#diaryora

[elizabethyora]

(Berkeley, November 2023)

First Birthday in the US!

I'm turning 24 this year! I feel like COVID makes you younger by 2 years, because in those year i did not feel anything.

So I'm practically turning 22 right? Haha!

This is not the first time I celebrated my birthday without my parents, but this is the first time I celebrated my birthday without any close friends that I have known for a long time.

I moved to the US to gain a Master's degree in City Planning at UC Berkeley. I do not know anyone, I don't have any family here, and I feel like I am still struggling to find new friends at that time.

In Indonesia, the culture is to give some sort of a surprise to the person who has their birthday. I did not expect the same treatment here in the US.

Little did I know, that I am so lucky to found a community here in the Bay Area!!! Some good things happened that day, followed by a disturbing experience, and then some surprises!

That morning I didn't feel like going to the planning history class, so I stayed in bed til noon. One of my friends from the same Master's program then texted me to ask me to go to a plaza in front of our building. I was so surprised that there were a couple of my friends who gathered and bought me some cakes and also made me a birthday hat lol.

[elizabethyora]

(Berkeley, May 2024)

First Year MCP Reflection

bunch of self reflection thoughts

Flowers just blooms right?

Last year/ last semester was a crazy run for me!!!

This new semester I really want to be at peace with myself hahaha. I've always said that but it never happens.

I will spend most of my summer in the US. I got this urban design internship in Irvine. Yay to new city! Boo to have explored it alone, myself...

I realized that these two semester I was sooo focused on gaining new knowledge in urban design, but not really in the city planning side. I want to try to focus on planning and GIS next semester!!!

I also realized that the way that master's program is structured is waaaaay more emphasizing self-learning. I really need to catch up while being present at the moment hahah!

I've been doubting myself a lot these past two semesters. I feel like i need to stop doing that!!!

A year passed by and I feel like I am more comfortable now! I did not expect that I would struggle this much with the study, language barrier, and finding friends. Still have (plenty) of rooms for improvements! I am sure I can manage this!!! :D

Want to share my summer goals (my goals from like 2 years ago lol):

Reflection - sharing experience from my travel

Start to learn how to code

Start to make a website for portfolio

Start to think what should I do with my capstone project

Seems like a wholeeeee thing right... yea, I am sure these goals will be extended until the next semester.

Most importantly have fun and enjoy the moment while it lasts! This is what I've dreamed of...

Looking forward to the new experiences :D!

[elizabethyora]

Going to UC Berkeley?

Gila ya, tulisan terakhir di blog ini adalah tentang lulus undergraduate dan sekarang... aku kembali kuliah lagi di sini.. di UC Berkeley. Suatu tempat yang sebetulnya tidak pernah terpikirkan olehku sebelumnya.

Yet, here i am, learn and relearn. Gila sih sejujurnya, sama sekali bener-bener ga pernah terbayangkan... Apalagi di Amerika, you know me, aku sangat Eropa :)). Tapi setelah satu semester di sini, aku sadar kalau semua kesempatan itu berharga, dan i'm thankful for this chance... Untuk bersekolah lagi, untuk berada di Amerika, untuk mengalami pengalaman yang baik ataupun yang jelek. Aku juga belajar untuk tidak terlalu ideal, apakah ke Berkeley hal yang ideal untukku? -- maybe not -- tapi ternyata di perjalanannya aku menemukan hal-hal yang ternyata menyenangkan!

Pas menjalaninya ternyata susah banget.. Tidak semudah exchange hahaha. It's super tough, bukan cuma pelajaran, tapi juga everyday lifenya. Tapi gapapaaa, namanya juga belajar. Satu semester sudah selesai, masih ada tiga lainnya. Semoga bisa memanfaatkan dengan sebaik mungkin dan menjalani dengan sehepi mungkin!

Love and cheers!

Yora

[elizabethyora]

DOWN SYNDROME CENTER BANDUNG

Hi! I just finished the 3rd studio jury of my final project! 

I have this love and hate relationship with this project! but now that’s it is done....

I��m unofficially graduated?? I hope so! Another opportunities awaits! <3 

There are so many little things I wished to do before I go to an internship! Hope it will be fun n excited! 

Hope I can become the best version of myself too! During I do my final projects, there are so many negative thoughts in my mind that i can’t seem to get it out. Hopefully, it will be soon vanished too!

[elizabethyora]

QUARANTINE LIFE

Hi. This a post about being in quarantine. I don’t hate it nor love it. It’s a mixed feeling that i don’t enjoy being to but i have no choice. But actually, aside from all of this mess that the virus created, there are little things that made me sane.

Here’s some of my favorite spot on my home that i notice during quarantine.

My own room

Before noon is the best time to enjoy the atmosphere there because there is not much direct sunlight hitting the area. If the window is open, the air circulation is so breeze, you don’t actually need aircon in the hot weather of Jakarta. 

Fun fact about my room, my room is actually a loft type kind of room. The first floor is used for like a living room of my room and study room. The mezzanine floor is used for sleep and it’s connected to my brother’s room. So if you can imagine, the cross section looks like the word “T”.

Another fun fact is that’s my idea! Lol when i little i was so afraid to sleep alone so i asked my dad to make me a connecting room with my bro :’). But actually now i really want a barrier between our rooms,,, because man, personal space! Lol but it’s okay, we learn to tolerate one and another

Backyard 

Oh isn’t it a beauty. My mom love to plant a plant and gardening. Sometimes my bro and i water the plant before we took a bath on the evening. 

Being in quarantine actually give me some time to explore some of the things that i am not able to do in normal time. 

Making cakes

I learn how to “bake” (LOL) with a microwave or like a non bake cake because my oven is spoiled and we are to scared to get a technician to repair it. This is an oreo cheesecake. It’s so easy to do but lol i actually i failed a little because i used fresh milk instead of heavy cream. Hehe.

Craft

This my and my bro project to make a bonsai tree out of wire. We both were amazed by this time-lapse video on youtube and decided to try it. It’s actually really hard.. we had to use  pliers to twist it because our hands aren’t strong enough.

Meet My Cupang 

This is actually my mom’s idea LOL, such a random pet during quarantine. 

Other important stuffs.

Gaung Bandung

My daily life would not be complete if i don’t talk or coordinate about Gaung Bandung. This is when we were presenting for CG at PJJGN. Oh my, i love my team so so much, they’re the best. If you happen to stumble upon this writing, please do follow the accounts below. 

Gaung Bandung this year is about placemaking.  Placemaking inspires people to collectively reimagine and reinvent public spaces as the heart of every community. I really love the concept and it is one of the tools to make a more livable city.

Self care

Last but not least, i’ve been wanting to cut my hair because it’s already being to long. But i really want to dye my hair also so, i’ll be patient to wait the right time to go to Bandung and get my hair dye kit.

I don’t hate this quarantine time. But for sure, i miss my old life when we can live and go out with no fear. Hope this will end soon.

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Post written on 10.07.20

[elizabethyora]

(Groceries Shopping, 2022)

(Me!, 2022)

A Month of Catching Up with Myself Had Told Me

Last month I took a break from doing too many things at one time.

I have been told by many that i am too rushing things in life.

“Why the rush?”

So i really tried to slow down my pace.

But.

It didn’t work out.

Why?

Maybe 3 years in architecture school whilst also actively organizing an university event teaches me to be more… busy?

Having all the tasks in the background at one time gives me an opportunity to think a little bit more about it. It’s not good to procrastinate, but it’s good to have it in our minds for a while. There’s a really good tedxtalk video about this! Do watch it if you have time.

Oh sure, insecurities are unavoidable for me. But you know, i am trying to just focus on myself more than others. The feel to have this kind of mindset is actually really liberating.

I learned that I will never be ready for anything if I tried to be perfect. I kinda miss the feeling when I am brave to do everything. Now the pressure is too high :)

You know for me now it’s not about racing with others… but it’s dealing with my own pace, and my own skills. But the real problem is myself. My own thoughts are the one who hold me back.

But all in all, the last month is really fun as I discovered that i really like to cook. And so many foods that i don’t have to buy anymore because i can cook it myself :) which maybe is not as good as if i have bought it but it is enough.

I learned that i don’t really like reading self improvement books, watch/ listen to it is more suitable for me as i am listening to the one who have been through it all with my own ear.

I learned that i actually like to read a book (which is sooo not me) about public space. And i want to pursue and learn about it in my life.

I learned that i have so many dreams to achieve but still don’t know how and when to achieve it. But it is nice to discover more dreams to achieve:)

I learned that it’s hard to keep my self motivated if i don’t have any target or deadlines. I have to create it for myself.

I learned that i have enough time to workout :)

I learned that i love to keep myself busy :)

I learned that i still don’t have a healthy relationship with money as i really hate to spend my saving…. (So, i have to earn it asap lol)

I learned that it’s already becoming a (bad) habit to overthink about my life lol. Thus, i need to stop worrying and start doing things about it.

So, here i am again, learning how to create a more balanced life.

But nothing in the world is instant. I’d say it’s enough for the rest. Let’s get back on track 🏃‍♀️

[elizabethyora]

(TUWEL online study platfrom, 2022)

(Class Note, 2022)

Apa perbedaan dalam pembelajaran yang dirasakan selama exchange?

After more-less 5 months here, i feel i can already say something about this one.

Hi, aku Yora. Sekarang sedang student exchange di Vienna University of Technology, Austria. Jurusan yang aku ambil di sini adalah architecture and spatial planning. Exchangenya sudah berjalan dari bulan Oktober 2021 dan sekarang sudah di penghujung programnya selesai, sedang masa ujian :) Gak kerasa ya!

For the reference, di sini aku ambil mata kuliahnya bermacam-macam. Karena aku udah semester terakhir yang sebenernya tinggal lulus, jadi aku bisa mengambil mata kuliah S2 di sini. Iya sih tidak bisa transfer SKS, tapi pengetahuan tidak ada yang sia-sia dan memacu untuk terus semangat keluar dari zona nyaman sih :)!

What kind of courses i took here?

Mata kuliah S2 yang aku ambil di sini berkisar tentang studi spatial planning dan lebih spesifiknya lagi di Interdisciplinary Centre for Urban Culture and Public Space, ada 3 mata kuliah tuh. Kalau di bidang arsitektur, kebetulan aku gak dapet studio, jadi gak sempet ngerasain deh studio di sini gimana, cuma denger dari cerita temen-temen aja hehe… Alhasil untuk bidang arsitektur, aku mengambil mata kuliah tentang dokumentasi dan videografi. Selain itu, mata kuliah pilihan yang aku ambil itu tentang publikasi scientific work dan juga creative engineering.

We can later discuss what i learned from those courses, but now the big question:

What is the big difference in learning system abroad and in Indonesia?

Satu. Terjun langsung, kecuali emang kelas teori

Ini mungkin agak tergantung dengan field apa juga, kebetulan kan aku emang ngambil mata kuliah spatial planning dan workshop riset. Jadi yaaa, kuliahnya lebih banyak studi mandiri dan observasi. Meaning, harus pinter bagi waktu sendiri sih.

Applied theory sih, seneng langsung bisa observasi gitu apa yang dibaca untuk studi literatur bener gak di kehidupan nyata? Apa yang beda, apa yang sama, apa penyebabnya? Pertanyaan-pertanyaan tersebut selalu muncul kalau observasi dan nantinya diolah lagi sih datanya dan dicocokan lagi dengan teorinya. Dan memacu pertanyaan-pertanyaan lain sih. Hehe too many questions.

Kebetulan juga aku dapet satu kelas research workshop ke Thessaloniki, Greece! So exchange in exchange ;), quite crazy. Selama 4 hari observasi lapangan sambil ada feedback loop dari dosen juga. Lalu mempresentasikan findings yang di dapat selama observasi.

Outputnya biasanya berupa tulisan sih. Mungkin ini udah biasa ya di jurusan-jurusan lain, tapi karena aku dari arsitektur yang sebagian besar tugasnya outputnya adalah gambar, ini hal yang cukup menantang si menulis, dalam bahasa inggris especially. It’s a good thing really, juga untuk mendokumentasikan apa yang sudah dipelajari.

(Aging Society Miro Board by Yora, Ajani, and Vili, 2022)

Dua. Jadwal kuliah.

Jangan kaget ya kalau aku di sini agak suka jalan-jalan padahal bukan hari libur. Ini karena jadwal kuliahnya beda-beda, gak semua kuliah seminggu sekali! Ada kuliah yang 2 minggu sekali, ada yang hanya dalam periode tertentu aja jadi blocked course gitu selama 2 minggu tapi setiap hari. Ada yang campuran, ada juga sih yang seminggu sekali, atau seminggu 2 kali.

A beautiful chaos. Pas banget semuanya gitu apa yang aku ambil. Jadi gak semuanya dikerjar dalam satu waktu secara bersamaan. Ada jeda, ada waktu untuk nafas. I feel more balanced sih walaupun it seems agak keos harus ngatur jadwalnya biar gak nabrak, atau harus milih ikut kelas yang mana kalaupun nabrak.

Absen pun juga beda-beda sih ada yang mandatory, ada yang engga juga. Tidak merasa terikat, tapi tetap harus bertanggung jawab. Mungkin hal ini juga salah satu yang menyebabkan sistem work hard, play hard…

Tiga. Sistem Pembelajaran

Ok jadi ya, di sini sangat berat ke baca paper! Baca literatur adalah makanan sehari-hari. 1 lecture itu referencesnya bisa dari 3-4 papers/ other sources. Sebelum lecture, mahasiswa diharapkan udah baca dulu papernya, kalau engga juga gapapa sih, tp harus nyicil sih tetep untuk ujian… hehe. Nah tp bukan sekedar baca paper, tapi harus ada pemikiran lanjut lagi apa yang dibaca di paper itu dalam keadaan sekarang gimana? Ya jatohnya kayak semua mata kuliah adalah tugas akhir sihh hehe. Seneng sih seneng, karena jadi banyak tau, gak hanya dari apa yang dosen bilangg.. self study 📚

(Highlighted Notes in “The Everyday Life Reader” by Ben Highmore, 2022)

Terus untuk misalnya ujian, mau offline atau online, mau kayak gimana kuliahnya… Sejauh ini sih dosen-dosen di sini selalu nanya mahasiswanya dulu pendapat-pendapat mahasiswanya. And they really appreciate the student’s opinion :) Made the courses enjoyable too…

Empat, ini lebih ke sistem pendidikan di sini.

Ok so first exams. Ujian di sini, mungkin udh terkenal susah banget sampe dosen menyediakan 3 slots ujian yang bisa di retake terus.. omg, satu sisi enak ya jadi gak numpuk dalam satu waktu ujiannya bisa milih tanggal yang pas deh. Sisi lain, serem juga ya bisa-bisa gak lulus….. hehehehehe omg ok semoga lulus ya saya amin..

And plus fastrack. Kalau di ITB, 5 tahun + fastrack adalah suatu pilihan. Di beberapa negara kayak yunani dan katanya di belgia ada yang beberapa begitu, 5 tahun + master adalah suatu kewajiban!

Bonus, perspektif baru.

Once ada beberapa orang yang bilang ngapain exchange buang buang waktu aja. Not for me, aku malah melihat sisi dunia yang lain sih. As cliche as it sounds, tapi bener, i see a whole new perspectives. Mulai dari gaya hidup orang sini, lingkungannya, sistem transportasi, ruang publik, cuacanya, how people experienced their everyday life here. Beda sih, ke negara asing sebagai pelajar yang tinggal di sini dan sebagai turis :)

Yaudah gitu aja…Terima kasih semua orang yang mendukung aku tuk berani ke sini❤️.

Baca di sini alasan lengkap kenapa aku mau banget student exchange☺️.

Feel free to ask me questions!

(Karlsplatz, 2021)

Ps. I also started my observation diary di yorajalanjalan, semoga sustain ya! Hihi.

09.01.21

Yorangga Citra Arundati

[elizabethyora]

Kenapa harus student exchange, padahal kan bisa lulus tepat waktu?

Halo! Aku Yora mahasiswi Institut Teknologi Bandung, Indonesia yang sekarang sedang melakukan pertukaran pelajar di Technische Universiteit Wien, Austria. Jujur, aku baru tau konsep pertukaran pelajar itu pas sma hehe waktu itu masih cuma coba-coba aja.. tapi ya begitu hasilnya tidak terpilih.. Jadi bersikeras untuk bisa pertukaran pelajar ke luar negeri pada saat kuliah.  Perjalanan aku untuk sampe bisa ikut pertukaran pelajar ini bener-bener panjang. Di tulisan aku mau cerita kenapa aku memperjuangkan bisa ikut pertukaran pelajar ke luar negeri, walaupun aku udah mahasiswa tingkat terakhir yang (sebenernya) bisa wisuda setelah menyelesaikan tugas akhir. Hihi!

Alasan pertama sejujurnya adalah ambisi diri sendiri sih untuk bersekolah di luar negeri.

Kenapa sih harus di luar negeri? Emang di negara sendiri gak bisa?

Aku tidak bisa menjawab pertanyaan ini dalam segi akademisi, tapi dalam segi pengalaman tentu akan sangat berbeda. Aku tinggal di Jakarta, kuliah di UI atau di ITB aja akan sangat berbeda pengalamannya. Bagaimana kalau di luar negeri?

Kenapa gak sekalian S1 di luar negeri aja?

Jujur, dulu aku belum terlalu terekspos dengan pendidikan di luar negeri, jadi aku tidak bisa mempersiapkan sebagaimana mestinya. Selain itu karena dulu SMA di sekolah negeri, seperti sudah terdoktrin kalau harus kuliah dalam negeri dan di PTN. Setelah mencari tau sekarang, requirements kuliah di PTN dan luar negeri jauh beda banget, jadi ya mungkin belum saatnya . Jadi menurutku exchange ini kesempatan emas banget sih.

Tapi menurutku punya pengalaman kuliah di tanah air terlebih dahulu juga memiliki keuntungan yaitu aku jadi bisa “membandingkan” di sini dan di sana. Tentu saja hasil perbandingan tersebut bisa diolah lagi menjadi suatu pembelajaran, mencontoh yang baik dan mengabaikan yang tidak baik. Melihat dunia dalam perspektif baru. Small conversation di sini apalagi kalau anak exchange itu paling banyak tentang negara sendiri gimana jadi, be prepared!

Selain dalam segi akademis ya, belajar mandiri juga dan life skills. Homesick? Banget apalagi sama makanan indonesia hahaha. Suka ngidam masakan indo siah di sini. Jangan berpikir di sini bisa enak-enak terus hahaha. Banyak banget hal yang harus diurus yang tidak terlihat di kasat mata, contohnya adalah paperworks! Administrasi di sini harus tertib, kalau gak, tidak bisa mendaftar keuntungan-keuntungan yang ada di sini. Di sini juga belajar masak ya, karena gak bisa gojek-gojek seenaknya hahaha karena mahal. Tanggung jawab juga akan kesehatan diri sendiri, dan banyak hal lainnya. Belajar tangguh tapi masih dalam progress hehe:)

Alasan kedua adalah aku ingin mencoba mengambil mata kuliah master’s degree.

Yes this is one of the advantages exchange di tingkat akhir, the so called bisa mencicipi kuliah S2 :) Tapi there's a lot of catch, beneran harus berjuang banget. Untung- untungan juga sih sebenernya karena di sini juga ada hunger gamesnya hahaha! The topics are more broad but really specific at the same time.

Dan sebenernya butuh perjuangan lebih karena dalam satu kelas itu bener-bener boleh campur antara baru masuk S2-nya atau udah senior, jadi bakal ada "gap knowledge". Harus lebih rajin untuk membaca jurnal dan mendengarkan lectures! At first tadinya juga ingin mencoba mengambil mata kuliah lain yang tidak berhubungan dengan arsitektur, eh tapi belum dapat kesempatannya hehe. Tapi bisa banget untuk ambil yang bukan jurusannya! That's really great to broaden up your knowledge.

Alasan ketiga adalah memperpanjang masa menjadi mahasiswa!

Status mahasiswa, diskon mahasiswa!!! Don't take it for granted because when it is gone, man, you are going to miss it (at least for me). FYI juga! Di EU, maksimal umur yang diakui sebagai mahasiswa adalah 25 tahun :)! Seneng banget di sini masih bisa memakai status itu untuk berhemat hehe. Mulai dari tiket-tiket museum, tiket transportasi, administrasi bank XD! Di Indonesia juga banyak banget!!! Webinar- webinar sih terutama, untuk menambah referensi baru!

Selain itu, aku juga masih belum tau sehabis lulus mau kerja apa, jadi apa, kerja dulu atau S2, buka usaha? So many alternatives yang belum aku bisa putuskan... Jadi aku juga memperpanjang masa galauku hehe. Sambil mencari inspirasi di sini kayak apa sih keadaan orang-orang yang seumuran dengan aku :O

Sebagai bonus, alasan terakhir adalah aku suka jalan-jalan.

As i mentioned it everywhere, aku percaya satu keuntungan menjadi mahasiswa arsitektur adalah bisa belajar sambil jalan-jalan. And for me, i really enjoy it :) dan Tuhan baik banget memberi yang terbaik bisa ke negara Schengen Country jadi bisa (amen and hopefully) keliling negara-negara EU! Doain ya semoga bisa membungkus dengan tepat dan cepat sehingga keuntungan ini tidak di keep diri sendiri tapi bisa dibagikan ke teman-teman juga. Mari follow @yorajalanjalan di Instagram dan tentunya blog ini.

Akhir kata...

Think of this as an investment! Tidak ada waktu yang terbuang untuk pengalaman dan ilmu:)

Puji Tuhan keluarga aku masih bisa mensupport aku dalam segala hal. Tapi perjuangan aku juga gak gampang!!!

Terima kasih kepada semuanya sih keluarga, dosen, teman-teman yang udah mau diajak diskusi sebelum memutuskan untuk coba daftar dan (video) kak Maudy Ayunda udah meneguhkan aku untuk memilih make the best out of our privileges.

Another milestone is achieved, many more dreams and goals to be reached!!!

01.11.2021

Yorangga Citra Arundati

Open to discussions and questions! Feel free to contact me :)

[elizabethyora]

MY FIRST SKETCHWALK

While i’m on tumblr! Here is some photos from my very first sketchwalk! HAHA

Guys i can’t draw and i sketched this just for formality!

I actually learned so much just from hearing the sharing session at the end of the sketchwalk... it is interesting to hear another perspective and point of view from other people...

I thought first it was such a random place to have a sketchwalk... but! Yeah there were many small things that i don’t really pay attention to it but they captured it in the sketches!

Oh yeah, the sketchwalk took place in front of Wisma Dharmala by an Architect named Paul Rudolph. With the concept “ Health Of Future”, this building are meant to keep the user safe and healthy mentally and physically by providing terraces in every floor. 

It was just a mood booster from a stressful week! I had a lot of fuN! Hope the situation is getting better and finally we will be able to jalanjalan like normal ya!!!

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28.03.21

[elizabethyora]

STRIVING TO STUDY ABROAD

Hi hello! I feel the urge to write my thoughts out loud so here it is!

It’s been a while actually ya since i posted on tumblr! Usually i rant on my instagram (second account), but since like i can’t handle the updates on the feed and it made me feel so overwhelmed so i decided to deactivate it for a while.

It has been my dream to do an exchange program... seriously like for ages i’ve been wanting and waiting for the opportunity to come. And at last, this is my last last shot as an undergraduate student to study (academic or cultural) abroad!!!

I have this huge dream to study to TUD. I just felt like it is the right country to study because there won’t be much language barrier problems and Schengen visa ( so i can visit another country while studying LOL) and finally opportunity came!!! The international relation office announced that there is a student exchange program to TUD...

Of course i got sooo excited and thrilled.. but there are so many documents i had to prepare... the most challenging one is of course the motivation video andd also IELTS test. I studied ielts in just like 5 weeks! It was soo hectic but thank God i could manage it well! And for the motivation video it took me like 3 weeks to write, shot the video and edit it. Long story short, i finally got nominated to Delft! I was so happy back then and I immediately tell my friend who studied there about her opinions and how to survive at Delft.

But yeah, you don’t always get what you want... suddenly the office said that I couldn’t be nominated there because they said that Arch ITB don’t have any bilateral agreement with TUD ... i was really devastated!! And a little bit angry... such a dream crusher! But well ok maybe it is not His plan so... i am ( a lil bit) okay with it...

However this day, the day that the registration will be closed,,,,, i just found out that there is a scholarship scheme and my lecturer said that there is an agreement and i actually could be nominated there....

BUT YEAH it was just too late.... i really am very sad.. like i don’t sit there to wait this opportunity to come... i really work hard for this,,,, but the timing was just not right... such another missed opportunity...

This semester and last semester was really hard for me. Like i feel so many obstacles that i have to endure and go through... i learn to let go of the missed opportunity and just move on but day by day still wondering why it doesn’t go as the way i plan..

Anyway... i really am praying for the best,,, i really want to study abroad. Really really want more than anything... i don’t want to have another regret 🥺

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02.04.21