#but i literally don't caaaaare lmaooooooo like my lightbulb is already blind and white and fluorescent and ECONOMIC

[girltomboy]

Omg my mom is unhinged again!!! My predictions never fail, she always gets like this after her sweet periods of time. Another fresh theory I have is that she gets more miserable when I have good days, so she's on the opposite side of the spectrum from where I am. It's so weird. I might observe it further. But onto what happened tonight. I was on my laptop at 11something pm. Playing a game by myself. She comes in and asks "you haven't gone to bed?" I'm like... no? Still early for me, don't even know why she would ask that. She told me it was snowing outside and I was like lol ok, and that was it. Later on, around midnight so not that much later on, but once I finished playing my game I went on discord so I can join my friends. I turned off the lights BECAUSE EVERYONE IS COMPLAINING ABOUT HOW HIGH THE ELECTRICITY BILLS ARE, and lit my nightstand candle that I got like 2 weeks ago and is still burning strong. Got in bed, ready to play. She comes in again and tells me to stop using candles, "that's how we're gonna burn, haven't you seen that case on TV?" (some woman left a candle burning and her apartment burned to the ground). I was like it's cool, I don't keep it on all night, plus it's in a glass and not a "pencil" type of candle. She literally would not listen to me, and I could hear it in her voice that she was being hostile. She kept saying "stop with the candles, just stop using candles". I told her well it's not good if I keep the light on either, so what then? She ignored it and called me stubborn because I was bringing arguments lol. And she said something like "if your stepdad hears that you use candles..." followed by something I couldn't hear because she had left my room and was too far for me to hear, plus my friends were talking on discord too so I couldn't hear properly. But that interaction fucking pissed me the fuck off, and planted in me the same feeling as when my grandma would come into my room to fuss over whatever she could find, then I would keep feeling irritated and frustrated obviously because I'm being taken for a fool, and anxious that she would come again and cause another scene or just not leave me alone. It took me a while to calm down from that tbh. And I don't intend to keep my mouth shut tomorrow if she brings it up again. Idc if she goes bonkers, don't treat me like a fucking child and especially don't try to dismiss me like I can't go nuts too.