#but itd take some SERIOUS rewriting bc it was. not written well at all lol. it made no sense

[eirian]

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i really do struggle with the intense desire to make comics and tell stories but the severe lack of energy and motivation to make them :( thats why mirrors as a comic got cut short and why facets didnt even get a comic release

when i was little i wanted to make my own manga. i wonder if it would be cool still to go for that now..?

my art style has changed a lot since i was little (it used to be full anime) and while i can still draw in a similar style idk if it would feel genuine to use it for a comic series. then again why wouldnt it be genuine, if im enjoying it? hmm

idk. im just watching a bunch of manga/comic videos on youtube and getting inspired but im afraid itll fade as usual. sad

i just love telling stories with characters !!! ;-; and i love drawing...i really love making comics and seeing the comics come to life and seeing people's reactions to the pages. i think part of why im hesitant besides the lack of energy is the idea that i would probably be making something to print and sell, which isnt the GOAL mind you, itd just be something id be able to do to help support myself. but i dont want that idea to become the main reason i make a comic. i want to do it for the love of telling a story

another thing when i was little that i wanted to do was be a comic artist but that was like..a smaller desire i think. i think i just wanted to be an artist in general. honestly im not sure where im at rn, i think i still just want to be a general artist who does commissions for a living? but if i could make a living with my comics hmmmmm id enjoy not having to take commissions lol. but man thats asking a lot in this business..i know comic artists dont rly make a lot and its rly hard to get published and stuff. so. idk what i'll do