#cant wait until i can legally change my name which is in fucking september or so and it would take some time to wait for the new docs

[horrible-oracle]

just a rant cos im anxious af

extremely anxious rn abt a class ill have starting tmrw, which will be online, bc of the coming-out-and-stating-my-name issue.. usually for the firs time we either introduce ourselves or write down our names on a piece of paper so that the teacher/professor knows who's present and absent, and i can just write my deadname in brackets so that they know who i am on their official papers and the student data base on the website or whatever but obvs there won't be any writing down our names during an online class and most likely the teacher will call everyone's name from the list theyve got and i will have to be like yep that's me im present but also uh pls call me this name instead of what you've got there and it is soooooo awkward.... and ive had to do it 2 times b4 but i said the gender neutral version of my name (cos i was to scared!) so ofc they misgendered me and so i don't wanna do that nd say the long masc version of my name instead but like it's so fucking awkward and scary!!!!!!! theoretically i could email the teacher b4 the class but uhhh that's even more weird and awkward and like im almost 100 percent sure it would be ok, like ive had zero issue with any teachers abt my name/pronouns it's just that its extremely awkward and also kinda scary to come out like that esp saying the masc version of my name out loud when it's being checked whos present at the class