#chroniillness

[angelc1989]

To be totally honest I have really been struggling with my PTSD as of late, with the fear that another infection could send me back to the hospital. As I write this I am hoping we have me on the right antibiotics. Unfortunately my instincts were correct about having another uti. It is also close to mother's day which is a another trigger because due to a bad experience with a pump replacement I was in a coma for two mother's day weekends in a row. (A year apart ) I have been getting frustrated with myself feeling anxious over every little thing PTSD is a very real thing and it affects those not just in the military. Which if I am truthful I didn't realize PTSD could be caused by so many different factors other than military service. #ptsdsucks #hateanxiety #exhausted #chroniillness #overthinking #ptsdawareness #anxiety #mentalhealthawareness https://www.instagram.com/p/BxLYNSkhJgn/?igshid=956qrbgwx0mp

[forlupuswarriors]

Nobody Said It Was Easy. But Nobody Ever Said It Would Be This Hard Either.

[angelc1989]

Obviously this is not my most glamorous picture of myself. I wanted to share it none the less because truth is chronic illness is ANYTHING but glamorous I am now admitted to the hospital recieving IV for a UTi I am on a overflow unit for the er department it is calmer here. After sitting in the waiting room for 12 and half hours I was grateful just to be able to lay down. I had to advocate for myself when I realized by sitting in my wheelchair so long I was becoming sicker. As bad and chaotic the er was and mom and I laughed at point out of nervousness and exhaustion. The sad truth is we saw so many people there in desperate need of mental health care I am extremely fortunate to have access to proper mental health treatment. I want to thank my mom for everything she does for me as a caregiver she laughs when I thank her because she says I'm your mom. I am still extremely grateful. I miss Nikki like crazy and being able to use medical marijuana when I want or need to I wish I was a home right now the is the safest place to be me to be #beyourownadvocate #antibiotics #brokenhealthcaresyste#nursesareawesome #grateful #mentalhealthisimportant #mentalhealth #chronicuti #chroniillness (at UC Davis Children's Hospital) https://www.instagram.com/p/BwoIILGhPtv/?igshid=19oovlsydkfr7