#dory and i talk about the attempted reheteroing of dr m rodney mckay all the time lmao

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Thinking about McShep again. Thinking about the season 4 finale. Thinking about how things fall apart in season 5. Thinking about how John thought he needed to let Rodney go be with Keller because that's what future!Rodney did, completely missing the fact that it only happened because John was gone. Because one of the main pillars of John's character is his self-loathing, so of course he would interpret it as being in the way. And even though John is resolved to let Rodney go it's still so hard for him that he struggles to do it cleanly throughout all of season 5. Thinking about the sad tension in their relationship after the season 4 finale. Thinking about how they still lean on each other in important moments even with the new awkward distance between them. Thinking about McShep again.