#but im kot expecting the same if i got the same i would never leave the house 💀 cuddling 💀 | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

gorefetishizer · 1 year

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Partner was stroking my hair and looking at me lovingly and i just realized that i rlly am living with. Them. And they like actually make me feel loved and seen and like. This is happening To Me wtf. Six months. Of this. Wtf

#you know that thing about the healing of a t4t relationship can we talk about the healing of an autism4autism relationship #like ive never been so. like. not free but #maybe that yeah #but like #just being able to comunicate in my own terms #and they not being freaked out by my stims or meltdowns #and just the fucking #honesty #of saying what you actually feel and not #being intimidated or feel like im expecting #to be loved in the same way i do #cuz i know it seems intense and it can be #but im kot expecting the same if i got the same i would never leave the house 💀 cuddling 💀#idk #wtf #im making dinner tomorrow for new years #for us #im like only almost 20 #and i know it sound stupid but i cant see this ending. ever #with all my other relationships even friendships most of the time i can see #that it will be like a few months maybe #i think i knew #that i couldnt keep the act for that long #and that if i didnt keep the act then it would be over #like its not been only good cuz ive had to do the work of not. hiding my needs and all of that #and like realize all the.weird shit my brain does about this things #but its the #firts time that #ive felt like #ive wanted to rlly

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