from?"
Your voice is fraught with the weight of your upset. Spencer ignores it for now. "Luh Bem?" 
"If you want to." 
"What I want is a cup of coffee." He stands, still without staring at you —an impressive feat of self control— and begins toward the office kitchenette. Predictably, you follow him. He's already putting a second mug beside his own when you step into his reach. 
"So, did you want to go?" you ask. 
Spencer nudges your hip with his gently. "Duh. What else would I wanna do on a Friday?" He makes your coffee exactly how you like it without asking and leaves it billowing steam by his own as he adds his five sugars. 
Bringing his coffee to his lips and turns, he leans on the counter. You do as he does, murmuring a thank you as you pick up your mug. Spencer lets his arm rest on yours, ever so slightly taller, more as your back begins to slouch unconsciously. There's no point in asking you if you're okay, because you'll say that you are. There's no point in trying to comfort you, because, despite your affection for him, you're not someone who cries easily in front of others. It would have you pushing him away. 
You're a nice girl under all your hardened exterior, and Hotch's disappointment hurts. You try very, very hard not to cry, swallowing and taking little sips of your hot coffee. 
You press your coffee into his hand and turn your body toward the cabinets, away from the office. Spencer waits, and waits, his relief immeasurable as you finally hide your face in his shirt sleeve and sniffle. Even though his heart breaks for you, he's glad you're giving in. You need to let stuff out before it eats you alive. 
He puts the coffees down behind him one at a time so as not to disturb you. Hands free, he lifts the hand furthest from you to your arm. If you were somewhere more private he'd hug you to him by the small of your waist. For now, he rubs a short line down to your elbow. Up, down.
"He was being harsh," Spencer says quietly. 
"Sorry," you whisper. 
He can't imagine how mortified you are. You won't sob or even shake, but these hot and fast tears aren't unfamiliar to him. Theyll be followed by an abundance of remorse.
"What are you sorry for?" He pulls you in closer, a squeeze of a hug. "You're okay. It's okay, he's just– he's mad about other stuff, he's upset about Beth. It's not just you." 
"He's right, I messed up," you say, your breath hitching. 
"You messed up," he agrees. "It was an accident. You'll be better next time." 
You sniffle rough and lift your face, wiping your tears with a cruel hand. Spencer takes your wrist in his hand to stop you, turninh to cover you from any nosy eyes. His fingertips are as soft as his voice wiping the rest of your tears away as he laments, "Please don't cry, don't get upset." Your face is hot to the touch. "Don't be embarrassed." 
"I'm not crying," you say, a last teardrop streaking from the corner of your eye. 
He wipes it away. "Okay." 
You pout at him like you want to cry more, and Spencer wouldn't mind, he'd stand here wiping your tears for hours if you needed it, but that's your worst nightmare. 
"Are people looking at me?" 
"Nobody's looking," he answers honestly. "You're only making a scene for me." 
You laugh but quickly cough. Spencer takes his opportunity to hug you and pats your back, considers kissing the side of your head but can't make himself commit to it. 
"Do you still wanna get dinner?" you ask weakly. 
"Yeah, I do. I really do. I'll get you whatever you want." 
If it were Morgan offering, you'd step on his foot. For Spencer, your clear and evident favourite, you nod into his chest, your hand slinking low on his back. 
He hugs you so hard he feels his ribs. 
"Wanna sleepover and watch Golden Girls?" he asks, prepared for rejection. You're the type to lick your wounds alone. 
But maybe in the privacy of Spencer's apartment you'll let yourself be upset properly, so he can comfort you appropriately. It aches how badly he wants to rub the tight space between your shoulders, tell you it's fine, you're fine, and one mistake doesn't define you, it never could. 
It's evidence of your affection for him that you agree. "Could we get the dinner to go?" you ask. 
Spencer tries not to look to triumphant. He's going to coddle and comfort you half to death, and by the looks of you, you're happy to let him. "Absolutely. Whatever you want." 
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antiloreolympus · 3 years
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10 Anti LO Asks
1. I'm glad LO fans are pissed at this Eris twist, they should be mad. You cannot claim to be a series about empowerment, giving Persephone a voice, and showing her inner complexity only to chicken out and make her a laughable depiction of a "perfect" woman and placing blame on a random character. RS wants all the perks of showing a "Complex Dread Queen" without actually letting Persephone have any sort of remotely "negative" traits, and the fans are right to be mad over it. It's insultingly bad.
2. Soooo, persephone = sleeping beauty????
Gifts from gidesses (fairy godmothers), hiding the kid with other godesses, ir the TGOEM, her seeing a man ONE TIME, and immediately in love. Jesus just let her get pricked by a thorn and fall asleep for 100 years already.
3. rachel purposely making sure persephone isn't even demeter's biological daughter in this is just wrong, esp when she says metis ISNT a mother to H/H/D because she only "created" them. she's making sure there is no actual connection between them in any way so demeter's overprotectiveness is even more demonized and persephone has /nothing/ for herself, meanwhile hades gets all the friends, family, power, etc. persephone is left with nothing and rachel thinks it's feminist/empowereing. this sucks.
4. you know i get a big part of the attraction to hxp and couples like it is the forbidden romance/"i can fix him" mentality and all but like idk how we're supposed to "fix" a literal slave owner lmao. like yeah you can fix myths hades, or hades game hades, or pjo hades, but theyre not hyper violent slavers who lust after barely legal interns, cheat with his sister in law, physically maim teenagers bc of a tiny slight, and literally corrupt the laws in his benefit like?? you cant "fix" that??
5. i thought this was supposed be a H&P retelling, not sleeping beauty 🤨
6. anon dont be silly, hades will just buy persephone her degrees so she feels better about having no accomplishments of her own. who needs school when your boss slash husband will just buy it for you?
7. you guys need to stop comparing lo to fifty shades. even ana steele got her degree and had a life before getting with her creepy boss, persephone doesn't even have that.
8. i know rachel eggs them on to think this but its so creepy the readers are obsessed about hades impregnating persephone and her giving him babies?? like he just found out she was r4ped only a few or two before only for persephone to just not care?? and now planning out how to give him kids?? arent most of the readers teenagers? would they like random people obsessing over when theyll have kids too? because i would guess not, but the r4pe victim better hurry up and give him mini clones ASAP!!
From OP: The amount of “but it’s not the fun way” responses to Persephone suggesting to create a baby is so gross (but not surprising). Like, why do they feel disappointed if they don’t have sex to have a child??
9. The fact that the other gods and goddesses have actually met Persephone when she was a baby is just... it's gonna haunt my many sleepless nights to come.
10. that one comic anon is talking about is called "when jasy whistles". jasy in myth is a literal child but the creator aged them up for shipping purposes.
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Hmmm could u get Gundham with a very pain sensitive s/o who cries whenever they get hurt and his s/o falls and scrapes their knee and cries but wont let anyone help except for Gundham, not even Mikan, theyll only let Gundham help
This was a very cute request dearie! I get cry easily when people yell at me so I can sort of relate. 
Thanks for requesting and I hope you enjoy this! Remember to prioritize yourself, health, and wellbeing lovelies!! 💗 - Mod Mikan
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Gundham With Pain Sensitive S/O
Oh boy, when Gundham finds out how sensitive to pain you are, he treats you like glass. He’s always noticed how tired you get when you have to carry heavy things and avoid sharp objects like the plague but initially, he never thought anything of it. I can see something like this happen: Kazuichi or one of your friends playfully slapping your back and then you start crying. Cue protective Gundham cursing the person who made you cry and then you explaining ever since you were very pain-sensitive. Gundham doesn’t look down on you for your pain sensitivity - in fact, he admires you because your power level is still quite high as you are able to handle his Four Dark Devas. He just treats you more delicately… and makes sure you have at least one Deva to accompany you when you’re by yourself.
The first time you fell at scraped your knee was a memory Gundham would never forget. You had fell outside during gym class and started crying immediately, already feeling sick from the blood and pain. Your classmates fussed over you and tried to get you to walk to the nurse, but the pain made your head spin, and the only thing you could whimper was Gundham’s name, which sent two of your classmates bolting to get Mikan and your boyfriend. Now, your classmates weren’t really sure of you dating someone as eccentric as Gundham, so the exchange was a bit awkward.
“Yo, Gundham-”
“Stay back, otherwise you will be consumed by the hellfire-”
“Yea, yea, I know already - but your girl got hurt and is calling for you-”
“My… girl? You mean my dark queen, (Name)?
“Well, yea, she scraped her knee pretty bad-”
“What?! Guide me to her location immediately!” Gundham already remembered the time you cried over a paper cut, so he can just imagine the scene you must be making with a scraped knee.
When he got there, you were still on the ground, face contorted in pain with Mikan awkwardly stood over you, medical supplies in hand but not doing anything.
“Woman, why are you not treating (Name)?”
“A-ah, well she d-doesn’t want me to h-help her… she said she w-wants you to do it… please don’t g-get mad at me!”
“Me?” He bent down to your level. His Devas had already taken their place on your shoulders and lap in an effort to comfort you. “My dearest, is that true?”
“Y-yea. It would make me feel a lot better if you were the one helping me, Gundham.”
“Very well, my lady.” He pulled up his scarf to hide his blush. “I, Gundham Tanaka, shall tend to your wound.” He had experience bandaging himself and his animals, so hopefully it wouldn’t too hard. Mikan gave him the wet rag and bandages although she looked disappointed that she couldn’t help you herself.
“My love, this will sting a bit…” he warned you, letting you prepare yourself for the pain. Slowly, he placed the wet, soapy rag on your knee, making you immediately clutch his arm tightly as more tears sprung to your eyes. Gently, he cleaned the wound and blushed at how close you were to him. Even though you two were dating, he was still shy about intimacy. He placed some gauze and wrapped the injury with some bandages. You sighed with relief, your head still swirling from all the pain.
“As expected of my dearest (Name), you did exceptionally well to control your demons of pain.” Gundham took your shoulder to help you up. You hobbled on one leg as the both of you made it inside the academy while your classmates murmured. “Wow… I didn’t think they would make such a cute couple!”
“T-thanks, Gundham. I’m sorry for being a crybaby and wasting your time.”
“Nonsense, (Name). It is a king’s duty to tend to his queen whenever she may need it.”
“Haha, you’re so sweet Gundham. I don’t know how I scored a cutie like you.”
“W-what! Preposterous! I am Gundham Tanaka, the supreme overlord of ice-”
You laughed as you listened to him ramble on and blush. As long as you had Gundham around, the pain wasn’t that bad.
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rqs902 · 6 years
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qcyn ep 8 aka the loss of some real talent..... (but also, thankfully, some needed recognition was given as well)
psa im probably gonna be posting stuff involving some spoilers soon, so ill tag them as #qcyn spoilers and you can feel free to block those posts if you dont want to see them!
awwwwwww shi mingze helping mingming get people’s attention is the cutest friendship!!! mingming is so quiet... i love a supportive mingze!!! also thank you iqiyi for giving him more screentime!! i can notice it already!
LOL sun zelin in this rap heavy group..... but this group is already the most fun group hahahah omg ye ziming talking about the fact that he knows he’s not likely gonna make it so he needs to help those kids who are more popular get better......... UGH WHY DO PEOPLE NOT RECOGNIZE THIS AMAZING CHILD. oh my goodness this is so sad.... the fact that THE KIDS WHO KNOW WHAT THEYRE DOING had to make a club dedicated to helping the kids who dont.... bc they know theyll make it instead of themselves....... that just means that they all know the next elim is gonna get rid of a whole lot of real talent. thats so messed up.... this whole montage is like iqiyi being like “thanks for helping our kids look nice on stage, once you’re done, you’re gonna be forced to leave. byeeeee” 
OMGOMGOMGOMOGMOGMOMGG LIN MO IS A CANDIDATE FOR CENTERRRR YESSSSSSSS I CANT BELIEVE!!!!! AMAZING!!!! also look at all the tyger members together aww
LOL lian huaiwei is just so funny just talking LOL. wait. so about that clip of lin mo helping chaoyuan and youwei that came out earlier this week. chaoyuan and youwei arent even in his half of the group. that means lin mo went out of his way to help them even tho he hasnt been practicing with them as closely as like huaiwei. wow he not only helped his own group but he went out to make sure everyone in their larger group got special help, AND youwei still called him “teacher” which means lin mo is probably regularly helping him. wow. man,, they didnt show any of lin mo’s group’s practice wtf........ i swear iqiyi is about to drop jia yi or something bc i thought theyd at least wanna show some of him.... but the small bit we saw of their dance wow lin mo is gonna do sooo well ahhhh he looks so good already, even in these lumpy practice clothes, im so excited to see him on stage
lol yaoyao (yao bolan) is in the super cute grouppp hahahhaha but ahh him talking about every faking their happiness really.... shows how observant and sensitive he is to his friends’ feelings, which is aw....
OMG THEY JUST SKIPPED ANNOUNCING the lower ranks ???? i mean i get u gotta be time efficient, but thats a little too efficient??? omg but sun zelin!!! and wu chengze!!! and wu zelin!! omg wang jiayi dropped so much. iqiyi has seriously just dropped him like a hot potato wow. CHEN SIJIAN WENT UP WHOOOO lol the creativity is real in this one hahahaha his speech
ok im sorry but wtf how did these three (14-16) get in front of lin mo, excuse me???? sigh.... oh well, at least hes still within top 20, i just want him to at least make it to top 20... lol they only let like 3 kids talk...... this is just too efficient yall.....
omgosh........ shi zhan and yaoyao........... ahhhhhhhhhhhh my heart ;;;;; yaoyao’s smile......... another bg project boy is gonna leave ahhh 
yao chi’s speech omg..... the child has seriously been through a lot of mental trauma look at how much he’s shaking goodness
omg i cant believe jia yi dropped so much...... wtf.......... are people blind???? iqiyi is really about to drop him omg i really think they havent been giving him enough screentime alskdjlk wow way to randomly cut off jia yi’s thank you to zhan yu.... wtf i need more jia yi + zhan yu time.... zhan yu is like jia yi’s favorite gege.... omg zhan yu’s tears ahhh zhan yu may say that he wishes he could be the maknae but he honestly cares so much for jia yi, even tho he’s not much older than him, its so aw.....
omg i just looked up ye ziming on weibo and hes friends with guanguan, changbin, zhu zijie and zhong yixuan??? omggg fandom clash wowow 
this segment with these kids with disabilities........ i dont know how i feel about this...... it feels problematic to me....... the trainees dont know what theyre doing, so how is this benefitting these children? if anything its just to make the trainees look like theyre doing some great charity work or something, but i dont appreciate the attitude some of them have towards these kids... i get theyre frustrated and werent properly prepared to interact with them, which i dont blame them for, but its like why is this segment even a thing, iqiyi??? theyre just coming in and using these kids as a backdrop to make themselves look nice, and not actually doing anything sustainable or meaningful to help them... what good is it to get these kids to like them and get familiar with them just for them to leave within a few hours? its just another person who came and left........ 
omg guan yue is second omg good for you, child!!!!!!!!!!!!! good good good im glad, he deserves it!!!!!!!
lol they better show the other rounds of this basketball tournament in the extra clips..............
these ads are getting more and more ridiculous im ??? cowboys ??? ?
NOOOOO ZHAN YU!!!!!!!!! 37!??!!?!!! I CANT BELIEVE THEYRE SO CLOSE AGAIN!!!!! ALSKDJLKJLK FIRST ZHEN NAN 61 AND NOW ZHAN YU 37 AGHHHHHH ok but i cant even be mad at yuzhi bc i know he deserves it too.
OMG WHY THE FRICK WOULD YOU CHOOSE WENHAN /?!?!??? AGAIN!??//!? THEY SHOULD BE PICKING KIDS THAT NEED TO GET PICKED!!!!!! WENHAN IS THE LEAST OF YOUR CONCERNS GOODNESS GRACIOUS ALSKDJLASKJDL 
omg boyuan!!! they really like boyuan hahah but he deserves it too and zhuo yuan being so so happy for him is the sweetest ahhhh and junjie crying ahhh i love these 3 roommatesss
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS ZHAN YU!!!!!!! YESY YESYEYS YES!!!!!!!! YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS?!??!? THAT MEANS WE HAVE A CHANCE TO SEE ALL 3 TYGERS ON THE SAME STAGE!!!!!!!!!! ALKSDJLAKSDJLAKSJDLJK YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS OMGOMOGMOMGG THANK YOU SO MUCH i was thinking “they really like zhan yu hahhaa they picked zhan yu last time, maybe theyll pick him again”---- THANK GOODNESS AHHHHHH ok but im kinda disappointed they literally didnt show lin mo’s reaction... only jia yi’s.... which i feel like is bc they enjoy playing off of jia yi’s emotions more.... which makes me feel (again) like theyre using the other tyger members as backdrop for jia yi, rather than respecting their friendship and group as a whole? like theyre all really amazing friends and people, theyre not just “jia yi and his friends”, if you get what i mean... but jia yi being so so happy i love!!!!! im so so so happy for them ahhhh yessssss you go zhan yu, you are amazing!!!!!!!!! get that recognition!!!!!!!
omg zhuo yuan being so happy for his friends is honestly the cutest. im sad that he didnt make it... yao chi and mingming being so happy i love!!!!!! good for yechen! his voice is honestly really nice and very unique!
frick i cant believe they didnt notice ye ziming.... and su yuhang.... they deserved better......... cheche crying ahhhh li you and kou cong deserved better too... ahhh seeing guan yue crying more than cheche or mingming crying more than kou cong, or ye ziming comforting others... its like the kids who are left are so sad for them, the kids who were actually eliminated.. this friendship is ahhhhh
man, i was just getting to know and like yaoyao and cui shaopeng too...
this is so sad for zhuo yuan and jiahao tho, like all the kids around them, physically and also in the ranking, went up, but not them.... i wonder if jiahao had been given screentime during his last stage, he wouldve gotten more votes... but bc of the hair thing, he got cut out of the ep even tho he was center......  
man, fangzhou is the last core one member left........
oh my goodness.......... that ending................. oh my goodness.................. why does this have to happen to huo zhong.................... oh goodness thats gonna be such a drastic change from huo zhong to the super cute song...... i hate to say it, but i feel like none of them would want to go there LOL ahhhhh how will guan yue choose???? laskdjlaskjlk ok im hopeful that he at least wont choose zhan yu (because hes not cute LOL) but i really really hope lin mo can stay too oh gosh.......... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh guan yue....... (i know ding feijun is also there but im guessing guan yue is gonna be the main decision maker) but if hes smart he wont choose kids who will have trouble learning a whole new dance, which means.... he is likely to take more skilled trainees....... UGH IM SO WORRIED. but tbh i guess.... even if lin mo goes from super cool handsome center to a super cutesy backup dancer.... i guess... he’ll get to challenge himself and try a new style.......... which i guess... isnt terrible........ he’ll be cute, im sure.... so as long as he can still make it into top 20, i wont be terribly distraught. honestly i feel like im being rather reasonable as a lin mo stan, like I’m not asking for him to get as much screentime as like wenhan, just at least enough so that we can tell that he exists and was there (COUGHepisode7COUGH), and I’m not asking that he be center every time or that he get into top 9, i just want him to get recognition, respect, and into at least top 20. I think he can do it!!! hes working so so hard, despite being injured, and hes helping so many other kids..... i just wish his work can be acknowledged. 
oof now thats its down to 2 votes a day... its time we see who people’s real biases are... im guessing theres gonna be some drastic changes in the rankings from here, bc the kids who are just well-liked by everyone but not actually “biased” will be dropped like crazy. i know who im gonna vote for, but im sad it means i wont be able to vote for some kids who i know will really need votes too..... but i believe you can kinda tell which kids are “bias” material and which are more just generally well-liked. that’s all im gonna say about it, but for everyone who’s voting, just choose wisely bc some kids will need your votes more than others, just saying.... 
lol guan yue’s psa to eat more fruit..... okay guan yue, okay hahahahhaha
wow i cant believe chen you and li you both got clips in the ending credits and also ye ziming even got 2 clips......... i swear they only started giving ye ziming screentime after it was too late??!!!? like they finally realized hes super funny and talented and #amazing and felt bad but ITS TOO LATE IQIYI laksjdlaklklk ill say it again ye ziming deserved better. on his weibo he says he’ll be coming out with new stuff soon tho!!! so im super excited and will def be keeping a lookout bc im sure itll be legit c: 
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