#calxbode

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What was I doing all November? Not Nano. Writing. Writing a up a storm. I was part of this years Star Wars Rare Pair Exchange and the reveals of who wrote what are up, so no I can link all the ones I wrote! (Four!!! this year). This year I also BROKE two ship tags on AO3 (Cal/Reva and Boba/Luke/Fennec) and was able to get not only my main gift out (to Blaze) but also two whole treats (han and senket) and one whole pinch hit (ansclove)! So this was a lot of writing for me beyond the normal scope of things. Enjoy <3 (and hopefully those who received something from me enjoy them) Entry Log for @blazesurrender - Rated T | Cal Kestis/Rayvis the Gen'Dai | AU - Delayed Order 66 | 12.8K

Summary: “Entry Log One. This is Commander Cal Kestis of the 13th Battalion on the Albedo Brave led by Jedi General Jaro Tapal.”

There's something to be said about learning someone's life by a holovid journal they leave behind.

The button is pressed again.

Empty Husks and Hungry Halls for @nightingalesighs - Rated T | Cal Kestis/Reva Sevander (Third Sister) | AU Inquisitor Cal | 8.8K

Summary: When Third Sister returns from a three week long mission to find that someone new has shown up on Nur, she spends her precious free time to figure out who it is. Though the answer she gets is something far worse than she could have ever imagined.

Eternally Bound for @voidcat-senket - Rated T | Cal Kestis/Bode Akuna | AU Scrapper!Cal x ISB!Bode | 6.6K

Summary: Every day, Cal has to deal with the Empire, being stuck on Bracca, and more. And every night, Cal has to deal with the nightmares. Each one shares the same man within them. And finally, Cal sees the man from his nightmares face for the first time.

Sweet Gratitude for @ancslove (hopefully that tags you right!)- Rated E | Boba Fett/Luke Skywalker/Fennec Shand | Threesome | 2.3K

Summary: After Luke partially aids in helping two bounty hunters find their mark, he's taken aboard their ship and shown their appreciation.

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CalxBode Au fanfic snippet

“So you love me huh?” Bode asked, his voice a teasing rumble and Cal ducked his head, feeling more than a little self-conscious.  “You’re a fracking-“ whatever he was about to say was lost as Bode’s hand shifted to gently grasp Cal’s chin.  

The feel of Bode’s leather glove brushing against Cal’s skin made him shiver and he found himself at a sudden loss as Bode stepped in closer.  Cal slowly glanced up and froze as his eyes landed on Bode’s lips with a sudden curiosity.  

Growing up in the Jedi Order, Cal had been taught never to act on feelings…they were a weakness.  But now…now that he was older, Cal couldn’t help but wonder just how accurate those teachings were.  He swallowed and slowly shifted his gaze up to meet Bode’s eyes then.  

“…What?” He asked, nearly cringing at how…vulnerable he sounded just then.  Bode smiled, and Cal felt a rush of heat as Bode leaned down to bridge the distance between them.  

“Do you trust me?” Bode asked and Cal snorted, “I wouldn’t let you get this close if I didn’t.” He pointed out, though it wasn’t an actual answer.  Bode raised an eyebrow down at him, and Cal rolled his eyes.  

“This…is all new for me.” He muttered, the tips of his ears turning bright red, by admitting as much.  Bode bent down and teasingly brushed his lips against Cal’s own.  The sensation sent a spark of heat through Cal’s body, he’d never been kissed before and he desperately wanted to memorize the feeling.  

All too soon Bode pulled away, looking altogether far too smug and Cal huffed in some annoyance.  “Don’t worry I’ll take care of you.” Bode said before his hands shifted and moved to drag Cal closer up against him.  Their lips met again, only this time with more intensity and Cal had to stretch up on his tip-toes so they could be on more equal footing.

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“…It didn’t have to be this way Bode.” Cal whispered, he’d tried to give Bode as many opportunities to return to the light side as possible…and now Bode was dying.  Cal hadn’t wanted things to end this way, and yet…despite everything he hadn’t won anything.

“Not like I gave you much of a choice.” Bode pointed out with a telltale little glint in his eyes.  Cal’s eyes landed on the hole in Bode’s chest, he swallowed a little tightly then as he ducked his head.  “…I love you.” he whispered and Bode chuckled, the sound a little more strained than it had any right to be.

“…I know.” He said and Cal’s chest tightened as he glanced up to see the light fading from Bode’s eyes.  Cal let out a little breath, leaning back as he regarded Bode’s lifeless body.  Had it always been fated to end this way?  Cal hesitated a moment and then leaned forward to gingerly close Bode’s eyes.

His fingers lingered against Bode’s eyelids a moment before he hastily withdrew them in order to grasp Bode’s lightsaber.  “Good-bye Bode.” He said quietly before he moved to rest Bode’s lightsaber against his chest.   

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CalxBode au blurb spoilers ahead!

“I trusted him.” The words escaped Cal’s lips with a raw sort of magnitude, everything hurt.  He’d trusted Bode far more than anyone else had…he’d given Bode everything and now because of him, everyone would suffer.  

Greez stared at him, not entirely comprehending what Cal was actually implying but Merrin did.  Her hands had balled into fists as Cal spoke, “…That’s on Bode Cal, not you.” She said quietly, her voice softer than usual as she spoke.  

Cal let out a self-deprecating laugh, “I told him I-“ he broke off the memory too painful to recall.  BD let out a sad little bleep before it gently nudged Cal’s shoulder with its head.  Cal for his part didn’t seem to acknowledge it, how could he have missed it?  

He’d…trusted Bode, not only with the secrets of the reformed Jedi sanctuary but with his heart.  And in so doing he’d all but destroyed everything he loved in one fell swoop.  

Cal let out a shaky breath and glanced down at his hands…hands that had touched Bode’s body in both curiosity and eagerness only the night before.  

He felt sick, his first time with someone and he hadn’t even suspected that Bode could have been anyone other than the person he’d presented himself as. 

“Listen kid-“ Greez broke off as Cal shot up to his feet and brushed past him and the others as he felt a surge of anger at himself for everything that had transpired.  

“It’s my fault that Cere is dead!  It’s my fault that Bode ever even got his hands on-“ he couldn’t finish that thought as a mental image of the night before replayed itself violently in his mind and he felt an urge to be sick.

Greez was staring at him with a dawning expression of understanding at Cal’s words and Cal shuddered, dropping his gaze so he wouldn’t have to see Greez’s face. 

He wasn’t so sure he could handle seeing the disgust and the anger that- he felt hot tears work their way down his face. 

“…I…I should have known.” He whispered, hating how broken he sounded just then.  “Cal, what Bode did…he abused your trust in him, in the worst possible way.” Merrin said after a beat and Cal scoffed.  

“I should be better than that!  I should have known he was a Sith…I should have at least been able to sense…who he really was.” He pointed out as he wiped at his eyes with a pained grimace. 

“If I hadn’t gone looking for Tanalorr…Cere might…everyone would still be alive.” He went on, knowing in his heart of hearts that it was true.  

There was a long pause then as Cal did his best not to completely lose his composure then and there. “The raiders were already looking for Gaden right?  If you hadn't gone looking, then things could have turned out much differently kid.” Greez noted as he hesitantly approached Cal though he kept his distance.  

Cal swallowed and nodded, though the motion felt disjointed…separate from the rest of him.  “…Right.” he muttered under his breath, deciding not to argue the point, despite the churning miasma of guilt that threatened to swallow him up.  

There was a pause then as Greez and Merrin glanced between each other and then over at BD-1 who was perched on the couch. 

“I need to clear my head.” Cal said after a beat before he headed for his quarters.  He wasn’t sure he could even manage mediation but he couldn’t bear seeing the pitying looks from Greez or Merrin just then.  

He heard the light tell tale tapping sound as BD followed along behind him.  He wanted to forget the past twenty-four hours, though he had a feeling the memories would never leave.