#dissertationmode

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All I can say, is that I've been stressing myself out! Just when I think I got everything under "control" and am content and peaceful with things--BAM! Everything falls apart.

I know that I am too hard on myself and that with all my responsibilities, things are bound to get screwed up. But I can't help but being frustrated with myself. Feelings of incompetence are in full force and it sucks!

I need to RUN. I need YOGA. I need MEDITATION. These things always have helped. But I'm working over 12 hours a day and finding it hard to squeeze these things in! I need to do it though. NO excuses...except...haha. No really, no excuses. I need to get myself together!

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Checking in real quick while I have a break. I finally finished reading "The Power of Now" and loved it. I recommend it to everyone. I listened to it mostly in the car when driving to and from campus. 

I just started "The New Earth", by the same author, this morning. And I've been listening to Ram Dass lectures during my runs. Speaking of running, I was planning on going today but am sick with either allergies or a head cold. Feeling yucky. Was hoping I would be able to fight it off, but it's winning the battle today. 

Time for a short meditation then back to campus for a few more hours of work. I haven't meditated in a few days either. All this slacking probably hasn't helped my immune system! However, I am busy and working around undergrads on a daily basis, so that probably is also contributing!

Namaste.