#did I mention I'm a weeaboo?

[moki-dokie]

since my post about sexuality in bes took off, i've been thinking about making one about gender because people have been even more Chronically Western about that than anything. but the topic of gender has also been talked to death about this show.

still. i've yet to see a single person touch on the actual historical aspect of gender in this period of japan. (weeaboos where ARE yall??? i cannot be the only one left here jfc)

so, more below the cut.

okay. so. before westernization and christianity came in and obliterated and sanitized the culture, there were 3 recognized genders that i know of. there was possibly a fourth but my research only got me so far on that and i gave it up a long time ago. i'm gonna be talking about the 3 i do know about.

male and female were the obvious ones. aligns exactly how you think. cock and balls = male/man, vag and tits = female/woman. yes, there were many crossdressers of both genders. yes, there were people who by today's language and understanding would be considered trans. they, however, did not have these words nor have a need for them. you were either man or woman. or...

then there was a third, which was USUALLY but not always applied to adolescent males called wakashu. the closest thing you might refer it to is androgynous. earlier in edo period it was pretty much a catch-all for any adolescent male, but much later it became far more specific to the exceptional beauty of the young male. a wakashu was a sex icon, something to be desired and lusted after, so beautiful and alluring that even the most stoic and hardened samurai warrior could break and beg for their attention. and yes, we're talking about minors. wakashu were typically in the 6-17 age range. many delayed their coming-of-age ceremony (which would then make a wakashu a man) well into their 20s. and there are records of some who continued to identify as wakashu even into adulthood. a person could decide when it was time to move from wakashu to man, it wasn't so set in stone.

this time in japan did have a lot of strictness but there was also a whole hell of a lot of fluidity that was just so extremely normal for them. choosing to remain wakashu wasn't a big deal. want to go on to be a man? cool, congrats on all your man-related responsibilities now hurry up and find a wife. want to remain wakashu? cool, congrats on all the awesome sex you're gonna be having and the many things you'll be learning. either way was a good path. you were likely to have a bit more opportunities gaining power and land going forward as a man, but as wakashu you'd be expected to be an apprentice and learn more things from your teacher (while also sexually servicing him, extra bonus - most of the time.), so both had benefits. a samurai class wakashu, for example, would very likely go on to be a man since by nature of being samurai they have tons more opportunity. but a peasant wakashu would probably be more likely to remain wakashu and learn as much as possible and earn as much money as possible (since they were often prostitutes or performers as well).

so desirable were wakashu that sometimes female prostitutes tried to disguise themselves as one to attract more clients. they were often indistinguishable from women with their colorful and intricate kimono - sometimes the hairstyle was the only giveaway. and though the japanese didn't give a shit about the gender they were fucking, as i've covered before, true wakashu enjoyed a bit more freedoms with sex than did women pretending to be wakashu. like i mentioned in my previous post how they did have specific terms for who was giving and who was receiving in sex, certain aspects played into this. wakashu were expected to receive when with men, and expected to give with women. this would of course depend a little upon caste heirarchy too but that was the general gist of it. women on the other hand were expected to always receive. (and although straps were very much a thing, you'll find the double ended dildo far more popular amongst w/w relationships - at least in depictions. in reality it was probably an equal mix.)

the concept of wakashu has not entirely left japanese culture and has actually since been divvied up into the two aspects it represented: youth (shonen) and beauty (bishonen). hence why shonen manga and anime is so popular, why there are always always always bishonen prominent in manga and anime, why yaoi often has the strict dichotomy of uke and seme. and why shotac-n remains so wildly popular while the loli opposite has gradually declined with the introduction of censorship laws. the entire concept surrounding adolescent males is still very rooted in the role that the wakashu gender played until quite recent in history. (it formally ended in the meiji era, which was not that long ago.)

now with all of that said, where does mizu fall? she's still a woman. plain and simple. had she been born in late edo, she would have absolutely been considered an extraordinarily beautiful wakashu and lusted after constantly. people would be tripping over themselves to bed her. but being early edo that was not the case and she is still a woman having to disguise as a man in order to survive so she can fulfill her goal. that must be acknowledged. that is a key point that is brought up many times within the show. to ignore that fact is to erase who mizu is. she is masking as a man because she has been told since childhood being a woman would get her killed. because she has seen it far too many times how simply existing as a woman leads to a dead end. because she tried it and it turned out exactly as she was told. being a woman is not an option in her quest for revenge. if she weren't mixed race, though? i'd bet my left hand she would have embraced the hell out of wakashu and used it to her advantage. screw sex as an art, mizu would have made it a weapon. mizu wielding both a sword and the sexuality of wakashu would make her the deadliest thing in all of japan. however, that wasn't the case and we musn't ignore what is ths case. in her world, she is a woman forced to disguise as a man. period.

mizu by today's standard's is a whole different story, though. there is enough ambiguity that she can fit nearly any label you want to slap on her and that's fine. we have a lot more leniency with modern western terms. we have a huge spectrum of gender and you can toss her just about anywhere on it. you are all correct and incorrect simultaneously because any modern terminology applied to her is automatically headcanon. and just as i emphasized on my last post, headcanons, fics, AUs, ect, are exactly where these modern western ideals belong. it's awesome that she resonates with so many different gender identities - few characters in media can pull that off so well! yall should absolutely celebrate that! use her to express your gender euphoria! but do so while remembering who she is in canon. her canon experience is not pure fiction. there are still people in today's world that must disguise themselves out of necessity and quite often that ends up being women of color. there are people in living history who had to do that to survive.

you can respect the source material and also have your own unique headcanons and perspectives. both can be true.

[renardtrickster]

Is it just me or does it feel like more and more people are becoming principally opposed to the idea of "it sounds/looks silly but it's actually pretty deep/mature once you engage with it"?

Like the dreaded Children's Cartoon Discourse always had a subtle edge of "it's meant for kids so it can't be that mature" with the unintended prescriptive argument that kid's shows shouldn't try to be that and should just be slop. I saw I comic about Palworld (I HAVE NO KNOWLEDGE OF OR OPINIONS ON THIS GAME) the other day and regardless of any of the game's qualities (note my aforementioned lack of opinions or knowledge) the main argument they seemed to be making was "people keep telling me it's surprisingly smart for what it is but Pokemon With Guns sounds like a middle school joke, why are they lying to me". Not to mention the tons of vaguepost comics on this site where someone doesn't like some show so they make fun of it by making caricatures of the fans say stupid stuff like "no but this scene really speaks to Mr. Piss' trauma they alluded to in season 2, and the fact that Mr. Shit picks up on that speaks to his complex characterization".

I will admit my biases in that I have an innate respect for works that have serious, dramatic elements but either mix them in with the goofier stuff or don't "present" as serious (e.g. why did this shitpost/tiddy game make me cry, Weeaboo Katana Gamer Man who screams swear words is the most thematically and psychologically interesting man in the series, the sheer fact that most anime and JRPGs do look and sound pretty stupid but by jove there's Good Writing in there). But even with my brainrot pushed to the side, I'm not the only one picking up on this, right? Are we actually doing this. Can we save art by implying that if anything is goofy, crass, or twee it's actually devoid of artistic merit and unworthy of further introspection. Will I have a better chance of finding "serious art" by looking for media that tells me it's very serious and artistic and will only appeal to serious and artistic people. Surely "seeking True Art and defending the sanctity thereof by turning my nose up at the lumpenprole and their Vulgar Art" has historically been a successful and fruitful endeavor.

[unforth]

At my brother's wedding last night and my cousin's son (first cousin once removed I think???) is there. And like, my dad's from California and only he moved east to New York so I virtually never see my uncles or cousins, and the last time I saw this kid he was, idk, 4? And now he's 18 or 19.

Anyway, he pulls me aside and goes, "your brother told me you speak Japanese...and translated some manga?" So I explain the reality of my rather mediocre language skills that my brother has apparently massively over represented, and I mention that I did translate 9 vols of One Piece back in the day, and he pulls out his phone and he's like "you're gonna think I'm crazy, but..." and shows me his Shonen Jump app where he's caught up on One Piece.

And I'm like. My dude. I don't think you're crazy, I'm jealous, I fucking WISH I was caught up on One Piece.

Him: oh thank God I'm not the only weeb in the family.

And look. I'm not a weeb, not really, not anymore, not since like 2007. Which coincidentally is the last time I saw him, a couple months before I went to Japan. But for my 19 year old cousin looking for some goddamn validation??

Me: I've been a weeaboo since before you were *born*.

Anyway. It was nice. And his reaction to the BL aspect of my fandom life was great (very no judgement but full nope-topus).

My brother had a nice wedding, too. Him and my new sis in law!

(While I was typing this someone drove by playing Africa so loud I could hear every word. We're on the NINTH FLOOR. It is 7 in the morning. Oh, New York, never change. This is up there with the guy on the subway last night who was chugging corn straight from the can.)

[the-wolfbats]

random thoughts after reading 4 more Redwall books

the bellmaker

Honestly it's pretty badly paced like the main heroes (Mariel, Dandin, that gang) are stuck in a castle for like 1/3rd of their story)

but it may also be the shortest one but my ebook is also fucked.

the most interest part of the entire story are the 4 pages we get of the little stranded animal children and the adult hedgehog whose back broke from a mast falling on her, it's not really said what happened to her brain but she "was confused", and she dies and they leave her body in a tent as a tomb on a deserted island.

also I guess two characters who disappear but are so mentally distressed from their ordeal they become near savage.

also bc the world is so segregated, some species are always Good and some are 99.999% bad, and the 00.00001% we see be good - it would have been nice for them to actually stick around Redwall for a few seasons.

Redwall (the OG one)

if I were to outline every bit of early installment weirdness we'd be here all day so I'll just leave it at

this canonically takes place the book after the bellmaker (ironic I tried not to read them in order)

"I'm like a bad penny; I always keep coming back" THERE'S CURRENCY???

so going from names like Dandin, Bowly, and Finnbarr to names like Colin, Hugo, and Ambrose, like...I know it was written first but it's hilarious to imagine these animals went through some hhuman weeaboo phase 800 years later for about 10 years

also that apparently Portugal did not exist, showed up, and then went away again

bit about rats: First they're like "Hey don't discriminate against rats", meaning the dichotomy of good species vs bad species wasn't set in stone like it almost is for the rest of the series (see above)

there's also a mention of "Wandering Foxes" so foxes also weren't pigeonholed into "bad"

you can see this in the naming convention - Sela and Chickenhound (We'll get to the livestock thing in a bit) where most of the other vermin names are like Scumtail and Dipshit and what not.

then the rats ate an entire litter of piglets so were the piglets sentient? there's also a mention of livestock so I guess they were that but this is very Some Animals are more sentient than Others.

There's also a mention of badgers working in the mines and I do somewhat appreciate how there were more oppertunities for badgers in the old days besides "Lord of Salamandastron", "lone warrior", "mother", until you get about to Eulalia.

there's like different types of mice and rats when later in the series, it's just 'rats' and 'mice' with the occasional dormouse.

good lord this isn't even halfway through the book yet i'll make another post

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

TW: CSA; asian fetishization, particularly sexualization of asian women; incest, incestuous sexual abuse; abusive relationships; grooming; 'weeaboo' behavior; self harm

looking for advice? support? idk i'm just so upset

i have DID and ptsd and i think a lot of it is connected to my white dad who was very fetishistic about asian women (my mom is asian) and would sexualize me as a child and also touch me inappropriately. i remember when i was a child (10 years) him talking about how apparently all men know that the specific mix of ethnicities i am is the most attractive. he also sexually mistreated me and i know wanted a female child (i was afab) so i can't help but think i was brought into the world becasue of the sex fantasy of my father who was trying to make the optimal sex race in his eyes. i'm trying to understand the concept of consent and other things now (i did not know i had a right to reject sexual advances or much of any other rights at all) and i'm having trouble adjusting to the world, although it is much better than the world at home.

one thing that keeps bothering me is 'weeaboos,' white people who are seemingly quite proud to proclaim their love of 'japanese culture' as a thin veil for fetishization. it's so common and widespread and in my living situation in college i encounter so many images of sexualized, often childlike or explicitly child characters, anime drawings. it really upsets me and my brain fog is so bad it's hard to explain why these things are wrong and perpetuate the same type of sexual violence that ruined my life. things were so much worse before, why does this bother me so much? i just feel unsafe i guess and things upset me more now that i know i'm supposed to have rights. the worst thing is sometimes it's inarticulatable. for example what caused me to have bad dissociation and flashbacks today were posters for some sort of 'cat maid' performance, with a 'anime' girl in a maid outfit. i don't know how to explain how i KNOW that this comes from fetishization of asian women! i just KNOW! and it upsets me because i can't explain. i hate that white people expect me to be polite and bring it up to them instead of tearing it down myself, they want me to politely debate them when im the one who hurts so bad trying to talk about it, it affects me not them. (this happened before)

i just feel so unsafe and when i have gone to multiple of my friends for support, they stop responding to me after i talk about being sexually abused as a child. it's like i disgust them. i hate myself so much and no one will help me. i feel so alone. and i hate therapists more than anyone, i have gone to over 7 therapists and i hated all of them.. they don't understand my experiences or respect me. it's so hard to reach out to friends and talk about what i've gone through and i don't know what to do that they ignore me. and the friends who do respond to me only respond to my messages after i mention something else- usually a favor i can do for them. it's so hard to trust anyone and i've had my trust betrayed several times. the only thing i can think of to do is self harm. i've been through too much in my life and i can't handle it anymore. i have so little support in my life to the point where i desparately miss the 30+ year old white man who groomed me when i was 16 and want to talk to him. i feel like there is no one i can trust but i crave going back to people who hurt me

Hi anon,

I'm so sorry to hear about what happened to you, as well as what you've been going through more recently.

It makes sense why those portrayals are bothersome and perhaps even triggering for you. It reminds you of the way you believe your dad wanted you to be. I can see how being calm and collected feels impossible when it's so brazenly reminiscent of your trauma.

It sounds like many people in your life you tried talking to about your trauma, friends and therapists, weren't equipped with the proper emotional response and multicultural approach that you were looking for. They simply weren't understanding enough and you felt invisible. You don't deserve to feel that way.

I hope that you find people to surround yourself with that do make you feel seen and heard as a survivor, and can respect your thoughts on asian fetishization.

I hope I could help. Please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

[irrigos]

bit late but 6, 7, 35 for that ask game

6. What is your darkest fear about writing?

I guess the obvious one is that my writing isn't very good. Or, more specifically, that I'm not actually good at conveying the things I want to convey. Are these characters actually sounding distinct from each other, or do they all sound exactly the same? I can say that I Eliot is charming and fake, that Morgan is smart but impulsive, that Jacob is patient and well-reasoned, but like... does any of that actually come across in my writing?

I've mentioned it before on here I think (and definitely i bring it up too much on my main lol) but I used to be on an actual play podcast, and the way people reacted to me/my characters honestly really shook my confidence in my own storytelling abilities. My character was a bard (so, high charisma) and i tried to play her as smart and charming even though she was also kind of a trashy mess, and everyone from my GM to our audience insisted she was dumb and everyone hated her?? The way people treated me made me really afraid to actually post any creative work ever again, because people would hold me to impossible standards, make me justify the decisions of my costars, and other than that, entirely ignored me. After the show ended (and we deleted all the episodes lol syonara you weeaboo shits, etc) i really felt like i was never going to be creative in public again, because I just didn't have the emotional fortitude to withstand it. If people were only going to pay attention when they wanted me to explain why a man I worked with did something problematic (I don't know! Ask him!), and otherwise, pretend I'm not there at all, like... why bother, you know?

So I guess my other fear is having to go through that again. It took me 4 years after the end of that show to start posting Book of Red Murder because i was genuinely just too afraid. (Thankfully everyone has been very nice, so thank u all)

7. What is your deepest joy about writing?

sometimes u make an oc kiss and thats pretty good. and sometimes you share ur writing and people start calling you names because you made your fake little guys sad and u get to laugh at them

35. What’s your favorite writing rule to smash into smithereens?

i can't really think of any!! i love properly implementing writing rules and when i fuck it up, i get sad. of course, it depends on what you define as "writing rules", because i love using sentences fragments but i also hate when a gun appears in act one but doesnt go off by act 3, yknow?

[robuttsinyourthighs]

I looked myself up on Tumblr out of morbid curiosity from that last anon and there are LITERALLY only a couple posts I found mentioning me being cringe and that I'm apparently a "Starscream Stan iceberg". Something about me writing tickle fetish stuff? (I remember being spammed by someone asking and I'm not into that stuff so I made a cute take and then quit answering their asks)

It's a lot of people who just generally seem to take fandom WAAAY too seriously. I gotta say I'm kind of proud of them for not tagging me or directly coming after me because the rules of fanfic and fandom engagement is usually "don't like don't read" and "don't like don't interact". So kudos to you.

I also saw a screenshot of me saying somewhere "former weeaboo (which is actually a racist term)" and them cringing and doing the equivalent of "go touch some grass". I thought it would be interesting to delve into that for a second.

Just for anyone curious - some time in the past decade or two I believed Weeaboo was derived from j**aboo - a racist derogatory word for black people. My belief was that it was similar to the term "w**ger" which is obviously the N word replaced with W to be a derogatory term meaning "white person acting black". While wigger IS NOT racist against white people, it is derived from an offensive word and is STILL an insult meant for black people and meant to shame white people for "acting black". My logic went with the same thing for weeaboo so... Yeah. I didn't mean that it's "racist to white people". It's just likely derived from words that are already derogatory for minorities and I didn't want to subscribe to it.

Through middle school and high school I posted a lot about that sort of jazz and through my twenties fell into transformers and was trying to break away from it and learn, trying to break away from the microaggression shit I picked up from my family and public school. I misstepped a lot, and did and said some stupid shit for sure. If you guys want to cringe at seeing someone trying to better themselves then I guess that's your prerogative and, in my opinion, a waste of time.

TLDR:

Since I apparently have people that let me live in their head rent free - I hope you find better things to do with your time and enjoy OTHER stuff online. If you block me you'll be able to enjoy your time much more. 💖💖💖💖

[nitewrighter]

I know I'm probably late to the conversation on orientalism in overwatch, but another thing that I've noticed is that 1) most of their asian characters are women, 2), there's 6 asian characters altogether, and only one of them is from southeast asia. That's blatantly racist, SE Asia is consistently overlooked and overshadowed in favor of their "cooler" EA counterparts.

I'm Asian and I know that a lot of East Asians are lighter skinned, but another thing that bothers me is that when I saw Dva and Mei I honestly thought they were white, not to mention they were designed to be as attractive as possible. It honestly feels like to me they only made them as part of a f*tish they can cash in for diversity points.

Also, does anyone even remember Mama Hong, a character they first thought of before it became overwatch and literally looks like a racist caricature? I think that says a lot about how the team sees Asian people. Idk, I just wish that a game that was founded on the idea of being as diverse as possible with a story about resisting oppression would y'know, be a lot more thoughtful about it's diversity? I honestly thought Kiriko was a joke at first, because surely they wouldn't put a character that sounds like it was conceived by weeaboos in their game, right?? But no, that was exactly what they did, and I hate it.

It's not too late at all! And honestly it's important to me to hear from my asian followers on the matter and like, I do want to be critical but I also don't want to overstep.

Yeah no as far as SE Asian representation goes, I do think it's pretty messed up that technically the only SE asian character we have is a robot who's just kind of... a quasi-copy of her dead SE Asian creator--and on top of that, the robot is like... dazzlingly white and there were a lot of fans complaining that the pronunciation on her Singlish accent/lines.

I remember Mama Hong, but I never really saw outrage about her--mostly I just remember people bemoaning the fact that she wasn't in the game because she didn't fit the cookie-cutter attractiveness of other female OW characters and comparing her to the Landlady from Kung Fu Hustle. But yeah, looking back and comparing her to the other characters that didn't make it into the game, that character design should have been way more of a red flag to me than it was at the time.

I mean I've mentioned in other posts that even the central conflict at Overwatch's heart (the Omnics as marginalized citizens following the Omnic Crisis metaphor) is pretty messy because it's basically like, "We need to stop being racist towards orcs" when half of the cast's backstory is, "My village was destroyed by orcs."

[lostimpactprod]

Asuka needed a friend, so I got a Rei plushie from the same SEGA UFO Catcher range. Let the heated "best girl" arguments commence!

[tired-gay-wreck9]

beforus sexy sex sex

this is a serious essay i promise

aka i do a lot of meenah cronus and meulin slander also rufioh he sucks dickballs

You may think that Beforan society in Homestuck was free from the effects of the Hemospectrum, and everyone lives together in a post-casteism utopia. Actually, no you don't. No one thinks that. I just needed an opener.

Everyone knows that there are still some bloodracist Beforan trolls running around. For example, Cronus wouldn't need to specify that 'dating down on the spectrum' was a positive and good thing that separated him from the trolls who only dated in their caste if said trolls didn't exist. And even though Kankri's rants are annoyingly long and pointless, they do have some merit. His mention of the highbloods using their long lifespans to gain control over the lower castes sounds like an actually plausible and important thing.

Their whole culling this is also shitty.

But you didn't click on the 'read more' for me to regurgitate the same bullshit you've heard a million times before. You clicked on it for the Beforus sexy sex sex. Or, as I like to call it, fetishization and objectification of the lower castes. Now if that's something that makes you uncomfortable, here's your go-ahead to stop reading this and do something else.

One example I'd like to call is Damara Megido. Specifically her relationship with Rufioh Nitram. He was a member of the lost weeaboos, a group, which, in our world, is heavily associated with fetishizing East Asian culture. Then we have Damara, a troll who's heavily implied to be East Asian. They date, and he cheats on her with someone higher on the spectrum, which solidifies that he never really cared about her actual feelings. Now, what did he care about? You can figure that out for yourselves.

"But Max", you may say, "that has nothing to do with the hemospectrum! That was just because Damara was associated with an oppressed minority in the real world, not because she was associated with an oppressed minority in Homestuck!"

And while that may be true, as we see no one higher than Damara on the spectrum being treated like this, we do see someone lower on the spectrum being treated like this. And no, I'm not talking about Kankri. Why would it be Kankri.

Karkat is also treated very strangely by the adults in Openbound. I'm going to be talking about pedophilia and grooming so yeah, if that's something that makes you uncomfortable, here's your warning. Adios.

The first is Cronus. Karkat is the only member of the kid's session who Cronus mentions hitting on or attempting to hit on. And we know from Meenah's remark about Vriska being a more 'acceptable age' when she learned she was older that pedophilia is a very real and bad thing that is looked down upon on Beforus. And Karkat was the only troll who motivated Cronus to do that.

The next is Meulin, who agrees to write porn of Karkat and Meenah, without Karkat's knowledge or consent. It's Karkat, out of all the kidtrolls who she thinks of doing this to. She doesn't think about his feelings. She only thinks about how to get the highblood off. Then she says that she'll get Meenah and Karkat's consent before sharing it with others like it's some great, heroic deed.

Sidenote! A lot of the Beforan trolls try to make themselves seem more moral, forgiving, and kind around Meenah. It makes me wonder if Meulin said that she'd get Meenah and Karkat's consent before spreading the fic around out of general respect for every troll's boundaries, or just the highblood's.

Then we have the big fish. The dilemma. The Godfather. Meenah. Her creepiness is a whole basket case. No, fuck it. It's a shopping cart case. A truckcase. An airplane case. You get my point. But because of her creepiness towards both Vriska and Karkat, we can discern which parts are general creepiness and which parts are bloodracist creepiness.

Meenah's crush on Karkat coincided with the point in his life where all his friends didn't care about him nearly as much as they did pre-Murderstuck, to the point where in the post retcon timeline he tells Dave that he's his only friend (not Kanaya, Terezi, Vriska, Aradia or Sollux), or are dead. She wanted him where he was in a point in his life where he was completely alone and vulnerable. She then tried to befriend him, not because she felt bad for him and thought that he needed a friend, but for her own romantic benefit.

Meenah also did this with pre-retcon ghost Vriska, when she had tossed aside Terezi, the only person in her life who still gave a shit about her, and had driven away all her other friends with murder and violence.

But Meenah, despite how gross she was to Vriska, made an effort for romance. She braided her hair, listened to her problems, and their first kiss was full of smiles.

She did not do that to Karkat. She describes herself as having a 'manic obsession' with him, asks Meulin to write something of them 'doin it' and says that she doesn't want her to set her and Karkat up. She never wanted anything romantic with him. She just wanted him for her own concupiscent pleasure. WHILE HE WAS FOURTEEN. SHE WAS NINETEEN. FIVE-YEAR AGE GAP.

You may say, "What about Kankri? No one acts like this to him except Cronus, and not even in a weird blood way." To which I say, Kankri. Kankri, the guy who if you've read my last post you know that he acts mean and awful for protection. The guy who used to wear tight revealing clothes and now is rarely seen outside a baggy sweater. The guy who hates being touched.

To sum it up, the alpha trolls suck dickballs and hussie, for some reason, made a fourth of them pedophiles. In Beforus, those lowest on the hemospectrum are sexualized by the masses as well as infantilized by the culling system, all wrapped up in a nice package of dehumanization.

or in other words; all these kids need therapy

[qianoir]

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"I've only been in New York City for 15 hours, Xuejiao. And it's huge! I don't know these streets you're telling me!" You shout, ignoring the side-eyes from the passerby city slickers that give New York it’s bad stereotype.

"You're going down 96th Street right? I told you to keep going down. It's a long a.ss street. You'll find the campus eventually- look for the dome!"

The connection breaks as Xuejiao finishes the call, "I gotta go now, I’m trying to get in my astrology professor’s pants after class!" The line goes silent and you huff, opening up GPS to lead you down the forsaken 96th Street. Distracted with directions, some guy crashes into you with his bike.

"What the hell!? Watch where you're going!" You yell picking up your fallen bag- which scattered all of my weeaboo s.hit.

"Maybe if you didn't stand in the middle of the street, you wouldn't have wrecked my bike! You're lucky you didn't get killed by a real car!" You looked up at the ignorant voice and found a young, orange-haired Asian boy. Maybe Chinese, like me?

"I wrecked your bike!? You're really unbelievable.." You placed everything back into the bag and took out your wallet. "Look, I don't have time for this. I'm sorry for damaging your tricycle, or whatever- here." You threw a fully punched Xing Fu Tang loyalty card at the kid’s dumbfounded face and walked off.

It's 9:57 AM, your o-chem class starts at 10 and you still can't find the campus. Why did my parents even make me leave Hong Kong? Because of the government, the pollution? Both countries are f.ucked. I choke there and I choke here.

Finally, I'm here.

You ran to the STEM building and up the stairs to land in a spacious lab room. You hurried to an empty seat near the top row. 9:59 AM.. Thank goodness.

In the midst of the lesson, the door opened to reveal the same clumsy jerk you had encountered a few minutes ago. He rushed to an empty seat, you going unnoticed by him.

Your first 50 minutes of college went by pretty quick. Nothing more than a syllabus review and a small question/answer session.

"I know it is the first day, but you are all in big kid school now, so I am assigning a semester project you will work on for all of this first term with a partner." Each array of your peers groaned at this announcement.

"You will use your knowledge from high school chemistry or an equivalent to complete it." The professor continued, "I will choose your partners and you are both expected to be responsible with it all semester."

"Remember your partner's name so that when I'm done, you can come down to get each other's contact information."

"Man Wol and Ji An.. Ha Jin and Hae Soo.."

The professor continued to call out names as you were caught up in texting Xuejiao about the kid who crashed into you earlier this morning being in your class, only half listening until you heard your name being called.

“Y/N and Yangyang.." Did I miss a racist joke or something? What the hell is a Yang Yang?

You kept texting Xuejiao, deciding to deal with it after class.

"I know it's a lot to take in on the first day, but on the bright side, you don't have to do the project," Some idiots celebrated, "but know that I will judge you harshly on it and I will be teaching at an Ivy League while you get kicked out of an Ivy League, never achieving your dreams." He fakes a sad face and the same idiots fuss.

"Now come meet your partners and have a good rest of your first day!" Your first professor dismissed the first class.

You put your phone in your pocket and stumbled to the bottom of the classroom, calling out for "Yangyang," the name feeling awkward as it rolled off your tongue.

"That's me." You spun around and were met with the trike guy from earlier.

"IT'S YOU!" You exclaimed in unison with him, the space between you two silencing for a second, before you spoke again.

"Oh my God I can't believe I got such a d!ck as a partner." You rolled your eyes with crossed arms.

"Hey! It takes two to d!ck!" Yangyang argues back. You stared at the fellow Asian boy in disgust and dismay.

"What the f.uck!?"

Both of you suddenly broke down laughing, your huddled classmates peeking at you with judgemental stares.

Yangyang calmed down and talked more comfortably with you, "Thanks for the boba by the way. I drank it deliciously.. before I dropped it because I crashed again."

"That's what you get for being a pr!ck to me." You scoffed.

"Oh baby that wasn't being a pr!ck. That was simply getting you warmed up to want me." He tapped your chin to bop your head back while giving a creepy stare.

...

"You're a f.ucking crazy person."

"Like it or not, Mulan, you're stuck with me for an entire semester." He stuck his tongue out at you.

"Mulan?" You questioned.

"Yeah. You're a Chinese b!tch, right?" You glared at him, but had to nod ‘yes’ anyway.

"Cool. I'm Taiwanese.. I need to get to the other side of campus so give me your number so we can work out the details on the project. You wanna meet up at the library tonight?" You agreed and gave him your number.

"Great. See you tonight, Mulan." He winked and jumped out of the room.

Shaking your head at the ironic situation, you walked to the next class with a little over 10 minutes to spare, so you stopped for coffee at the Starbucks on campus.

The shop was pretty small and there weren't a lot of people inside. As you were about to enter, another Asian boy held the door open. "Thank you." You smiled, bowing your head in gratitude.

"Anything for a girl with such a charming smile. Can I buy you a coffee?" He asked.

"No, that's ok!" You replied, not wanting to inconvenience this guy- and besides, he might just be trying to get in my pants.

"Please I insist! Get anything you want!" You decided to take his offer because in the end, it’s free coffee. He was also pretty charming himself, and seemingly harmless.

"Could I get an iced Americano, please?" You ordered. "I'll have the same." The boy told the barista.

You both stood to the side of the bar, talking while the identical drinks were being made. "Thank you for paying, you really didn't have to." "No no it's really fine. I wanted to.. I'm Dejun Xiao by the way, I think I'm in your chemistry class. What's your name?"

"I'm Y/N." "Oh are you Chinese!?" You nodded. "I'm Chinese as well. Are you from China?" "I'm from Hong Kong." "That's so cool! I'm from Guangdong." "Oh nice, nice.." The drinks were handed to you and you walked out together, strolling into the center of the campus.

"What class do you have next?" Dejun asked, sipping at his coffee. You took out a crumpled paper to examine the schedule printed on it. "I have biochem next." "Oh we have the same class!" Dejun announced. "That's crazy! Are you premed?" You asked him. "No, I'm studying forensic science. I want to be a homicide detective.”

Wow this guy is impressive. "Wow, that's awesome.. I want to be a heart surgeon.”

“That’s so cool!” "Thank you." You laughed at his energy. The two of you walked in the direction of your next shared class, conversing and giggling with each other along the way.

You reached your next classroom and found empty seats next to one another. “You can call me Xiaojun, by the way. I think it’s cooler than Dejun.”

“If you have to say your name is cool, then it’s not cool.” Another Asian man walked up to your row.

"Hey man! You're in here, too?" Xiaojun asked. "Yeah! It was a lucky draw." Xiaojun then motioned over to you, "This is Y/N. She's my new.. friend?" He smiled at you, looking for confirmation. Returning his smile, "Yes I am. Nice to meet you." The other male shook your hand and introduced himself. "Nice to meet you, too. I'm Kun."

"She's from China, like us!" Kun was surprised. "Really? Why did you come to America?" "My parents made me." You shrugged. "Wow mine did, too." Kun chuckled and sat down in the row of you and Xiaojun.

I left China, but China came to me. Maybe this year is destined to be good..

To be continued…

𝘲𝘪𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘪𝘳

[cloysterbell]

hey, i'm thinking of getting into anime and i'm not sure wher to start. what are your top 5?

First things first you should know that anime is a dark and deep hole that you should avoid if at all possible. Don’t make the same mistake I did. Anyway.

Sports animes are good beginner ones because they’re not too plot heavy and are fun. Free! was the first anime I ever saw (sort of) so it’s not a bad place for you to start either. Haikyuu!! is also incredible but I’m very biased as it’s probably my favorite anime ever. Yuri on Ice!!! and Ouran High School Host Club also aren’t bad places to start. Sword Art Online is a very good beginner anime even though it goes from 100 to 0 very quickly. Also I’ve heard that Cowboy Bebop is the best anime of all time but I have yet to see it so if you start here, let me know how it is. I’ll get to it eventually.

If you decide to join the weeaboo club and want to get into more animes, Noragami was a lot of fun/emotional and Your Lie in April (Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso) is great if you want to cry a lot. Mob Psycho 100 was excellent if you’re into weird and a lot of bright colors/trippy animation. Erased (Boku dake ga Inai Mach) is a dark murder mystery slash sci-fi adventure drama that was fucked up but excellent. Kiznaiver is great if you want to feel a lot of things. Parasyte is a great and also pretty fucked up body horror anime if you’re into that. Death Parade is great if you want to think about mortality and the human condition a lot. Show by Rock!! is fun if you like bright colors, catchy music, and Sanrio with little to no actual plot. Oh and Attack on Titan (Shingeki no Kyojin) is about to make a huge resurgence with S2 happening vaguely soon.

But in terms of my personal favorite animes, I think I’m gonna have to go with…….

Haikyuu, to literally no one’s surprise

Free! holds an important place in my heart 

mmm Bungo Stray Dogs? 

Kiznaiver just because ep 9 is a masterpiece and because ep 2 is called “If You Can Swallow a Bizarre Situation Like This So Easily, Two Buckets of Barium Shouldn’t Be a Problem” which is incredible

mmmmmm and maybe Noragami? 

And also Pokemon Sun/Moon because it is too an anime

And an honorable mention to Fate/Stay Night because Saber is my actual waifu

And another honorable mention to Magi: The Labyrinth of Magic because while I just finished S1 today and have not yet started S2, that is also shaping up to be a v good anime

And a second bonus honorable mention to Haikyuu because please watch it

But these are just my opinions. I’ve only been in the anime hole for about a year so I haven’t even come close to watching everything and there are more good animes out there than I’ll ever have time to see. Also check this out for more sweet anime recs.

Oh and also follow my anime blog for more l33t anime shitposting.

[noona-la-la-la]

I think racial preference does exist and I don't think it's racist unless you avoid dating someone of another race for negative reasons or you ONLY wanna date someone from that specific race. I'm a girl and I have a racial preference to Asian men. I don't like to tell anyone that because I know I'll get judged and called a weeaboo or for being racist but I can't help what I'm attracted to?? this was WAY before I got into kpop or anime. it's before I knew anything about Asian culture at all.(->)

In fact I don’t really know what caused me to like them?? I grew this kind of preference back when I was like, wow, in second grade?? I’m 18 right now. I was attracted mostly to Asians because idk why honestly I really think things like their eye shape and facial structure is really masculine to me(coughyoongicough) I also like their hairstyles lmao. It’s honestly something I can’t control you know? that being said it doesn’t mean I’m only limited to Asian men.(->)

I think people from every race are attractive. I’ve had crushes on people from other races and I would date anyone if they treat me right. idk I just felt like I had to kind of defend it because yes there are some people that prefer to date someone of a specific race for superficial reasons but I know there are people out there like me who kind of can’t help who they find attractive? I’m not asking you to agree but just to kind of understand a little

Is this the same anon who sent in the original ask?  I can’t tell.  

I never said racial preferences don’t exist, they do and there are a myriad of reason why it happens, but all of those reasons need to be examined closely and critically by the person who holds those preferences.  Simply saying “I can’t control who I’m attracted to” is a bit of a cop out and a way to not have to do the examination.  

If you were saying something like “I think high cheekbones are kinda sexy” or “I think dark brown eyes are hot”, people probably wouldn’t think much of it and could easily pass that off as a personal preference.  Those two characteristics may show up more frequently in Asian people, but you can also find it in all races.  But to say that you are more attracted to Asian men (a category of about a BILLION plus people), when you are not yourself Asian, warrants a little extra exploration.  Attributing positive attributes to people of a particular race isn’t really much better than attributing negative attributes – both are limiting and don’t recognize the diversity of a massive group of people.  I’m not calling you a racist, I’m asking everyone who has these racial preferences to look deep in their hearts and minds and ask themselves why and then deal with it (whatever it is).

I did find one thing odd.  You mentioned one of the reasons for your preference for Asian men is you like their hair styles.  How is that a racial preference?  Asian men are not genetically predisposed to select certain hair styles. Hair style preferences tend to be culturally driven – and Asian isn’t a culture.  I don’t know you and your personal situation, but when I saw the comment about hairstyles, I started to wonder… is your attraction to Asian men really an attraction to  Asian celebrities?  Younger Asian men who live in fashion capitals like Tokyo and Seoul? The Asian guys who went to your school?  It is just so weirdly specific and seemingly not related to the concept of race.

Regardless, there is nothing wrong with finding Asian men attractive. There are attractive Asian men everywhere – just like there are attractive black, white, middle eastern, latino, etc… men everywhere.  It sounds like you agree that hotness abounds in all races – so really, there shouldn’t be any need to call out one specific race as preferable over the others.  In the end, we all end up attracted to individuals anyways.