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it's so difficult to get stuff done when i still am daily having to actively resist the urge to sleep all day
#cylas vents#like how am i supposed to get up and go to anywhere regularly if most of the time i dont even want to be awake lmao#maybe i am just not trying hard enough. maybe i am lazy and using depression as an excuse.#even my psychiatrist said that at this point since none of the meds really worked and therapy didnt change much and if i dont want to#day-care hospital / outpatient clinic he doesn't know what else to do either#but in any type of clinic situation i wouldnt be earning money#and outpatient i worry that if i have an one hour journey and possibly get up at 6 or 7 am i just won't do it lol#plus even a friend said that as soon as ot was over she kinda fell back into old habits#but cant do anything drastic either bc too many ppl care about me :))#especially ones with mental illnesses who could be negatively affectrd#but i am so tired and everything seems hopeless
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