#but not like. not like marriage or whatever that'd be too weird if he was in the fam tree LOL no thanks god thatd be so weird

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ok last hero!reader and dano!riddler thought for the night (because I send in quite a bit here and there and I need to slow down lol). so, at first glance, this kind of sounds a bit joker like and its funny too because I was looking at dc comics comic covers and came across a few that involved the joker and weddings, bare with me tho lol. which brings me to the exact thought I had mind!

basically, what if riddler had tricked y/n into him and her having a wedding? bizarre, I know lol but it's the way he does it that gets him the goal tricking the said hero for once! he starts off with something like "what do u call the one person life that will always be by your side? a partner!" and he slowly he hints the whole bride and groom thing with her until she finds the final riddle at a church and his big plan comes forward. boom! a wedding begins, u have riddler's followers just chilling there but also kinda dissapointed because it's like, riddler is their leader and now he has a lady by his side, a hero mind u. they'd be crybabies about but some also congratulate him lol. then u have him livestreaming it and being all giddy like "surprise gotham! your boy has found himself a lady and it's Gotham's very own hero!"

of course, everyone's shocked because "what?? a hero getting married to someone like the riddler??" but it is clear that she was tricked but it does become an official marriage soo she ends up getting married to her own enemy lol. but she's still in the corner like "really, Eddie?? you're livestreaming this. 🙄😒" he's all "yes dear, it's for when our future children have something entertaining to watch" then it ends with her going "pause! there will be no future little ones of us anytime soon" lol, it'd be so bizarre and whack.

HELLOOOOO FINALLY GETTING WROUND TO RESPONDING TO THIS IM SO SORRY BUT YEAH HI FHIS HAS HAD ME FOAMING AT FHE MOUTH FRFR LIKE HELLO???? imma have to put this under a cut bc it so damn long

i love how batman / joker this dynamic is like it's so fucking funny and i live for it so badly like???!!!?! help

eddie is definitely into the whole commitment thing like . definitely into commitment. and i feel like he almost certainly doesn't JUST do this to get a rise out of her or to have people like wtf???? like yeah i think that'd be part of the reason but man. i just know he's a possessive little shit and he'd want her all to himself. like they'd be MARRIED. husband and wife (although she's been tricked into it) and that'd get him OFF. like being able to call her his, and for him to be hers (legally, although it's deeper than that obviously and not to be corny, they're always gonna come back to each other in the end so like </3) like,,,that'd be such a turn on him for him 1000%. LIKE NOW THE WHOLE CITY KNOWS ABOUT THEM AND HE THINKS THATS COOL AS SHIT. NOW EVERYONE KNOWS THAT THERES NOTHING BETWEEN (Y/N) AND BATMAN,,, ITS ALWAYS (Y/N) AND RIDDLER.

and i can imagine her just going along with it because she's like omfg this is so fucking dumb but he's gone through all of this effort so like . i'll play along just to satisfy him but then he's like no,,,this was an actual marriage like. omfg. her reaction. i feel like she'd go OFF but then be like. sigh. i should have expected this. whatever.

and like the followers being there and him live-streaming the whole is so fucking funny because he WOULD. he'd want everyone to know that she belongs to him because a) causes a stir and b) he's possessive idk what else to tell you. and his followers,,,i think they'd just be used to her and know that although she kicks his ass and sends him to arkham every so often she's not like,,a real threat. she's probably never gonna kill him because they're low-key in love so i think they'd just be like eh alright. this is weird but whatever. plus if they said a bad word about her they'd be banned from the chat, the wedding and have their ip address leaked in 0.5 seconds so 💔💔

also like, about eddie in general, i feel like he would kinda crave domesticity. like he would want something in his life to feel normal and safe and like, although they're enemies i feel like that's something he can only really find in her. she knows him and kinda understands him and they belong to each other no matter what, even if they severely disagree on a lot of other things, he can't find what he has with her with anyone else. it's safe and secure because she's always gonna come back to him and he's always gonna come back to her in the end.

and about the whole future children thing she'd shut him down and be like no not anytime soon and he's like "so it might happen, just not yet👀👀" and she's like. sighs. also can you IMAGINE these two trying to live in a domestic setting like omfg she'd be calling arkham like "hello yes i have the riddler here this is the second day in a row that he hasn't done the dishes and he won't clean up his own damn mess and he keeps talking in riddles and and he's pissing me off please come pick him up" and he'd be like "wifey :(( no :(( don't be like that :(( come say hi to my followers" like i cant stop thinking about them actually trying to make it work it's so fucking funny.

and he'd definitely always be teasing her about it too, like he wouldn't ever stop. he'd be like "you'd do that to your husband?" "remember our wedding night" and she'd be like shut the fuck up i am going to punch you in the nose. and like. he'd call her wifey and baby and honey and sweetheart and she'd be like. hmph. shut up but she'd probably be melting

also i think i recall you asking how batman would react to their relationship and i think at first he'd be like w,,, why would you get yourself involved with someone like him, it's unsafe and you're putting yourself at risk. i feel like batsy would be super protective of her even though he knows she can handle her own shit, he still worries. but then he kinda realises that there's history there and that edward wouldn't ever actually hurt her. riddler said himself, he isn't rly physical so 1v1 she's always gonna come out on top. he'll fuck with her head and shit but there's no way he'd kill her or anything imo. so batsy would just be like sighs,,,,you slept with him again didn't you? or sighs,,, you spent the night playing board games with him again and then got into another fight and that's why you're being such a moody shit tonight right??? i think he'd have a field day with the marriage because like,,, wtf (Y/N) are you dumb you should have known it'd be a trap 💀💀💀 like imagine him being like "so....marriage troubles??" "how's the uh. marriage?" "how's the husband?" like he'd find it kinda funny low-key.

i'm so oBSESSED with this dynamic ugh i wanna just. scream shake cry throw up everytime i think about it like 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

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Hello! Just wondering what dr ships are rotting your brain or thinking about for the past few weeks. What are your Mikan ships as well? Btw I love your art you're so awesome :))

omg u have no idea how happy this ask made me lol!!! hahaha!!! thank u for enabling me c:<

DR ships that i have like. quite consistent brain rot for been attacking me the last few weeks. I just find Ougoku so fucking cute and precious i love it so much and Naegiri has reared its head and im in a constant state of komahina+nami feels bc im writing a fic for them rn!!

Soulfriends!!Soulfriends too oh my God soulfriends like Destroys me it hit me so hard when I played SDR2 for the first time. I really loved Kaz (despite everything :')) so i did all his fte's and just. Oh my god they're so special to each other!!!!!!! I also hc Hajime as being Kaz's bi awakening lol (tho im p.sure thats a popular headcannon) bc it just makes too much sense. But also like. I just think they'd make such good and like special friends. IDK its weird i ship them but its more like the most intense BroTP i've ever had but i defo think Kaz goes through having a crush on Hajime for the longest time OHAEROGO I like to think Hajime would be very physically affectionate to him too? Mostly bc he thinks its funny the way Souda gets so riled up by it but I think he'd love giving him like forehead kisses and ruffling his hair in like. A platonic/flirty way???? The song for them that really gets me (bc im very musically inclined and also ask me about my character playlists OTJRIGJOIEA) is that Stev en Unive rse one no matter what . like i litro get so emotional listening to it imagining them!!!!! the "through whoever you've been, through whoever you'll be, through whatever you lose, you will always have me, at the end of your rope, i'll be holding you tight, im gonna be right by your side no matter what" bit. *slams my head into a pillow and screams* just!!!! They could both do w/ each other you know??? Someone who loves them and trusts them and believes in them and someone to just have fun and be themselves w/ and joke w/ and oh my god oh ym god its literally so important !!!!!!!

Funny you should mention Mikan ships tho bc actually! A mikan ship has been fuckin me up recently haha! I've suddenly become like. SO soft for hajime/mikan. I wasn't too into it when i played her route in SDR2 and it ended w/ marriage, but like. looking back on it. theres very few characters Hajime is like. actually soft and gentle w/. Chiaki is one and Mikan is another and just. oh ym god that makes me m e lt . like he cares for her so much? and he's so worried for her? and he just wanted to hold her and protect her!!!! and yes! she deserves it!!!!!!!!she deserves someone who'll love her properly!!!! truly!!! She's been through so much and Hajime being that safe space for her just. dont touch me. dont look at me. I genuine think he'd be SO protective of her. and patient. and she wont know what to do bc she's never had that before and it'd be so scary for her but he'd help her through it all ARGH!!!! Not to reference another SU song but. god. dont listen to Found while imagingn Hajime singing it to her. dont do it. oh ym god. AND ALSO their like. Omg the way they can both relate (depending on how much of Izuru you believe hajime can rememebr) and understand each other's relationship w/ Junko in a way that like. really. the other despairs couldn't. bc only they had such a close relationship w/ her. I mean maybe Nagito could but. LOLLLL DO NOT PUT THEM IN A ROOM TOGETHER TO TALK ABOUT JUNKO OIAHJGIAI that'd be insane. no actually do it i want to see it i want to see Mikan go crazy and flat pack his ass like ikea furniture.

I'm also of the intense opinion that Mikan and Nagito do Not and Will not ever get on. Only because they're just. simultaneously too similar and too different. Like they're SO similar but they go about it in such different ways that i just think they'll never be able to fully understand each other so just cannot get along DESPITE having so much in common. like even before junko but ESPECIALLY after Junko. Also because its fucking hilarious to imagine. like its so funny. I think they should be allowed to hate each other actually. it'll probably be good for them.

I also. ofc. love the classics. I love Bandaid. its probably my main mikan ship tbh even tho i've become so fond of hajime/mikan. I just think. Ibuki would be like so good to balance her out. Bc ofc mikan is SO reserved and self-concious and Ibuki couldnt be either of those things if she tried. opposites attract. Also Ibuki is like. So emotionally intelligent? Idk if people really give her credit for that but like. God I loved her then i did her fte and that last bit where she reveals that like she just wanted Hajime to relax and shit oh my god i was blown out the water. Like OFC!!! OFC she's highly in tune w/ others emotions!! she wouldnt be able to form a band w/o that!! So i think that even though it may be a very intense version of opposites attract and Ibuki is very/...intense. oijaejoi . I think she'd be able to see where Mikan's true limits are and not force her past them, but be able to push her just far enough that she'd realise that like. it's okay to be yourself! its okay to say what you want! In that sense I think Mikan could probably grow as a character way more w/ Ibuki than w/ Hajime bc i think Hajime would treat her just too softly and not have the guts to push her in the ways she probably needs. Also i hc mikan as a hardcore lesbian so. Ya know OIGjoi

Wow ok i didnt think i'd have that much to say but u lit a fire under my ass anon! This is the most i've drawn in months LOL! There is a severe lack of Mikan on this blog considering how much i adore her so heres her w/ a few of my fave ships of hers. I love u so much i kiss ur forehead and tuck you into a rlly comfy bed and give u hot chocolate then read u a bedtime story. Also this is the treat at the end for anyone who actually read through all that bullshit OUHSEIOAJIOIJAIOJ

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qaf rewatch notes, 1x15

...apparently i'm just making notes for the bdsm au I AM NOT GOING TO WRITE instead of the other canon divergent AU I HAVE TO FINISH WRITING.

anyway, 1x15 is "the ties that bind" and... is this the one where Lindsay says she's marrying the french gay? [nope, it's jack kinney and the leather ball.] I think it is. if only they'd let her..... there's ANOTHER AU I'd like to read: where lindsay goes through with the marriage (but brian keeps his parental rights and makes sure Mel gets visitation). etc.

we open with Justin in the shower, oh hotass. now I know what this one is about, it's the one where Brian finds out about his dad's cancer. oh yeah, and the leather ball!

also, wait, Lindsay is asking Brian to watch the baby. Didn't he just give her two fucking grand to pay for childcare? It's obviously a weekday since Justin is getting dressed in his uniform. fuck, nevermind, let's talk about how Brian clearly asked Justin to come over on a school night then Justin crashed. :D

Oh yeah, Dr. Dave's kid is coming by. whatever! the kid is smarter than dave and mikey, maybe I'll watch those scenes.

okay so let's talk about an AU where brian takes Justin to the leather ball and presents him with an offer of maybe, a real evening/weekend of D/s. right? or plans to, except Lindsay comes by and ruins his whole grand gesture.

also, to note: Ted's able to talk and flirt, ish, with the really hot Alpha Dale Wexler; he just does it by being self-deprecating. Oh Ted.

In the diner: Justin's smile drops when Michael's mean, even though nobody notices. also, when Justin calls someone's fetish "gross" deb immediately corrects him to "kinky". lol. also in the same conversation Brian definitely admits to fucking a guy "for a while" that liked to wear diapers. more interesting to note than him being ok with infantile play is him admitting to having a semi-steady fuck, hey?

Jack shows up and clearly he's never been there -- which probably suggests that Brian hasn't been living there aall that long, but also that Brian always goes to J. not a surprise, but.

"nonfat sugar free organic mueslix", yeah, this kid is DEFINITELY from portland.

Justin is making waffles and hand-juiced sauce for them in Deb's kitchen. something brian is gonna have to bend on in order for them to be happy together is be grateful and start to enjoy Justin's need to cook and feed people.

okay so deb is great when she thinks brian's positive, but let's note: deb doesn't hesitate to hand the baby to Justin! also justin looks so excited to look after gus!

I will die on the hill of Justin's problem / issue with Brian is less about monogamy and more about family. he wants to build and share a life and a home with the man he loves, and if he got the surety and security of that, I don't think occasional tricking in specific times and places would threaten it. there was a fic where in s5 -- maybe it's a canon scene? -- where Justin's all "if we had what those guys had, that'd be good. But we don't. They're a couple. We aren't." about the guys they have the foursome with. Like, non-monogamous or not, those guys were obviously a strong couple.

anyway, I think it was a fic. but it was good. Justin Taylor loves to cook for people he cares about, Brian is just going to have to accept that as part of their life together.

randomly, ted calling the leather ball weird is hilarious, it's not even too risque. otoh Brian coming onto Emmett with "hello big bottom, how'd you like to polish my boot with your tongue" is flat-out great. brian always appreciates emmett's efforts to be fabulous.

I forgot about the st andrew's cross scene! and Brian being like, aesthetically impressed rather than like, hot and into it.

ugh, now i'm even like "okay, so if Brian's looking for a real Dom to ask questions of in terms of getting back into the scene he could talk to Dale..." no, self! no more AUs.

interesting how uninterested brian actually is in the real leather play. he's there to watch and he's there to fuck, but he doesn't actually get much into the play itself. I mean yeah he shoves off the guy offering to take him on because of his dad's news, but even before that he's entertained, not into it. not willing to show his hand in public? or not into it?

I wonder why they never brought up Ted's foray into bdsm again? you think blake ties him up? that'd be interesting, blake venturing into domination.

So Mel has a good point about Brian putting his own needs above Gus's. But Brian also has a pretty good point about he only went out for a couple of hours and left him with Justin, who's one of the most important people to Brian.

Also David just dumps his kid on Michael as if that's okay. he really does want a wife with a dick.

the entire coversation at the diner after the leather ball where Brian tells Justin he'll tie his balls together if Justin spills to Deb: they're so cute together.

randomly: hank just said "fuck yeah!" lol this kid IS smarter and cooler than dave and mikey.

the whole conversation between jack and brian: what I don't have the capacity to write, but I always find super awesome when people pull it off, is the whole... like, Brian's remembering good stuff about his childhood and his dad along with the abuse and the bad. deb says "I know you think your dad never loved you" and he doesn't hesitate to call his dad "you selfish old prick". but he also smiles when jack mentions the bowling league. Brian doesn't just hate his dad, which is actually harder to write.

Lindsay reaming Brian out for taking care of Gus.... okay. mostly fair, Lindsay. Also while Lindsay pretends to be nice to Jack Brian's in the background with his hand on his temple-- it's hilarious, like "why is this my life". I wonder if Brian would have admitted to Jack he was a grandfather if he wasn't dying? If he didn't know there was limited damage Jack could do.

Also, I always forget that most of S1 doesn't hinge around the relationship between Brian andJustin-- like, Justin's often a minor part of it.

[cqlfeels]

Hi! I really like your blog and your takes, they're so good!!! I've been wondering, why do you think jc didn't marry? Like I have some theories regarding his character and all, but mostly, it doesn't seem to make sense in a political way? Like... He's the last one of his clan, which is one of the major clans, and which also had to be rebuild from its ashes, like shouldn't one of his first priorities be to leave a clear heir from his lineage? And maybe even to ensure another alliance with another clan besides the Jin? Like with Zewu Jun I can at least say that sizhui could be the lan heir, but jc is in his thirties and has a dangerous job. Can't wait to hear your thoughts :)

First of all, you're super nice and I hope you're having a great day 🥺

Okay so my gut feeling is to go "MXTX didn't want to write that." Which I know is an evasive answer! But the thing is.... That's not just a JC problem. Nobody seems to care about heirs in this story, istg. LXC does everything for his sect except get married and get an heir (LWJ is his heir, but he's a bad option for lots of reasons.) NMJ knows he's going to die and still doesn't try and get a kid. NHS doesn't have a heir at all, I don't think, not even like a cousin or whatever? JGY is leaving the sect to his nephew, which we the audience know the true reasons for, but the other characters don't seem to find it weird. JC can't leave his sect to JL so why isn't he trying to get married?? It's just. Nobody wants heirs istg. MXTX didn't want to create characters who'd add nothing to the story besides being someone's wife, I think. Plus, this being danmei, even het males are frequently Hot And Single™️ because genre tropes.

Barring this Doylist reasoning, what can we do in the way of a Watsonian explanation?

In general, I try to read into a text what the text tells me to read into it. So even if my gut feeling is "Wth, this is super weird!!" given how widespread this seems to be and how the characters all seem to act like that's normal, I'm gonna guess that for whatever reason, that's not that big of a deal in this universe. Maybe although MDZS cultivators aren't immortal they do live longer and so it's become a trend in the Sunshot generation to settle down later than usual because they want to focus on politics for a while? That's not usually how wars work in the real world, but this isn't real life, so it might be possible.

Now as far as JC goes, I don't think he's going to marry for love - he's going to marry to advance his sect's interests. Perhaps he feels this is a card he wants up his sleeve for as long as he can keep it, so that he plays it at a time when it's actually crucial instead of a wasted move?

And there is also JL to consider - once he has a child of his own, he cannot afford to give JL the same attention he does now. I mean. He can. But I doubt he wants JL to be the WWX to his kid's JC - "No son I don't like A-Ling better, it's just that he reminds me of someone I've lost, and also because he's not my heir I can spoil him in a way I can't spoil you"........ is not a conversation I think JC wants to have. Nor does he want to neglect JL in favor of his kid, I think, so that's a situation that'd require some finesse JC probably doesn't wanna bother with right now.

I also don't think JC likes the idea of marriage in general, but I'm pretty sure he'd put aside his preferences for the good of the sect, so again: I just don't think there's been a marriage of convenience with enough perks for it to justify him going for it, you know? What would be perks good enough for him? I honestly have no idea. I enjoy reading about politics but I don't have a good head for this kind of thing lol

I do think he's most certainly going to get married in the future, though. He's very dutiful to his family, and part of traditional Chinese filial piety is to have sons to carry your own father's legacy, and I don't think JC would be too comfortable ignoring that, even if he technically has the possibility of naming a disciple his heir.

[raisinchallah]

Yess re Keiko and why couldn't they have them working thru thosw issues with Keiko finding satisfying work thru botany. Plus she said she's tutor nog and Jake and then they never show that again either. I think she'd be someone they could go to too. Like especially as one of the only non starfleet adults they have I think that'd be really important. I don't count odo bc what kid would talk to odo about anything lol.

Also the way they write their marriage really confuses me. It seems to go beyond just I didn't want to come here. Idk. Miles has communication issues but they never seem to change. Like clearly he cares about and loves his family but it also feels like the writers are thinking he must also hate having a family :/

They should have her on away missions too esp when they are going thru the wormhole like before it was obviously dangerous? A botanist is a great person to have in a totally new system :/ I want her to be friends with the Klingon restaurant owner

yeah honestly the way marriage is consistently written in 90s trek is like so funny i love how couples literally dont even have a honeymoon phase they go like immediately to being vaguely unfulfilled and not really seeming to enjoy being around their spouse like OK love that.. i mean think the biggest problem is the fact she literally does not seem to exist in the larger station i mean in the hands of the prophets is literally one of the few times she even seems to like intersect with the larger world of the story thats not just related to whatever miles is doing and yeah my god... its like so weird he doesnt even idk do any parenting activities with molly and yeah seems like he barely knows what to do with having a family dark stuff they seem to assume that modern gender roles would remain in the 24th century... twisted stuff yeah keiko being besties with the klingon restaurant guy!!

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NIKKI

"Nikki, what the hell are you doing?" Vivian asks me as we walk down the stairs of the law firm. 

"I've broken every fuckin' vow except 'till death do us part' and I'll be fucked to hell if we stuck it out and stayed with each other after the worst bullshit just to fucking divorce." I state and she stays quiet for a moment before I'm stumbling back when she halts and snatches away from me, glaring up at me. 

"What if I want a divorce?" She asks. 

"I'd tell you you're full of shit." I snap and she raises a brow and crosses her arms. 

"Then what the hell was the point of hounding me for a divorce just to do this?!" She barks at me. 

"To prove a point I guess, I don't fucking know." I admit. 

"To prove a point?! What point were you trying to prove?! That even when we're not together you still have the control in the relationship?!" She yells.

"I don't have any fucking control in this relationship, are you fucking me?! I haven't had any control since day fucking one, Vivian!" 

"Are you fucking serious?!" She screams at me, frustration all over her face. "You have always had control, Nikki, trust me, I know, I'm the one that had to lay down and take your bullshit and give up what I wanted to do just so you'd feel in control!"

"I told you to go to fucking New York to go to school, did I not? What the hell did you do? You stayed! You can't get pissed at me for not giving you what you supposedly think I promised you!" 

"No, Nikki, I'm not pissed at you for not giving me what you promised--I'm pissed because you've given me years of fucked up shit that was never supposed to even be a part of the plan!" She has tears in her eyes, her voice shaking…

She's right. I'm not going to tell her she's wrong…

I sigh and rub the back of my neck, exhaling, as she wipes her eyes. 

"...Look, me and the guys are going to a different rehab, and I'll actually stick with it, and I want to work this out." I tell her, honestly. "I just don't know how to come back from the shit we've done to each other, Viv, but if we can figure out how, then I wanna do it." 

She doesn't say anything, looking at me with her pretty green eyes, nodding slightly. 

I didn't realize that once we agreed to work on our marriage, that all hell would break loose in the midst of repairing the damage. 

Me and the guys, except Mick, were sent to another rehab because the first one was too obnoxious, and by the second one, we were actually getting somewhere with each other as a band and individually, including the people closest to us in our lives. For me, that was Vivian.

My leg can't stop shaking as I repeatedly tap my foot, waiting for my counselor to get in and meet Vivian for the first time.

I exhale and glance at her, her red hair curled, reaching just over her boobs, long legs taken up by black stockings that have lace trim mid-thigh, just peeking out from under her black dress, black heels tapping quietly on the floor, her dark red nails standing out against the cover of the shitty crossword she's flipping through. Her perfume has the whole little area she's in smelling good and her red lips rub together for a moment as she doesn't even notice me staring at her. 

It's a Saturday and I'm assuming she's going out with Sharise or something when she leaves here, or she dressed like this to torture me, knowing I haven't had sex in nearly two months, starting in Japan back in December, and my right hand is my best friend currently. 

My fucking balls hurt as she shifts her legs, uncrossing them to cross them the opposite, now. 

If it were up to me they'd be wide open and either around my hips or my head. 

I keep my hand pressed to my lips, resting my elbow on the arm of the chair, focused on her.

I slide down in my chair a little to try to see what kind of panties she's wearing--if she's wearing any at all. 

It wouldn't surprise me if she's not wearing any at all. Just to fuck with my head like she loves to do. 

"Take a picture and it'll last longer." She tells me flatly, not taking her eyes off the book. 

"I would if I had a camera." I don't even deny staring at her and she flicks her gaze to me. "Or a video camera. That'd be better." I add. 

"Ha. Ha." She sarcastically lets out and I smirk, watching her get up to grab her purse from the empty chair adjacent to me, leaning down to dig through it. 

It takes everything in my power not to get behind her, bend her over it, slide her panties to the side and start poun--

"We're here to start the process of fixing things between us and you're here only focused on sex." She states and I snap out of it. 

"No, I'm not." I argue, furrowing my brows. 

"Nikki, I know when you're picturing having sex with me." 

"I'm always picturing having sex with you." I state. "And you know exactly what you're doing." 

The faintest, smallest little grin comes to her lips as she goes to sit down again. 

"I don't know what you're talking about." She mumbles and I look at her. 

"You're cruel." I mumble and she rolls her eyes. 

"Oh, whatever." She replies. 

"You look hot." 

"Shut up." 

"We can be done in ten seconds." I say next and she goes red. 

"Stop, Nikki!" She scolds me.

"C'mon, Viv, we've never fucked on a desk before." I point out. 

"We've broken into Doc's office just to mess around on his desk, Nikki." She reminds me. 

"Well, we've never fucked on a therapist's desk, so c'mon, it'll be quick."

"I--" she starts laughing, not believing me, "--am not having sex in a rehab facility. I'm not that horny." 

"So you admit you are horny to some degree, though." I say and she rolls her eyes. 

"Shut up."

"Just flash me or something." 

"Nikki."

"Please?"

"You're so weird." She ignores my request while I'm pinching the bridge of my nose. 

"I'm in pain, Vivian." I say next, groaning, exaggerating. 

"Sounds like a personal problem." 

"Fuck." I lean my head back, rubbing my face. 

The door opens and my counselor comes in, smiling at us. 

"Sorry, I'm late." She says, stepping to Vivian, extending her hand. "I have heard lots about you, I'm Amber." 

"Vivian. It's nice to meet you." Vivian replies, smiling her shiny smile that should win her an Oscar because she wears it so well even when she's fucking miserable--I obviously know from experience. 

Amber sits behind her desk as Vivian sits back down in the chair, and she looks up from her paperwork at us, raising her brows. 

"If we're going to start this grueling process, I highly suggest you two get comfortable being within three feet of each other, again." She adds.

Me and Vivian exchange looks, before she sighs and stands up, walking to the little couch I'm sitting on, plopping down beside me. 

I smirk to myself, looking at her from the side of my eye. 

"Okay, let's just get to it, Vivian, I've gotten a brief history of your husband, and I feel as though I can sort of, kind of, pin point a thing or two that has lead to the point that you two are at currently, but I'd really like to learn a little bit about you because all that's portrayed publicly to all of us is he's this nitty gritty, abrasive rock God, and you're the angel that tamed him to settle down." She explains and Vivian scoffs, raising her brows. "I know it sounds ridiculous but that's what's given in magazines and pictures taken of you two." 

"Yeah." Vivian nods. 

"And I don't think that's true, I don't think everything is happy and sunshine and, 'oh, we're opposites but that's what we love about each other,' and blah, blah, or else neither of you would be here admitting your marriage is in shambles...so, becoming familiar with Nikki--sober--the way that I have the past week gives me a sense of who he really is without the drugs and the cameras and the fans and the girls, because in here he's only got himself. He doesn't have to upkeep the persona he puts on to make it seem like everything's perfect. And, although you aren't a patient here, I really want you to allow yourself to just be and differentiate between who you are to the public, and who you are privately, because--from what I've heard--they're two completely different people." She says next and Vivian nods. "So, who is Vivian Kinston and how did she get together with Nikki Sixx?" She offers a warm smile and Vivian exhales, already looking overwhelmed…"In three descriptions, who were you when you met Nikki?" 

"A very religious, ballet dancing, perfectionist." Vivian says and Amber nods. 

"Let's dissect that and break it down for a moment." She says next. "Okay, religious--was that on your own or passed through your family or…?"

"Both of my parents, but mainly my mom." She replies and Amber nods. 

"Okay, and what is mom like?" 

"Very strict Christian, we couldn't have anything secular in the house...I'm not sure what she's like now but when I last saw her she had the pastor I grew up with trying to exorcise a demon from me because she found out I was engaged to Nikki." She tells her and Amber's brows shoot up. 

"When was that?" 

"'82, '83, around that time." Vivian explains. 

"So you haven't seen mom in close to six years." 

"Yeah." 

"Okay...you were a ballet dancer when you met," she starts the next point. 

"Yes."

"For how long?"

"Since I can remember." Vivian informs her. 

"So, a strict Christian upbringing, and a very, very, intricate form of dance that requires a lot of discipline, since you were probably a toddler." 

"Yeah." 

"And is that where the perfectionism comes in, through your background with dance?"

"No." 

"No, okay."

"My mom and my upbringing." Vivian explains. "Anytime I did something my mom didn't like or approve of or thought other people would lose their minds over if they knew I was doing it, she'd get onto me and would constantly drill into my head, 'this is not what we do, Vivian'." 

"Wow." Amber nods, her brows slightly furrowed. "So, it doesn't come from a place of that physical drive to be perfect at most things you do, it comes from a mental and emotional drive of not wanting people to know what skeletons are in the closet that would make them think less of you." 

Vivian nods, taking a deep breath. 

"Okay, and do you think that sense of perfectionism from your mother has helped you or harmed you in the long run?" 

"Harmed." She's saying it nearly before Amber can get her words out of her mouth. 

"And why is that?" 

"Because I grew up with her holding me to a nearly unreachable standard, and hounding unrealistic expectations onto me." 

"And in turn…"

"...It's made me do the same to him." Vivian says and I stare at the floor. 

"What unrealistic expectations, or unreachable standard have you held him to?" 

"Not doing the things that he's done." She says next. 

"What things?" 

"Infidelity and drug and alcohol addiction." 

"Why is expecting your husband not to cheat on you or put drugs and alcohol before you an unrealistic expectation that is unattainable for him?" Amber asks next and I rub my lips together. 

"Because of who he is and what he does." Vivian says next and Amber raises her brows. 

"So you think because he's Nikki Sixx--big time rockstar--that it's not realistic to expect him to do what he is supposed to do as your husband which is stay faithful and not put substances before you?" 

"Yes." 

"Oh, I see." Amber looks at me and I sigh. "Was your relationship ever open or polygamous, during or prior to marriage?" 

"No." She shakes her head. 

"Was he addicted to anything when you got married?"

"He did drugs and drank but at that point in time he didn't have a heavy reliance on it, no."

"An unrealistic expectation would be you telling him he can sleep with other women but then you getting angry every time he did. That's setting an unrealistic expectation of, 'I'm giving you permission to indulge in sex with other women but I expect you not to,' or him being addicted to heroin when you got married and you expecting him to drop any addiction he has solely based on the fact that you two got married. That's an unrealistic expectation. Him being a famous rock musician has nothing to do with his ability, or lack thereof, to be monogamous and sober." She explains to Vivian. "So you wanting your husband to not have an affair and not get strung out was not an unrealistic expectation that you had in a moment of naivety." She assures her.

"Okay." Vivian sounds like she's been waiting to hear that for a while…

"And I believe the issues you two are facing the most from both Nikki, and yourself, have grown from the root of how you two think. I know we hear the saying, 'opposites attract,' but we don't think about how sometimes when people are too opposite it acts like hot and cold air when it mixes and if it's in a big enough whirl, or big enough of a spectrum, it creates a tornado or a hurricane." She says next. "Religion equals a sense of morality, your history with ballet equipped you with a fair amount of discipline, and that perfectionism that you spoke on is your way of caring so much about what others think of you, you sacrifice yourself and just smile to keep things looking amazing on the outside."

Vivian nods. 

"I asked him to describe you in three words, and he said, 'beautiful, depressed, belligerent'." She tells her and I slowly see tears coming to Vivian's eyes. "Nikki admitted to me that when he met you, he had no sense of morality, he was doing whatever he wanted, when he wanted, he had no discipline in terms of controlling himself around drugs and women, and he couldn't give less of a care about what people thought of him." She explains. "And that might even been fun and exciting when you were just starting out but once you're married and he's gotten all these eyes on him suddenly, there are expectations put on the both of you to be this couple who has everything, and you're both attractive, and he's the bad boy and you're the good girl and you just fell in love is the only explanation you have for making the relationship work to the point of wanting to get married and you have a great house and matching cars and all this and all that and you're in the press smiling and laughing and holding hands and hugging up on each other and oh, it's a wonderful life, but as soon as you get alone…" she trails off, looking at the both of us knowingly. "He's high, you're suffering, and both of you are living a hell. But nobody can know that because you're Nikki and Vivian Sixx. You two are perfect because he doesn't cheat on you like other rockstars do to their wives and girlfriends. He doesn't put drugs and alcohol before you like so many others do to their girlfriends and their wives. He doesn't turn into this monster you don't recognize and lash out like a dog at you after a night of sitting in his closet and shooting up, because he 'loves' you, and you don't have to keep quiet for years while it just keeps adding up and adding up until finally you beat on your husband and those around you over minuet instances because the big things you were probably justified to get that angry over were swept under the rug and were never dealt with for years--because that's not what you do." She ties it right back to Vivian's mother. 

A tear rolls down Vivian's cheek, neither of us expecting it to be this heavy just during her introduction to Viv. 

"If we don't stop that mentality, it's going to poison every relationship around you that it hasn't already and when you have children it's going to be a curse on them just like it's a curse on you." She tells her, as Viv sniffles, trying to keep up with wiping her tears away. "I've already been on him about his upbringing burdening him, so please don't think this is a personal attack on you."

Viv nods, mouthing, "okay."

"You two want to make this relationship better and be better for one another, we are going to have to tear down six years worth of walls and blockades and gut this entire thing completely and start again. It's not going to be easy, you're probably going to learn things about each other you've been hiding and maybe even amicably decide to divorce before it's all over with, but you are both going to heal and start the process of forgiveness. With yourselves, with your parents, with your friends, and with each other."

She gives the both of us some homework...

"I want you two to prepare to tell each other everything you've not told one another for next time we meet." Amber tells us and the color drains from Viv's face, I know for a fucking fact that I don't look much different from her.

"What?" Vivian asks her.

"If we're healing this relationship we need everything in the dark in the light so we aren't building on an old foundation of secrets." She states. Vivian just nods hesitantly before we're dismissed.

"Vivian." I stop her out in the hall before she can leave, grabbing gently at her wrist.

"Yeah?" She asks me. 

"I love you." I tell her and she looks at me, smiling a little. 

"I'll see you Wednesday." She replies, squeezing my hand before she walks away. 

What the hell? I tell her and I love her and she just fucking says, "I'll see you Wednesday'?" 

I watch as she goes down the hall, heels clicking, hair down her back…

Goddamn. 

This is definitely my payback for taking my time with her for granted, because now that I'm in my right mind and not ruining our marriage, she barely even looks at me. 

At least she was actually wanting to work things out, because after the Vanity bullshit, I thought we'd never make it out after the first time I saw her since it had happened.

July 1987

I brace myself against the bathroom wall as my whole body goes numb for a moment, my eyes rolling momentarily. 

"Sixx, c'mon, we gotta get goin', Viv's here!" Fred yells from behind the door, his fist beating at it. 

Fuck him. Fuck this tour. Fuck this band. Fuck everything right now. 

Viv's just got here from the airport, she flew back in earlier this morning and I've been hiding, completely avoiding her, but I can't anymore. 

The media's in a frenzy since Vanity aired all of our dirty laundry, only making Viv and I both on edge even more. 

We've been denying the shit out of Vanity's engagement claims, but I don't think people are buying it as much as we'd like to think they are. 

I take in a breath and stumble to the mirror, looking at myself. 

Not too bad for a low down, dirty, bastard. 

Opening the bathroom door to see where Fred's waiting for me, I glance past his shoulder to see Vivian.

She looks like she feels like hell, but has managed to pull herself together. 

Makes two of us--well, kind of, at least. 

"C'mon, the guys are already at the venue." 

Fred tells me. 

"Great." I smirk, patting his shoulder, stepping to Vivian. 

I don't think either of us are taking into consideration the amount of utter bullshitting we're about to have to do. 

I also don't expect the amount of paparazzi waiting for us right outside the hotel's doors.

As soon as the door opens, screaming, flashes, invasive questions come hurtling our way. It feels closterphobic enough to make Vivian grab my hand, tight, curling closer into me as if trying to hide away from prying cameras and questions about my alleged affair.

I feel her being tugged at once, and just as she says, "Nikki," I'm snatching my hand from hers to beat repeatedly, as hard as I can, at the forearm of the perpetrator, a media creep trying to get her attention. 

"Don't fucking touch her!" I bark out over the noise and he stumbles back, holding at his arm as I put my arm around her waist, tightly, getting to the car. 

When we get inside, Vivian's obviously distraught over what just happened, shoving herself away from me. 

I turn my anger to Fred. 

"What the fuck is the point of  having fucking security if you're not going to keep people from touching her?" I sneer. 

"Because I'm a bodyguard, but you're a fucking Rottweiler." He states back without hesitation and I just roll my jaw, glancing at Vivian and she doesn't even look at me. 

I sigh and dig in my pocket for the little baggie I got earlier, grabbing my hotel room key to take a bump to help me wake up for this show, and when we get to the venue, I'm getting out of the car and waiting for Fred to get out. 

He does, and I stop Vivian, nudging her back inside before saying, "we'll be there in a second."

Fred just looks at me and exhales, rolling his eyes before stepping inside. 

Vivian sighs out as I look at her, avoiding looking at me…

"Vivian, are we gonna talk about it or…?"

"I don't want to talk about it."

"I think we should."

"You proposed to her, Nikki."

"Allegedly." I add.

"You. Proposed. To. Her." She says it sharply and I lean back. "You had an affair with her. I trusted you. I trusted the both of you. And you lied to me." She hisses. "So, no, there is nothing to talk about...just let me out of the damn car." She slides over and opens the door but I reach over her and slam it shut.

She takes heavy breaths from where she's sitting, my body hovering over hers, the tips of our noses brushing together…

I lean down, my lips pressing to her's for just a second before she lets go of the fact I completely screwed her over. 

I'm about to pull away when she pushes her tongue past my lips, her nails running over my back through my shirt as her legs wrap around my hips, one of her hands in my knotted hair.

As always, I end up eating her like a starved pervert, relishing in the sounds of her moans and gasps. 

The truth is, she may hate me, but I'm good at getting her off and she knows it.

Once she comes and we start getting ourselves together to go inside, I look over at her. 

"So, are we good?" I ask her, oh, so fucking stupidly, and she blinks at me. 

"What?" 

"Are we good?" 

She catches on to what I mean, and rubs her lips together. 

"Nikki, you could fuck me into oblivion, which you can't because I'm never letting you fucking touch me again, and we still wouldn't be good. Not even close to 'good'. You can't have an affair with my friend and then expect everything to be good just because we fooled around while you were stoned out of your mind." She snaps and I roll my jaw as she gets out and slams the door, stomping to the back entrance of the venue. 

For the first time I feel the sting of rejection. 

Is this how groupies feel? 

I never thought once about getting head, leaving them in the limo and going on about my business. 

Anger boils in me, Sikki chomping at the bit. 

That selfish bitch! 

I get out and go after her. 

I don't know what the fuck I'm gonna say to her, but I'm mad. 

"How dare you use me to get your rocks off and then toss me aside?", no, because I've done that to her a couple times...but that's because she's into it. 

I swear she comes harder when I randomly come up behind her and just start going at it because she knows I'm just using her to get off and then leave her wherever I stopped her, and go out right after and wouldn't think twice about it. 

But me? I'm so used to her looking at me like I'm God while I have my full attention on making her feel good, and she has the audacity to get off on my face and then kick me to the curb and tell me I'm never touching her again?! 

I decided it wasn't worth the fist fight it would inevitably turn into by the time I got inside, but and looking back, she had every reason to get me horny and then swear off ever letting me get near her again. It was petty, but smart. And despite having sex one last time not long after that instance, the point was still made clear. For the first time in our relationship, the acceptance of sexual advances didn't take the place of forgiveness.

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