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monsieurenjlolras · 4 months

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Did any other chubby musical theatre girls (or former girls cause I sure as hell am not one any more) have the specific experiance of never being cast in female lead roles for years because you were too fat, and then finally getting to do hairspray and being told you weren't fat enough to be Tracy.

#theater is better than film about fat but it still sucks #like i was always fat enough to be alternative and not an ingenue or romantic lead but not fat enough to be allowed to make it A Thing #im of course not saying that i had it worse than people who are fatter than me like fatphobia is horrible all around #but yeah this was such a cognitive disonance moment i remeber exactly the moment the director said it to me #i was 16 and it kind of shattered my world for a second cause i was like oh ok so whats all the bullying and self hatred been for #if the first time i can make being fat work for me you're just gonna say “youre not really fat”#theatre #hairspray #but yeah #its like the level of fat were you're supposed to pretend you can hide it #fucked up shame stuff #live from the musain

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