#currently not entirely sober so forgive my longpost

[wingdingle]

I NEED TO ASK how are you now. Congratulations on surviving the piss in the dashcon ballpit incident

hi lol somoene must have reblogged the post again. well i was not at dashcon ever and if u look up dashcon on my blog posts about it are all still there. as for me now, i was 14 when i made that post, and i struggled to communicate because i am very autistic. and i was also in an abusive household and didnt have any friends really irl at all. but since then i grew up a lot, found out im trans, and got into some better communities and moved out.... and now im about a year and a half out of being in that house and i have a better job already, as well as loving partner who i live with. im a pharmacy technician, studying to become a pharmacist. ive been to a mental health hospital 3 times in the past two years, and ive gotten better every time... i mean im now able to cope with my trauma and work on the worse symptoms of borderline... and most important of all, im able to talk to the people around me irl! i can literally jsut talk to random strangers on the street and they seem to enjoy it, lol. i even make people laugh. its great lol, i used to be so anxious all the time, i didnt talk to anybody or make any friends on purpose, i would just make posts online and cry but now im better!

also on the less deep side of things, i get to experience a lot of hobbies i couldnt before, like gardening, foraging and cooking and home design. and im able to handle the bills atm from how hard i work, which is a nice feeling!! i love my job too and have many friends there and get to help people every day even just by cracking a joke at the register. plus i love customer service.

i really dont think about dashcon like, at all, it was such a blip in such a wild go at life for me, and i never even went there myself. i just really wanted everyone to know about that so they wouldnt get hurt, and now i get to do that in a way every day at my job and im really good at it it turns out, and so if youre wondering how im doing now i think i am finally happy... if ur ever in a place where you think things wont get better just know i used to think it was bullshit when people said that to me but now that im finally here it is all so worth it. anyways bye hope u liked seeing me answer this random stranger