#diarydump

[zoniteillusion-pyritedreams]

[Digital Diary Dump #5?: bored? interrogated my friends instead.]

So I got bored (read: sugar high & waiting for my face mask to dry.) and decided to harass my friends with Very Important Questions like:

“What kind of song do I remind you of?”

“Be honest, which celebrity do I give the same energy as?”

…You know, normal things for a totally normal day. And let me just say the responses had me SCREAMING. Crying. Writing in my Notes app & throwing shit . So here’s (some of) what they said, plus me being cute about it:

Top Song Pick:

Lee Hyori – ���Bad Girls”

“This is sooo you when people first meet you. You're like in this villainous fairy mode playful, powerful, provocative. Without even trying, you walk into a room and everyone feels it."

Me: Yeah... that tracks. If I were a song, I’d also wear a fur coat, sunglasses at night, and crush men’s egos with just a wink and platform boots. She’s not a bad girl, she just knows her worth and people who can’t handle that... Shall Suffer.

Runner-Up:

BTS – “Pied Piper”

“This represents your siren muse energy. You pull people in with that irresistible charm. Your creative, addictive, otherworldly vibes. People know they should be focusing on their lives, but they’d rather get lost in yours.”

Me: Honestly? I didn’t choose the Pied Piper life. The Pied Piper life chose me. Blame the curls, the voice, the hint of chaos in my eyes. Also talk to your BTS all this is like one of my top three favorite besides by them alongside Coffee.

Third Place (but emotionally first):

2NE1 – “Missing You”

“Underneath your otherworldly armor, you have such emotional depth and softness. This is that bittersweet beauty of vulnerability, and emotional memory. It mirrors your ability to haunt people's minds in the most poetic way.”

Me: The romantic tragedy of it all… I’m not a phase, I’m the soft echo of past emotions when you’re pretending you’re fine. You’re welcome.

( I feel like you can 100% tell that my group of friends are all like very creative ass motherfuckers. Specifically in this group of people these are my close besties there is an aspiring artist, someone who quite literally works out of Art museum, a pediatrician in the making, in elementary school teacher in the making, and a fellow spiritual baddie.)

Honorary Mentions: (aka the wild cards or songs they didn't low key all agree on/pick)

Spica – “You Don’t Love Me”

Vintage glam + emotional breakdown = me in red lipstick crying cutely into a virgin martini. Honestly? Accurate.

Block B – “Her”

One friend said this is the sound of people tripping over themselves for my attention, "chaotic gorgeous energy with a side of delusion-inducing charm." They are correct.

Rain – “Love Song”

If men were writing songs about me? This would be the one. Down bad doesn’t even begin to cover it. It’s giving "hopeless poet sobbing in the rain" energy.

Celebrity vibe/look alike: The Esther Yu Agenda

Recently, my friends, especially the ones who are deep in their C-Drama era keep joking every time a new Esther Yu drama drops like,

“Oh? Didn’t know you were filming in China this month!”

Apparently, I’m her long-lost cousin or something?

They swear it’s the face shape + features = uncanny resemblance, and honestly? They’re not wrong. If I had to describe my looks to the internet (before I get bold or drunk enough to drop a selfie on here), it would be:

"Imagine if you took East Asian facial features and painted them in Afro-Colombian colors."

Eyes, skin, hair = pure Colombia. But the bone structure? Straight outta C-Drama. And then there’s the height. Imagine combining short Asian genes and short Latina genes what do you get?

A bad bitch under 5ft. Compact. Dangerous. Built like a limited edition Bratz doll.

Anyway, that’s all for now. Might go interrogate more people later ( maybe don't bother the baby Bros or my aunt or cousin who also like a pop and ask them the same shit.) Or nap.

See ya!

[wikiiileaks]

body is sore today (especially my legs and back)

im thinking about wars in the middle ages, pre cambrian earth, all the plagues and wars and weird stages the earth has taken as a theater.

i’m thinking about renaissance princess hats, a tall cone with a sheer ribbon off the top. i’m thinking about how our most ancient ancestors were weird fish-like creatures who grew legs at one point.

i applied for a job to restore the hudson river, i would be working directly with the 85 species of fish, testing water and tracking weather.

my chest feels over-tugged but i feel i can sleep at ease now

[yeubii]

Something's just won't work out no matter what you change.

Something's just won't work out no matter what you change. It's so easy to feel like ur the reason for everything's wrong.

[justingerard-blog-blog]

I got sad, walking in to my own room.

I'm home from college for the first time. I walked in to my room and looked around and got...sad. I looked out the window, and thought about how coming back to this pristine room reminded me of how much has changed in the last few months.