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#but ill flounder w/o em so! hard work that i am mostly failing at but i Keep Trying
carnivalcarriondiscarded
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9 months
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the desire to do comms vs my inability to remember that i got a message FIGHT-
#its like 'oh a message! i will respond later'
#and then later never comes cause i have no damn object permanence Or working memory
#then its like... what do i even say
#'hi sorry i ghosted your simple question for two days i forgot you messaged me' AGH
#or especially lately
#i mean to do things and then i get a New piece of distressing information about the way my life is going
#which then consumes my thoughts and leaves no room for anything else
#ahaha thanks! ill claw my eyes out now!! wow!!! FUCK!
#trying to keep up the things i enjoy is. so tough rn
#but ill flounder w/o em so! hard work that i am mostly failing at but i Keep Trying
#yes i wanna do comms. yes i wanna draw. yes i wanna talk to people. can i? mmmmm......
#can't wait for this chapter in my life to be over. goddamn.
#ive been in a perpetual state of intense stress since early childhood
#but my fucking duck things lately have been taking the cake
#absolutely unprompted
#oh no this is turning into a vent post Look Away
#well my mother called again last night and was all 'im getting you a car'
#and uh. i started physically shaking while profusely thanking her (lying through me teeth)
#GIRL!!! I DONT NEED A CAR THATS TOO MUCH RN!!!
#she's always mentioning how the collective We are tight on money
#and that rn i need to focus on making decisions and getting a job ill hold for like. a month
#and then she slams this down outta left field??? thats so much extra stress i dont need right now???
#now i gotta worry about parking and maintaining it and gas money i dont have And And And-
#i cant exactly tell her Dont Fucking Do That bc then she'll blow up in my face and call me inconsiderate & ungrateful again
#me and my stepdad dont have the fucking TIME to get one! and then she was like 'oh i can always come down to help'
#please dont. do not do that. i cant deal with you in person right now that sounds hellish
#anyway. case in point
#cant even think about messages and stuff i Want to think about bc all this bullshit is taking up my entire mind
#metaphorically slamming my face into a brick wall till theres nothing left. aaaghhahsbkjadadj
#its too much its Too Much everything is so much and its too much and can i be let be for two fuckin seconds please
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