#dia's diary ┊͙ ˘͈ᵕ˘͈

[diabunnies]

I am very sorry.

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somebody please i am Begging draw shidou as martinez n sae as the qatari king (??? royal ??)

[regqlia]

i love u bllk community but how come i havent come across trilingual sae hcs... where are they... he's lived in spain WHERE is my spanish speaking itoshi sae...

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u can rlly tell how a person is based on how they perceive the itoshis' relationship. like this has been simmering in my head for the longest time now bc ive been trying to find exactly why i agree w sae so much despite having been in rin's position time n time again.

bllk manga spoilers under the cut!

ok so i gotta scribble this rq lest i lose my train of thought hence why there are zero manga panels attached. most of this basically refers to the u20 arc anyway so if u've read that i hope that u get what i mean ! a lot of this is rambling n very common shit but whatever!!!

we know that rin has p much worked his ass off for a good decade to get to the level that sae is on. that's his entire appeal: hopeful younger brother who tries so hard to be like the best person he has in his life. n so when sae comes back from spain all cold n stone-like, spewing shit abt how he doesn't wanna be the #1 striker anymore, rin saw his entire life fracture into unrecognisable pieces. but he still hopes! he still thinks that he can get sae to pick up his dream again, get sae to turn back into the kid he was before spain. even after losing that 1v1 when sae came back, rin never fully left behind the possibility that sae could just take back his words; the u20 match was one of - if not The last - opportunity for rin to prove to sae that he can still afford to dream that dream. to play soccer together, be number 1 n number 2 in the world. i mean the look on his face when sae spoke to him after the match looked like that of a child who retained such naiveness, like he was 7 again and not 16 fucked over by everyone. but the world he was slowly rebuilding shattered again when sae spat out isagi's name n not his, n u can see how much of an impact this had on rin ever since then (in the rare instances he shows up).

he's become more selfish, thought more for himself than anyone else (if this was even possible), gained even more of an ego. for once this ego is his n no one else's. it's not tied to some dream he had with his brother, it is his and that's why i think pxg matches will probably show rin at such a heightened state that his evolution from u20 will tower over everyone else's (bar isagi bc bro is blanketed by mc privileges). think abt it, sae improved so much during his time in spain bc he learnt to detach himself from everyone. he learnt to fall and grow by himself. rin was still tethered to him until their confrontation after the match. it wasn't until then that rin can also fall and grow by himself, for himself.

yea sae may be cruel but what he did, at least how i see it, was necessary bc rin would never grow to be the player he wants to be if he keeps tying himself to the idea that he needs his brother's approval. no, it's apparent that rin needed sae's cruelty to grow as a player. it's time for lil emo guy to own his dream as his n not some shared fantasy with sae. n idk fs if sae is cruel to him for this very reason but i am glad bc it got rin off his moping pity party ass. blue lock needs u to become the worst person imaginable before becoming the best, that is ego's entire mantra (as we are all v familiar w). sae was the last piece in rin's puzzle to become the best he's always wanted to be. n for that i do not and cannot look at him as a "horrible" person. everyone in this manga sucks in one way or another, that's what happens when too many people try to be the best! hurt people hurt people! sae and rin being the loudest example of this does not necessarily make one of them horrible.

yea it sucks n it hurts to read but it is one of my favourite relationships in media ever bc it is realistic. i believe that one of the hardest lessons u gotta learn is knowing when to detach urself from ppl and/or dreams that will limit from becoming the person you've wanted to be. to be able to listen to hurtful things from ppl u've always loved n turn them into reasons to become the best u've ever been even if it means leaving them behind. i love it (◞‸◟；)

[diabunnies]

baby isagi aka precious cargo

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bllk ch203 spoilers below the cut!

"LITTLE BOY" ISAGI YOICHI YOU ARE INSANE

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nagi who rarely stretches before going on runs during off-season and so creaks violently every time. like. his entire 6'3 lankiness,,, you can hear every joint pop o_0

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they say for every chapter isagi doesnt score in, nick cannon has another child

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i NEED to get this off my chest! we all know (and love) how petty bachira can get and so ive always chalked him up as the kind of petty that purposefully gives u the bad set of cutlery whenever he's annoyed 😭😭 im talkin like the rejected set buried beneath all the good sets kinda bad! n u can always trust him to go out of his way to find it too 😭😭

[regqlia]

i have every reason to believe that every mf that has been within shidou ryuusei's proximity carries a portable taser with them EVERYWHERE

[diabunnies]

hc that bachira loves shakira n frank ocean, chigiri loves doja n sza, rin likes travis scott n 21 savage, shidou likes carti n yeat (!!!!), isagi likes the carters n nicki minaj, yeah...

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blue lock would be one season long if these bitches just didnt have voices in their heads 🙄🙄

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"i want a car for christmas" ok well i want bastard munchen's isagi yoichi (17) to score against mancity but we cant get everything we want now can we (＃`Д´)

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"the one who's able to change this country's football... is isagi yoichi."

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no science can explain to me why i shed a literal, physical tear every time i see itoshi sae on my screen

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merry christmas and happy holidays all ♡(>ᴗ•)