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thedreadvampy · 1 year

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Kinda pissy bc in my return to work interview (my line manager is on leave so my senior manager did it) she said oooh you've had 7 absences this year that's kind of a lot

but I just looked back through my calendar and I would say actually it's 5 1/2. Cause one I had a PTSD episode at lunchtime and called my boss in tears from my kitchen floor and I was gonna take the remaining 2.5 hours of my day off and work them back later and she was like nah man shut up you're off sick you don't owe anyone that time back. so that was not even a whole day it was like. A longish meeting's worth of time.

but also one illness is recorded as two absences because. and this'll teach me. I had flu but we had a tight deadline so I was off for a day, then came on to work for a day to meet that deadline, then I was off the next day, still with flu. so that's two separate absences. because I came into work when I should have been resting.

so like. Fuck me for trying I guess.

(it's not super relevant cause there's no real unifying condition that needs action. MH episode, migraine, flu, food poisoning, migraine, COVID. and we know about the migraines and have stuff in place to minimise them. It just seems fucked up to me that it counts more against me that I came in in the middle of 2 days of sick leave than that I've been off for a solid week.)

#red said #didn't tell her about the PTSD thing btw that's between me and the Good Manager for just now #i was writing something up and it ended up really worming into my brain and then when i broke for lunch i had a 2 hour panic attack #and i messaged my boss like hey man. can't get off the kitchen floor. will miss the next meeting. and she was like ffs go home.#but other than the ptsd and the migraines these are all viral infections and i don't think 3 viral infections in 8 months is wildly unusual #especially if one of them is COVID #idk i understand that many people get migraines very rarely but 2 work-disrupting migraines in 8 months is actually great for me #when i was in the old flat with the mould and the lack of natural light i was missing about 4 hours a month minimum to migraines #often we're looking at like. biweekly.#migraines Are a disability is the thing and the whole reason i have Teams and email on my phone is bc of how often in part jobs #i have woken up unable to move or sit up because of migraines and needed to call in with minimal movement

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