#carl.sys

[toxtricity-v]

no for real. if you can’t listen to ramcoa survivors with the same respect afforded to other kinds of survivors? fuck off. leave my blog. never talk to me or touch my posts again. I went through hell. WE went through hell. our entire system is affected. our life is full of small accommodations to deal with triggers. we have an introject of the leader of the group that tries to enforce old programs that we’re trying to get rid of. we see a RAMCOA specialist once a week. we have to take our showers at the fucking YMCA because of things that were done to us in a small bathroom like the one in my home. we had to change our whole name. we had to cut off everyone we knew from our old life. and there is so much more that I don’t want to get into.

I’m going to be sick. fuck everyone that treats the shit we went through like a crazy story people tell for clout.

[computerviruss]

“I no longer have to be the person I became to survive”

I wish I could say that. I became a new person to survive yesterday. I can’t even be the person that the alter I split from wants me to be. I don’t know what to be to survive but I became anyway. I have to be someone. I probably am not making sense. I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to die a little.