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tinyfantasminha · 1 year
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good news I decided to present my undergraduate project next semester so I won't actually have to sacrifice my time and mental health to get it done asap by next month 😋🤞 n my prof supported my decision
I can feel a bit more relaxed now and actually get to draw a bit more without the overwhelming pressure and guilt killing me 😩 also I might open separate comm slots (one at a time, im still slow srry)soon....
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damienhaasbaybee · 4 years
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Figured it out 😂 for the let's get personal, can I request that you do them all?
I DID IT BAYBEEEEEEE.
* 1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?
I’ll Be There For You and Bad Medicine by Bon Jovi, In My Head by Ariana Grande, I Believe by Jonas Brothers, Air Force Ones by Nelly, and Chasing Pavements by Adele
* 2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
Harry Styles or Damien Haas so they can fall in love with me.
* 3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
“me that it was a sometimes temporary paralysis that causes damage”
* 4: What do you think about most? the fact that I have nothing to really work towards
* 5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?
“I’m tireddd”
* 6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
without most of the time
* 7: What’s your strangest talent?
number and address recall 🙄 its embarrassing sometimes lol
* 8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)
girls go to college to get more knowledge boys go to jupiter to get more stupider
* 9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?
fuck no lol
* 10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?
um... today.. in the car
* 11: Do you have any strange phobias?
raw chicken.
* 12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
a piece of ice so i could pierce my nose.
* 13: What’s your religion?
christian
* 14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
um... if its for pleasure... swimming.
* 15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
behind lol
* 16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
of all time... linkin park or one direction
* 17: What was the last lie you told?
that I’m fine lol
* 18: Do you believe in karma?
v much so
* 19: What does your URL mean?
um... i am damien haas’ baybee and he is also my baybee
* 20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
weakness, helping people until I die strength, i am honest
* 21: Who is your celebrity crush ?
james marsden, david dobrik, zac efron, miles teller, damien haas...
* 22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
no
* 23: How do you vent your anger?
i sing real fucking loud
* 24: Do you have a collection of anything?
one direction memorabilia lol
* 25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
either works with me tbh
* 26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?
yes.
* 27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?
sound I hate: hearing others talk on the phone, sound I love: rubbing clean hands on a clean table
* 28: What’s your biggest “what if”?
what if I’m just crazy and none of this is real
* 29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
yes and yes. anything is possible.
* 30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
my comforter both times lol
* 31: Smell the air. What do you smell?
a clean house lol
* 32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?
uhhhh Louisville
* 33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?
west coast because i have never been
* 34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
Harry Styles
* 35: To you, what is the meaning of life?
to leave the earth better than I found it
* 36: Define Art.
art is everything and nothing that a person wants it to be
* 37: Do you believe in luck?
I do. circumstances create luck.
* 38: What’s the weather like right now?
pretty clear
* 39: What time is it?
10:08pm
* 40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
yes and yes! I won’t say what it was but it hit ME.
* 41: What was the last book you read?
I tried reading Girl Wash Your Face but couldn’t get into it.
* 42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?
Yes
* 43: Do you have any nicknames?
yes I do... you can call me queen tho.
* 44: What was the last film you saw?
Legally Blonde
* 45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?
several ankles sprained severely on each side.
* 46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?
no
* 47: Do you have any obsessions right now?
yes. damien haas.
* 48: What’s your sexual orientation?
bisexual, demisexual, pansexual????
* 49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?
yes. I was pregnant.
* 50: Do you believe in magic?
no.
* 51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
yes, unfortunately.
* 52: What is your astrological sign?
cancer
* 53: Do you save money or spend it?
both!
* 54: What’s the last thing you purchased?
a carwash for my dads truck
* 55: Love or lust?
both
* 56: In a relationship?
somewhat
* 57: How many relationships have you had?
two
* 58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
no
* 59: Where were you yesterday?
home
* 60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
yes, my water bottle
* 61: Are you wearing socks right now?
no, never
* 62: What’s your favourite animal?
polar bear
* 63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
my hospitality (including dis mouf)
* 64: Where is your best friend?
idk, at home?
* 65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.
oooooo bisquett, thebasketcase101, persistence-ofmemories, creativegoof, and zanesgirlfriend
* 66: What is your heritage?
I am part native american and european as far as i know. i want to do a 23andme so I can find out. My skin tans realllllly dark even with tons fo sunscreen on so that makes me think I have more Native American than I thought.
* 67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?
I was definitely watching New Girl
* 68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?
idk... Jones?
* 69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?
biiiiitch of course I have.
* 70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
Yes. I may suck but I am loyal as hell and I’ll do anything for my friends.
* 71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
save the dog, fuck that job.
* 72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
a) yes b) spend it with family and write a book c) fuck yes. i am terrified of death all the time.
* 73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.
trust. love is nothing without being able to trust.
* 74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
It’s A Great Day to Be Alive by Travis Tritt
* 75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
1389.. not in that order.
* 76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
honesty and communication.
* 77: How can I win your heart?
buy me food and show me that I can trust you with my heart. I sturggle to trust people. I also NEED to be called pet names.
* 78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?
Yes.
* 79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
Quitting my toxic ass job.
* 80: What size shoes do you wear?
9.5
* 81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
She did her best, even when odds were against her.
* 82: What is your favourite word?
I dont have a favorite but my least favorite is “creamy”.
* 83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.
Love.
* 84: What is a saying you say a lot?
“ooooo bitch”
* 85: What’s the last song you listened to?
Always You, Louis Tomlinson
* 86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?
darkkk red and black
* 87: What is your current desktop picture?
bitch I aint been on there in so long, I have no clue.
* 88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
Donald Trump
* 89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
depends on who is asking, if its my family... asking my sexuality.
* 90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?
Fucking scream and run.
* 91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
Mind reading.
* 92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
Seeing my dads face when I walked across the stage at graduation or him telling me how I looked in my junior prom dress.
* 93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
Watching my dad die.
* 94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
Harry Styles.
* 95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
The beach, pronto.
* 96: Do you have any relatives in jail?
Not anymore
* 97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?
No
* 98: Ever been on a plane?
Yes. I loved it.
* 99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
Love others like you would like to be loved and see where that gets you.
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Biochemically we are made up of every element found in the stars. - From copper and gold, to carbon, hydrogen, nitrogen etc.If worn out stars become black holes, and the multiverse theory theorizes that universes exist inside black holes...If universes exist inside black holes and black holes are old stars, universes are new old stars existing inside older new old stars.If everything is one, this is entire universe (and all that it is made out of) is obviously one system, split in half - where each half reflects off itself at both 'starts', multiplying in the process.I would say both 'ends', but it never ends.This is how cells grow split and multiply, and then grow and split - multiplying again. This is how organisms grow. One start is a black hole that was a star, and inside that - Stars that will become more black holes, that will have more stars inside them repeating the process.(The end is actually the start of another end) So it makes sense that it never was an end, and that it is still the start.The 'start' being the star... And what we call the 'end', - The star metaphorically 'bending' shape. (Bending back into itself, like the circumference of a circle).This is how 'Pie' is a divine mathematical equation.Anyway - what appears at first to be the end.. Tragically, is just the start.As Bill Hicks said "There is no such thing as death, life is only a dream and we are the imagination of ourselves". This explains to me what happened once when I believe I overdosed - and woke up in a new body as a young person that had just finished watching the movie "Aryan man 2".This was a film that showed the whole day that I had just experienced (in THIS world) where I escaped from a mental institution, and went for a mushroom hunt... Found a few premium gold tops and started tripping, then bought 5 dollars worth of premium and went to the riverside at night and started huffing gas. I say I overdosed, because I must have passed out and fell into a bush (as that is where I woke up after this experience). It was a dream, that was very real. Just like this reality - That is really a dream.I'm not going to go into details about what happened in the movie cinema, but I will say that the people that saw the movie first were the 13 richest families in the world. I was born into one of these families in this reality, and I saw my family crest when each of the families were asked to all put their hand-prints on the wall (because it was a new embassy) and the movie 'Aryan Man' was a very long awaited movie that everybody was talking about. Along with the new movie, came a new Embassy for the movie to be played inside (because it was such a big sellout).The richest families in the world were the first to see it, and the first to be inside this new embassy.Because they were the first, I believe that they either paid to be able to leave their marks on the wall, or they done it out of their own accord - because these families have shares in all major businesses and companies.Each family was assigned a part of the wall, where privately (because curtains separated the families) each family member could do their own individual hand-mark. The curtains were there so that people could keep to themselves, which mark was theirs.Some people in my family done the 'Peace' sign.So it was my turn to do a hand-mark, and at this point I hadn't realized that the movie I had just watched was actually who I really was and that I had just came from another alternate reality or universe. All I knew was that not many people liked me because of how rich my parents were, and I don't think I was that old because my shoulders were not as broad when viewed from my head. I do believe that my name still was Blake though, and although I didn't see into a mirror - I think I still had blonde hair and was really white. I probably looked just as I did when I was young.Anyway, it was my turn to make a mark... And just as I went to stand on a chair to get higher up on the wall to do my mark, I realized "FUCK! THIS AINT ME?!? I AM ARYAN MAN!" And I jumped up and across to the right, towards the families next to me - sliding across the wall pulling the finger, as if to say "Fuck you" to everyone. My hand smeared across the wall as far as I could jump, smudging some of the other families hand-prints.I knew who I was.As I hit the ground, I knocked over some of the curtains.. And then I woke up in a bush, with the feeling of the bush feeling the same way that the curtains felt when they landed on my face, before I came home.Anyway, If we exist inside an old star, we are made out of a star. We must in turn, create new universes (since that is the end result for all that everything is made out of).This happens when you create a new reality out of thought, and a new reality is a new dimension. Menstrual blood can fertilize plants. I tried to get some off this girl, but she wouldn't hook me up.I wanted to experiment with it because I assumed that it would contain estrogen, and THC is similar to estrogen on its molecular structure. I also find my own blood very nourishing and I wanted to see if this was just because I am special, or if the blood from other humans and animals gives me the same feeling of bliss that my own does. I used to stab my 7th chakra with a needle so hard that it would make a crunching noise (I think it was gristle), I would then smear the blood from my crown on to skin peeled off the cactus I was about to consume (once mixed with my blood). I would get enough blood to make the green concoction turn brown, and it tasted very strong.Once I done this with a few feet of San Pedro, and a few hours after consuming the succulent I began to experience hallucinations that were different than as if I took the mescaline alone. Instead of the usual way that hallucinogens alter my vision and induce patterns, I saw hieroglyphics on the ground as I left my dads house. These symbols somehow told a story that I could interpret, about a sorcerer and a sorceress. One of the pictures I can remember was a lizard.I believe that drugs like LSD, psilocybin and mescaline are the equivalent to a mental microscope that allows you to see inside your mind clearer. I came to the conclusion that since my blood contains my genetic signature, I was infusing the cactus brew with who I am as the information in my DNA. I thought that this gave me the ability to really see who I was, more than just taking the cactus alone. I was on a trip, but the symbols I saw told a story that I will never forget. 3 months later I landed myself in an asylum with the belief that I was a shaman, a sorcerer - and that I was very important.The doctors wouldn't understand me when I spoke about things like the human soul, auras and the chakra system. They told me that these things are not real.I gave them links to aura photography, showed them a picture of a leaf being cut in half (and photographed after) by a special camera that showed in the developed photo, the part of the leaf that was cut off - still there as an electro-magnetic image. I explained that I believe it to be the soul, or 'life-force' of the leaf.I then told them that doctors practicing modern medicine (in the west) have accepted the belief in the chakra system that is known in many cultures. I told them that the way that spinal-fluid circulates around the body, flows the same way that chi flows through the 12 meridians that are a part of the chakra system that has been known about since ancient times. I said that you can see evidence of this in MRI scans.When they realized that I was talking about factual information, they changed my diagnosis from 'Schizo-effective disorder' to 'Bi-polar disorder', with the reason being that I talk fast and think that I am shamanic. .People with ADHD talk fast, and the sphenoid bone that is responsible for the type of headaches that I have been diagnosed with - is worshiped by shamans.I can also do a course in spiritual sexual shamanic experience training (with the international school of temple arts) for $3,000. Then I will have the credentials on paper saying that I am a shaman. Also when I was in prison, the psychologist that met me told me that he believes that I don't have bi-polar, and that I have ADHD. (Ironically he was the guy that told me to try cactus, after I told him I dropped 4 tabs for my first trip)I do believe that I had an out of this world head. I was trying to have sex with everyone, and I thought I was the anti-christ because I took a pack of Pepsi's from Pak'N'Save and walked through the checkout without paying for it, saying "It's not Pepsi, it is Coke and I am not the Antichrist". I thought that my whole life was a lie and that everything was actually backwards, and that I was raised with a backwards language called 'Forwards speak' that was backwards to backwards, in a forwards way. I thought that I was a social experiment known as the anti-christ who lived a backwards reality (that to me was called forwards) but to everyone else, 'forwards' actually meant what 'backwards' meant to me.This is very embarrassing for me to talk about, because I was so delusional BUT I had been on a 3 month bender where I consumed atleast 90 feet of San Pedro Cactus - while at the same time smoking synthetic cannabis, and practicing vagus nerve stimulation. I do believe that more than anything, it was the synthetic cannabis that caused my psychosis. I believe that it was a drug induced psychosis, not bi-polar - and that I do have ADHD.Ironically, a part of the idea of me being a social experiment known as the anti-christ, I also thought that I was the blonde haired blue eyed male picked to be the father to Hitlers boy soldier army, and the leader of the Aryan race. I thought that because of all of this, my life was a movie for the whole world to see.I thought that I was the 'Truman', and upon researching mental health disorders I found out that there is a specific type of psychosis known as 'Truman show delusion' that I had the exact symptoms for, and my doctor won't accept this to be a reality. He is adamant I have bi-polar, all because I had a drug induced psychosis and I speak fast + gravitate towards eastern philosophies. People with this type of psychosis are supposed to be taken off of the medication as soon as they realize that they are not on T.V. Within 3 months of not taking synthetic cannabis (and taking the prescribed meds forced into my butt cheek via injection) I started to believe that I was crazy, and that my life wasn't a movie.I don't believe this is because of the meds that they force me to take, because I now am starting to wonder again if my life is a fuckin show. I haven't taken any cactus, only weed and ritalin (which was prescribed to me by the same doctor that diagnosed me with bi-polar, before I had the massive mescaline bender)He diagnosed me with ADHD because, I ended up in the same mental hospital 3 years prior with the belief that there was a hit on my head because of the fact that people know I am a witch and that they are scared that I know their secrets (after I hit my head, became dumb and then learned how to manipulate my cranial skull plates back into alignment - which made me not dumb anymore) and I believe that doing this made me even smarter than I was before, and everyone wanted me to be the brain damaged idiot that I was before I made myself smarter.I believe that this had something to do with my sphenoid bone, and that this is why this bone is worshipped by shamans. They say that nobody knows why, but I believe I know why. This bone is responsible for me becoming a shaman, a sorcerer - And this is a prophecy thousands of years old. The hieroglyphics somehow told and explained to me about a paradox that involved a being born, that creates his own creator. This is 'Aryan Man', and it is how I enhanced my genetic code by using the secret to create aliens in my life that designed my DNA.Before I aligned my sphenoid bone, I don't think that aliens had any influence on my genetic code. Once everything aligned, I used intention to become who I wanted to be. This person was the person I thought I was in my drug induced psychosis. Ironically, the Soviets called schizophrenia 'Shamans disease'. I can make this reality different within the second oI think that it's different. I can make myself the average human, spied on by the government, a part of the government, the second coming of Christ, Christ enhanced as "The Anti-Christ", the leader of the Aryan Race - And then 'The Truman' who is all of those, but only either a part of the government - or a person of interest who is spied on by the government. This FBI Agent thing started happening about a year ago? When they told me they were gonna send a UFO with writing that appeared on the floor, and they did and I saw it while I was talking Telepathically to Lorde (All of the celebs talk psychically) and I heard her voice in my head say something about a UFO, as the writing (that the government used patented technology I have read about) to display to me. They explained to me that they have been watching me for ages and that they want me to be a Federal agent as I am beneficial to them because of my intelligence. They told me it is the 'Stone age' (Age of Stonemason) and that all appliances have cameras installed by the Illuminati, and this is the NWO.It was then explained to me the privileges that an FBI agent has. I don't want to make you all jealous but, The words "NEW AGENT 007" starting appearing on the wall, and they said that they saved this number specifically for me for years. Then they told me who 008 is.The grays know that I imagined their existence to be real, giving them life in order to further my own. It makes more sense to them that they couldn't design a being this advanced, and that this being designed himself through them (making them a part of this being). Even though their DNA is different than mine (despite my Rh-negative blood), they are in essence - Me.I am them, just as much as I am me. I am the aliens that designed me. This explains what I saw in the hieroglyphics about the paradox involving a being that created the being(s) that created it. I am this being.I am bigger than myself. I exist outside of myself. Just like you, I am everything.
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