#daniel stravers

[tomsmusictaste]

Anarbor // Who Can Save Me Now?

[estie-references]

Chloe SS18

[tomsmusictaste]

Anarbor // Damage I've Done

[brooklynpwns]

You suddenly complete me.

WARNING: This post is going to be mushy as fuck, if you have a problem with that then don't read it. I'm posting it anyway because I need to say something and I didn't know who to say it to, so I'm just saying it to the internet, not you in particular so I'm not going to be offended if you read it or don't, but don't hate because I'm being the realest of real here. So if you aren't down with knowing every nook and cranny of my emotional state get the fuck over it/out of here.

So here it is -about me: I'm in love. I'm seriously in love hard. I didn't suspect this would happen to me this way and especially not with who I'm in love with. I don't care if you think it's stupid because we haven't been together long. I don't care if you think I'm stupid or don't deserve him or vice versa. None of it matters to me because nothing could be better than the way he makes me feel. Sometimes I get texts that are so sweet that I tear up a bit. I talk about him continuously and everyone hates it but I don't care because I can't help it so they can deal with it or not be around me. I want to walk up to the top of College Hill and scream it to the sky because the feeling is so wonderful I want to share it with something but I can't because the reason it is so wonderful is because of that one person and the fact that they are the only person this can ever be shared with. I am outrageously perpetually happy because I know that this person who means so much to me knows that they do and feels the same way about me, what else could I ask for? He means the world to me and so much more.

So here it is -about him: His name is Daniel Stravers. He is absolutely the best human being I have ever met. Vegan for nearly 5 years because of an admirable love for animals, he holds his family closest to his heart despite any differences or difficulties they've had in the past or are having. He's putting himself through school so that he can take care of his mom financially, and all the while sleeping on couches or in dorms. He's an aspiring musician on top of having an impressive intellect, a beautiful heart, an extremely lovable personality and being FUCKING CUTE. He looks at me with the most sincere look of love and admiration I've ever seen and everytime I melt into a cute puddle on the floor. He does amazing things for me on a daily basis just so I know he cares. He is everything I've ever wanted and more than I'd ever expected to get. He is all of my wishes come true in the form of a person. His motivation in life is awe-inspiring and beautiful. 

So here it is -about us: We live in different places now, I in Providence and he in Phoenix. A move this great would be relationship ending in any other case, no questions asked. I have absolutely no problem with being in a long distance relationship in this case- as long as I get to keep him. I don't care that it's going to be lots of work to maintain the amount of contact we both require, I'll do it for him. I don't care that it's going to suck at night when I go to bed without him, as long as I know that I'll be with him again for it. When we are together it is pure bliss and we're always smiling, and always touching cause we like to be near each other and feel each other living. I'm always excited to take him places and introduce him to people- I'm proud of him and who he is. Have you ever seen that Venn Diagram that has three circles that read "love", "sex" and "friendship" and has all the possible combinations in between? Well in the very center of all three is "soul mate". Before I started to know Daniel I didn't really have a belief in soul mates or love at first sight or anything. And no, we didn't fall in love the minute we looked into each others eyes, we fell in love as we looked into each other and found happiness inside. We've found things within ourselves and each other that we never expected to be there and by doing so we've opened a beautiful chapter in our lives that we hope never ends. I miss him more every second and it makes me sad but I know I'm one second closer to the next time I'll see him. I love you, Daniel Stravers and I hope the world knows it.