hi everyone ! i’m sab , nineteen , nd using she / her pronouns . super amped to get to write w u all and introduce u to jiho who has recently become a favorite muse of mine . all his info is under the cut ( i tried to make it as short as possible bc lord knows i ramble too much ) nd i’d def love to plot w all of u if that’s ur thing , so just hit that like button nd i’ll make my way over to u or ur welcome to come to me ! d*scord is usually easier for me , but i’m not super keen on giving it publicly , so ask for it if u want !
˗ˏˋ ( hwang hyunjin. 20. cismale. he/him. ) kang jiho is a 98 liner + has been at so!ar entertainment for five years. they are the main rapper, main dancer, & maknae in the group zon3. they are known by their fans to be observant, diligent + passionate but they can also be reticent, candid + flighty. i hope that they can make it in this industry.
TRIGGER WARNING FOR : INTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA , RELIGIOUS THEMES , BODY IMAGE ISSUES , & SELF ESTEEM ISSUES !
background .
jiho comes from a dancer’s home . his mother & father both professionals , while one was a ballerina & the other was an idol .
from the moment he was born , it was pretty much written in the stars what his life would turn out to be . starting to dance & train for a life to come from the moment he could walk .
his parents were relentless . never gave him the time to have a life as a child . it was dance or nothing . there wasn’t ever a choice .
father hung up on passing on his legacy , mother hung up on people remembering their name .
it was all about fame & appearances . never about love or family . they barely cared for each other as it was , all of it caught up in their heads , both after what the other could give them material wise rather than emotion wise .
( so it was no surprise there were other people flowing in & out of his parents’ lives , out of their home in the middle of the night when one was away or the click of the lock too early in the morning for it not to be suspicious ) .
they were strict . would work him to the bone from a young age because he was going to be successful whether he wanted to or not .
dance was his life . never having the chance to be a kid , he’d go to school , come home do work , then leave for his mother’s studio until the early hours of the morning .
life was lonely . kids would bully him for dancing . make fun of how scrawny he was . the whole nine yards .
didn’t quite help that his parents only cared about his dancing & not himself as a person . they fought a lot , lots of yelling at each other .. lots of yelling at him .
worked his ass off in hopes that if he kept doing everything right his parents would treat him like their own child & not some robot they manufactured .
they always sort of saw him as a failure . nothing he did was right .
it was their idea to have him audition to an entertainment company . carry on the family name . make them proud .
he was indifferent . he loves dancing despite it consuming him until he can’t breathe . without it , he would be lost .
went along with it , auditioned & right off the bat at age fifteen , he became a trainee for solar . the new up & coming dancer that people needed to look out for .
it was so much pressure , training has always been hard , but with the new edition of his whole life on the line , it just got worse .
didn’t help his parents were always breathing down his neck . they were more harsh with him than they’d ever been before .
had to be perfect . had to have the best body , had to look perfect , had to act perfect .
taking so long to lead up to debut , he felt he wasn’t good enough , still doesn’t really think so , his parents don’t think so either .
yet , they’re content with him finally on the road to debut , but they’re not satisfied which means this journey is only going to get worse .
some other tidbits about him :
he’s bi … but doesn’t really want to admit it to himself , kinda doesn’t really know , due to his upbringing .. thinks he’s a hettie .
his parents are very religious . old school religious you know ? liking anyone that wasn’t the opposite sex of you just . wasn’t a thing .
he’s a sagittarius . haven’t decided his full chart yet though !
definitely a secret romantic . can be quite cuddly when he’s comfortable with someone .
likes to reflect a lot , he’s very , very hard on himself & never thinks anything he does is perfect , so he keeps journals & tracks his progress & has been doing that since he was young .
practices way too fucking much . like he’ll be up until the sun rises bc he needs to make sure he’s succeeding .
struggles with a lot of self-esteem issues & body images issues . it doesn’t help the sexier concept of his group that he has to flaunt himself .
struggles a lot with his sexuality .
personality .
jiho is very closed off . doesn’t necessarily know how to make friends ?
but he’s a sweetheart ? he’s not overly rude , he’s just kind of blunt ? isn’t gonna say more than he has to .
he’s kinda drawn back . not super touchy or affectionate unless he’s comfortable & knows u well .
more into superficial relationships bc that’s all he’s had his whole life .
he’s very determined & won’t let anything get in the way .
can be quite impressionable ? especially bc of his parents . he’s a little lost in life , but won’t let anyone know he has to be Perfect .
kinda flighty . scared of committing to anything besides dance as it’s been his whole life & when it’s not it’s uncharted territory .
likes to observe a lot , can be a bit of an ass & critique ppl but he means well .
most people think he’s an asshole because of his stage persona and that he’s quieter , more reserved . has embodied that a little bit . be what you’re told to be .
is a bit of a pessimist .
doesn’t believe in love ! is terrified of it ! because his parents never taught him what love was or given him any . plus he’s scared from his parents relationship .
just give him love & support & affection & he will end up really liking u .
he’s definitely very supportive when he wants to be & he cares abt u !
wanted plots .
dance partner , give him someone who he’s been training with for years , someone that helps him be his best & he helps them be their best .
an ex-girlfriend would be fun ! some juicy , angsty shit .. jiho’s whole life is dance & giving it up for love ? something he wouldn’t have done .
maybe .. a boy he’s sort of secretly had a crush on , but has never wanted to label it as that . he’s like a lil puppy , just infatuated with them .
while jiho isn’t the best at making connections , a best friend for him would be nice ? someone he’s managed to actually connect w & get to know on a deeper level .
knowing each other in their childhood is possible ? if they’re a dancer , they could have attended jiho’s parents’ studio & whatever comes from that , whether they liked each other or there was some animosity idk .. totally up for whatever !
a good old fashioned rival would be fun , someone that just grinds his gears & they’re always at each other’s throats . lots of bickering , lots of tension .
someone pls have a little crush on him i’m begging ..
pls . give him an older sibling figure .. or someone that takes care of him & he does his best to do the same . has probably seen him at his worst .. just smth precious & sweet .
honestly ! anything else , i’m open tbh .
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Ah! Thank you~! I just noticed that you have a word count meter on your blog's front page and underneath is a link to a site called Pacemaker. I was just wondering what are your thoughts on those tools? I've never heard of them before. Oh yeah, and I also heard you mention "Word Sprints" in the past too and I couldn't help but wonder what those were and if you find them helpful? Also- sorry for the mini-avalanche of questions *haha
Ahhh yes these are great questions! I hope you don’t mind if I answer these publicly? Just bc I think they’re general enough to benefit anyone! Let me know if you want me to take it down tho, you know I love talking about this kind of stuff privately too
My Pacemaker has kind of fallen to the wayside, but I’m gonna make a new one for May and try to stick to it. Basically, you give yourself a wordcount goal for the month and pick a strategy of how you want to approach it (same word count each day, start small finish strong, etc etc). At the end of the day, you log however much you’ve written, then you can check your expected progress, how much progress you’ve actually made, and what you have left to do. You can reserve free days too, in case you miss a day or something like that. I personally really like it bc it helps me to have a daily word count goal, even if it’s just a couple hundred words. And there have been days where I’ve written nothing, then the next day I wrote twice the word count and got back on track. You can also make it so it recalculates your word count goal based on what you’ve actually written each day. If you like planning and the satisfaction of setting and reaching goals, I’d defs give it a shot. You can find that here: https://pacemaker.press/
The word count meter was an attempt for me to motivate me by putting my progress out there so I’d be motivated to meet my goal to avoid public failure but it didn’t really work bc a. I kept forgetting to update it and b. No one really cared anyway haha. But if you like seeing a visual representation of how far you are to your goal, it’s a cool thing to do! I’m at work rn so I don’t have the link off the top of my head, but I can find it when I get home if you like!
Word Sprints are SO helpful for me personally, and I definitely need to do them more. I learned about them from @roseymoseyberry this past NaNo and those sprints honestly helped me through it so much. They’re done through this website here: https://www.mywriteclub.com/beta/word-sprints#/ Basically, you make an account, and then you can join a sprint, either globally (which I’ve never done, I actually prefer to do it with friends in small groups, it’s easier when I know who I’m working with and can silently cheer them on! And also less intimidating) or custom, where you can make/join your own private small group. And then you just pick a project and... write right in your browser. It’ll autosave everything you type in case you accidentally close out of the window, and for added security, you can link it to your Dropbox so it’ll save it there too -- so if something terrible happens and you lose your entire computer before you can save your work, you can access it on there. But the basic concept of it is that as you write, you can see your word count go up in a bar on the side. For every 100 words you get a star -- and you can see your friends’ word counts go up too. You can’t see what they’re writing, but you can see their numbers tick up, and god, it is such a motivator for me bc then it’s like ahhh they’re getting so much further ahead, or they’re catching up to me, gotta go go go! And it’s a sprint bc it’s 25 minutes long. At the end of the 25 minutes, you can see your final wordcount and everyone else’s final wordcounts. Then you have five minutes before the next sprint starts where you can stop writing if you’re done, or copy and paste to your work document and clear everything for the next sprint, or keep writing if you’re on a roll (altho your word count won’t go up if you write in the five minute break window). It forces you to just get the words out on the page and not think too hard about it. I usually get between 300-700 words done in 25 minutes, and sometimes I barely even need to edit it afterwards. I defs need to do another sprint soon so I can get out of this rut... I might do one this weekend, and if I do, I’ll be sure to link so you can feel free to join if you like!
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