#don't nuke me pls

[gutssnipe]

I’m writing this because I watched the Columbine iceberg video a few years ago, and I’ve just started rewatching it. There are, of course, different parts, but I’m going to be talking about the first likeee 20 to 30 minutes of the first video.

“Harris and Klebold weren’t bullied”

Obviously, I can’t say for certain whether they were or weren’t, but what I can say is this:

Enough people who went to Columbine came out and spoke about the harassment and bullying that Dylan, Eric, and many others received. Frank DeAngelis, the principal of Columbine, testified and said that the “jock culture” that was prone to bullying kids like Harris and Klebold was a myth — that there was no Trench Coat Mafia, and that staff didn’t detect any bullying or see what was to come. Other teachers and staff echoed the same words, and some outright refused to be interviewed at all.

That said, there’s a lot of testimony from students and staff at Columbine who said bullying actually was an issue.

Here are some examples:

“Eric and Dylan did get this every day, and we all knew it, and we all talked about it. We laughed about it because that’s all you can do.” – Brooks Brown Patty Stevens, a special education teacher at Columbine, said bullying was out of hand. She mentioned how she tried to bring it up in staff meetings because of how scared her students were, but to no avail: “They kind of blew me off,” she said. Within a month of school opening in fall 1996, Rocky Hoffschneider and another football player were teasing Stephen Greene’s son Jonathan, who was Jewish. Their favorite bit was singing about Hitler when he made a basket in gym class. The gym teacher, Craig Place — also Hoffschneider’s wrestling coach — did nothing. “They pinned him on the ground and did ‘body twisters,’” Greene said. “He got bruises all over. Then the threats began – about setting him on fire and burning him.” When Greene confronted the principal and Jonathan’s guidance counselor, their response was: “These things can happen.” Valeen Schnurr, who was critically wounded in the massacre, told her mother that bullying happened based on things like race and religion.

There’s probably more I’ve forgotten, but even just with this, people still refuse to accept that bullying was a major factor in their reasoning. Clearly not the only factor, but a big one.

It seems — keyword, seems — to me that Frank just wanted to preserve the school’s image. The idea that everyone was good, kind, and accepting, and that Eric and Dylan were part of that. That they had no real reason to do what they did. To demonize them. Which — yes — they absolutely were, but in a much more complex way than they made it out to be.

I think, with murder in general, people nowadays don’t view it solely as “inhumane,” but sometimes as an outlet for anger. That’s not to excuse or condone anything they did. What I mean by “demonizing” is this: claiming Harris and Klebold had no reason — that they just wanted to hurt people out of nowhere. I don’t think what they did was right or justifiable in any way. But I do think they felt stuck. And “NBK” was their easiest way out — not to graduate or move forward in life, but to die.

On the "Follower vs. Leader" Trope

Another thing — which was briefly mentioned — is the whole “leader and follower” narrative. While it’s possible, I don’t think one led the other. I believe they were both equally disturbed.

You can never know the full truth. I’m not claiming I know more than anyone else. What I’m saying is: people pick this whole thing apart and twist others’ words — or even their own. Uninformed people can choose to get informed, they just… don’t care enough to.

“Eric wanted to kill, Dylan wanted to die”

While I don’t totally dismiss this idea, I do notice how people tend to paint Eric as so much worse than Dylan. In reality, they were both just as bad.

“And when I see that they tried to get mental help for Eric, and how honest they were on the diversion papers (they were straightforward and admitted Eric’s responsibility) — and Sue’s way of phrasing things and straight-up lying to minimize Dylan’s actions (from way before the massacre) — I take things with a grain of salt.”

That’s a Reddit comment someone left under one of Randy Brown’s posts in r/Columbine. I didn’t retype it because I could just copy and paste it — but I agree with that take deeply.

Basement Tapes / Copycats (??)

"the basement tapes have never been released to the public in their entirety. the official reason for withholding the tapes is that they'll make people sympathize with the killers or inspire copycats"

Stupid thing to say, no matter how much you keep from the publics eye there will always be copycats and people who sympathize anyways. You release radioactive clothing, hitmen for hire, more videos and their journals but keep one thing because you're scared?

Definitely not all, but lots of shooters after the massacre, took a liking to columbine as a whole and had an abnormal amount of interest in it. You can never categorize somebody as a copycat unless they outright claim themself as one, but you can definitely speculate it if you look into it enough. What has been released in the time since it happened has already inspired many copycats. So the reasoning is just, well, stupid. It's insanely stupid.

quick note, because I re-read this several times before posting (out of fear of grammar or spelling errors, or overall stupidity). I mentioned that I am not trying to excuse, or condone any of the things that I mention but I want to make it VERY clear. I don't think that bullying is a "reason" to commit anything like this, I do not condone what they did, or what anyone similar has done. I just like to yap, and i've been researching these types of things for years! PLEASE DONT NUKE ME!!!!!

Anyway, Thank you for reading my yap sesh ✧ദ്ദി( ˶^ᗜ^˶ )

[pinacolada-posts]

F1 spn creature au

* Lance Stroll - # 18

ft. a tiny Esteban appearance!!

[nicbutnasty]

the backwards cap stays ON during sex :)

a bit of nortrell I finished up yesterday whilst watching the race catch-up

uncensored on AO3 here (archive locked 🔒)

brush pen and watercolour on hot pressed 100% cotton paper, approx A5 size

[swordsandarms]

Aerys allegedly killing Brandon "for threatening Rhaegar" vibes

[sir-toastington]

Made an outfit ref for Kallie (sorry I can't make up my mind on her small details ARGH!)

[buckysbaron]

Devil to Pay

Pairing: Bucky Barnes/Helmut Zemo

Summary: Helmut Zemo is on a mission for revenge, which primarily involves capturing Bucky Barnes, recently free of HYDRA’s clutches… to be the world's most dangerous trained sex slave.

Rating: Explicit

Tags: Power Dynamics, Rape/Non-con, Bucky is Not having a good time, but Zemo definitely is, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Manhandling, Tranquilizers, Stockholm Syndrome, Gaslighting, Whump, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, PTSD, Emotional Manipulation, Blackmail, Anal Sex, Blow Jobs, Collars, Shock Collar, Humiliation, Wet & Messy, HYDRA Trash Party Adjacent, Gangbang, Bondage, Gags, EKO Scorpion Sokovian Military Squad, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Dehumanization

Word Count: 101k+

Link: Devil to Pay

[meowierz]

"Is that a vehicle" how old are you man 😭

It's a frozen treat of some kind

You don't get out much, do you?

I am quite old though I'm only 21 in human years so that's not the reason. I just only eat certain foods, I haven't expanded my eating habits yet since I intend on leaving soon.

Also no...I don't get out much...

[blubushie]

Delighted by your willingness to overshare on tumblr unprompted! Whats your SSN btw :3

605060493

[bbbigforehead]

ok i try to post my hyper indulgent oc art again

[thestarmaker]

How about you suck my fat fucking nuts?

[findher-ogg]

I think Piper Wright Fallout 4 is one of those characters who's good in theory but not in practice. I was thinking about her as a character in relation to her setting and I genuinely think her archetype would be better suited to the NCR than it is to the Commonwealth.

Which I think comes down to how Bethesda handles their games, environment and attitude wise, as opposed to Black Isle and Obsidian. The West coast has basically recovered. New Vegas is a tourist attraction. The NCR are on a rapid tirade of imperialist expansion that's only achievable because they, as a nation, have recovered from the war and grown from it. If you compare Shady Sands in Fallout 1 to Diamond City in Fallout 4, its kind of funny. Shady Sands started out with decent houses made from dirt, with solid foundation and some of them having actual windows. The average settlement in Bethesda Fallout (like Diamond City or Megaton), meanwhile, are just shanty towns made from tin.

In the Commonwealth's case this is made even more insane by the fact that Fenway Park (where Diamond City is located) is surrounded by mostly intact houses that, with a bit of fixer-uppering, could be lived in relatively normally compared to the tin shacks of Diamond City. I think Megaton gets more of a pass because the Capital Wasteland got nuked to shit, but you get me.

Returning to Piper for a second, let's take a look at her character: she's a spunky, somewhat annoying character who's very invested in the freedom of the press and so forth. She's got a working printing press and everything, which is super impressive considering how run-down the rest of Diamond City is aside from the Valentine Detective Agency signs (seriously, where did they find the materials for those). She runs Publick Occurences solo with her sister, and it's all well and good. Ignoring the witch hunts she sends people on about synths.

And I get it. I think this specific gripe with Piper as a character comes from having played this game for the first time in 2024. The synths don't really hold up as an allegory for anything, and the entire story surrounding them is very "trying to be progressive in 2014". Which is fine, I think it is just a symptom of the era the game came out in, but still.

Piper's character, as a spunky yet annoying journalist who believes the people deserve to know what's going on, would be far better suited in a more developed location on the West coast -- specifically, Freeside or somewhere within the NCR.

I think Piper would suit the Followers of the Apocalypse, for example, serving as an informant to keep them in the know about what's going on between the Strip, the NCR and the regular Freesiders. Plus, having a funny, anarchist-themed newspaper you can receive in-game where she touts her hatred for the Securitron police force is a funny mental image. Equally, I think she'd suit living in Shady Sands -- right at the heart of the NCR's seediest political manouvres as the decisions are made. Imagine her as a journalist who frequently pushes back against the Mojave expansion, for example, and how the NCR is putting too many resources into a lost cause instead of more important things like healthcare or housing. That way, you could still keep her extreme hatred for the upper class in The Stands while making it make more sense within the setting.

Leading on from this, this made me realise how Bethesda also just aren't very deliberate with how they utilise history in their games. Which makes sense, to a certain extent, given how destroyed absolutely everything on the East coast is. But still. It's a little stupid.

The core conflict of New Vegas -- the Legion vs the NCR -- is actually a really deep-cut history reference at its core. The NCR is the Bear, the Legion is the Bull. In mid-19th century California, people watched bears and bulls fight for fun.

There are other, better examples, I'm sure. But I'm British and this is my personal favourite example, so this is what I'm using. History plays such an important part of New Vegas' themes and messaging -- it's a story about how, when, and why humanity needs to move on from the past and look towards the future.

Bethesda Fallout, by comparison, will frequently and shallowly tout "nukes bad" while letting Liberty Prime lob them at Super Mutants, or encouraging players to nuke each other's houses in Fallout 76.

Piper exists partially as a nod to the Boston Herald, and how it's one of the longest-running/most influential newspapers in America. A lot of publishing has its roots within Boston, and I think it's an interesting reference to take.

And I think this is a part of Fallout that Bethesda does get -- a lot of what people do in the post-war world is inspired by what came before. Caesar's Legion and its ideologies come from Edward Sallow not understanding basic Roman history properly and using it to fuel his agenda because it looks cool. The Minutemen are exactly that. The New California Republic are the new US government, right down to the borderline facist intentions and ideologies. I could go on.

And this comes from Fallout being a series about the cyclical nature of violence. "War never changes, but men do through the roads they walk" is the story here. War cannot change if men do not change, because war exists in an endless cycle of violence that can only be broken if man chooses to break it. And they've failed at it so far, right?

And this is where I go back to Piper. Her nod to history isn't as intentional as anything in New Vegas, and I feel like she would have been better served as a character if she was in New Vegas instead. Because her entire character would make more sense if she was living in the more developed and rebuilt towns of the West coast as opposed to a dilapidated shanty town on the East.

I have more thoughts about this but tl;dr Bethesda should really put more effort into making sure their history references and homages make sense to the setting contextually, in the same way that New Vegas does. That game was developed in 18 months and still has far more care put into its historical references than Fallout 4 does. And I love Fallout 4.

[stylinsoncity]

hi! i know it's been a little while. just popping on to say i'm here and i'm okay! ty for bearing with me.. i appreciate all your patience and the kind messages i've received over the last few months.

i think the combination of seasonal depression in the first few months of the year and the state of the U.S. under t*ump has fully nuked my brain. i've been in survival mode the last several months. i'm napping a lot. doomscrolling. trying to do mindless fun things like gaming or watching films, shows, etc. reading when my adhd will let me. spending as much time with friends and family as possible. i haven't been doing much writing in any capacity.

for the first time, i feel less than optimistic about the reality of finishing my wips. i've always been committed to finishing things i started and i've always trusted that the words and the motivation and energy will come to me even if it takes a while. and for the first time, i worry they won't. but that doesn't mean i'm giving up.

i'm pivoting to just writing what i can, even if it's not my best... maybe i'll try writing less smut since that tends to take the longest for me to write for some reason. i'm sorry in advance for smut scenes fading to black before things really get going lol... i'm going back through all my drafts and seeing where i can condense things. i'm anxious about what that will look like but i also know it will be a relief to just get chapters out there and complete things, even if they aren't perfect.

i've marked 'till the end of time' complete for now bc i just don't see myself posting more of that this year. i think it's also safe to say the a/b/o wip probably isn't happening anymore D': but i'm going to focus as much strength and energy as possible on finishing pennington park, thrill and the last chapter of notes on oxford this year.

i know it's difficult and i'm so sorry but pls continue to have patience w me! i'm still here and i'm doing my best and i really really hope to publish something soon.

[lordnightwatcher]

You're telling me this dude was supposed to be wearing A LAMB MASK

Whole time, thought he wearing a bunny mask, no it was a lamb mask

Jay jst built different 🤧 (don't nuke me bro pls I can't be the only one that thought he was wearing a bunny mask)

[kirra-qween115]

Hey y'all so my previous blog wasn't nuked but my old phone totally broke and I don't remember the email so NEW BLOG!! If you recognize me pls follow ^^

[kenyizsuartblog]

LoL - Skarner Is Right

"Oh man, I wonder if I'll draw other champions from this game later down the line"

<proceeds to have an idea that requires half the goddamn roster>

Famous last words, huh?

Real talk, delete that last sentence from the final paragraph of Skarner's bio:

"The only one Skarner can trust is himself, and he'll do anything it takes to protect Ixtal and its people. Even if that means becoming the root of their destruction, himself."

And his "destructive paranoia" immediately gets downgraded to "fully reasonable and healthy paranoia". I bet I haven't even pictured a fifth of all the insane bull-- going on outside of Ixtal, and half of the things on the pic would be enough for me to vote for eternal isolation, thanks.

This was a lot of fun to put together, even if it took a bit longer than I would have hoped. I ended up reading and/or listening to quite a few lore bits, all of which I really enjoyed... and my god, the story of Nasus and Renekton just nuked my heart. I want the god-warrior bros to make up and live happily ever after! I don't even care what happens to Azir and Shurima in the background, I want the brothers to get a happy ending, pls, Riot!!

So what's the lesson to learn from all this? #SkarnerIsRight

Other LoL-related works

Skarner sketchdump 24-04-03-06

2024.04.13

[straybull3t]

Postal doeee!!!! Yep!!!!! Yipeee!! :33

I can't look at this drawing anymore because I just spend hours correcting small strokes and if I look one more second I'll find more.....so pls don't nuke me thank u 🤓

Reference!!!!!!